Hello!! After much struggle and many sleepless nights, I manage to squeeze
out another chapter. It might not be up your expectations!! I wanna cry
whenever I thought how disappointed you ppl might be. I'm trying my best!!
For those who wonder what my mother language is, it is Mandarin. I'm a Chinese who lived in Singapore (any1 have any idea where Singapore is??) English is our national language but one can never get the hang of that language, not when there are Malays, Indians, and many other races in the country. We kinda speak this language called "Singlish" which means Singapore Style English. It consist of a mixture of English, Chinese, Malay, Indian plus many other dialects.
So forgive me, if my language is hard to understand cos I dun speak prefect English like you do, though I tried very best to write in the British style.
KK, enough of craps. I proudly present, the next chapter!!
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Harry sat on the desk of his room writing what looked like, lots of letters. He crushed yet another piece of parchment and threw it over his shoulders, he had been writing for the past one hour but he seemed not to be able to finish the letters he intended to write.
Harry kept writing and writing, parchment littered all over the floor, ink spilled over some parts of the desk, he had finished five letters and there was one more to go, but he simply couldn't find the right words to express what he wanted to say,
"Come one, come on, think, think!!" Harry hit his forehead in frustration,
"There is no time, come on, write, write!! I have no more time!!"
Harry was so frustrated that he was almost in tears, this was the most important letter but he simply didn't know what to write. He threw his quill onto the desk so hard that it almost snapped into half and paced around the room. Harry paced so fast around the room that he was getting a bit giddy; finally he sat back onto the chair and tried to write something.
Harry pulled his hair, banged his head against the desk but no words came to his head, when he was about to give up, suddenly like the water gate being opened, all ideas rushed to his brain and he began writing. Harry wrote like a man being possessed, he wrote like 2 foot of parchment until he stopped. He smiled wearily, rolled up the six parchments, tied them onto Hedwig's feet and sent her flying out into the night. He watched her soar into the sky and disappear around the corner, and flung himself onto his double bed exhausted. It took him less than a minute to fall asleep, he hadn't been sleeping properly for a few days.
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Hedwig flew into the cool night; delivering the letters her master wanted her to send. She had long ago sensed that her master was planning something sinister and today he seemed more unlike his usual self. When he tied the letter onto her, there was a tinge of sadness in his eyes, all the letters seemed to be very important to him especially the last one, his eyes were most tender when he looked at it. Hedwig felt that it's her mission to ensure all the letters were delivered safely, thus she decided to deliver the last letter first since it's the nearest and the most important.
Ginny was not sleeping too soundly, she was tossing and turning in her sleep, every time she tried to close her eyes, the image of Harry looking at her with sadness in his green eyes filled up her fogy brain. She tried to push the image out of her head but the more she tried, the harder it was to empty her head of all emotions, thus she decided that some cold air might do her some good.
Ginny threw open the window and a gush of cold wind welcomed her, the moon was especially bright tonight and the stars were plentiful. She was admiring the night view of the school ground when her eyes caught sight of a white owl gazing across the grass,
"Must be Hedwig, hunting perhaps", she thought, she was wondering which unlucky toad or rat was the owl's supper when she noticed that the animal was flying higher and higher until it was level to where she was and it flew onto her shoulders. Ginny was surprised when she saw that there was a stack of letters tied to Hedwig's feet, Hedwig pecked Ginny's fingers lightly and prodded the letter with her name written it. Ginny untied the letter bewildered, she was about to see to whom the rest of the letters was addressed to but Hedwig had taken off before she could do so, clearly the bird was under a mission and she had to deliver all the letters in the shortest time possible.
Ginny could hardly wait to open the letter, she practically ran to her bed to get some light, not bothering to keep her volume down, considering that all her roommate were fast asleep. She tore open the envelope excitedly and found herself looking at Harry's loopy handwriting,
"Dear Ginny", it begins,
"it took me a whole half an hour to finish writing this letter. I've got lots to things to tell you, but I don't know where to begin. The first thing is that I love you, I knew very well that your heart is pinning for me but there is no way I can accept your feelings for me. You can say that I'm selfish, you can say that I'm coward but I just want to tell you that I'm sorry I can't have your love and can't give you love in return.
You may be wondering why am I acting all weird, I knew that you had sense something wrong with me today, there is nothing about me that can escape your eyes. I had to control myself from blabbing everything to you when I looked into your eyes this evening, but I can't, for I knew you would want to follow me if I told you where I was going. That's why I had to keep all my love for you inside me even if it hurts like hell, until it appropriate for me to do so because I want to protect you from unnecessary pain.
Please don't doubt my feelings for you, I love you so much that I can die for you and that's what I'm doing, I'm going to fight for your future, Ron's future, everyone's future even if it costs my life. Promise me Ginny that if I don't return, forget me, give your love to someone worthy. Don't grave for me, I'm not worth it. I want to lesson the pain for you so that it's easier for you to move on, there are better guys out there, forget me and carry on. Promise me!!
How I wish I could live with you forever. I want to kiss you and lie down with you and wake up with you everyday of my life till I die, years and years away. But lives don't allow me to do so, and how I hate not being able to love you. I didn't know that I could ever love anything so much, Oh Ginny, I wish this night would never end. If only we could stay in each other's arm, and the world could stop turning, and everyone else could fall into a sleep. Everyone except us, and you and I could live forever and just love each other.
If I went away before you did, we shall meet again in the realm of the dead. We shall continue our love there, I promise I wouldn't go away; I wait till the end of time for you. Remember, I love you so much that I could die. Forgive me!!
Love you forever, Harry "
Ginny was weeping silently, her little body shaking uncontrollably when she read the letter, she felt so painful that she was suffocating. Her heart was bleeding as if a razor sharp knife had ran across it, the pain was as painful as being squeezed mercilessly by a pair of invisible hand. She felt as if her heart was torn apart, Harry..., Harry.... Maybe he hadn't left yet, maybe she could still get him before he left.
Ginny threw the letter onto the floor and ran out of her dormitory so fast as if her life depended on it. She kept running and running not bothering that the din she's making may wake the whole house, she kept running. She run down the stairs four steps at a time and at the last few steps to the common room, she missed a step and skidded the rest of the steps and landed painfully on her back. Ginny picked herself up from the floor carelessly and ran up the left stairs to the boys' dormitory to the top of the tower where the HeadBoy's Quarter was, praying that she'll make it in time before he left. By the time, she reached the outside of Harry's room, she was so dizzy that she almost collapsed right at the doorstep, but her will was keeping her conscious, Ginny clutched the painful stitch at her chest tightly and knocked the door hurriedly,
"Please, please don't let him be gone yet. Don't let him be gone yet", she chanted desperately.
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How is the chapter? Up to your expectations??
Finally, I got a cliff hanger. Wow, I usually simply can't get a cliff hanger, but now, I got it.
I never know that it's that difficult to write a sad romance story. The next time I wanted to write a story, I'll see to it that it's not a sad one. I kinda agree with The Backliner, I didn't seemed to be able to get the concept of a sad story right!!
For those who wonder what my mother language is, it is Mandarin. I'm a Chinese who lived in Singapore (any1 have any idea where Singapore is??) English is our national language but one can never get the hang of that language, not when there are Malays, Indians, and many other races in the country. We kinda speak this language called "Singlish" which means Singapore Style English. It consist of a mixture of English, Chinese, Malay, Indian plus many other dialects.
So forgive me, if my language is hard to understand cos I dun speak prefect English like you do, though I tried very best to write in the British style.
KK, enough of craps. I proudly present, the next chapter!!
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Harry sat on the desk of his room writing what looked like, lots of letters. He crushed yet another piece of parchment and threw it over his shoulders, he had been writing for the past one hour but he seemed not to be able to finish the letters he intended to write.
Harry kept writing and writing, parchment littered all over the floor, ink spilled over some parts of the desk, he had finished five letters and there was one more to go, but he simply couldn't find the right words to express what he wanted to say,
"Come one, come on, think, think!!" Harry hit his forehead in frustration,
"There is no time, come on, write, write!! I have no more time!!"
Harry was so frustrated that he was almost in tears, this was the most important letter but he simply didn't know what to write. He threw his quill onto the desk so hard that it almost snapped into half and paced around the room. Harry paced so fast around the room that he was getting a bit giddy; finally he sat back onto the chair and tried to write something.
Harry pulled his hair, banged his head against the desk but no words came to his head, when he was about to give up, suddenly like the water gate being opened, all ideas rushed to his brain and he began writing. Harry wrote like a man being possessed, he wrote like 2 foot of parchment until he stopped. He smiled wearily, rolled up the six parchments, tied them onto Hedwig's feet and sent her flying out into the night. He watched her soar into the sky and disappear around the corner, and flung himself onto his double bed exhausted. It took him less than a minute to fall asleep, he hadn't been sleeping properly for a few days.
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Hedwig flew into the cool night; delivering the letters her master wanted her to send. She had long ago sensed that her master was planning something sinister and today he seemed more unlike his usual self. When he tied the letter onto her, there was a tinge of sadness in his eyes, all the letters seemed to be very important to him especially the last one, his eyes were most tender when he looked at it. Hedwig felt that it's her mission to ensure all the letters were delivered safely, thus she decided to deliver the last letter first since it's the nearest and the most important.
Ginny was not sleeping too soundly, she was tossing and turning in her sleep, every time she tried to close her eyes, the image of Harry looking at her with sadness in his green eyes filled up her fogy brain. She tried to push the image out of her head but the more she tried, the harder it was to empty her head of all emotions, thus she decided that some cold air might do her some good.
Ginny threw open the window and a gush of cold wind welcomed her, the moon was especially bright tonight and the stars were plentiful. She was admiring the night view of the school ground when her eyes caught sight of a white owl gazing across the grass,
"Must be Hedwig, hunting perhaps", she thought, she was wondering which unlucky toad or rat was the owl's supper when she noticed that the animal was flying higher and higher until it was level to where she was and it flew onto her shoulders. Ginny was surprised when she saw that there was a stack of letters tied to Hedwig's feet, Hedwig pecked Ginny's fingers lightly and prodded the letter with her name written it. Ginny untied the letter bewildered, she was about to see to whom the rest of the letters was addressed to but Hedwig had taken off before she could do so, clearly the bird was under a mission and she had to deliver all the letters in the shortest time possible.
Ginny could hardly wait to open the letter, she practically ran to her bed to get some light, not bothering to keep her volume down, considering that all her roommate were fast asleep. She tore open the envelope excitedly and found herself looking at Harry's loopy handwriting,
"Dear Ginny", it begins,
"it took me a whole half an hour to finish writing this letter. I've got lots to things to tell you, but I don't know where to begin. The first thing is that I love you, I knew very well that your heart is pinning for me but there is no way I can accept your feelings for me. You can say that I'm selfish, you can say that I'm coward but I just want to tell you that I'm sorry I can't have your love and can't give you love in return.
You may be wondering why am I acting all weird, I knew that you had sense something wrong with me today, there is nothing about me that can escape your eyes. I had to control myself from blabbing everything to you when I looked into your eyes this evening, but I can't, for I knew you would want to follow me if I told you where I was going. That's why I had to keep all my love for you inside me even if it hurts like hell, until it appropriate for me to do so because I want to protect you from unnecessary pain.
Please don't doubt my feelings for you, I love you so much that I can die for you and that's what I'm doing, I'm going to fight for your future, Ron's future, everyone's future even if it costs my life. Promise me Ginny that if I don't return, forget me, give your love to someone worthy. Don't grave for me, I'm not worth it. I want to lesson the pain for you so that it's easier for you to move on, there are better guys out there, forget me and carry on. Promise me!!
How I wish I could live with you forever. I want to kiss you and lie down with you and wake up with you everyday of my life till I die, years and years away. But lives don't allow me to do so, and how I hate not being able to love you. I didn't know that I could ever love anything so much, Oh Ginny, I wish this night would never end. If only we could stay in each other's arm, and the world could stop turning, and everyone else could fall into a sleep. Everyone except us, and you and I could live forever and just love each other.
If I went away before you did, we shall meet again in the realm of the dead. We shall continue our love there, I promise I wouldn't go away; I wait till the end of time for you. Remember, I love you so much that I could die. Forgive me!!
Love you forever, Harry "
Ginny was weeping silently, her little body shaking uncontrollably when she read the letter, she felt so painful that she was suffocating. Her heart was bleeding as if a razor sharp knife had ran across it, the pain was as painful as being squeezed mercilessly by a pair of invisible hand. She felt as if her heart was torn apart, Harry..., Harry.... Maybe he hadn't left yet, maybe she could still get him before he left.
Ginny threw the letter onto the floor and ran out of her dormitory so fast as if her life depended on it. She kept running and running not bothering that the din she's making may wake the whole house, she kept running. She run down the stairs four steps at a time and at the last few steps to the common room, she missed a step and skidded the rest of the steps and landed painfully on her back. Ginny picked herself up from the floor carelessly and ran up the left stairs to the boys' dormitory to the top of the tower where the HeadBoy's Quarter was, praying that she'll make it in time before he left. By the time, she reached the outside of Harry's room, she was so dizzy that she almost collapsed right at the doorstep, but her will was keeping her conscious, Ginny clutched the painful stitch at her chest tightly and knocked the door hurriedly,
"Please, please don't let him be gone yet. Don't let him be gone yet", she chanted desperately.
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How is the chapter? Up to your expectations??
Finally, I got a cliff hanger. Wow, I usually simply can't get a cliff hanger, but now, I got it.
I never know that it's that difficult to write a sad romance story. The next time I wanted to write a story, I'll see to it that it's not a sad one. I kinda agree with The Backliner, I didn't seemed to be able to get the concept of a sad story right!!