"Whisper"
Ellie was in the Degrassi bathroom, standing in front of the mirror. All of it was too much to handle. She'd been late almost every day for a week. The pop quiz she had failed. Her mother had taken to alcoholism again since her father went back into the army. Ellie dug the sharp end of the compass into her arm. Hot tears stung her face. The pain really wasn't all that bad. It actually felt GOOD. She felt powerful. Ellie dug in deeper this time, wondering what would come of it.
Catch me as I fall, say you're here and it's all over now. Speaking to the atmosphere, no one's here and I fall into myself. This truth drives me into madness. I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away.
Blood spattered into the sink, and there was a red puddle on the floor. Ellie dropped the compass into the sink as she heard the bathroom door open. In walked Paige, whom gazed at Ellie with a puzzled expression on her face. Ellie backed up against the sink, her arms hidden behind her back. Paige was the last person Ellie wanted to see right now. Paige began washing her hands in the sink, and Ellie grabbed the compass and her backpack, slipping quietly out of the bathroom.
Don't turn away. Don't give in to the pain.
Ellie heard footsteps behind her and she just kept walking. Someone seized her from behind and slammed her against the cold metal of the locker. "Ellie. I know what you're doing," A voice said. Not Paige, AGAIN! "Ellie," Paige shook Ellie's body lightly. "Ellie!" Ellie stared blankly back at Paige.
Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name. Don't close your eyes. God knows what lies behind them. Don't turn out the light. Never sleep, never die.
Ellie clenched her jaw. "Paige, why don't you leave me alone like you usually do?" Paige's eyes were wet and teary, as were Ellie's. "Because," Paige began. "I want to help you." Ellie made a disbelieving noise.
I'm frightened by what I see, but somehow I know that there's much more to come. Immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears.
"Help me with what?" Ellie acted as if she didn't know what Paige was talking about. Paige swallowed loudly. Apparently this was hard for her. "You know what. I want to help you because, okay Ellie, I care about you believe it or not." Ellie was tuning her out. If she didn't listen, Paige would simply go away.
I can stop the pain if I will it all away.
"Ellie, I know how you feel." Paige exclaimed. Ellie grew hysterical. "How could you ever understand? You, with your perfect life, perfect body, your popularity?" "When he did that to me, I felt disgusting. I didn't want to live." Paige spoke softly. Ellie just stared. "Oh, should I be so sorry that you are such a whore? Should I be sorry that you showed off, gave him all the signals, and he raped you? No, I don't think so." Ellie started to walk away.
Don't turn away. Don't give into the pain. Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name.
Paige grabbed Ellie's arm. Ellie flinched. That was her cutting arm. "Sorry," Paige said. "I know, I deserve what you said. I do flaunt it. I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me. I just know what it's like when things get bad."
Don't close your eyes, God knows what lies behind them. Don't turn out the light. Never sleep, never die.
Ellie collapsed to the floor. Paige sat down beside her, arms around her- hugging. Ellie sobbed uncontrollably, and Paige stroked Ellie's hair.
Fallen angels at my feet, whispered voices at my ear. Death before my eyes, lying next to me I fear.
Ellie looked at Paige, emotion was flooding her eyes. "My dad, he went back into the army. I thought," Paige nodded, telling Ellie to go on. "I thought my mom would be okay. But now she's drinking again. There's empty bottles of Vodka all over the house. I took that pop quiz, and I failed. I've been late for school the past two weeks." Paige gaped, disbelieving. "You've been doing this for two weeks?" she asked.
She beckons me, shall I give in? Upon my end shall I begin? Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet the end.
Ellie nodded. Paige took Ellie's hand in hers. "I'm going to try and help you."
Ellie was in the Degrassi bathroom, standing in front of the mirror. All of it was too much to handle. She'd been late almost every day for a week. The pop quiz she had failed. Her mother had taken to alcoholism again since her father went back into the army. Ellie dug the sharp end of the compass into her arm. Hot tears stung her face. The pain really wasn't all that bad. It actually felt GOOD. She felt powerful. Ellie dug in deeper this time, wondering what would come of it.
Catch me as I fall, say you're here and it's all over now. Speaking to the atmosphere, no one's here and I fall into myself. This truth drives me into madness. I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away.
Blood spattered into the sink, and there was a red puddle on the floor. Ellie dropped the compass into the sink as she heard the bathroom door open. In walked Paige, whom gazed at Ellie with a puzzled expression on her face. Ellie backed up against the sink, her arms hidden behind her back. Paige was the last person Ellie wanted to see right now. Paige began washing her hands in the sink, and Ellie grabbed the compass and her backpack, slipping quietly out of the bathroom.
Don't turn away. Don't give in to the pain.
Ellie heard footsteps behind her and she just kept walking. Someone seized her from behind and slammed her against the cold metal of the locker. "Ellie. I know what you're doing," A voice said. Not Paige, AGAIN! "Ellie," Paige shook Ellie's body lightly. "Ellie!" Ellie stared blankly back at Paige.
Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name. Don't close your eyes. God knows what lies behind them. Don't turn out the light. Never sleep, never die.
Ellie clenched her jaw. "Paige, why don't you leave me alone like you usually do?" Paige's eyes were wet and teary, as were Ellie's. "Because," Paige began. "I want to help you." Ellie made a disbelieving noise.
I'm frightened by what I see, but somehow I know that there's much more to come. Immobilized by my fear and soon to be blinded by tears.
"Help me with what?" Ellie acted as if she didn't know what Paige was talking about. Paige swallowed loudly. Apparently this was hard for her. "You know what. I want to help you because, okay Ellie, I care about you believe it or not." Ellie was tuning her out. If she didn't listen, Paige would simply go away.
I can stop the pain if I will it all away.
"Ellie, I know how you feel." Paige exclaimed. Ellie grew hysterical. "How could you ever understand? You, with your perfect life, perfect body, your popularity?" "When he did that to me, I felt disgusting. I didn't want to live." Paige spoke softly. Ellie just stared. "Oh, should I be so sorry that you are such a whore? Should I be sorry that you showed off, gave him all the signals, and he raped you? No, I don't think so." Ellie started to walk away.
Don't turn away. Don't give into the pain. Don't try to hide, though they're screaming your name.
Paige grabbed Ellie's arm. Ellie flinched. That was her cutting arm. "Sorry," Paige said. "I know, I deserve what you said. I do flaunt it. I'm not trying to make you feel sorry for me. I just know what it's like when things get bad."
Don't close your eyes, God knows what lies behind them. Don't turn out the light. Never sleep, never die.
Ellie collapsed to the floor. Paige sat down beside her, arms around her- hugging. Ellie sobbed uncontrollably, and Paige stroked Ellie's hair.
Fallen angels at my feet, whispered voices at my ear. Death before my eyes, lying next to me I fear.
Ellie looked at Paige, emotion was flooding her eyes. "My dad, he went back into the army. I thought," Paige nodded, telling Ellie to go on. "I thought my mom would be okay. But now she's drinking again. There's empty bottles of Vodka all over the house. I took that pop quiz, and I failed. I've been late for school the past two weeks." Paige gaped, disbelieving. "You've been doing this for two weeks?" she asked.
She beckons me, shall I give in? Upon my end shall I begin? Forsaking all I've fallen for, I rise to meet the end.
Ellie nodded. Paige took Ellie's hand in hers. "I'm going to try and help you."