First time I posted this I forgot to give the disclaimer and all that crap,
so I've updated this chap, yay! Anyway, I just want to urge everyone to
read Good or Bad, please!!! Right about now is when it starts getting
really interesting. Oh, and all of you Andrew haters out there, don't flame
me cause of this chap, please? Enjoy the reading, fic almost over.
Disclaimer: Ohhh how I love my new FY. Look how perrrrty. Wait, it's disappearing! COME BACK FY, COME BACK!!! *wakes up* oh poo.
"Hey, where's Sean?" Miaka asked grabbing the bowl of popcorn from Yui.
"He got a call on his cell, and said he had to go." Yui swiftly made up the lie, and picked up the movie they picked to watch, Akira. "Why don't we watch Vash the Stampede since we didn't see it last time?"
"After you left we watched it." Tamahome said after a long silence.
"Oh, ok. Akira it is." Yui smiled grabbing Akira to pop it into the DVD player. On the inside she felt betrayed, hurt, and pissed as hell, but even so she smiled as she put the disc into the player.
"I'm really sorry. We were all upset and turned on the movie to kinda calm us." Miaka said clearly really sorry. Yui felt like screaming at Miaka, or even glaring, but instead she smiled.
"It's fine. Chill, Miaka. If you worry too much you'll get wrinkles." Yui's smile widened, and Miaka smiled back at her. God how Yui wanted to hurt her.
"Alright! Movie time!" Tetsuya grinned settling on the floor, Maki sat between his legs and his arms wrapped around her. Miaka and Tamahome looked basically the same. Keisuke had stolen the popcorn, and was happily munching on the right side of the couch. Andrew sat on the left of the couch. Yui sat down in his lap, leaned her head on his collarbone, and relaxed.
The movie went by slowly. Yui was barely paying attention anyway. Her mind kept wondering back to that kiss from Sean. That kiss that had been so final, so... It made her heartache. It was like watching Tetsuya kiss that girl again, except Sean didn't betray her like Tetsuya had. Instead it was Yui who betrayed him. It was because she couldn't put her past behind her. She couldn't put Tetsuya behind her. It made Yui wonder if maybe she was just a coward. A big coward who didn't know what it was she wanted. Her thoughts were interrupted by a sharp jab in her side.
"OW! KEISUKE STOP IT!" Yui yelled as she struggled to bash his face in.
"Don't hurt me!" He cried jumping out of reach.
"You better run!" Yui said angrily struggling to get out of Andrews arms.
"She can be so determined." Maki said, making everyone, but Yui, sweat drop.
"Excuse me?" Yui said turning. She thought the comment was an insult, and she was glaring at the startled Maki.
"Hey, hey, hey! Calm down there. She didn't mean it as an insult you dope." Keisuke walked in front of Yui, blocking her view of Maki.
"Do you have a death wish?" Yui asked dryly.
"Any wish?" He asked with mock enthusiasm.
"You're a dork." Yui couldn't help but laugh.
"And you're a dope. We paused the movie so we can order pizza. We asked you what you wanted but you didn't answer, so I poked you."
"That was not poking! That was trying to impale me with your finger. What's the matter with you!" Yui retorted.
"Fine, fine. SORRY. Now what do you want on your pizza?"
"Your head..."
"Besides that."
"Anything." Keisuke walked out of the room with a list in one hand and a phone in the other. The list was probably a list of what Miaka wanted. Asking what Miaka wants on a pizza takes time and energy. How long had Yui been out of it?
"You ok?" Andrew whispered in Yui's ear. Yui jumped. She had forgotten he was even there.
"Yeah, I'm fine." She smiled.
"You were staring out the window for a long time during the movie, and at one point your eyes got all glassy. It looked like you were going to cry."
"I did?" Yui asked startled. She stood up stretching her limbs a bit.
"Yeah."
"Well, I don't know what to tell ya." She shrugged.
"Yui, can I talk to you on the balcony." He asked. Yui nodded and followed.
"What is it?" She asked, relaxing on the railing.
"Sean doesn't have a cell phone." Andrew stated not looking at Yui.
"..."
"What really happened?"
"Does it matter?"
"Yes."
"Ok." Yui said sighing, "Let's start from the beginning. After you and I broke up or whatever, I walked around aimlessly, and I kinda ended up at Zoom." Yui paused, looking at Andrew for any changes in expression, but his face was blank; neutral. "Sean was there, and he told me to meet him when his shift was over."
"He doesn't end till late."
"Yeah."
"Continue."
"We took a walk in the park, and he walked me home. We were going to go on a date, but he got this absurd idea that I was still in love with a past love."
"Me?"
"No. We hadn't known each other long enough to be past loves."
"Sorry, stupid question. So what happened in the kitchen?"
"Nothing really. He apologized for me being uncomfortable around him, and I told him not to. He just kinda of talked about his feelings for me, and a bunch of stuff, but in the end he left. I doubt I'll ever see him again."
"Oh."
"That's it? Oh? No jealousy or anger?"
"Not really. I'm the one with you, now." Andrew gave Yui a sideways grin that Yui used to love, but was now getting on her nerves.
"Yeah you are." Yui said quietly. There was deep sarcasm in her words.
"Huh?"
"Nothing."
"You said something."
"I said we should go inside, but I changed my mind. I like out here." She lied. She was cold. She wanted to go inside. Damn it!
"Can I ask you something else?"
"Might as well."
"Did you kiss him?"
"..." Yui hesitated not knowing what to say. She glanced behind her and saw everyone inside laughing and chatting, but one by one they would side glance at her and Andrew through the sliding glass. "Yes." She said barely audible.
"When?"
"In the park, and... in the kitchen." She said softly. She felt so stupid. Why had she told him all of this? Why had she told him the truth? Maybe it was sheer stupidity, or maybe she was just tired of the secrets and lies. Didn't matter which reason, she regretted opening her mouth now, and she felt guilty. For the first time Andrew's eyes rose to meet hers, and there was pain... anger and pain.
"The same day we broke up, and an hour ago in the kitchen when I was sitting only a room away?"
"I'm sorry. It was a goodbye kiss, nothing more."
"The kiss in the park?"
"Andrew, I was hurt. You had put me through a lot of stress, and Sean was offering comfort, so..."
"Did you fuck him too? Did you do more than kissing?" Andrew asked in a bitter tone.
"No! God damn it Andrew, you know I wouldn't. I didn't want to do more than kiss with you, so why would I do anything with Sean? It was just one kiss." Yui said crossing her arms over her chest, frowning at Andrew.
"How am I supposed to believe that?" He retorted.
"Less than a year ago I came really close to being raped. So close that I thought I had been, and because of that I did more damage to my life, and a lot of other lives than you can ever dream of. When you started touching me I couldn't stop the memory of those men who had raped me from playing in my mind. I could see them smiling down at me while they tore my clothes with their dirty hands, could hear them grunting, laughing, and saying things to me, could feel my fear choking me." Yui shuddered, wrapping her arms around herself.
"I'm sorry. I... I didn't know."
"I didn't mean to say all that." Yui whispered, still shivering.
"I feel like a jerk all over again."
"I don't want your pity Andrew, and I don't want you to feel bad. I just want you to understand that I was really stressed and hurt when I went to Sean. Plus we weren't even together. Don't be angry."
"I'm not."
"Do you understand me?"
"Yeah I do." He said smiling weakly. The silence stretched between us until someone knocked on the glass door telling us to come inside. The pizza had arrived.
Disclaimer: Ohhh how I love my new FY. Look how perrrrty. Wait, it's disappearing! COME BACK FY, COME BACK!!! *wakes up* oh poo.
"Hey, where's Sean?" Miaka asked grabbing the bowl of popcorn from Yui.
"He got a call on his cell, and said he had to go." Yui swiftly made up the lie, and picked up the movie they picked to watch, Akira. "Why don't we watch Vash the Stampede since we didn't see it last time?"
"After you left we watched it." Tamahome said after a long silence.
"Oh, ok. Akira it is." Yui smiled grabbing Akira to pop it into the DVD player. On the inside she felt betrayed, hurt, and pissed as hell, but even so she smiled as she put the disc into the player.
"I'm really sorry. We were all upset and turned on the movie to kinda calm us." Miaka said clearly really sorry. Yui felt like screaming at Miaka, or even glaring, but instead she smiled.
"It's fine. Chill, Miaka. If you worry too much you'll get wrinkles." Yui's smile widened, and Miaka smiled back at her. God how Yui wanted to hurt her.
"Alright! Movie time!" Tetsuya grinned settling on the floor, Maki sat between his legs and his arms wrapped around her. Miaka and Tamahome looked basically the same. Keisuke had stolen the popcorn, and was happily munching on the right side of the couch. Andrew sat on the left of the couch. Yui sat down in his lap, leaned her head on his collarbone, and relaxed.
The movie went by slowly. Yui was barely paying attention anyway. Her mind kept wondering back to that kiss from Sean. That kiss that had been so final, so... It made her heartache. It was like watching Tetsuya kiss that girl again, except Sean didn't betray her like Tetsuya had. Instead it was Yui who betrayed him. It was because she couldn't put her past behind her. She couldn't put Tetsuya behind her. It made Yui wonder if maybe she was just a coward. A big coward who didn't know what it was she wanted. Her thoughts were interrupted by a sharp jab in her side.
"OW! KEISUKE STOP IT!" Yui yelled as she struggled to bash his face in.
"Don't hurt me!" He cried jumping out of reach.
"You better run!" Yui said angrily struggling to get out of Andrews arms.
"She can be so determined." Maki said, making everyone, but Yui, sweat drop.
"Excuse me?" Yui said turning. She thought the comment was an insult, and she was glaring at the startled Maki.
"Hey, hey, hey! Calm down there. She didn't mean it as an insult you dope." Keisuke walked in front of Yui, blocking her view of Maki.
"Do you have a death wish?" Yui asked dryly.
"Any wish?" He asked with mock enthusiasm.
"You're a dork." Yui couldn't help but laugh.
"And you're a dope. We paused the movie so we can order pizza. We asked you what you wanted but you didn't answer, so I poked you."
"That was not poking! That was trying to impale me with your finger. What's the matter with you!" Yui retorted.
"Fine, fine. SORRY. Now what do you want on your pizza?"
"Your head..."
"Besides that."
"Anything." Keisuke walked out of the room with a list in one hand and a phone in the other. The list was probably a list of what Miaka wanted. Asking what Miaka wants on a pizza takes time and energy. How long had Yui been out of it?
"You ok?" Andrew whispered in Yui's ear. Yui jumped. She had forgotten he was even there.
"Yeah, I'm fine." She smiled.
"You were staring out the window for a long time during the movie, and at one point your eyes got all glassy. It looked like you were going to cry."
"I did?" Yui asked startled. She stood up stretching her limbs a bit.
"Yeah."
"Well, I don't know what to tell ya." She shrugged.
"Yui, can I talk to you on the balcony." He asked. Yui nodded and followed.
"What is it?" She asked, relaxing on the railing.
"Sean doesn't have a cell phone." Andrew stated not looking at Yui.
"..."
"What really happened?"
"Does it matter?"
"Yes."
"Ok." Yui said sighing, "Let's start from the beginning. After you and I broke up or whatever, I walked around aimlessly, and I kinda ended up at Zoom." Yui paused, looking at Andrew for any changes in expression, but his face was blank; neutral. "Sean was there, and he told me to meet him when his shift was over."
"He doesn't end till late."
"Yeah."
"Continue."
"We took a walk in the park, and he walked me home. We were going to go on a date, but he got this absurd idea that I was still in love with a past love."
"Me?"
"No. We hadn't known each other long enough to be past loves."
"Sorry, stupid question. So what happened in the kitchen?"
"Nothing really. He apologized for me being uncomfortable around him, and I told him not to. He just kinda of talked about his feelings for me, and a bunch of stuff, but in the end he left. I doubt I'll ever see him again."
"Oh."
"That's it? Oh? No jealousy or anger?"
"Not really. I'm the one with you, now." Andrew gave Yui a sideways grin that Yui used to love, but was now getting on her nerves.
"Yeah you are." Yui said quietly. There was deep sarcasm in her words.
"Huh?"
"Nothing."
"You said something."
"I said we should go inside, but I changed my mind. I like out here." She lied. She was cold. She wanted to go inside. Damn it!
"Can I ask you something else?"
"Might as well."
"Did you kiss him?"
"..." Yui hesitated not knowing what to say. She glanced behind her and saw everyone inside laughing and chatting, but one by one they would side glance at her and Andrew through the sliding glass. "Yes." She said barely audible.
"When?"
"In the park, and... in the kitchen." She said softly. She felt so stupid. Why had she told him all of this? Why had she told him the truth? Maybe it was sheer stupidity, or maybe she was just tired of the secrets and lies. Didn't matter which reason, she regretted opening her mouth now, and she felt guilty. For the first time Andrew's eyes rose to meet hers, and there was pain... anger and pain.
"The same day we broke up, and an hour ago in the kitchen when I was sitting only a room away?"
"I'm sorry. It was a goodbye kiss, nothing more."
"The kiss in the park?"
"Andrew, I was hurt. You had put me through a lot of stress, and Sean was offering comfort, so..."
"Did you fuck him too? Did you do more than kissing?" Andrew asked in a bitter tone.
"No! God damn it Andrew, you know I wouldn't. I didn't want to do more than kiss with you, so why would I do anything with Sean? It was just one kiss." Yui said crossing her arms over her chest, frowning at Andrew.
"How am I supposed to believe that?" He retorted.
"Less than a year ago I came really close to being raped. So close that I thought I had been, and because of that I did more damage to my life, and a lot of other lives than you can ever dream of. When you started touching me I couldn't stop the memory of those men who had raped me from playing in my mind. I could see them smiling down at me while they tore my clothes with their dirty hands, could hear them grunting, laughing, and saying things to me, could feel my fear choking me." Yui shuddered, wrapping her arms around herself.
"I'm sorry. I... I didn't know."
"I didn't mean to say all that." Yui whispered, still shivering.
"I feel like a jerk all over again."
"I don't want your pity Andrew, and I don't want you to feel bad. I just want you to understand that I was really stressed and hurt when I went to Sean. Plus we weren't even together. Don't be angry."
"I'm not."
"Do you understand me?"
"Yeah I do." He said smiling weakly. The silence stretched between us until someone knocked on the glass door telling us to come inside. The pizza had arrived.