Title: Bring me to life
Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS Or Angel, all belong to and reserved Joss Weddon
Rating R to NC-17
Beta: Maribel, and BrownEye Helped me along the line!!! And SpikeAngel1 helped me a million times
Also Note Songs that are in this story are from Evanescence, Kasey Chamber's, and Vitimam C. And The Graudtion, Speach half from NBK! And Some Part's from BTVS!! You'll see.,
Author Note: NC-17 part's can be found at my site! http://www.geocities.com/strangegirl53/
Also Note Chapter 16- 20 are mostly smut!!
*******Chapter 20
Spike's eyes opened softly. He rolled over and felt a warm body lying next to his. He saw Buffy still asleep with a smile playing at her lips. There was something in her face that made him frown.
"Mmm, this is a very nice way to wake up," she mumbled softly. Spike got out of bed quickly. When Buffy sat up she looked at him as he grabbed his pants and started slipping them on. She pulled the sheets up to cover her nude body.
"What's wrong?" She asked noticing his expression.
"What's wrong? What's wrong? I'll tell you what's wrong! Do you have any idea what we did last night?" He nearly shouted.
"Yeah, we made love." She gave a slight smile but it faded when she saw a familiar look on his face.
"It was just sex, Buffy. That's all," he stated pulling his shirt on over his head and slipping into his boots. "It's not your fault. It was mine. I was too damn upset and I just needed someone to take comfort in. I think I would have slept with any girl tonight." Buffy had tears of hurt slipping down her face. He couldn't see it but this was tearing her up inside. This is what he must have felt like, this is what she did to him. But this time he was doing it to her and it hurt so much more.
"Please leave," She whispered firmly.
"Buffy," Spike sighed.
"No, Spike! No! I'm tired of this! I mean you want me or you don't. I'm sick and tired of being second string." She finally snapped.
"Luv."
"No! Don't call me love! Don't act like you care, because you don't! You don't know how to care or love anyone else beside yourself. You're a pig, Spike. And I hate to say it, I really do but I'm glad your mother isn't alive to see what you've become." She spat bitterly.
"Well at least my mother has a reason for not being around! Your mother on the other hand didn't even want to see you! I can't believe you still think she really works 24 hours a day. The truth is she doesn't want to look at you. She told my father you were just a mistake! And another thing, I know about you sending your mum letters and never hearing a word from her! And your dad didn't want to see you either, that's why he leaved you at some boarding school! Your mum said if she had the money she would have left you there. And Angel was the same way! He didn't want you around either." Spike fumed. "And I hate to say it, I really do, but I wish you'd never came back," he said coldly.
Buffy frowned, she didn't say anything. What could she say? She started putting on her clothes. Spike frowned at her expression and let his words seep through him.
"Oh god. Buffy, I didn't mean it." He said, tears burning in his eyes.
"You know? You're right! It's true my parents hate me. My ex-boyfriend hated me, even the guy I thought was my best friend hates me! The only person that meant anything to me hates me. I guess I am really alone, aren't I?" she whispered. "Don't worry, I'm gone. Consider me out of your life." Spike froze at her words.
"You know the way out." She said leaving her room for the bathroom. She felt like she'd been torn in half and didn't understand anything anymore. She heard footsteps go downstairs and she let herself go. She broke down and sarted crying. She completely broke down.
********* A few days later
School came and went. Her normal classes went by so fast, she didn't really notice. She did everything to keep her mind off Spike. She saw him a few times passing by between classes. He was usually with a few of his guy friends and sometimes with a few girls.
"I have a great idea! Let's Bronze tonight" Willow cheerfully spoke up, noticing Buffy's changes in behavior. "It could be fun. A night of dancing and acting really silly. Because you know after this we can't be silly teenagers, anymore."
"Yeah, it's weird. It's like after high school we're adults," Xander also said. All of them nodded and Buffy gave her best fake smile.
"So, before high school ends let's just be silly!" Buffy cheered on looking at Spike. "Because like it or not... high school's almost over."
************The Bronze
Well the planned sucked, yet again. Buffy ended up sitting alone at the table watching Oz and Willow and Xander and Anya having a good time. Dancing around, having their silly time while she brooded. She frowned and looked down to play with her drink straw.
"Why are you so sad? A pretty girl like you should be smiling." A guy said taking a sit next to Buffy. "I'm Scott Hope." He introduced himself.
"Buffy Summers." She offered her hand. He smiled and shook it. "Why aren't you out there having a good time?" She asked.
"Don't know. Saw you here and thought a girl like you shouldn't be alone." He looked down. "Look your drink is almost gone. How about I buy you the next one and you pay me with a dance?" She nodded and he smiled and walked off to the bar. After a few minutes, he came back with two drinks.
"Is this beer?" Buffy asked.
"Yeah, beer and a Dr. Pepper," he smiled and Buffy smiled back and drank it. Wasn't that much beer but she had promise Spike she wouldn't drink.
But Spike wasn't here. 'Or...was he?' She thought.
"Want to dance?" he asked.
"Sure."
They got to the dance floor and started dancing as a slow song came on. And Scott's hands were all over her body. She was about to say something but...
"Can I cut in?" Angel asked quickly. Buffy sighed in relief as Scott walked away, leaving Buffy to dance with Angel. They danced for about two songs until all she really wanted to do was to be home and alone.
"I think I'm going to head out," Buffy shouted into Angel's ear so he could hear what she had just said. He nodded and led the way.
"I'll walk you" Angel said taking her hand.
Buffy shrugged "Whatever."
*******
"Angel, you didn't have to walk me home. I'm fine," She said stumbling in her high heels. Angel looked at her before he leaned in and kissed her. She should have stopped there but his lips were nice and warm. Although, it was nothing like Spike's hot kisses. Angel wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. She wrapped her arms around her neck as his hands were running inside the back of her shirt. He grinned to
himself against her.
"I want you," Angel whispered kissing her neck. "Let's go upstairs." She could go upstairs with Angel and sleep with him and show how she was over Spike and that she could move on. But she felt if she did this she would betray Spike and for some reason she couldn't, no matter how bad he had hurt her.
"Angel stop," she frowned pushing herself away from him. "I can't do this. I'm sorry. I just can't, things are different now."
"Because of Spike, right?" Angel said backing off. Buffy wrapped her arms around herself and nodded she looked down and then looked up.
"I love him," Buffy said, tears stinging her eyes. Angel nodded and kissed Buffy's check. When he left, she smiled and walked upstairs. She didn't bother turning on the lights. She pulled her shirt over her head and threw it on the ground. Then, she saw someone sitting in the dark.
"Spike! What are you doing here? And sitting in the dark?" she asked grabbing a shirt from her drawer.
"Have fun tonight?" He asked ignoring her question.
"Sort of," Buffy said slipping on her shirt.
"So, Angel and you looked pretty hot out there," He said. There was a slight tone of hurt in his voice.
"Were you spying on me?" She snapped.
"No. I came to talk to you."
"The thing where you look at me without me knowing is called spying! And I don't like being spied on! Plus, why do you care what happens between Angel and me? It's not like you care who I date, let alone who I sleep with." She said coldly.
"You know Summers, be with Angel. I don't care. There are plenty of girls I can have! And for the record our little night together wasn't your best."
"Spike," she whispered. He didn't pay attention, he just took off down the stairs and headed for a few drinks at the Bronze.
********* Meanwhile at the Bronze
"Harris, where the hell are you? Anya said looking around. She searched everywhere and couldn't find him. She went up to the balcony to see if she could find him. But when she got up there she was shocked to see Xander in a heated kiss with his ex girlfriend and her cousin Cordelia.
"Xander," she whispered as Xander pulled away from Cordelia and saw the hurt in Anya's eyes.
"Anya it wasn't... I mean... let me explain! Because I can explain this!" he began but she walked over to him and slapped him right across the face. Xander tried to touch her but she jerked away from his touch.
"Don't touch me! I can't look at you right now." She cried walking down the steps. She wanted to leave the Bronze fast before anyone could see her. She finally made it to the parking lot when she bumped into someone.
"Bloody hell! Anya can't you watch where you walk?" she didn't say anything as Spike looked at her. "Is something wrong?" he asked. She simply nodded. "Do you want to talk about it?" she nodded again. "Not here," she nodded once again. "No one's home. We can chat there, let's go."
They both walked to his car and drove to his house that was indeed empty.
Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS Or Angel, all belong to and reserved Joss Weddon
Rating R to NC-17
Beta: Maribel, and BrownEye Helped me along the line!!! And SpikeAngel1 helped me a million times
Also Note Songs that are in this story are from Evanescence, Kasey Chamber's, and Vitimam C. And The Graudtion, Speach half from NBK! And Some Part's from BTVS!! You'll see.,
Author Note: NC-17 part's can be found at my site! http://www.geocities.com/strangegirl53/
Also Note Chapter 16- 20 are mostly smut!!
*******Chapter 20
Spike's eyes opened softly. He rolled over and felt a warm body lying next to his. He saw Buffy still asleep with a smile playing at her lips. There was something in her face that made him frown.
"Mmm, this is a very nice way to wake up," she mumbled softly. Spike got out of bed quickly. When Buffy sat up she looked at him as he grabbed his pants and started slipping them on. She pulled the sheets up to cover her nude body.
"What's wrong?" She asked noticing his expression.
"What's wrong? What's wrong? I'll tell you what's wrong! Do you have any idea what we did last night?" He nearly shouted.
"Yeah, we made love." She gave a slight smile but it faded when she saw a familiar look on his face.
"It was just sex, Buffy. That's all," he stated pulling his shirt on over his head and slipping into his boots. "It's not your fault. It was mine. I was too damn upset and I just needed someone to take comfort in. I think I would have slept with any girl tonight." Buffy had tears of hurt slipping down her face. He couldn't see it but this was tearing her up inside. This is what he must have felt like, this is what she did to him. But this time he was doing it to her and it hurt so much more.
"Please leave," She whispered firmly.
"Buffy," Spike sighed.
"No, Spike! No! I'm tired of this! I mean you want me or you don't. I'm sick and tired of being second string." She finally snapped.
"Luv."
"No! Don't call me love! Don't act like you care, because you don't! You don't know how to care or love anyone else beside yourself. You're a pig, Spike. And I hate to say it, I really do but I'm glad your mother isn't alive to see what you've become." She spat bitterly.
"Well at least my mother has a reason for not being around! Your mother on the other hand didn't even want to see you! I can't believe you still think she really works 24 hours a day. The truth is she doesn't want to look at you. She told my father you were just a mistake! And another thing, I know about you sending your mum letters and never hearing a word from her! And your dad didn't want to see you either, that's why he leaved you at some boarding school! Your mum said if she had the money she would have left you there. And Angel was the same way! He didn't want you around either." Spike fumed. "And I hate to say it, I really do, but I wish you'd never came back," he said coldly.
Buffy frowned, she didn't say anything. What could she say? She started putting on her clothes. Spike frowned at her expression and let his words seep through him.
"Oh god. Buffy, I didn't mean it." He said, tears burning in his eyes.
"You know? You're right! It's true my parents hate me. My ex-boyfriend hated me, even the guy I thought was my best friend hates me! The only person that meant anything to me hates me. I guess I am really alone, aren't I?" she whispered. "Don't worry, I'm gone. Consider me out of your life." Spike froze at her words.
"You know the way out." She said leaving her room for the bathroom. She felt like she'd been torn in half and didn't understand anything anymore. She heard footsteps go downstairs and she let herself go. She broke down and sarted crying. She completely broke down.
********* A few days later
School came and went. Her normal classes went by so fast, she didn't really notice. She did everything to keep her mind off Spike. She saw him a few times passing by between classes. He was usually with a few of his guy friends and sometimes with a few girls.
"I have a great idea! Let's Bronze tonight" Willow cheerfully spoke up, noticing Buffy's changes in behavior. "It could be fun. A night of dancing and acting really silly. Because you know after this we can't be silly teenagers, anymore."
"Yeah, it's weird. It's like after high school we're adults," Xander also said. All of them nodded and Buffy gave her best fake smile.
"So, before high school ends let's just be silly!" Buffy cheered on looking at Spike. "Because like it or not... high school's almost over."
************The Bronze
Well the planned sucked, yet again. Buffy ended up sitting alone at the table watching Oz and Willow and Xander and Anya having a good time. Dancing around, having their silly time while she brooded. She frowned and looked down to play with her drink straw.
"Why are you so sad? A pretty girl like you should be smiling." A guy said taking a sit next to Buffy. "I'm Scott Hope." He introduced himself.
"Buffy Summers." She offered her hand. He smiled and shook it. "Why aren't you out there having a good time?" She asked.
"Don't know. Saw you here and thought a girl like you shouldn't be alone." He looked down. "Look your drink is almost gone. How about I buy you the next one and you pay me with a dance?" She nodded and he smiled and walked off to the bar. After a few minutes, he came back with two drinks.
"Is this beer?" Buffy asked.
"Yeah, beer and a Dr. Pepper," he smiled and Buffy smiled back and drank it. Wasn't that much beer but she had promise Spike she wouldn't drink.
But Spike wasn't here. 'Or...was he?' She thought.
"Want to dance?" he asked.
"Sure."
They got to the dance floor and started dancing as a slow song came on. And Scott's hands were all over her body. She was about to say something but...
"Can I cut in?" Angel asked quickly. Buffy sighed in relief as Scott walked away, leaving Buffy to dance with Angel. They danced for about two songs until all she really wanted to do was to be home and alone.
"I think I'm going to head out," Buffy shouted into Angel's ear so he could hear what she had just said. He nodded and led the way.
"I'll walk you" Angel said taking her hand.
Buffy shrugged "Whatever."
*******
"Angel, you didn't have to walk me home. I'm fine," She said stumbling in her high heels. Angel looked at her before he leaned in and kissed her. She should have stopped there but his lips were nice and warm. Although, it was nothing like Spike's hot kisses. Angel wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. She wrapped her arms around her neck as his hands were running inside the back of her shirt. He grinned to
himself against her.
"I want you," Angel whispered kissing her neck. "Let's go upstairs." She could go upstairs with Angel and sleep with him and show how she was over Spike and that she could move on. But she felt if she did this she would betray Spike and for some reason she couldn't, no matter how bad he had hurt her.
"Angel stop," she frowned pushing herself away from him. "I can't do this. I'm sorry. I just can't, things are different now."
"Because of Spike, right?" Angel said backing off. Buffy wrapped her arms around herself and nodded she looked down and then looked up.
"I love him," Buffy said, tears stinging her eyes. Angel nodded and kissed Buffy's check. When he left, she smiled and walked upstairs. She didn't bother turning on the lights. She pulled her shirt over her head and threw it on the ground. Then, she saw someone sitting in the dark.
"Spike! What are you doing here? And sitting in the dark?" she asked grabbing a shirt from her drawer.
"Have fun tonight?" He asked ignoring her question.
"Sort of," Buffy said slipping on her shirt.
"So, Angel and you looked pretty hot out there," He said. There was a slight tone of hurt in his voice.
"Were you spying on me?" She snapped.
"No. I came to talk to you."
"The thing where you look at me without me knowing is called spying! And I don't like being spied on! Plus, why do you care what happens between Angel and me? It's not like you care who I date, let alone who I sleep with." She said coldly.
"You know Summers, be with Angel. I don't care. There are plenty of girls I can have! And for the record our little night together wasn't your best."
"Spike," she whispered. He didn't pay attention, he just took off down the stairs and headed for a few drinks at the Bronze.
********* Meanwhile at the Bronze
"Harris, where the hell are you? Anya said looking around. She searched everywhere and couldn't find him. She went up to the balcony to see if she could find him. But when she got up there she was shocked to see Xander in a heated kiss with his ex girlfriend and her cousin Cordelia.
"Xander," she whispered as Xander pulled away from Cordelia and saw the hurt in Anya's eyes.
"Anya it wasn't... I mean... let me explain! Because I can explain this!" he began but she walked over to him and slapped him right across the face. Xander tried to touch her but she jerked away from his touch.
"Don't touch me! I can't look at you right now." She cried walking down the steps. She wanted to leave the Bronze fast before anyone could see her. She finally made it to the parking lot when she bumped into someone.
"Bloody hell! Anya can't you watch where you walk?" she didn't say anything as Spike looked at her. "Is something wrong?" he asked. She simply nodded. "Do you want to talk about it?" she nodded again. "Not here," she nodded once again. "No one's home. We can chat there, let's go."
They both walked to his car and drove to his house that was indeed empty.