Title: Bring me to life
Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS Or Angel, all belong to and reserved Joss Weddon
Rating R to NC-17
Beta: Maribel, and BrownEye Helped me along the line!!! And SpikeAngel1 helped me a million times
Also Note Songs that are in this story are from Evanescence, Kasey Chamber's, and Vitimam C. And The Graudtion, Speach half from NBK! And Some Part's from BTVS!! You'll see.,
Author Note: NC-17 part's can be found at my site! http://www.geocities.com/strangegirl53/
Also Note Chapter 16- 20 are mostly smut!!
Chapter 23
**********The Night Of Prom
Buffy stood in front of the mirror. Her long pink dress was twisting and turning all around her, her hair was in curls and she looked stunning. She looked great, she had to admit. She looked like a princess, a little smile came upon her face when she remembered this was the night she had been waiting for. The smile quickly vanished from her face as her answering machine went on.
'Buffy? It's mommy. I guess you already left for the prom. I'm sorry I wasn't there to see you off but things got very busy here...I hope you have a wonderful time! Take pictures for me, love you." Her mother's voice rang through her room.
********Flash Back
"You're leaving again? I mean...it's my prom, mom. Aren't you going to be all mom-like and take pictures or videotape me or anything?" Buffy frowned sitting on her mother's bed while she packed her suitcase.
"Buffy, honey, you know I would like to but...this deal is important, and sadly I might not be back before graduation."
"What? But mom, it's my prom and graduation! How can you not be here?" Buffy blinked the tears that were welling in her eyes.
"I'm so sorry Buffy." Joyce tried to comfort her, placing her hand on her daughter's. Buffy quickly jerked it away.
"You have somebody don't you?" She frowned looking at the plane ticket to England. "And you want to be with him more than with me?" Buffy said in disbelief.
"It's nothing like that, sweetheart" Her mother sighed. "He's just helping me pick out some art. Here, I'll give you this early gift." She handed Buffy a golden box. Buffy opened it and found that it held a heart necklace. "See, there's a picture of you on one of the sides, you can put whomever who fancy in the other side" She smiled, then a honk was heard. "Well, that's my cab. Have an awesome time. I'll call you." She kissed the top of her head and left.
End of flash back
"Yea I'm going to have a wonderful time." Buffy whispered to herself, absentmindedly fingering the necklace. "This is one of the most important nights of my life. Be happy Buffy." She breathed.
She heard the front door bell to her house rang and took in a deep gulp of air. "Happy Buffy. The prom means everything to a girl."
********
Buffy walked into the packed Bronze.
"Wow! The Bronze looks awesome tonight, doesn't it?" Riley shouted over the music. Buffy looked up and just smiled. The Bronze was covered with balloons floating with glitter inside them and streamers hanging all over the place.
"It's beautiful." Buffy agreed.
"You're beautiful." Riley said and kissed her cheek. She smiled as he led her to the dance floor. A slow song started to play and she felt Riley grinding himself against her, his hands moving from her waist to her butt.
'Okay hands, hands in new places!' She shouted, pushing him off her. "I would prefer if you keep you hands off my ass please!" Riley just rolled his eyes as a response. "I'm kind of thirsty, do you mind getting me a
drink?" She asked. He nodded and walked off.
She stood near the wall watching the happy couples dancing and smiling. She couldn't help but wonder that she should be like that.
She saw Will and Oz snuggling, Xander holding Cordelia, and Angel with Darla,(Angel started Darla soon after his break up with Drusilla after catching her with Parker) Drusilla was with Parker. She knitted her brows together as she looked around frantically for a certain blonde.
She spotted Spike standing on the other wall, watching her... but he was not alone. Faith and some other girls were flirting away with him. Her heart ached as she watched him but she quickly shook it off.
Standing there for alone for almost ten minutes, she began to wonder what was taking Riley so long. How long does it take to get a drink? She got tired of waiting and left to look for Riley.
Buffy looked all around but didn't see him. Finally, she decided to use the ladies room. When she got there she saw Harmony and Riley. He had her pressed against the hall, his hands running in her dress, Riley had his tongue down her throat.
Buffy clenched her fists at her side before stalking up to him. She pushed him off of the blonde.
"So this is why it took so long for my drink?" Buffy yelled.
"Buffy! It isn't what it looks like." He tried to explain.
"No? It didn't look like you were making out with Harmony? Must be my eyes. You want her? Have her, I'm leaving!" She started walking away when Riley grabbed her arm violently, making her face him.
"Don't you ever lay a hand on me again!"? She snapped trying to squirm out of his tight grasp.
"Why are you being such a bitch about this? It's nothing big. I was just having a little fun."
"Well, did you even think how I would feel, seeing my prom date making out with another girl?! You jerk!" She bit him on the arm, causing him to yelp in pain and shove her against the wall. Buffy got her breathing under control and ran away as fast as her weak legs could take her.
When she turned the corner, and safely out of sight, she broke down crying. She clutched the wall and slid down the floor and sobbed. She didn't see that somebody else was there until Spike hauled her up by her forearms.
He had heard and saw everything.
"I don't need this Spike. Please...I just want to go home." She whispered looking up at him. "I n-need to get away from here." Buffy whimpered.
Spike cupped her face tenderly with his hands, lifting her head to lock with his eyes.
"Shh Luv. I'm so sorry...Riley's a wanker...h-he doesn't know what he's doing pet. God, if he could just realize how beautiful you are, inside and out..." He whispered lightly, tracing the tear tracks that led down her soft cheeks. He bent down and kissed her forehead.
He grabbed her hands and led her to the dance floor. She wrapped her arms around his neck and her head rested on his chest, with his arms wrapped around her waist.
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
but I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
They danced holding each other for what seemed like hours. Buffy felt warm, safe and happy, she'd missed him so much, she'd missed having his arms wrapped around her and him smoothing her hair and kissing her lips so gently.
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to hear those words from you
Each time I say something
I regret I cry
I don't want to lose you.
But somehow I know that you
will never leave me, yeah.
Buffy heard him whisper. "I'm so sorry."
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
"You're the last person I ever wanted to hurt." Spike continued whispering in her ear.
So stay with me
you look in my eyes and
I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
you're my one true friend
and I never meant to hurt you
He leaned down and kissed her lips gently, letting his tongue slip into her mouth. She accepted it with a moan. He held her even more tightly.
Flash Back
"Spike..." Anya cried out in pleasure, the table making noise. The moans and whispers could be heard coming from both of their bodies.
End of Flash Back
Buffy pulled away from him instantly. Spike looked at her and saw a tear streak on her rosy cheeks.
"Buffy?" He asked in concern.
"I'm sorry Spike...I-I...can't do this. Not after what you did with Anya." She whispered and left him alone on the dance floor.
Buffy ran into the parking lot, tears spilling down her face. She felt someone grab her arm.
"Spike, I told you-" She began to say but she was surprised to see Riley's cold stare instead. "Riley! Ouch! You're hurting me, let go!" Buffy screamed as his fingers pushed violently into her upper arms.
"Oh... so it's Spike that you've been panting for! That little punk! He's nothing compared to me Buffy! I can show you a good time..." He smirked slamming her into the Bronze's alley. Riley smiled as his hands ran up her dress, grabbing her thigh.
She flinched at his harsh movements. She whimpered when he slammed her harder against the brick wall.
"Riley stop!" She cried, trying to push him off her. He was too strong. "Let go of me! Please Riley!"
He pressed himself against her even harder and smiled. He tried to kiss her lips but Buffy turned her head away from him. He kissed her neck harshly, grabbed her thighs harder and then she felt one of his hands leaving her body. She heard a zipper being pulled down and panicked.
"Riley stop, stop, stop!!" Buffy screamed, crying harder. "I'm going to scream!"
He slapped her hard across the face, leaving an ugly mark. She whimpered more. He grabbed her hair and threw her on the ground in a muddy puddle. She looked up at him. His zipper was down, he was pulling his shirt from his pants.
"Riley, stay away from me!" She tried crawling away, knowing her dress was dirty. Riley smirked and stalked over towards her, an evil grin planted firmly on his lips.
She knew this was it as he grabbed a piece of material from the front of her dress and ripped it, pulling her up into a sitting position. She whimpered again as she shut her eyes, not wanting to look at him.
She waited for him to injure her further but was surprised when she neither heard nor felt nothing. Until-
*BAM!*
Her eyes shot open at the sound of metal hitting a back. She turned her head sorely around to see Faith standing there.
"Hey Ri, I don't think she likes you. But I'm sure Harmony is more than willing to screw you in the bathroom." Faith smirked as Riley rolled over on his back and clumsily stood up.
"Stay out of this Faith!" Riley yelled, angered by the brunette's antics.
"Trust me Riley, I would run." Faith said with a dangerous gleam in her eyes.
"Whatever." Riley said, not sure if he wanted the noise to make people come out. He turned his head sharply to Buffy. "Look at yourself Buffy! Looking like a slut!" He smirked. With one haughty glance he stalked back inside.
Faith rolled her eyes and stuck her hand out to Buffy, who more than willingly accepted it.
Buffy was still in shock from all that just had happened. As Faith helped her stand, she gasped in pain and held her ribs, mumbling an 'ow'. Buffy rolled up one of her sleeves to reveal some dark purple bruises forming, making an outline of Riley's big fingerprints.
"You didn't have to..." Buffy managed to get out, still a little scared and freaked out. "Thank you Faith. Really, thank you." She sniffed.
"No prob." Faith replied coolly.
"Why aren't you inside with all the rest of the happy couples? I mean...how did you know that I was out here?" Buffy asked.
"Well, I saw you leave Spike, and I saw Riley watching you the whole time. He had this crazy look in his eyes." Faith cringed. "And he followed you outside, so I put two and two together." She explained lighting up a cigarette. "You smoke?"
"No...cutting back." Buffy replied. "You didn't have to, I mean save me...I mean you hate me...don't you?"
"I never said I hated you I just thought you were a bitch," she answered honestly.
"Same thing."
"I mean, come on you stole both Angel and Spike from Drusilla by saying you were pregnant and then with the falling down the steps to cover up you'd have an abortion made and you just liking whatever you don't have, being really stuck up and finally for writing 'Faith's a slut' in the bathroom."
"What? None of that happen and I didn't write that. I've been at a boarding school for three years. Spike was my best friend since I was a baby and as for Drusilla she was my best friend, she got Angel drunk and slept with him, even though he was *my* boyfriend. She lied to you Faith, she lies to everyone. Look what happen to Cordelia, she was Drusilla best friend and as for writing that in the bathroom, I bet it was Drusilla, she didn't like the fact that Angel thought you were hotter than her," Buffy softly answered, she couldn't believe Drusilla had been saying those things about her.
"Why?"
"Because Drusilla only cares about herself," she sniffed.
"Got your dress all dirty, need a ride home? This prom really blows, silly me, I thought my prom would be the best night of my life," she laughed.
"I'm on that same boat," she smiled.
"One more thing Buffy."
"Yea."
"I never sleep with Spike. I mean, I wanted to but it seemed that every time we came close, he felt like he was betraying you."
"Oh."
*********
After Faith dropped Buffy off at her house, they chatted for a few hours then Faith had to head home before her mother went sick with worry. Turned out they had way more in common than they would have ever thought, except she found hard to believe Drusilla had said so much crap about her.
After Faith left, Buffy sat on her bed in her empty house, she felt so alone, it was prom night and she was home watching the Lifetime Channel in her pj's. She didn't feel any better, she thought she'd feel better once she'd slept. Finally prom night was over and a new day would begin.
********** During the Night
Buffy was asleep in bed when she felt a warm hand running up and down her bare shoulders. She thought she was dreaming a very good dream. She woke up when she felt someone was in her bed with her. She opened her eyes slowly and saw a shadowlike figure sitting at the end of her bed, then saw a pair of blue eyes staring back at her.
"Spike?" she sat up. She looked at him, his hair was tussled and his eyes were bloodshot. He had blood on his shirt, face, arms and hands. "What did you do?" she asked getting off the bed and turning on the light.
"I...I…I didn't have a place to go," he stuttered. She frowned, she could see his whole body was shaking, she walked over to him and traced her finger all around his face.
"You're cold and hurt. What did you do?"
He laughed. "Crazy party down at the pier, got a little too wild, I took off and I couldn't go home."
"You idiot!" she shouted. "You're high, aren't you? Spike, why would you do this?" she inquired.
"No Luv, I'm not high," he lied.
"Stop it, stop lying to me!" she cried hitting his chest with her fist. She hated drugs, she hated people who did them. She had a roommate at the boarding school, that had OD on heroin, she was her best friend and they'd became like sisters in the time she was there and when she died it hurt so much.
"I'm sorry, but I only had a little," he answered honestly.
"Why?"
"'Cause for one night, I just wanted to forget you, 'cause you're in my mind nonstop, you're the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I see when I fall asleep. They said it makes everything go away but it didn't. I still saw you everywhere," he whispered, she frowned and walked out of the room and quickly came back with a first aid kit.
"Lay down," she pointed to the bed, he did as he was asked and Buffy cleaned his cuts in silence.
"Can I stay the night? Please, I don't want my Da to see me like this," he whispered, she nodded. "Can you hold me Buffy, can you lay beside me and hold me?" she turned off the lights and got in bed with him. She laid on her back and Spike laid his head on Buffy's chest using it as a pillow. "Can you run your fingers through my hair like you use to?" she ran her fingers through his hair.
"Please, don't ever do this again Spike."
"Coming to you?"
"No. The drugs please, don't do them, they're bad and I couldn't bear it if anything ever happened to you, Spike. You mean a lot to me, please, I don't know what I'd do if I lose you. I'll even admit that the night we first made love, seeing you just staring into my eyes, it made me feel so warm and loved. And then when you held me as I slept, I knew in my heart everything was going to be fine. When I woke up and saw you, I wanted to continue with that feeling of being loved and warm but I was scared of what I was feeling about you. With Angel, it was just about needing someone to cling on to, it was never love."
"I remember Angel and you walking down the halls and that moment I thought I could never be what you wanted," he whispered.
"Spike."
"Why does a man do what he mustn't? For her. To be hers... I wanted to give you what you deserved so I changed everything, my hair, my clothes, everything that was William and turned myself into Spike, but it was too late, you were gone and I promised myself that if you came back I'd make you mine."
"Spike, I love you for you not because of all this change, even if you wore glasses and looked like a dork, I'd love you, because you would still be you," she whispered, running her fingers through his hair.
"Why won't you have me then?"
"Because it's hard."
"Why?"
"Do you even know how bad it felt when I saw Anya and you? I didn't think anything could hurt me so much but it did and after that I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get hurt again," she replied.
"I'm sorry Buffy, I didn't mean to hurt you. I was so drunk, I don't even remember how it happened but I never wanted to hurt you."
After a few minutes of silence. "Spike," she whispered softly, when he didn't answered she gave a little smile. "I love you," and drifted off to sleep.
***********Morning
Buffy had woken up early with Spike's arms tightly wrapped around her. She smiled and kissed the top of his head and went downstairs to make him breakfast. Buffy was so busy making breakfast, she didn't hear Spike come down until he was in the kitchen with her. She tried to smile but instead she frowned when she felt pain in her cheek. Spike came closer and traced his fingers over the purple bruise on her face, she looked away.
"I made you breakfast."
"How did you get this?" he looked at her shoulder, he saw hand-like prints on it and since Buffy was wearing shorts, he also saw a huge bruise on her right thigh. "What happened? Who did this?"
"No one," she whispered. "Eat, it's getting cold."
"I don't care about the food," he snapped. "Tell me!"
"Spike," she said, tears slowly rolling down her face.
"Tell me now!" he shouted.
"Riley!" she cried out. 'Bad Idea' she thought as Spike looked at her and then headed for the front door. "Spike stop!" She ran after him but he didn't listen to a word she said.
'Nobody hurts my girl or my soon to be girl and gets away with it,' he was thinking as he got into his car despite Buffy's shouting and drove off in search of Riley Finn. She frowned and went back inside.
Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS Or Angel, all belong to and reserved Joss Weddon
Rating R to NC-17
Beta: Maribel, and BrownEye Helped me along the line!!! And SpikeAngel1 helped me a million times
Also Note Songs that are in this story are from Evanescence, Kasey Chamber's, and Vitimam C. And The Graudtion, Speach half from NBK! And Some Part's from BTVS!! You'll see.,
Author Note: NC-17 part's can be found at my site! http://www.geocities.com/strangegirl53/
Also Note Chapter 16- 20 are mostly smut!!
Chapter 23
**********The Night Of Prom
Buffy stood in front of the mirror. Her long pink dress was twisting and turning all around her, her hair was in curls and she looked stunning. She looked great, she had to admit. She looked like a princess, a little smile came upon her face when she remembered this was the night she had been waiting for. The smile quickly vanished from her face as her answering machine went on.
'Buffy? It's mommy. I guess you already left for the prom. I'm sorry I wasn't there to see you off but things got very busy here...I hope you have a wonderful time! Take pictures for me, love you." Her mother's voice rang through her room.
********Flash Back
"You're leaving again? I mean...it's my prom, mom. Aren't you going to be all mom-like and take pictures or videotape me or anything?" Buffy frowned sitting on her mother's bed while she packed her suitcase.
"Buffy, honey, you know I would like to but...this deal is important, and sadly I might not be back before graduation."
"What? But mom, it's my prom and graduation! How can you not be here?" Buffy blinked the tears that were welling in her eyes.
"I'm so sorry Buffy." Joyce tried to comfort her, placing her hand on her daughter's. Buffy quickly jerked it away.
"You have somebody don't you?" She frowned looking at the plane ticket to England. "And you want to be with him more than with me?" Buffy said in disbelief.
"It's nothing like that, sweetheart" Her mother sighed. "He's just helping me pick out some art. Here, I'll give you this early gift." She handed Buffy a golden box. Buffy opened it and found that it held a heart necklace. "See, there's a picture of you on one of the sides, you can put whomever who fancy in the other side" She smiled, then a honk was heard. "Well, that's my cab. Have an awesome time. I'll call you." She kissed the top of her head and left.
End of flash back
"Yea I'm going to have a wonderful time." Buffy whispered to herself, absentmindedly fingering the necklace. "This is one of the most important nights of my life. Be happy Buffy." She breathed.
She heard the front door bell to her house rang and took in a deep gulp of air. "Happy Buffy. The prom means everything to a girl."
********
Buffy walked into the packed Bronze.
"Wow! The Bronze looks awesome tonight, doesn't it?" Riley shouted over the music. Buffy looked up and just smiled. The Bronze was covered with balloons floating with glitter inside them and streamers hanging all over the place.
"It's beautiful." Buffy agreed.
"You're beautiful." Riley said and kissed her cheek. She smiled as he led her to the dance floor. A slow song started to play and she felt Riley grinding himself against her, his hands moving from her waist to her butt.
'Okay hands, hands in new places!' She shouted, pushing him off her. "I would prefer if you keep you hands off my ass please!" Riley just rolled his eyes as a response. "I'm kind of thirsty, do you mind getting me a
drink?" She asked. He nodded and walked off.
She stood near the wall watching the happy couples dancing and smiling. She couldn't help but wonder that she should be like that.
She saw Will and Oz snuggling, Xander holding Cordelia, and Angel with Darla,(Angel started Darla soon after his break up with Drusilla after catching her with Parker) Drusilla was with Parker. She knitted her brows together as she looked around frantically for a certain blonde.
She spotted Spike standing on the other wall, watching her... but he was not alone. Faith and some other girls were flirting away with him. Her heart ached as she watched him but she quickly shook it off.
Standing there for alone for almost ten minutes, she began to wonder what was taking Riley so long. How long does it take to get a drink? She got tired of waiting and left to look for Riley.
Buffy looked all around but didn't see him. Finally, she decided to use the ladies room. When she got there she saw Harmony and Riley. He had her pressed against the hall, his hands running in her dress, Riley had his tongue down her throat.
Buffy clenched her fists at her side before stalking up to him. She pushed him off of the blonde.
"So this is why it took so long for my drink?" Buffy yelled.
"Buffy! It isn't what it looks like." He tried to explain.
"No? It didn't look like you were making out with Harmony? Must be my eyes. You want her? Have her, I'm leaving!" She started walking away when Riley grabbed her arm violently, making her face him.
"Don't you ever lay a hand on me again!"? She snapped trying to squirm out of his tight grasp.
"Why are you being such a bitch about this? It's nothing big. I was just having a little fun."
"Well, did you even think how I would feel, seeing my prom date making out with another girl?! You jerk!" She bit him on the arm, causing him to yelp in pain and shove her against the wall. Buffy got her breathing under control and ran away as fast as her weak legs could take her.
When she turned the corner, and safely out of sight, she broke down crying. She clutched the wall and slid down the floor and sobbed. She didn't see that somebody else was there until Spike hauled her up by her forearms.
He had heard and saw everything.
"I don't need this Spike. Please...I just want to go home." She whispered looking up at him. "I n-need to get away from here." Buffy whimpered.
Spike cupped her face tenderly with his hands, lifting her head to lock with his eyes.
"Shh Luv. I'm so sorry...Riley's a wanker...h-he doesn't know what he's doing pet. God, if he could just realize how beautiful you are, inside and out..." He whispered lightly, tracing the tear tracks that led down her soft cheeks. He bent down and kissed her forehead.
He grabbed her hands and led her to the dance floor. She wrapped her arms around his neck and her head rested on his chest, with his arms wrapped around her waist.
Can you forgive me again?
I don't know what I said
but I didn't mean to hurt you
I heard the words come out
I felt like I would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
They danced holding each other for what seemed like hours. Buffy felt warm, safe and happy, she'd missed him so much, she'd missed having his arms wrapped around her and him smoothing her hair and kissing her lips so gently.
Then you look at me
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
I'd give anything now
to hear those words from you
Each time I say something
I regret I cry
I don't want to lose you.
But somehow I know that you
will never leave me, yeah.
Buffy heard him whisper. "I'm so sorry."
'Cause you were made for me
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make me
I can't live this life
Without you by my side
I need you to survive
"You're the last person I ever wanted to hurt." Spike continued whispering in her ear.
So stay with me
you look in my eyes and
I'm screaming inside that I'm sorry.
And you forgive me again
you're my one true friend
and I never meant to hurt you
He leaned down and kissed her lips gently, letting his tongue slip into her mouth. She accepted it with a moan. He held her even more tightly.
Flash Back
"Spike..." Anya cried out in pleasure, the table making noise. The moans and whispers could be heard coming from both of their bodies.
End of Flash Back
Buffy pulled away from him instantly. Spike looked at her and saw a tear streak on her rosy cheeks.
"Buffy?" He asked in concern.
"I'm sorry Spike...I-I...can't do this. Not after what you did with Anya." She whispered and left him alone on the dance floor.
Buffy ran into the parking lot, tears spilling down her face. She felt someone grab her arm.
"Spike, I told you-" She began to say but she was surprised to see Riley's cold stare instead. "Riley! Ouch! You're hurting me, let go!" Buffy screamed as his fingers pushed violently into her upper arms.
"Oh... so it's Spike that you've been panting for! That little punk! He's nothing compared to me Buffy! I can show you a good time..." He smirked slamming her into the Bronze's alley. Riley smiled as his hands ran up her dress, grabbing her thigh.
She flinched at his harsh movements. She whimpered when he slammed her harder against the brick wall.
"Riley stop!" She cried, trying to push him off her. He was too strong. "Let go of me! Please Riley!"
He pressed himself against her even harder and smiled. He tried to kiss her lips but Buffy turned her head away from him. He kissed her neck harshly, grabbed her thighs harder and then she felt one of his hands leaving her body. She heard a zipper being pulled down and panicked.
"Riley stop, stop, stop!!" Buffy screamed, crying harder. "I'm going to scream!"
He slapped her hard across the face, leaving an ugly mark. She whimpered more. He grabbed her hair and threw her on the ground in a muddy puddle. She looked up at him. His zipper was down, he was pulling his shirt from his pants.
"Riley, stay away from me!" She tried crawling away, knowing her dress was dirty. Riley smirked and stalked over towards her, an evil grin planted firmly on his lips.
She knew this was it as he grabbed a piece of material from the front of her dress and ripped it, pulling her up into a sitting position. She whimpered again as she shut her eyes, not wanting to look at him.
She waited for him to injure her further but was surprised when she neither heard nor felt nothing. Until-
*BAM!*
Her eyes shot open at the sound of metal hitting a back. She turned her head sorely around to see Faith standing there.
"Hey Ri, I don't think she likes you. But I'm sure Harmony is more than willing to screw you in the bathroom." Faith smirked as Riley rolled over on his back and clumsily stood up.
"Stay out of this Faith!" Riley yelled, angered by the brunette's antics.
"Trust me Riley, I would run." Faith said with a dangerous gleam in her eyes.
"Whatever." Riley said, not sure if he wanted the noise to make people come out. He turned his head sharply to Buffy. "Look at yourself Buffy! Looking like a slut!" He smirked. With one haughty glance he stalked back inside.
Faith rolled her eyes and stuck her hand out to Buffy, who more than willingly accepted it.
Buffy was still in shock from all that just had happened. As Faith helped her stand, she gasped in pain and held her ribs, mumbling an 'ow'. Buffy rolled up one of her sleeves to reveal some dark purple bruises forming, making an outline of Riley's big fingerprints.
"You didn't have to..." Buffy managed to get out, still a little scared and freaked out. "Thank you Faith. Really, thank you." She sniffed.
"No prob." Faith replied coolly.
"Why aren't you inside with all the rest of the happy couples? I mean...how did you know that I was out here?" Buffy asked.
"Well, I saw you leave Spike, and I saw Riley watching you the whole time. He had this crazy look in his eyes." Faith cringed. "And he followed you outside, so I put two and two together." She explained lighting up a cigarette. "You smoke?"
"No...cutting back." Buffy replied. "You didn't have to, I mean save me...I mean you hate me...don't you?"
"I never said I hated you I just thought you were a bitch," she answered honestly.
"Same thing."
"I mean, come on you stole both Angel and Spike from Drusilla by saying you were pregnant and then with the falling down the steps to cover up you'd have an abortion made and you just liking whatever you don't have, being really stuck up and finally for writing 'Faith's a slut' in the bathroom."
"What? None of that happen and I didn't write that. I've been at a boarding school for three years. Spike was my best friend since I was a baby and as for Drusilla she was my best friend, she got Angel drunk and slept with him, even though he was *my* boyfriend. She lied to you Faith, she lies to everyone. Look what happen to Cordelia, she was Drusilla best friend and as for writing that in the bathroom, I bet it was Drusilla, she didn't like the fact that Angel thought you were hotter than her," Buffy softly answered, she couldn't believe Drusilla had been saying those things about her.
"Why?"
"Because Drusilla only cares about herself," she sniffed.
"Got your dress all dirty, need a ride home? This prom really blows, silly me, I thought my prom would be the best night of my life," she laughed.
"I'm on that same boat," she smiled.
"One more thing Buffy."
"Yea."
"I never sleep with Spike. I mean, I wanted to but it seemed that every time we came close, he felt like he was betraying you."
"Oh."
*********
After Faith dropped Buffy off at her house, they chatted for a few hours then Faith had to head home before her mother went sick with worry. Turned out they had way more in common than they would have ever thought, except she found hard to believe Drusilla had said so much crap about her.
After Faith left, Buffy sat on her bed in her empty house, she felt so alone, it was prom night and she was home watching the Lifetime Channel in her pj's. She didn't feel any better, she thought she'd feel better once she'd slept. Finally prom night was over and a new day would begin.
********** During the Night
Buffy was asleep in bed when she felt a warm hand running up and down her bare shoulders. She thought she was dreaming a very good dream. She woke up when she felt someone was in her bed with her. She opened her eyes slowly and saw a shadowlike figure sitting at the end of her bed, then saw a pair of blue eyes staring back at her.
"Spike?" she sat up. She looked at him, his hair was tussled and his eyes were bloodshot. He had blood on his shirt, face, arms and hands. "What did you do?" she asked getting off the bed and turning on the light.
"I...I…I didn't have a place to go," he stuttered. She frowned, she could see his whole body was shaking, she walked over to him and traced her finger all around his face.
"You're cold and hurt. What did you do?"
He laughed. "Crazy party down at the pier, got a little too wild, I took off and I couldn't go home."
"You idiot!" she shouted. "You're high, aren't you? Spike, why would you do this?" she inquired.
"No Luv, I'm not high," he lied.
"Stop it, stop lying to me!" she cried hitting his chest with her fist. She hated drugs, she hated people who did them. She had a roommate at the boarding school, that had OD on heroin, she was her best friend and they'd became like sisters in the time she was there and when she died it hurt so much.
"I'm sorry, but I only had a little," he answered honestly.
"Why?"
"'Cause for one night, I just wanted to forget you, 'cause you're in my mind nonstop, you're the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing I see when I fall asleep. They said it makes everything go away but it didn't. I still saw you everywhere," he whispered, she frowned and walked out of the room and quickly came back with a first aid kit.
"Lay down," she pointed to the bed, he did as he was asked and Buffy cleaned his cuts in silence.
"Can I stay the night? Please, I don't want my Da to see me like this," he whispered, she nodded. "Can you hold me Buffy, can you lay beside me and hold me?" she turned off the lights and got in bed with him. She laid on her back and Spike laid his head on Buffy's chest using it as a pillow. "Can you run your fingers through my hair like you use to?" she ran her fingers through his hair.
"Please, don't ever do this again Spike."
"Coming to you?"
"No. The drugs please, don't do them, they're bad and I couldn't bear it if anything ever happened to you, Spike. You mean a lot to me, please, I don't know what I'd do if I lose you. I'll even admit that the night we first made love, seeing you just staring into my eyes, it made me feel so warm and loved. And then when you held me as I slept, I knew in my heart everything was going to be fine. When I woke up and saw you, I wanted to continue with that feeling of being loved and warm but I was scared of what I was feeling about you. With Angel, it was just about needing someone to cling on to, it was never love."
"I remember Angel and you walking down the halls and that moment I thought I could never be what you wanted," he whispered.
"Spike."
"Why does a man do what he mustn't? For her. To be hers... I wanted to give you what you deserved so I changed everything, my hair, my clothes, everything that was William and turned myself into Spike, but it was too late, you were gone and I promised myself that if you came back I'd make you mine."
"Spike, I love you for you not because of all this change, even if you wore glasses and looked like a dork, I'd love you, because you would still be you," she whispered, running her fingers through his hair.
"Why won't you have me then?"
"Because it's hard."
"Why?"
"Do you even know how bad it felt when I saw Anya and you? I didn't think anything could hurt me so much but it did and after that I promised myself I wouldn't let myself get hurt again," she replied.
"I'm sorry Buffy, I didn't mean to hurt you. I was so drunk, I don't even remember how it happened but I never wanted to hurt you."
After a few minutes of silence. "Spike," she whispered softly, when he didn't answered she gave a little smile. "I love you," and drifted off to sleep.
***********Morning
Buffy had woken up early with Spike's arms tightly wrapped around her. She smiled and kissed the top of his head and went downstairs to make him breakfast. Buffy was so busy making breakfast, she didn't hear Spike come down until he was in the kitchen with her. She tried to smile but instead she frowned when she felt pain in her cheek. Spike came closer and traced his fingers over the purple bruise on her face, she looked away.
"I made you breakfast."
"How did you get this?" he looked at her shoulder, he saw hand-like prints on it and since Buffy was wearing shorts, he also saw a huge bruise on her right thigh. "What happened? Who did this?"
"No one," she whispered. "Eat, it's getting cold."
"I don't care about the food," he snapped. "Tell me!"
"Spike," she said, tears slowly rolling down her face.
"Tell me now!" he shouted.
"Riley!" she cried out. 'Bad Idea' she thought as Spike looked at her and then headed for the front door. "Spike stop!" She ran after him but he didn't listen to a word she said.
'Nobody hurts my girl or my soon to be girl and gets away with it,' he was thinking as he got into his car despite Buffy's shouting and drove off in search of Riley Finn. She frowned and went back inside.