Ok. Back up and running. If you forgot what happened in the last chapter, Heero asked for a new mission. When he went home to get his things, he had apparently forgotten his own birthday. He wasn't himself so Relena was worried.

Warning- this one is a song fic. If you want, ignore the lyrics.

Holding Back. Ch. 2. - The goodbye.

*She came calling
One early morning
She showed her crown of thorns*

The next morning Relena woke up early to the sound of something falling.
She thought it came from her room, where she was but soon realized it
came from the room next door. She walked out and into the next room to
see if anyone was hurt. Of course before she knocked before she entered.
This was really the only room she did that for. She had good reason to be
cautious. That room was Heero's room. If she caught him off guard he
would most likely attack her.

" Heero? You in there?" she said as she slowly opened the door.
" Shit!"
Relena ran up to Heero seeing that the shelf in his closet collapsed on
him.
"You all right?' she asked while helping him up. Heero just shrugged and
stared at her.
" What are doing in here!" Heero snapped at her.
" I thought I heard something fall. I came to see if were ok."
" I'm fine." Heero said and pointed to the door, hinting to her to leave.

* she whispered softly
to tell a story
about how she had been wronged*

When Relena left his room, she wondered why he was so angry. ' was he
angry at me for some reason?' she thought to herself. 'sure I did just
barge in when no one answered'. ' I wonder what's wrong.' As Relena
headed downstairs to get something to eat, she saw her good friends,
Quatre, Trowa, Wufei, and Duo sitting in the living talking over some
coffee.

" hey guys!" Relena said as she walked over to them.
" hey, babe." Duo said with a grin on his face.
" something wrong Relena?" Quatre asked.
" no. I just went to check up on Heero and he seems very stressed out. Do
you guys know anything?"
" nope." Trowa replied.
" Duo, what about you? You talk to him a lot." Wufie said.
" no clue. He seems stressed out though. I'll talk to him later."

Just then Heero walked downstairs and saw everyone sitting down. He went
to join them. ' better keep it cool. Relena already suspects something' "
Heero, buddy! How you been?" Duo shouted from the other side of the room.
Heero sat next to Relena and put his arm around the back of the chair to
relax.

After some coffee and breakfast, Duo, Trowa, Wufie , and Quatre headed
over to preventors HQ. Heero stayed behind to keep an eye on Relena one
last time before he left. He did his normal routine, a jog in the
morning, a shower and then get ready to accompany Relena to her meetings.
He loved his job. He really did. But he had been starting to feel
something for Relena. He really didn't know what it was. He always tried
to ignore his emotions and keep them inside. Everyday it became harder.
That's why he wanted out.

After getting back from the day of amazingly boring meetings, Relena went
up to her room to shower and get changed. When she got to her room, Heero
was standing by the door. It was if he was waiting for her. Neither of
them said a word. Heero just smiled at her, and she returned it. Then she
walked into her room.

After making sure Relena was 'safe' he went to his own room to get the
rest of his things together so he could leave. As he was getting his
stuff together, he realized he left the door open. When he glanced out
the door, there stood Relena. Somehow she looked like she knew. He
walked over to her and smiled.

" Heero, why are you packing your things?"
" I'm leaving Relena."
" but why? Is there something wrong? As she said this, Heero felt bad for
her. He put his arms around her and hugged her gently.
" I need to leave. I've been reassigned."
" do you have to? Heero please don't leave. We'll figure something out so
you don't have to leave.'
" I have to."
" Heero, I don't want you to leave. Please.", she said as tears rolled
down her cheeks, " I'll miss you."

Heero looked her as tears fell from her eyes. He thought that this would
have been easier. He had put together the perfect excuse, but he could
not say it.

" goodbye Relena." He whispered in her ear, and then waked away from her
to get his things. He didn't want everyone to see him leave so he used
the window. Before he took that last step, he looked back and saw her
crying, while staring at him as he left. ' I'm sorry relena' he said to
himself and then jumped down from the balcony.

" NO!" Relena screamed.

After hearing Relena, the other four pilots who were eating dinner, ran
upstairs as fast as their legs would carry them when they got there, they
saw Relena sitting on the bed crying. Duo noticed that Heero had
disappeared and saw the open window to the balcony. Quatre sat down next
to Relena trying to calm her down.

* as she lay there lifeless
he stole her innocence
and this is how she carried on

well I guess she closed her eyes
and just imagined everything's alright
but she could not hold her tears
' cause they were sent to wash away those years
they were sent to wash away those years*

it took awhile for Relena to stop crying. Quatre took her back to her
room and tried talking to her. Duo and the others searched Heero's room
for some answers. They noticed most of his belongings were gone, and his
key to the mansion was left behind on his desk. They knew partially what
happened. Why, no one knew. They never understood why he did most of the
things he did.

Back in Relena's room, Quatre was able to get a few words out of between
all the tears and the curses. She told him that Heero left. That he was
reassigned. Btu one thing Quatre didn't understand was why he was so
secretive about it. In a way, he knew Heero left for more than that
reason alone. But he hoped he wouldn't be gone forever.

-meanwhile-

as Heero made his way to his car, he could still see his window and the
shadows standing there. He knew the others had gotten there already so he
got into his car and headed for the airport. For some reason, he felt sad
to leave. Like he was attached to something there. He missed Relena
already. But he knew that he had to put her in the back of his mind for
now. it was like he was going on a mission right? He kept telling
himself, to keep back his emotions. But he still couldn't figure out why
he felt so bad about leaving Relena. Sure they had spent a long time
together. But did he really have feelings for her? He kissed her once or
twice but that was it. It wasn't a big deal. He kept telling himself some
more.

When he got to the airport, sally was there to greet him and see him off
as she did with all the soldiers.
" are you sure you want to do this Heero?"
" yes."

Heero then walked onto the plane and found his seat. Suddenly he felt
angry with himself. He didn't why, but he did. The whole flight, all he
did was daydream and think about Relena and his friends( if you could
call the friends). He couldn't stop thinking if this was right thing to
do. Slowly, he was able to fall asleep. In just ten hours he would be at
his destination.

*my angers violent
but still I'm silent
when tragedy strikes at home

I know this decadence
is shared by millions
remember your not alone*

when Heero arrived at his new apartment, his anger finally took over. He
pretty much trashed the place. After a while, he calmed down and started
unpacking. He unpacked his clothes and set up his laptop. Then, he found
the picture of himself and Relena. He thought he had left it behind. He
put it in his dresser drawer and that's where it stayed.

-back at the mansion-

as it got later, the four former g-pilots decided to stay and keep an eye
on Relena. Of course, for moral support. They knew how much she cared for
him. Maybe even loved him.

" goodnight Relena."
" goodnight Quatre. Thank you."
" your welcome." Quatre said as he left Relena's room and headed for his
own.

That night, Relena couldn't sleep. All she think about was Heero. When
she did fall asleep, he was there too. Relena hoped he was the same way.
if she couldn't sleep because of what he did, than neither can he.

" Heero, where are you going? Come on!" " Relena, hurry up. Your going to
miss it." Relena and Heero sat down on the hill and watched the sun set.
It was beautiful. It was amazing how the so-called Perfect Soldier could
be so kind at times. " wow. I want this to last forever. Heero, promise
me you won't leave." " I can't. but if I do leave I'll be sure to tell
you ahead of time." " Heero, just promise me." Relena looked at him at
smiled, while laying her head on his shoulder. " I promise.

*for we have crossed many oceans
and we labor in between
in life there are many quotients
and I hope I find the mean*

so. How did you like part two. I think this one is a little longer than
the other one but hey. I'm trying. Oh by the way the song is wash away
those years by creed. Please let me know what you think. Please review!