Never had a chance
Author: Moggie
Rating: PG
Category: Angst
Spoilers: SDD, PwF
Summary: She knew she didn't have a chance, so didn't stop everyone else from doing what she couldn't.
Disclaimer: I do not own CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
Chapter1
~ Present ~
"You can't." Sara interrupted with tears forming in her eyes.
She stopped her excitement with a surprised gasp. "What! Why?"
"Because. I'm in love with him." Sara looked down, ashamed at her admission.
Jessie shook her head. "You can't be. You said I should go for it. This was your idea."
"I know." Sara breathed.
Completely shocked, Jessie asked. "Why didn't you say something?"
"Because. I wouldn't have a chance." She shrugged sadly and walked away.
Jessie watched her friend leave in tears. She knew Sara felt something for her boss, she had for years, but nothing had ever come of it and guessed she wasn't interested anymore. Obviously it was more than that.
~ Four Months One Week ~
~ Three Months Ago ~
Sara stopped talking when she realised Grissom wasn't listening. "Earth to Grissom." She called, but got no response. Deciding to see what had caught his attention, she moved to stand behind him and instantly saw who, not what, he was looking at.
They had been working in the garage all night and now it was morning. The large doors were open and the sunlight was pouring into the cold concrete room.
Grissom was still captivated by the only thing he could see. 5'6, long brown hair, legs, mini skirt, tight tie-shirt and sandals. Sara's heart was stopped in one breath as she realised what was going on. She'd just witnessed Grissom drooling over another woman, right in front of her and not just any woman, her best friend Jessie. She felt ill at the thought and now she was bound to witness another side to him that she dreamed was directed at her.
"Sara!" Jessie waved. Although it was slow, Grissom turned to Sara briefly before turning back. "Hi." She smiled at Grissom when she reached them.
"Hello." He returned her smile.
"I'm Jessie." She held out her hand to him and Sara turned away. She couldn't stand to watch. "Ready to go Sara?" Jessie asked after a few minutes and small introductions between her and Grissom. Sara was surprised he managed to speak without hesitation. She seemed to get hesitation and it was never in the soft tone he used just then. Could a heart sink any further? She sighed and walked over to the table to get her coat.
Grissom watched them leave and was surprised that Sara hadn't said anything when she left. She didn't say goodbye or press the fact that he didn't hear a thing she said. She seemed to blank him completely. He didn't think he did anything wrong to upset her, nothing that came to mind.
Jessie hung onto Sara's arm as they walked down the path towards the mall. They went inside and started shopping, something Sara hated, but she needed a few things and didn't see why she shouldn't look around. Jessie was trying on nearly everything in the store when she shouted over the door to Sara with a question and a name mixed together.
"He's cute that Gil Grissom. Is he seeing anyone?"
Sara wanted to scream and make sure everyone knew that Grissom was not to be approached because he was taken, but the only thing that stopped her was. she didn't have a chance, so she answered her friend.
"No, he's single." Sara sat down and stared at the mirror in front of her. She could see why she was still single and wondered why Grissom hadn't found someone. He was handsome, cute, smart and funny. Everyone knew he went on dates now and then, but nothing much was known about them. The only thing that everyone knew about and was still circling the lab, was him and a certain dominatrix. Sighing heavily, she turned away from the mirror and waited for Jessie.
"I might see what he's doing on Friday." Jessie mused as she left the cubicle and looked at herself in the mirror. "What do you think?"
Sara nodded and gave her best approval smile. "I like it."
Jessie grinned and turned to look at her. "So, about Friday.Grissom, me and the word date?"
Looking away briefly and against her own feelings, she nodded. "Go for it." Jessie bought the dress she was wearing and had it bagged. On the way home that afternoon, Sara was subjected to the plans Jessie made for Friday and then asked for Grissom's phone number. She just sat back and tried to ignore the jealousy and fear that she had lost her three-year battle with her feelings and the war with her heart was almost over.
Grissom was in his office that Friday night before shift. Sara knew he wasn't on the roster and figured he'd come in for something, but that idea was shot down when she saw him in suit trousers and a white shirt. He picked up his suit jacket and slipped it on. She knew he couldn't be going to court and there was only one other place she could think off and that thought seemed to burn the final bits of hope left inside her. She'd lost both battle and war in one week and she did nothing but encourage it.
Like many times before, she sat back and watched. She did what every friend was supposed to do, which was to show support. For two weeks she listened to Jessie talking about Grissom and by the fourth week, she managed to listen but be elsewhere at the same time. It was hard enough knowing your best friend was seeing the man you love, but to hear about it day after day in detail was getting to be too much.
Author: Moggie
Rating: PG
Category: Angst
Spoilers: SDD, PwF
Summary: She knew she didn't have a chance, so didn't stop everyone else from doing what she couldn't.
Disclaimer: I do not own CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
Chapter1
~ Present ~
"You can't." Sara interrupted with tears forming in her eyes.
She stopped her excitement with a surprised gasp. "What! Why?"
"Because. I'm in love with him." Sara looked down, ashamed at her admission.
Jessie shook her head. "You can't be. You said I should go for it. This was your idea."
"I know." Sara breathed.
Completely shocked, Jessie asked. "Why didn't you say something?"
"Because. I wouldn't have a chance." She shrugged sadly and walked away.
Jessie watched her friend leave in tears. She knew Sara felt something for her boss, she had for years, but nothing had ever come of it and guessed she wasn't interested anymore. Obviously it was more than that.
~ Four Months One Week ~
~ Three Months Ago ~
Sara stopped talking when she realised Grissom wasn't listening. "Earth to Grissom." She called, but got no response. Deciding to see what had caught his attention, she moved to stand behind him and instantly saw who, not what, he was looking at.
They had been working in the garage all night and now it was morning. The large doors were open and the sunlight was pouring into the cold concrete room.
Grissom was still captivated by the only thing he could see. 5'6, long brown hair, legs, mini skirt, tight tie-shirt and sandals. Sara's heart was stopped in one breath as she realised what was going on. She'd just witnessed Grissom drooling over another woman, right in front of her and not just any woman, her best friend Jessie. She felt ill at the thought and now she was bound to witness another side to him that she dreamed was directed at her.
"Sara!" Jessie waved. Although it was slow, Grissom turned to Sara briefly before turning back. "Hi." She smiled at Grissom when she reached them.
"Hello." He returned her smile.
"I'm Jessie." She held out her hand to him and Sara turned away. She couldn't stand to watch. "Ready to go Sara?" Jessie asked after a few minutes and small introductions between her and Grissom. Sara was surprised he managed to speak without hesitation. She seemed to get hesitation and it was never in the soft tone he used just then. Could a heart sink any further? She sighed and walked over to the table to get her coat.
Grissom watched them leave and was surprised that Sara hadn't said anything when she left. She didn't say goodbye or press the fact that he didn't hear a thing she said. She seemed to blank him completely. He didn't think he did anything wrong to upset her, nothing that came to mind.
Jessie hung onto Sara's arm as they walked down the path towards the mall. They went inside and started shopping, something Sara hated, but she needed a few things and didn't see why she shouldn't look around. Jessie was trying on nearly everything in the store when she shouted over the door to Sara with a question and a name mixed together.
"He's cute that Gil Grissom. Is he seeing anyone?"
Sara wanted to scream and make sure everyone knew that Grissom was not to be approached because he was taken, but the only thing that stopped her was. she didn't have a chance, so she answered her friend.
"No, he's single." Sara sat down and stared at the mirror in front of her. She could see why she was still single and wondered why Grissom hadn't found someone. He was handsome, cute, smart and funny. Everyone knew he went on dates now and then, but nothing much was known about them. The only thing that everyone knew about and was still circling the lab, was him and a certain dominatrix. Sighing heavily, she turned away from the mirror and waited for Jessie.
"I might see what he's doing on Friday." Jessie mused as she left the cubicle and looked at herself in the mirror. "What do you think?"
Sara nodded and gave her best approval smile. "I like it."
Jessie grinned and turned to look at her. "So, about Friday.Grissom, me and the word date?"
Looking away briefly and against her own feelings, she nodded. "Go for it." Jessie bought the dress she was wearing and had it bagged. On the way home that afternoon, Sara was subjected to the plans Jessie made for Friday and then asked for Grissom's phone number. She just sat back and tried to ignore the jealousy and fear that she had lost her three-year battle with her feelings and the war with her heart was almost over.
Grissom was in his office that Friday night before shift. Sara knew he wasn't on the roster and figured he'd come in for something, but that idea was shot down when she saw him in suit trousers and a white shirt. He picked up his suit jacket and slipped it on. She knew he couldn't be going to court and there was only one other place she could think off and that thought seemed to burn the final bits of hope left inside her. She'd lost both battle and war in one week and she did nothing but encourage it.
Like many times before, she sat back and watched. She did what every friend was supposed to do, which was to show support. For two weeks she listened to Jessie talking about Grissom and by the fourth week, she managed to listen but be elsewhere at the same time. It was hard enough knowing your best friend was seeing the man you love, but to hear about it day after day in detail was getting to be too much.