Once again, I apologize a lot for not finishing on time. I'm feeling really guilty enough as it is. I want o get kicked in the head by a horse, but I don't want to or I will forget how this story ends so I won't be able to finish it for you guys!
Disclaimer: Inuyasha and company belongs to Rumiko Takahashi, Viz and company.
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There is someone who I'm waiting for. I don't know who exactly, but it was a long time ago. I remember that he was so lonely and sad. I gave him my hand and some of my happiness... No... I gave him more than that... I gave him my word that I would wait for him. I promised him that I'd wait for him to come for me when I was older and when the time was right. We would be together... But... where was he?...
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The morning was crisp and fresh. Hopefully, there would be no ambushing tonight because last night was a helluava night for everyone in the castle. The enemy attacked and I was having the nicest of dreams about cake and asparagus... Hey, I have odd dreams, so lay off.
After taking care of the demons, my group members shoved me off to my room and took care of the rest. Damn, it's good to be the leader.
Of course, I got no sleep and so I wander off after a few hours in bed and ended up in Sesshoumaru's room. He was fully awake now (of course he was out fighting the enemies too) but he laid back in his father's chair, staring out into the beyond as if deep in thought.
Maybe I should leave...
"...I rescued Rin from Kouga's wolves and revived her with the Tenseiga that my father had given me. The sword was useless until that point so now... She is my burden," spoke the great youkai king.
I stopped in my tracks.
'So, he knew I was here after all...'
I turned around and faced his gaze.
"That's what you were going to ask me about wasn't it? Rin is not a bastard child of mine, not an heiress nor is she going to be anything more than what she is right now. Rin was just a child who I rescued, nothing more," he told me.
"Really?" I asked.
He nodded.
'Thank goodness it's nothing more!'
"...The Tenseiga... Your father told me about it. How you hated the sword that was of no use to you and how you fought with Inuyasha endlessly to gain the sword given to him. I guess now, you don't hate that sword so much now," I smiled gently at him.
He closed his eyes and sighed, "No Kagome... That sword aggravates my very being."
I was confused, "What? You saved Rin's life with that sword and it's your father's parting gift to you. How can you hate it?"
He opened his eyes and glared at me with fierce golden orbs, "Because that sword... it took my father's life!"
"But didn't that Dragon guy-"
"My father used the Tenseiga to bring me back to life, but the sword that was created from my father's fang by Toto-sai refused to return him to me," he snapped at me.
'Okay, this is confusing...'
"I hate the sword. I cannot fight with it nor can I return my father back. Inuyasha carries his Tetsusaiga around carelessly and I can do nothing more with a blunt knife than for a wall decoration!"
He got up from the chair at this point and his eyes started to turn red. His claws became a fist.
"Sesshoumaru-"
"After my father died, I tried to use that damn sword to return my father to me and yet he remains in death! Did he wish to die or did the sword just refuse him to live?! That sword is useless to me!" he shouted.
He pounded his fists onto the desk so hard that I thought it would break.
His breathing was rapid and his fangs were bared. His eyes looked at me in anger, not angry towards me, but just angry. He was sweating and breathing heavily. I had never seen him like this before.
I took a step forward, fully aware that he could tear me apart while in his foul mood. I could see that his body was now trembling from the anger or the sadness? Maybe both...
"Sesshoumaru-" I started to say.
He turned around, trying to control his rising anger, "Leave me Kagome."
I stood there for a few seconds, thinking and rethinking of my options.
Option A: Leave him alone and check back later.
Option B: Let some other poor miscreant get ripped to shreds by him.
Or Option C: Get hacked and slashed into mincemeat.
As much as I would have loved to do A and B (which I fully intended on doing), my feet decided to go towards him on its own while my mind screamed at it to go the opposite way.
"Kagome! Go!" his rising voice snarled at me with his back still turned to me.
Still, my feet continued on as my mind told me of all the places my body parts would fly off to.
"Kagome!" he yelled at me.
I walked up to him and stood behind him. Then I did something I thought I'd never do again when I dumped Inuyasha... I hugged him. I know he was as surprised as I was because he fists became unclenched and his trembling stopped. The heat from his body faded away as I held onto him tight.
'Great, I hope you wrote your will out.'
'Shut up, I'm doing him some good here.'
"It... must hurt... Losing the only person in your life... whom you respected and respected you... as an equal..." I said in a soft and gentle voice.
He didn't reply back.
"I... I know how you feel... The pain... It hurts too much... It hurts so much that all you want to do is curl up and cry... I... I know... I lost my little cousin Souta... He became my life after I... I held him for the first time in my life when he was born and I knew... that I would protect him with my life..."
Tears flowed down my cheeks.
"But I couldn't save him Sesshoumaru... I couldn't save him... like you couldn't save your father..."
He had gone quiet.
"Don't despair Sesshoumaru... I know that you loved your father very much even though he... even though he made some choices you didn't agree with... Sesshoumaru... You aren't alone..." I whispered and buried my face into his kimono.
I know his back was getting soaked, but like hell I cared!
"Kagome..." he whispered faintly.
I looked up from his back and saw his head had slightly turned to the side. One of his hands moved over my hands that clutched around his waist and lightly squeezed them.
"...Thank you..." he whispered.
The tears ceased to flow and I smiled gently at him and settled back into his back.
"...Thank you..."
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"Kagome!"
I stopped in my tracks. That voice sounded familiar!
I looked to the doors and there was uncle and two of our people with him. He wore his battle outfit, but it was torn and dirty everywhere with blood on it too. He looked beat up sort of, but he stood firm and the same thing went for the other two too. He gave me a great big smile. Happiness poured into me so I forgot all about his appearance and I ran to him like a little girl does to her father. I hugged him and he gave me one of his bear hugs in return.
"Uncle! You're back! Whe-when did you get back!?"
He chuckled, "Just a few minutes ago. Hey, do you know where Lord Sesshoumaru is?"
"Yeah, he's in the study room," I replied. "Why?"
"Oh, just some business to take care of," he said as he extracted me from his hug, "Hopefully you've been a great leader during the time we were gone?"
"Of course! We kicked some serious enemy butt the other night. You aren't gonna get someone this great anywhere else!" I winked.
"Of course! That's why I put you in as leader!"
After talking for a few minutes, I let uncle and the two find Sesshoumaru. I felt happy that uncle came back and went to find Sango. I couldn't find her anywhere and asked several of my people where she went. I got the strangest reply in return.
"She went off somewhere with the monk," was the reply.
'...Okay... No Sango or Miroku. Odd...'
I went in search of Rin, but she was having her lessons with Sesshoumaru's favorite bop-on-the-head-guy named Jaken. Uncle and Sesshoumaru were busy and my people had their own things to do so I had nothing to do. Then I decided to I go to the garden to relax. What I found there was very... well, I don't know how to say it, but I was surprised, as in not too enthusiastically surprised. A long black hair girl in a miko's outfit stood on the bridge that overlooked the lily pond.
I knew who it was already.
"Kikyou..."
She turned to look at me. Sure enough, it was her. My rival...
"Kagome," she said with a dull face on, "Why are still in those ridiculous costumes and that strange alien hair color? Oh well, old habits die hard as they say. Are you still on-training as a miko or have you dropped out like the rest of those insignificants?"
"No... I dropped because I had other things to do..." I replied trying to still my anger from exploding.
She shrugged, "Oh well. It's good to see you again classmate."
"Same here," I said back to her.
"Oh and by the way... Have you seen Inuyasha? I know he's here somewhere," her sweet little annoying voice sang.
'KIKYOU!!!??? HERE!? So it was THAT Kikyou that Inuyasha was fumbling himself over!!??'
"No," I responded back and left the gardens.
Well, I knew Kikyou from before because uncle sent me away to study at a shrine for some months to strengthen my inherited miko powers. I learned quickly and I competed for the top of my class with Kikyou, another miko-in-training. We didn't get along very well, but we didn't fight a lot. She was kinda snobby, but not to showoffish and I "tried" to avoid her as much as possible.
Then there was Hojo the wonder boy, one of our classmates who was training to be a priest. He was so sweet and charming, so innocent and pure and he had his heart set on me the first time he laid eyes on me. He bought me the oddest things after I returned from jobs uncle had sent me out to do because uncle usually lied that I was sick from some contagious diseases or deadly illness. Ginger root, hagswort, frog legs, cinnamon sticks... He was a nice guy who was smitten with me, but I wasn't interested.
'Why is Kikyou back here? Wait, she must have finished her training. She must be a powerful miko now. Better not mess with her....'
"Kagome!" someone called me.
I looked up and there was Sango.
"Hey there cutie! I heard that you were with-" I started to joke around, but her face was serious.
"Kagome! This is no time to be joking around!"
Then I got serious. "W-wait, what's up Sango, is it my uncle?"
"No, worst! Lord Sessshoumaru now has the Western Lands back from his uncle!" she exclaimed frantically.
"Wait, isn't that good news?" said I.
"No it isn't, Kagome! Here, come with me! We have a meeting to go to!" she said, making me worry.
She grabbed my hand and rushed us to the throne room.
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"I have returned the Western Lands to Lord Sesshoumaru from his uncle Lord InuRaijiu. It was long and it was in secret, and I apologize for not telling you all, but it was for the best," spoke uncle.
All of us were worrying. Although it was good news, it was bad for my people.
"Once we help defeat Naraku then Lord Sesshoumaru will return to the Western Lands as we had promised his father," said uncle.
"But, what about our agreement master? Will we be able to return to Shatura?" asked one of my comrades.
Uncle's face lost all happiness it had contained before the question was asked. I never noticed it, but his face was lined with old age all over. He looked very tired, almost as if he had aged a thousand years from the last time I saw him.
"That... is for Lord Inuyasha to decide," replied he.
"But Uncle! You told me, us, all of our people that we would return to our homeland!" I exclaimed, still clinging on desperately to hope.
He sighed, "Kagome... I said that it was possible that we might return to our homeland. The agreement was that we would help aid in defeating Shatura's enemies and destroy the current leader of the Western Lands. After that then Lord InuTaisho would have given us permission to come home to Shatura, but... the deal was with Lord Inutaisho and me, not Lords Inuyasha nor Sesshoumaru.
The original idea was for Sesshoumaru to rule the Western Lands once we defeated his uncle and then put Inuyasha on the Shaturan throne... but things will not run the way we all hoped it to... So as you can see... We may be fighting for a war that will not end our homesickness."
We were all silent. Unsure of what to say and too heartbroken to say anything... Except for me of course, I wanted to kick some ass! I was just fuming with pent up anger!
"Lord Sesshoumaru!" I suddenly snapped, grabbing everyone's attention, "Can't you do something about this?! You are the current king!"
He gave me a dull look and scoffed, "So what if I am? As long as I keep Shatura running until I can figure out how to make my brother stay put, it is none of my concern because this is only a temporary job."
My heart felt like it had broken into a million pieces.
'So... this is how it is? Fight for a country that we've longed to return to only to find out that we've been fighting and losing people for no reason at all?'
Tears started to run down my eyes and I quickly wiped them away before anyone saw.
"This isn't how it was supposed to be! We were-we were supposed to live happily ever after back in Shatura!" my voice cracked.
I turned and ran from the room, ignoring all the calls for me. I ran to the gardens in hopes of finding temporary peace there. That Kikyou bitch was gone, thank god! Still, the sadness was tearing me up inside out. I ran until I reached the bridge above the lily pond.
'My life is a waste. This was the only reason I had to go on. Souta... I promised you... I promised you that...'
My tears returned and fell and fell.
'Souta! I failed your wish! I broke my promise to you! Now, our clan can never rejoin Shatura like you wished. After you died... I had nothing more to go on with except uncle and your wish, but...'
I looked below me and watched as the fish swam about with their petty and meaningless lives...
'...I wonder how deep that water is?...'
"Kagome!"
I turned to look. Crimson Moon and Crimson Blade both stood at the end of the bridge.
"Just let me be..." said I.
'Five feet? Nah... Must be deeper cause I can't see the bottom. Hey, I can see a turtle in there...'
"We heard everything Kagome," said Blade.
"And we cannot leave you alone at a time like this, not when you're-" started Rune, but I stopped her.
"Leave me alone goddammit! I'm just-just reevaluating my life here so give me some peace!" I sniffed as I tried to wipe the oncoming tears away.
"Kagome-"
I turned so fast to face them that my neck hurt, but I didn't care.
"HEY! Didn't you hear me?! I said leave this bitch alone! She's not your lapdog that you can pet whenever you want! GO AWAY!" I screamed at them.
They left after several minutes of hesitation. I sniffed again as the tears kept coming. My eyes wandered back to the pond.
'I hope it's deep... As deep as the sadness I feel right now... Maybe I can go take a "swim" later in there... Maybe all this sadness will wash away with it... maybe this pathetic life too...'
I looked up at the sky.
"Souta... If you can hear me... Souta... What do you want me to do now? I failed you... but I need you to help me know what I should do now... Souta... please help me..." I cried.
My head went back down as I stared endlessly into the rippling water with my tears disturbing the surface of the pond below.
"Souta... I'm sorry..." I whispered as the tears came faster.
'Hey, I can see my reflection...'
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I'm stuck on my assignment. Who Am I? Am I Who? I Who Am? I Am Who? Anyways, that's the question, who are you and the person you want to be in thr future. Kinda hard and I got some strict rules to go by so it's kinda hard to do so I can't wing it this time. Damn! Anyways, go on or stop and review. Your choice, choose wisely young one... (^_^)
Disclaimer: Inuyasha and company belongs to Rumiko Takahashi, Viz and company.
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There is someone who I'm waiting for. I don't know who exactly, but it was a long time ago. I remember that he was so lonely and sad. I gave him my hand and some of my happiness... No... I gave him more than that... I gave him my word that I would wait for him. I promised him that I'd wait for him to come for me when I was older and when the time was right. We would be together... But... where was he?...
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The morning was crisp and fresh. Hopefully, there would be no ambushing tonight because last night was a helluava night for everyone in the castle. The enemy attacked and I was having the nicest of dreams about cake and asparagus... Hey, I have odd dreams, so lay off.
After taking care of the demons, my group members shoved me off to my room and took care of the rest. Damn, it's good to be the leader.
Of course, I got no sleep and so I wander off after a few hours in bed and ended up in Sesshoumaru's room. He was fully awake now (of course he was out fighting the enemies too) but he laid back in his father's chair, staring out into the beyond as if deep in thought.
Maybe I should leave...
"...I rescued Rin from Kouga's wolves and revived her with the Tenseiga that my father had given me. The sword was useless until that point so now... She is my burden," spoke the great youkai king.
I stopped in my tracks.
'So, he knew I was here after all...'
I turned around and faced his gaze.
"That's what you were going to ask me about wasn't it? Rin is not a bastard child of mine, not an heiress nor is she going to be anything more than what she is right now. Rin was just a child who I rescued, nothing more," he told me.
"Really?" I asked.
He nodded.
'Thank goodness it's nothing more!'
"...The Tenseiga... Your father told me about it. How you hated the sword that was of no use to you and how you fought with Inuyasha endlessly to gain the sword given to him. I guess now, you don't hate that sword so much now," I smiled gently at him.
He closed his eyes and sighed, "No Kagome... That sword aggravates my very being."
I was confused, "What? You saved Rin's life with that sword and it's your father's parting gift to you. How can you hate it?"
He opened his eyes and glared at me with fierce golden orbs, "Because that sword... it took my father's life!"
"But didn't that Dragon guy-"
"My father used the Tenseiga to bring me back to life, but the sword that was created from my father's fang by Toto-sai refused to return him to me," he snapped at me.
'Okay, this is confusing...'
"I hate the sword. I cannot fight with it nor can I return my father back. Inuyasha carries his Tetsusaiga around carelessly and I can do nothing more with a blunt knife than for a wall decoration!"
He got up from the chair at this point and his eyes started to turn red. His claws became a fist.
"Sesshoumaru-"
"After my father died, I tried to use that damn sword to return my father to me and yet he remains in death! Did he wish to die or did the sword just refuse him to live?! That sword is useless to me!" he shouted.
He pounded his fists onto the desk so hard that I thought it would break.
His breathing was rapid and his fangs were bared. His eyes looked at me in anger, not angry towards me, but just angry. He was sweating and breathing heavily. I had never seen him like this before.
I took a step forward, fully aware that he could tear me apart while in his foul mood. I could see that his body was now trembling from the anger or the sadness? Maybe both...
"Sesshoumaru-" I started to say.
He turned around, trying to control his rising anger, "Leave me Kagome."
I stood there for a few seconds, thinking and rethinking of my options.
Option A: Leave him alone and check back later.
Option B: Let some other poor miscreant get ripped to shreds by him.
Or Option C: Get hacked and slashed into mincemeat.
As much as I would have loved to do A and B (which I fully intended on doing), my feet decided to go towards him on its own while my mind screamed at it to go the opposite way.
"Kagome! Go!" his rising voice snarled at me with his back still turned to me.
Still, my feet continued on as my mind told me of all the places my body parts would fly off to.
"Kagome!" he yelled at me.
I walked up to him and stood behind him. Then I did something I thought I'd never do again when I dumped Inuyasha... I hugged him. I know he was as surprised as I was because he fists became unclenched and his trembling stopped. The heat from his body faded away as I held onto him tight.
'Great, I hope you wrote your will out.'
'Shut up, I'm doing him some good here.'
"It... must hurt... Losing the only person in your life... whom you respected and respected you... as an equal..." I said in a soft and gentle voice.
He didn't reply back.
"I... I know how you feel... The pain... It hurts too much... It hurts so much that all you want to do is curl up and cry... I... I know... I lost my little cousin Souta... He became my life after I... I held him for the first time in my life when he was born and I knew... that I would protect him with my life..."
Tears flowed down my cheeks.
"But I couldn't save him Sesshoumaru... I couldn't save him... like you couldn't save your father..."
He had gone quiet.
"Don't despair Sesshoumaru... I know that you loved your father very much even though he... even though he made some choices you didn't agree with... Sesshoumaru... You aren't alone..." I whispered and buried my face into his kimono.
I know his back was getting soaked, but like hell I cared!
"Kagome..." he whispered faintly.
I looked up from his back and saw his head had slightly turned to the side. One of his hands moved over my hands that clutched around his waist and lightly squeezed them.
"...Thank you..." he whispered.
The tears ceased to flow and I smiled gently at him and settled back into his back.
"...Thank you..."
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"Kagome!"
I stopped in my tracks. That voice sounded familiar!
I looked to the doors and there was uncle and two of our people with him. He wore his battle outfit, but it was torn and dirty everywhere with blood on it too. He looked beat up sort of, but he stood firm and the same thing went for the other two too. He gave me a great big smile. Happiness poured into me so I forgot all about his appearance and I ran to him like a little girl does to her father. I hugged him and he gave me one of his bear hugs in return.
"Uncle! You're back! Whe-when did you get back!?"
He chuckled, "Just a few minutes ago. Hey, do you know where Lord Sesshoumaru is?"
"Yeah, he's in the study room," I replied. "Why?"
"Oh, just some business to take care of," he said as he extracted me from his hug, "Hopefully you've been a great leader during the time we were gone?"
"Of course! We kicked some serious enemy butt the other night. You aren't gonna get someone this great anywhere else!" I winked.
"Of course! That's why I put you in as leader!"
After talking for a few minutes, I let uncle and the two find Sesshoumaru. I felt happy that uncle came back and went to find Sango. I couldn't find her anywhere and asked several of my people where she went. I got the strangest reply in return.
"She went off somewhere with the monk," was the reply.
'...Okay... No Sango or Miroku. Odd...'
I went in search of Rin, but she was having her lessons with Sesshoumaru's favorite bop-on-the-head-guy named Jaken. Uncle and Sesshoumaru were busy and my people had their own things to do so I had nothing to do. Then I decided to I go to the garden to relax. What I found there was very... well, I don't know how to say it, but I was surprised, as in not too enthusiastically surprised. A long black hair girl in a miko's outfit stood on the bridge that overlooked the lily pond.
I knew who it was already.
"Kikyou..."
She turned to look at me. Sure enough, it was her. My rival...
"Kagome," she said with a dull face on, "Why are still in those ridiculous costumes and that strange alien hair color? Oh well, old habits die hard as they say. Are you still on-training as a miko or have you dropped out like the rest of those insignificants?"
"No... I dropped because I had other things to do..." I replied trying to still my anger from exploding.
She shrugged, "Oh well. It's good to see you again classmate."
"Same here," I said back to her.
"Oh and by the way... Have you seen Inuyasha? I know he's here somewhere," her sweet little annoying voice sang.
'KIKYOU!!!??? HERE!? So it was THAT Kikyou that Inuyasha was fumbling himself over!!??'
"No," I responded back and left the gardens.
Well, I knew Kikyou from before because uncle sent me away to study at a shrine for some months to strengthen my inherited miko powers. I learned quickly and I competed for the top of my class with Kikyou, another miko-in-training. We didn't get along very well, but we didn't fight a lot. She was kinda snobby, but not to showoffish and I "tried" to avoid her as much as possible.
Then there was Hojo the wonder boy, one of our classmates who was training to be a priest. He was so sweet and charming, so innocent and pure and he had his heart set on me the first time he laid eyes on me. He bought me the oddest things after I returned from jobs uncle had sent me out to do because uncle usually lied that I was sick from some contagious diseases or deadly illness. Ginger root, hagswort, frog legs, cinnamon sticks... He was a nice guy who was smitten with me, but I wasn't interested.
'Why is Kikyou back here? Wait, she must have finished her training. She must be a powerful miko now. Better not mess with her....'
"Kagome!" someone called me.
I looked up and there was Sango.
"Hey there cutie! I heard that you were with-" I started to joke around, but her face was serious.
"Kagome! This is no time to be joking around!"
Then I got serious. "W-wait, what's up Sango, is it my uncle?"
"No, worst! Lord Sessshoumaru now has the Western Lands back from his uncle!" she exclaimed frantically.
"Wait, isn't that good news?" said I.
"No it isn't, Kagome! Here, come with me! We have a meeting to go to!" she said, making me worry.
She grabbed my hand and rushed us to the throne room.
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"I have returned the Western Lands to Lord Sesshoumaru from his uncle Lord InuRaijiu. It was long and it was in secret, and I apologize for not telling you all, but it was for the best," spoke uncle.
All of us were worrying. Although it was good news, it was bad for my people.
"Once we help defeat Naraku then Lord Sesshoumaru will return to the Western Lands as we had promised his father," said uncle.
"But, what about our agreement master? Will we be able to return to Shatura?" asked one of my comrades.
Uncle's face lost all happiness it had contained before the question was asked. I never noticed it, but his face was lined with old age all over. He looked very tired, almost as if he had aged a thousand years from the last time I saw him.
"That... is for Lord Inuyasha to decide," replied he.
"But Uncle! You told me, us, all of our people that we would return to our homeland!" I exclaimed, still clinging on desperately to hope.
He sighed, "Kagome... I said that it was possible that we might return to our homeland. The agreement was that we would help aid in defeating Shatura's enemies and destroy the current leader of the Western Lands. After that then Lord InuTaisho would have given us permission to come home to Shatura, but... the deal was with Lord Inutaisho and me, not Lords Inuyasha nor Sesshoumaru.
The original idea was for Sesshoumaru to rule the Western Lands once we defeated his uncle and then put Inuyasha on the Shaturan throne... but things will not run the way we all hoped it to... So as you can see... We may be fighting for a war that will not end our homesickness."
We were all silent. Unsure of what to say and too heartbroken to say anything... Except for me of course, I wanted to kick some ass! I was just fuming with pent up anger!
"Lord Sesshoumaru!" I suddenly snapped, grabbing everyone's attention, "Can't you do something about this?! You are the current king!"
He gave me a dull look and scoffed, "So what if I am? As long as I keep Shatura running until I can figure out how to make my brother stay put, it is none of my concern because this is only a temporary job."
My heart felt like it had broken into a million pieces.
'So... this is how it is? Fight for a country that we've longed to return to only to find out that we've been fighting and losing people for no reason at all?'
Tears started to run down my eyes and I quickly wiped them away before anyone saw.
"This isn't how it was supposed to be! We were-we were supposed to live happily ever after back in Shatura!" my voice cracked.
I turned and ran from the room, ignoring all the calls for me. I ran to the gardens in hopes of finding temporary peace there. That Kikyou bitch was gone, thank god! Still, the sadness was tearing me up inside out. I ran until I reached the bridge above the lily pond.
'My life is a waste. This was the only reason I had to go on. Souta... I promised you... I promised you that...'
My tears returned and fell and fell.
'Souta! I failed your wish! I broke my promise to you! Now, our clan can never rejoin Shatura like you wished. After you died... I had nothing more to go on with except uncle and your wish, but...'
I looked below me and watched as the fish swam about with their petty and meaningless lives...
'...I wonder how deep that water is?...'
"Kagome!"
I turned to look. Crimson Moon and Crimson Blade both stood at the end of the bridge.
"Just let me be..." said I.
'Five feet? Nah... Must be deeper cause I can't see the bottom. Hey, I can see a turtle in there...'
"We heard everything Kagome," said Blade.
"And we cannot leave you alone at a time like this, not when you're-" started Rune, but I stopped her.
"Leave me alone goddammit! I'm just-just reevaluating my life here so give me some peace!" I sniffed as I tried to wipe the oncoming tears away.
"Kagome-"
I turned so fast to face them that my neck hurt, but I didn't care.
"HEY! Didn't you hear me?! I said leave this bitch alone! She's not your lapdog that you can pet whenever you want! GO AWAY!" I screamed at them.
They left after several minutes of hesitation. I sniffed again as the tears kept coming. My eyes wandered back to the pond.
'I hope it's deep... As deep as the sadness I feel right now... Maybe I can go take a "swim" later in there... Maybe all this sadness will wash away with it... maybe this pathetic life too...'
I looked up at the sky.
"Souta... If you can hear me... Souta... What do you want me to do now? I failed you... but I need you to help me know what I should do now... Souta... please help me..." I cried.
My head went back down as I stared endlessly into the rippling water with my tears disturbing the surface of the pond below.
"Souta... I'm sorry..." I whispered as the tears came faster.
'Hey, I can see my reflection...'
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I'm stuck on my assignment. Who Am I? Am I Who? I Who Am? I Am Who? Anyways, that's the question, who are you and the person you want to be in thr future. Kinda hard and I got some strict rules to go by so it's kinda hard to do so I can't wing it this time. Damn! Anyways, go on or stop and review. Your choice, choose wisely young one... (^_^)