Timeline: 6th Season AU
Pairing: None but mentions of F/X
Rating: R (language, mild violence, some sexual content)
Summary: Xander didn't completely lose the Hyena. They have merged. Faith
and Xander became a couple in his senior year and after the Mayor left
SunnyDale. They returned two years later to help out against Glory. Faith
was found to be pregnant but was killed in the fight on the tower. Xander
killed Glory and Alpha had to take control to keep him alive after the
fight. He met up with Vicky, new slayer, and is slowly getting Xander back
in control.
Remembrance
Chapter 1
It has been fours months since Vicky and Alpha joined up. They have fought many hard battles and many close calls. Alpha still has control but it is getting less and less. Xander is becoming stronger and starting to actually do stuff like while they eat or talk. Alpha is mostly there for quite moments or fights. Maybe a few more weeks and Xander will be well in to the healing process. Not over or even through but still the beginning of it all.
Xander looks around and it is surrounded by darkness. He can see only Alpha sitting across from him. Alpha is the first to speak, "So Xander do you think we can actually do something useful this time around. I got it how about we realize Faith is dead not coming back and then start to heal. I am sick and tired of this. What don't you understand? We need to get living or just end it all and let what we have done be enough to not get sent to hell for killing ourselves. What do you want to try?"
"Boston," he says in a quiet whisper.
"What, say that again a little louder please."
Xander looks at him with no hate or anger just pain. "I would like to go to Boston to say goodbye. She was from there and we had her body shipped there after her death." He hitches on the word death but manages to say it.
"We can do that but you have to drive completely there on your own power and control. I will still be there if you need me but you have to do it yourself. Why do you want to do this?"
"If she isn't coming back then I need to see it one finally time. She did it all for me. I can't get the last smile out of my mind. She tried to look happy to take away my pain so I would remember that look. Not one of pain and torture but of her almost laughing at death like she would. I want one more time to see it and read her name on the tombstone. We do this and I will take full control and you can fade to where ever you belong."
"Okay Xander one last time to say goodbye then we start to trudge back to SunnyDale to fight with our friends and family. You know maybe Vicky would be interested in dating you after awhile. You can smell her after a fight. She gets a similar look in her eye. She could also love you. She wouldn't be Faith but she would be something that could become something else. Think about it."
"Not her, she is a bit too young and by the time I would even be ready she should have moved on."
"If that is what you think. Okay well let's sleep for a little bit longer and when you wake up tell her where we are going and tell her why."
"What ever." After that Alpha just kind of fades away and Xander stars dreaming of a lost love and missed friends.
It is nine in the morning when Xander wakes up and gets Vicky up. "Vicky you need to get up." Xander says quietly to Vicky because to startle her awake would put in attack mode and it is too early in the morning to get thrown across the room.
Vicky is just mumbling in her sleep "Xander lo..Always."
Xander jumps back away from Vicky not sure if he heard her correctly and not wanting to deal with it if he had. No today was about Faith but really how was that different from any other day he wasn't sure.
Vicky awoke quickly to the quick moment around her and started at Xander, "Alpha what do you want? It is too early to have to get up and after last night's 8 demons and 4 vampires us Slayer girls need more sleep. I am sure you and him know that right?"
"Not Alpha," is all he managed to get out. Taking a deep breath if goes for a full statement. "I am not Alpha and yes I know what happens when you wake up cranky Slayers. It is what you do to them that will get them out of being cranky that can make it worth it. But for now I need you awake. I need to talk about where we are going next." With that he walks out of the room and heads to take a shower.
Vicky just stares at the door with a slight smile on her face, "Xander is awake in the shower and I think he just flirted with me. I think today is going to be a good day. After that dream I guess anything can happen." She gets out of bed to gather her own clothes to dress in when she gets a sneaky idea. She is sitting there in just her panties with a towel draped around her neck that manage to hide her breast but not the fact that with a quick tug of the towel she would have them out for viewing. "I hope he lives through this." So sits and waits. She hears the shower stop and waits. With her hearing she hears him dress and put on his deodorant. The door opens and out walks Xander.
"Shower is all...," that was all he got out as he just stared at her. His mind couldn't get past the sight before him. Vicky sitting there in panties and a towel to cover her. Somewhere there is a god laughing at him and he wasn't sure he wanted to think what Faith was doing looking down on him.
"Thanks Suga'," was all she said as she stood and walked by him. His eyes never left her and when her back was to him she took the towel from her neck and flung it on her arm. She stopped and did a kind of half turn back towards him giving him a profile look of her. The towel around her arm again covered her breast from view but left the imagination to run free. "I will be out in a few. I just need to soap up really nice and wash off." She turned back to the bathroom and walked in shutting the door behind her.
As Xander stared at the door his eyes shifted to Amber, "Told you but you wouldn't listen to me. Don't drag her around much longer. Tell her now one way or another." His eyes shifted back to brown.
"Yeah she is going to be the death of me. I am more sure of that now then ever." With that Xander gather up the rest of the stuff and cleaned the room. 15 minutes later the shower stopped. And the door opened with a soaked Vicky standing there in her towel held loosely around her chest.
"Xander dear can you get me my pile of clothes next to the bed. I forgot to bring them in with me." She said to him with the most innocent eyes and smile she could manage. "If not I can get them myself but with this towel so tight around me I would either have to go slowly or risk it slipping off me."
"Yeah I will get them for you," He gets the pile of clothes and notices on the top or her bar and panties which are very suggestive in themselves let alone. Now with the last show he got and now knowing what she had on this was going to be one of those days. "Here you go Vicky."
"Thanks dear," she grabs for the clothes and turns around to shut the door but the towel falls and Xander is hit with a close up view of her cute round ass. "Whoops," she says as she pushes the door close quickly.
"It has to be a Slayer thing. All this fighting and no release like Faith and I had has driven her insane. That's it. I will talk to her about it later." He says this as he walked away from the door getting further and further with each word. He stops at the door out of the room and turns back to the bathroom. "Vicky I am going to breakfast. Join me when you are done." He turns and scurries out the door before he even gets a response to his statement.
Vicky hears him call out and quickly leaves the room. She finishes getting dressed with a huge smile on his face. "There I did it. He knows I am interested and soon as we talk about what he wants to do I am going to ask if he would like to go out on a date. Faith was this aggressive and he loved it from her. So I can do that without being her." She looks her self over in the mirror and is satisfied with what she sees. "He wont know what hit him."
When she gets down to the lounge Xander is already sitting down with coffee and her soda is waiting. "So Xander what brings you out this early in the day?"
"We are heading to Boston tonight. I would like to be there by the end of the week baring any hot zones or end of world type things. She is buried there and I want to see her finally spot in the world. You don't have to come along with me. I can get you setup to fly out to L.A. with transportation to SunnyDale after that."
"You think you could get rid of me that easy. We have a deal going. I get you back to the foreground then we do some serious hunting and then hit SunnyDale unless we are given message we are needed there sooner. So don't go changing this yet. Besides you are the closes thing I have to a watcher after what happened to my last one. I would like to keep you around."
"I will try to be there for you Vicky but I have to tell you this and you are not going to like it. I am not ready for a relationship. I needed more time and I don't know how long it will be till I am ready to try anything again. Yes you are attractive and I am still recovering from this morning but I can't say if I will ever be ready again."
I cold glare came to Vicky's eyes as she looked Xander up and down. "Here is what we are going to do. We get to Boston you do what ever you need to do. We start on are way back to SunnyDale. From when we leave Boston and get to SunnyDale you have to think about moving on from Faith and when we get there you and I are going out for dinner and dancing. After that you can do what you will and how you will but you will give me that much after everything we have done and fought you will do that. You know what happens when Slayers don't get what they want don't cha Xander." She tells with a smirk on her face.
Xander just looks stunned at her. "Okay but after that date you shouldn't expect anything from me."
"I would never do that Suga. I just want one good night free of vampires and our past. Just one night us together on a nice date." She was giving that innocent smile which tried to hide ideas that were many things but not innocent.
"Sure. Breakfast then, you know it is the most important meal of the deal. Let's see I want eggs, pancakes, biscuits and gravy, and bacon that is a good start. What would you like?"
"I think eggs and bacon will do fine. And Xander maybe your others girls let you switch subjects on them but I tell you now we will talk about it again and again till you talk to me. For now breakfast needs to be ordered and I need a refill on my soda."
"Okay. I will talk while we drive."
"One more thing I want you to understand. I am not Faith. I am not trying to be Faith but you are a single cutie and so am I We both have some baggage to deal with but we can get through it. I don't mind the wait but do think I will always wait."
Xander just nods his head as the server arrives to take their orders. After she walks off they continue to talk about the trip to Boston and where to stop along the way.
SunnyDale
"So what is wrong with her?"
"I don't know. She seems fine just a little distant."
"Distant you call that distant. Willow Cleveland is closer then she is right now."
"Well what were you like after coming back, oh yeah you were a bitch that almost got us all killed. At least she isn't doing that."
"That was low and I also wasn't gone that long. A few minutes is a lot less then 2 months. She just sits around like she is waiting for something. We told her Lex would be back when he was done. She understands that but still she looks so alone."
"Well you are head slayer go talk to her and invite her out to patrol or something. Me and Tara will swing by after patrol with a late dinner and we can sit and talk about anything. We both know that Lex will be back and as soon as he gets word Faith is here again he will be on the express road trip back."
"Okay that sounds like a good idea." Buffy leaves the back room of the Magic Box and head to the table to talk to Faith. "Faith you think you could be up for a patrol tonight. Vampires are on the rise and we need to get back in to the heavy of it. You with me."
"Sorry B not tonight. I was just going to go back to your place and crash. Maybe talk to Dawn for a bit. She still seems a little freaked with me being back and all. Any word from or about Lex?"
"Not yet but he seems to have caught up with the new Slayer and they are just traveling around. It seems that Giles missed them by a few days in Oklahoma. Why would they be in Oklahoma was beyond me but they were last heading North East towards Michigan. Giles can't find any reported hotspot along the route to try and figure out where they are going. He is going to be okay Faith. He is going to head back here and see you and probably both of you will disappear for awhile." Buffy finishes with a smile.
"Maybe B maybe." Faith just stood up and walked out the door head home in the dark.
"I am sorry Faith. I though we were doing what was right. Maybe not fully but once he gets back then you will see there is still things to live for in life."
Faith just keeps walking in a general direction of home. She cuts through a cemetery towards a familiar crypt. She gets to the door and opens it up to see Spike just watching TV.
"You come back for more love? Just can't get enough of me. You should have stayed with me then the whelp. He could never please a Slayer like I can," Spike says while he stands and turns towards her. "Of course he already has left you to get with the new Slayer. Maybe he was using you just to make himself look better. Look at the girl I got the real Slayer. But that isn't true anymore. You are like Buffy now. He left her after knowing her for three years and it look likes your three years is over also."
Faith removed her shirt and undid her pants. "Can we do this without all the talking?"
Spike approached her and pulled her in for a rough kiss and started to undress himself as the moved over to his bed. Faith still has a very distant look but her eyes show ones of disgust for doing this.
Remembrance
Chapter 1
It has been fours months since Vicky and Alpha joined up. They have fought many hard battles and many close calls. Alpha still has control but it is getting less and less. Xander is becoming stronger and starting to actually do stuff like while they eat or talk. Alpha is mostly there for quite moments or fights. Maybe a few more weeks and Xander will be well in to the healing process. Not over or even through but still the beginning of it all.
Xander looks around and it is surrounded by darkness. He can see only Alpha sitting across from him. Alpha is the first to speak, "So Xander do you think we can actually do something useful this time around. I got it how about we realize Faith is dead not coming back and then start to heal. I am sick and tired of this. What don't you understand? We need to get living or just end it all and let what we have done be enough to not get sent to hell for killing ourselves. What do you want to try?"
"Boston," he says in a quiet whisper.
"What, say that again a little louder please."
Xander looks at him with no hate or anger just pain. "I would like to go to Boston to say goodbye. She was from there and we had her body shipped there after her death." He hitches on the word death but manages to say it.
"We can do that but you have to drive completely there on your own power and control. I will still be there if you need me but you have to do it yourself. Why do you want to do this?"
"If she isn't coming back then I need to see it one finally time. She did it all for me. I can't get the last smile out of my mind. She tried to look happy to take away my pain so I would remember that look. Not one of pain and torture but of her almost laughing at death like she would. I want one more time to see it and read her name on the tombstone. We do this and I will take full control and you can fade to where ever you belong."
"Okay Xander one last time to say goodbye then we start to trudge back to SunnyDale to fight with our friends and family. You know maybe Vicky would be interested in dating you after awhile. You can smell her after a fight. She gets a similar look in her eye. She could also love you. She wouldn't be Faith but she would be something that could become something else. Think about it."
"Not her, she is a bit too young and by the time I would even be ready she should have moved on."
"If that is what you think. Okay well let's sleep for a little bit longer and when you wake up tell her where we are going and tell her why."
"What ever." After that Alpha just kind of fades away and Xander stars dreaming of a lost love and missed friends.
It is nine in the morning when Xander wakes up and gets Vicky up. "Vicky you need to get up." Xander says quietly to Vicky because to startle her awake would put in attack mode and it is too early in the morning to get thrown across the room.
Vicky is just mumbling in her sleep "Xander lo..Always."
Xander jumps back away from Vicky not sure if he heard her correctly and not wanting to deal with it if he had. No today was about Faith but really how was that different from any other day he wasn't sure.
Vicky awoke quickly to the quick moment around her and started at Xander, "Alpha what do you want? It is too early to have to get up and after last night's 8 demons and 4 vampires us Slayer girls need more sleep. I am sure you and him know that right?"
"Not Alpha," is all he managed to get out. Taking a deep breath if goes for a full statement. "I am not Alpha and yes I know what happens when you wake up cranky Slayers. It is what you do to them that will get them out of being cranky that can make it worth it. But for now I need you awake. I need to talk about where we are going next." With that he walks out of the room and heads to take a shower.
Vicky just stares at the door with a slight smile on her face, "Xander is awake in the shower and I think he just flirted with me. I think today is going to be a good day. After that dream I guess anything can happen." She gets out of bed to gather her own clothes to dress in when she gets a sneaky idea. She is sitting there in just her panties with a towel draped around her neck that manage to hide her breast but not the fact that with a quick tug of the towel she would have them out for viewing. "I hope he lives through this." So sits and waits. She hears the shower stop and waits. With her hearing she hears him dress and put on his deodorant. The door opens and out walks Xander.
"Shower is all...," that was all he got out as he just stared at her. His mind couldn't get past the sight before him. Vicky sitting there in panties and a towel to cover her. Somewhere there is a god laughing at him and he wasn't sure he wanted to think what Faith was doing looking down on him.
"Thanks Suga'," was all she said as she stood and walked by him. His eyes never left her and when her back was to him she took the towel from her neck and flung it on her arm. She stopped and did a kind of half turn back towards him giving him a profile look of her. The towel around her arm again covered her breast from view but left the imagination to run free. "I will be out in a few. I just need to soap up really nice and wash off." She turned back to the bathroom and walked in shutting the door behind her.
As Xander stared at the door his eyes shifted to Amber, "Told you but you wouldn't listen to me. Don't drag her around much longer. Tell her now one way or another." His eyes shifted back to brown.
"Yeah she is going to be the death of me. I am more sure of that now then ever." With that Xander gather up the rest of the stuff and cleaned the room. 15 minutes later the shower stopped. And the door opened with a soaked Vicky standing there in her towel held loosely around her chest.
"Xander dear can you get me my pile of clothes next to the bed. I forgot to bring them in with me." She said to him with the most innocent eyes and smile she could manage. "If not I can get them myself but with this towel so tight around me I would either have to go slowly or risk it slipping off me."
"Yeah I will get them for you," He gets the pile of clothes and notices on the top or her bar and panties which are very suggestive in themselves let alone. Now with the last show he got and now knowing what she had on this was going to be one of those days. "Here you go Vicky."
"Thanks dear," she grabs for the clothes and turns around to shut the door but the towel falls and Xander is hit with a close up view of her cute round ass. "Whoops," she says as she pushes the door close quickly.
"It has to be a Slayer thing. All this fighting and no release like Faith and I had has driven her insane. That's it. I will talk to her about it later." He says this as he walked away from the door getting further and further with each word. He stops at the door out of the room and turns back to the bathroom. "Vicky I am going to breakfast. Join me when you are done." He turns and scurries out the door before he even gets a response to his statement.
Vicky hears him call out and quickly leaves the room. She finishes getting dressed with a huge smile on his face. "There I did it. He knows I am interested and soon as we talk about what he wants to do I am going to ask if he would like to go out on a date. Faith was this aggressive and he loved it from her. So I can do that without being her." She looks her self over in the mirror and is satisfied with what she sees. "He wont know what hit him."
When she gets down to the lounge Xander is already sitting down with coffee and her soda is waiting. "So Xander what brings you out this early in the day?"
"We are heading to Boston tonight. I would like to be there by the end of the week baring any hot zones or end of world type things. She is buried there and I want to see her finally spot in the world. You don't have to come along with me. I can get you setup to fly out to L.A. with transportation to SunnyDale after that."
"You think you could get rid of me that easy. We have a deal going. I get you back to the foreground then we do some serious hunting and then hit SunnyDale unless we are given message we are needed there sooner. So don't go changing this yet. Besides you are the closes thing I have to a watcher after what happened to my last one. I would like to keep you around."
"I will try to be there for you Vicky but I have to tell you this and you are not going to like it. I am not ready for a relationship. I needed more time and I don't know how long it will be till I am ready to try anything again. Yes you are attractive and I am still recovering from this morning but I can't say if I will ever be ready again."
I cold glare came to Vicky's eyes as she looked Xander up and down. "Here is what we are going to do. We get to Boston you do what ever you need to do. We start on are way back to SunnyDale. From when we leave Boston and get to SunnyDale you have to think about moving on from Faith and when we get there you and I are going out for dinner and dancing. After that you can do what you will and how you will but you will give me that much after everything we have done and fought you will do that. You know what happens when Slayers don't get what they want don't cha Xander." She tells with a smirk on her face.
Xander just looks stunned at her. "Okay but after that date you shouldn't expect anything from me."
"I would never do that Suga. I just want one good night free of vampires and our past. Just one night us together on a nice date." She was giving that innocent smile which tried to hide ideas that were many things but not innocent.
"Sure. Breakfast then, you know it is the most important meal of the deal. Let's see I want eggs, pancakes, biscuits and gravy, and bacon that is a good start. What would you like?"
"I think eggs and bacon will do fine. And Xander maybe your others girls let you switch subjects on them but I tell you now we will talk about it again and again till you talk to me. For now breakfast needs to be ordered and I need a refill on my soda."
"Okay. I will talk while we drive."
"One more thing I want you to understand. I am not Faith. I am not trying to be Faith but you are a single cutie and so am I We both have some baggage to deal with but we can get through it. I don't mind the wait but do think I will always wait."
Xander just nods his head as the server arrives to take their orders. After she walks off they continue to talk about the trip to Boston and where to stop along the way.
SunnyDale
"So what is wrong with her?"
"I don't know. She seems fine just a little distant."
"Distant you call that distant. Willow Cleveland is closer then she is right now."
"Well what were you like after coming back, oh yeah you were a bitch that almost got us all killed. At least she isn't doing that."
"That was low and I also wasn't gone that long. A few minutes is a lot less then 2 months. She just sits around like she is waiting for something. We told her Lex would be back when he was done. She understands that but still she looks so alone."
"Well you are head slayer go talk to her and invite her out to patrol or something. Me and Tara will swing by after patrol with a late dinner and we can sit and talk about anything. We both know that Lex will be back and as soon as he gets word Faith is here again he will be on the express road trip back."
"Okay that sounds like a good idea." Buffy leaves the back room of the Magic Box and head to the table to talk to Faith. "Faith you think you could be up for a patrol tonight. Vampires are on the rise and we need to get back in to the heavy of it. You with me."
"Sorry B not tonight. I was just going to go back to your place and crash. Maybe talk to Dawn for a bit. She still seems a little freaked with me being back and all. Any word from or about Lex?"
"Not yet but he seems to have caught up with the new Slayer and they are just traveling around. It seems that Giles missed them by a few days in Oklahoma. Why would they be in Oklahoma was beyond me but they were last heading North East towards Michigan. Giles can't find any reported hotspot along the route to try and figure out where they are going. He is going to be okay Faith. He is going to head back here and see you and probably both of you will disappear for awhile." Buffy finishes with a smile.
"Maybe B maybe." Faith just stood up and walked out the door head home in the dark.
"I am sorry Faith. I though we were doing what was right. Maybe not fully but once he gets back then you will see there is still things to live for in life."
Faith just keeps walking in a general direction of home. She cuts through a cemetery towards a familiar crypt. She gets to the door and opens it up to see Spike just watching TV.
"You come back for more love? Just can't get enough of me. You should have stayed with me then the whelp. He could never please a Slayer like I can," Spike says while he stands and turns towards her. "Of course he already has left you to get with the new Slayer. Maybe he was using you just to make himself look better. Look at the girl I got the real Slayer. But that isn't true anymore. You are like Buffy now. He left her after knowing her for three years and it look likes your three years is over also."
Faith removed her shirt and undid her pants. "Can we do this without all the talking?"
Spike approached her and pulled her in for a rough kiss and started to undress himself as the moved over to his bed. Faith still has a very distant look but her eyes show ones of disgust for doing this.