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Alone in My Heart by xFallenAngel of DEATHx (THIS IS NOT A FLUFFY FIC!!)
Chapter 2: Tears Within Me
Sakura smiled to herself, she was finally back. Back from what she had been through, she knew she had made the world's stupidest mistakes. Ignoring her friends, distancing herself from her one true love, and worst of all, making up reasons just to defy things. Lying to herself made everything worse. Deep down, she knew what was the right thing to do, but she never did it. She was just caught up in thought about all the bad things that have happened. They were bad, but they weren't. She made everything seem like it was her fault, when there were reasons for everything that happened. Syaoran Li arrived at the Tomoeda airport. He hurriedly climbed on a bus. When he arrived at Sakura's house he ran to the doorstep and rang the doorbell 5 times in a row. Nobody answered. "Obviously, nobody is going to answer the door at 3 in the morning," he thought, "everyone would be sleeping or busy doing something else." He walked over to the side of Sakura's house, until he arrived at Sakura's bedroom window. Li opened the window with the lock card, then climbed in. Sakura was sleeping soundly while Kero was playing video games. When Kero finally noticed Li's arrival, he put the game on pause and quickly flew over to him.
"Nihao, brat!" , he said, "How was Hong Kong? When you left, Sakura was miserable. She almost starved herself. What about you?"
Syaoran fumed. "You're pretty loud, stuffed animal. For your information, I've been in contact with Tomoyo. Sakura strangely hasn't written anything to me, or called me. Everything isn't my fault, you know. And, I thought that teddy bears, winged or not were supposed to be inanimate objects. But, it shows that you've got a pretty loud mouth, bad temper, and feelings as well. Just tell Sakura I dropped by, and that I'll be back , I'm to tired to wake her up. Bye." Li climbed out the window, and headed to his apartment. Kero flew back towards his controller, and continued his game. ***************Later***********************************
The alarm clock rang for the fifteenth time. "Sakura, get up!!," yelled Kero. "I'm supposed to tell you something. But, since Li said that I was supposed to tell you something, doesn't mean I have to. Maybe I'll just won't tell you since he didn't say that I had to tell you."
Sakura yawned. "Hoe?! It's already 10:00! And WHO told you to tell me something?!,"
"God, you never pay attention. As I say for the second time, Li, the brat, stopped by yesterday when he got back from Hong Kong. But, this was when you were sleeping."
"So then why didn't you wake me up? And what were you doing at three o clock in the morning anyway?"
"Geez, just because I eat and sleep doesn't necessarily mean I have to. I was playing video games. Li made me pause my game because he came in through your window, and because I had to pause, I told the brat off."
"Do you have to call him a brat?"
"Yeah, but 'the' brat because he calls me a stuffed animal, and he made me pause my game." Sakura sighed.
"So he's back? From Hong Kong? At his apartment?"
"Something like that." Replied Kero carelessly, getting back to his game. (Yeah, he has been playing that since before Li arrived.) Then the phone rang. Touya answered it.
"Hello? Kinomoto residence. Toya speaking."
"Hoe? Oh, um, can I speak to Sakura please? This is Tomoyo."
"Yeah, sure, whatever" he replied, "hold on." Touya put the reciever down. "Monster! Daidouji is on the phone, she wants to speak to you! Hurry up and get the phone before I hang up!"
Sakura went over to her desk and picked up the phone. "Hello?"
"Hey Sakura, it's Tomoyo."
"Oh, hey. What's up?"
"Nothing. Li was supposed to be here by this morning. Have you heard from him."
"Uh, yeah. He stopped by earlier this morning. But, I missed him. It was 3 'o clock in the morning, and I was sleeping. Kero was playing videogames, and Li made him pause, so Kero told him off." Tomoyo laughed. "And doesn't this ALWAYS happen?"
"Yeah," sighed Sakura, "it does."
"You never get tired of everything always kind of straightforward?"
"Sometimes. But then again, I'm not as confused this way."
"Right."
"Well, I'll talk to you later, I've got someone to catch up with."
"Oh, I see. Well, I'll see you later then!"
"Yeah, bye."
"Bye"
Sakura hung up, and hurried upstairs to change and brush her teeth. Barely 3 minutes later, she was done. She ran downstairs and out the door.
"Stupid chinese brat," thought Toya. He knew what Sakura was up to. She was going to visit the brat, who just came back from Hong Kong. "At least she's been looking better then when he was gone," he said to himself. Then, he went back to watching the television. **************************Li's place**************************
Sakura rang the doorbell over and over. "Geez, what's taking him so long?" she thought. Li opened the door, not having a clue who it was. Realizing it was Sakura, he smiled, "Do you ring everyone's doorbell 50,000 times in a row, or are you just in a bad mood today?"
"Well, I am mad that Kero always calls you a brat, and same about my brother, but I'm just happy that you're back. And you could've woken me up earlier this morning!"
"Nah, didn't feel like it," said Li. "But it looks like you're eating again."
"Yeah.and?"
"I don't know."
"If you don't know, then how was Hong Kong? Without me?"
"I don't know, it was kind of quiet, in a good way."
"WHAT?"
"I'm just teasing, yeah, I missed you."
"I did too!"
"I know. That's why I came back a lot earlier then I had planned to. I came so early to see if you were alright, but I really missed you too. Meilin is really different now. Even the old version of her is way better, more innocent, even. God, once when I was there, she tried to drug me, and she cornered me in this room one night and."he trailed off, not wanting to relive that night in front of Sakura.
"What happened?"
"Uh, nothing, I just told her to back off of me," he said quickly.
"Thought so," Sakura said taking in his every word. She figured that Meilin must've tried to get Syaoran into her bed one night while he was at Hong Kong. "Slut," she thought, "but I know my little wolf, he wouldn't let her get to him, even if it killed him." "Well, change isn't always good then, isn't it?" she said to Li, to break the awkward silence.
"No, I guess not," he replied agreeing. "It really isn't good," he thought, but memories of that night quickly flooded back to him. Syaoran quickly changed the subject.
"Well, maybe since I'm back, Hiragizawa, Daidouji, and us should go somewhere this Saturday. I don't know. I need to do SOMETHING besides just stay here doing nothing."
Sakura smiled to herself, she was finally back. Back from what she had been through, she knew she had made the world's stupidest mistakes. Ignoring her friends, distancing herself from her one true love, and worst of all, making up reasons just to defy things. Lying to herself made everything worse. Deep down, she knew what was the right thing to do, but she never did it. She was just caught up in thought about all the bad things that have happened. They were bad, but they weren't. She made everything seem like it was her fault, when there were reasons for everything that happened. Syaoran Li arrived at the Tomoeda airport. He hurriedly climbed on a bus. When he arrived at Sakura's house he ran to the doorstep and rang the doorbell 5 times in a row. Nobody answered. "Obviously, nobody is going to answer the door at 3 in the morning," he thought, "everyone would be sleeping or busy doing something else." He walked over to the side of Sakura's house, until he arrived at Sakura's bedroom window. Li opened the window with the lock card, then climbed in. Sakura was sleeping soundly while Kero was playing video games. When Kero finally noticed Li's arrival, he put the game on pause and quickly flew over to him.
"Nihao, brat!" , he said, "How was Hong Kong? When you left, Sakura was miserable. She almost starved herself. What about you?"
Syaoran fumed. "You're pretty loud, stuffed animal. For your information, I've been in contact with Tomoyo. Sakura strangely hasn't written anything to me, or called me. Everything isn't my fault, you know. And, I thought that teddy bears, winged or not were supposed to be inanimate objects. But, it shows that you've got a pretty loud mouth, bad temper, and feelings as well. Just tell Sakura I dropped by, and that I'll be back , I'm to tired to wake her up. Bye." Li climbed out the window, and headed to his apartment. Kero flew back towards his controller, and continued his game. ***************Later***********************************
The alarm clock rang for the fifteenth time. "Sakura, get up!!," yelled Kero. "I'm supposed to tell you something. But, since Li said that I was supposed to tell you something, doesn't mean I have to. Maybe I'll just won't tell you since he didn't say that I had to tell you."
Sakura yawned. "Hoe?! It's already 10:00! And WHO told you to tell me something?!,"
"God, you never pay attention. As I say for the second time, Li, the brat, stopped by yesterday when he got back from Hong Kong. But, this was when you were sleeping."
"So then why didn't you wake me up? And what were you doing at three o clock in the morning anyway?"
"Geez, just because I eat and sleep doesn't necessarily mean I have to. I was playing video games. Li made me pause my game because he came in through your window, and because I had to pause, I told the brat off."
"Do you have to call him a brat?"
"Yeah, but 'the' brat because he calls me a stuffed animal, and he made me pause my game." Sakura sighed.
"So he's back? From Hong Kong? At his apartment?"
"Something like that." Replied Kero carelessly, getting back to his game. (Yeah, he has been playing that since before Li arrived.) Then the phone rang. Touya answered it.
"Hello? Kinomoto residence. Toya speaking."
"Hoe? Oh, um, can I speak to Sakura please? This is Tomoyo."
"Yeah, sure, whatever" he replied, "hold on." Touya put the reciever down. "Monster! Daidouji is on the phone, she wants to speak to you! Hurry up and get the phone before I hang up!"
Sakura went over to her desk and picked up the phone. "Hello?"
"Hey Sakura, it's Tomoyo."
"Oh, hey. What's up?"
"Nothing. Li was supposed to be here by this morning. Have you heard from him."
"Uh, yeah. He stopped by earlier this morning. But, I missed him. It was 3 'o clock in the morning, and I was sleeping. Kero was playing videogames, and Li made him pause, so Kero told him off." Tomoyo laughed. "And doesn't this ALWAYS happen?"
"Yeah," sighed Sakura, "it does."
"You never get tired of everything always kind of straightforward?"
"Sometimes. But then again, I'm not as confused this way."
"Right."
"Well, I'll talk to you later, I've got someone to catch up with."
"Oh, I see. Well, I'll see you later then!"
"Yeah, bye."
"Bye"
Sakura hung up, and hurried upstairs to change and brush her teeth. Barely 3 minutes later, she was done. She ran downstairs and out the door.
"Stupid chinese brat," thought Toya. He knew what Sakura was up to. She was going to visit the brat, who just came back from Hong Kong. "At least she's been looking better then when he was gone," he said to himself. Then, he went back to watching the television. **************************Li's place**************************
Sakura rang the doorbell over and over. "Geez, what's taking him so long?" she thought. Li opened the door, not having a clue who it was. Realizing it was Sakura, he smiled, "Do you ring everyone's doorbell 50,000 times in a row, or are you just in a bad mood today?"
"Well, I am mad that Kero always calls you a brat, and same about my brother, but I'm just happy that you're back. And you could've woken me up earlier this morning!"
"Nah, didn't feel like it," said Li. "But it looks like you're eating again."
"Yeah.and?"
"I don't know."
"If you don't know, then how was Hong Kong? Without me?"
"I don't know, it was kind of quiet, in a good way."
"WHAT?"
"I'm just teasing, yeah, I missed you."
"I did too!"
"I know. That's why I came back a lot earlier then I had planned to. I came so early to see if you were alright, but I really missed you too. Meilin is really different now. Even the old version of her is way better, more innocent, even. God, once when I was there, she tried to drug me, and she cornered me in this room one night and."he trailed off, not wanting to relive that night in front of Sakura.
"What happened?"
"Uh, nothing, I just told her to back off of me," he said quickly.
"Thought so," Sakura said taking in his every word. She figured that Meilin must've tried to get Syaoran into her bed one night while he was at Hong Kong. "Slut," she thought, "but I know my little wolf, he wouldn't let her get to him, even if it killed him." "Well, change isn't always good then, isn't it?" she said to Li, to break the awkward silence.
"No, I guess not," he replied agreeing. "It really isn't good," he thought, but memories of that night quickly flooded back to him. Syaoran quickly changed the subject.
"Well, maybe since I'm back, Hiragizawa, Daidouji, and us should go somewhere this Saturday. I don't know. I need to do SOMETHING besides just stay here doing nothing."