Disclaimer: I don't own any of the songs that I'm going to use. *prolonged sigh* I don't own BtVS. *lip starts trembling* I don't *tears streaming down face* own *sobbing hysterically* Spike! This goes for all future chapters cause I just can't go through it again!
Thanks to spikaholic101 for being such a great pen friend and basketball-slayer for encouraging me to write more of this type of fic (I can't really call it a songfic cause the lyrics aren't mine). This is for you, guys!
The song used is Everybody's Fool by Evanescence (actual lyrics in italics/quotes - italics don't always upload correctly). William is thinking about Cecily as he runs away from the party where she rejected him (just before he meets Dru).
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Rejected
She was the one. The only one. I gave my heart to her and I would have given my life for her as well.
With three words she destroyed my world.
"You're beneath me."
I couldn't believe what I was hearing.
"Perfect by nature"That as what I considered you to be. Beautiful and kind. Not one of the
"icons of self indulgence"
filling our society. I thought you were above that, Cecily.
"Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be"
By spurning me you showed me the truth. This world has no place for someone like me, with hardly any money and no position. If this is what the rules of this world are like I'll not live by them – I'll make my own.
"Have you no shame" ?You would willingly befriend someone you considered socially worthwhile.
"Don't you see me" ?I laid my heart at your feet – and you stepped on it.
"You know you've got everybody fooled"But now I see you for what you truly are.
I remember the thoughts going through my head every time I saw you.
"Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder"
You enjoyed hearing all the young men who knew you say
"Oh how we love you"and you would smile shyly in acknowledgement. There are
"no flaws when you're pretending"
to be the adorable girl everyone takes you for. Darling Cecily.
"but now I know she
never was and never will be"
the woman I pictured her to be. The woman I loved.
"You don't know how you've betrayed me"You tore up the idea of you that I cherished. Yet still
"somehow you've got everybody fooled"
You won't be able to trick everyone forever.
"Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie"
I doubt I'll be the last to whom you will reveal your true nature.
"I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore"
There is nothing more to be said.
"It never was and never will be"You were my end – in more ways than one.
"You're not real and you can't save me"No one can save me from falling into this abyss. But I will do everything in my power to drag you down with me.
"Somehow now you're everybody's fool"By your hand the two of us are damned.
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Hehehe, I couldn't resist giving William one last line of poetry at the end.
How was that for chapter 1? Please let me know if you liked this! (^-^)