"Going Under"
In the morning, Paige was the first one to wake. She explored Ellie's room, and found a notebook. Turning through the pages, she saw it.
Now I will tell you what I've done for you. 50 thousand tears I've cried. Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you. And you still won't hear me.
The top of the page said To Paige, and on it, the lyrics to a song. As Paige sat down and read the lyrics, she was filled with surprise. So it seemed that Ellie felt a certain way about her.
Ellie woke up, and Paige put the notebook back where she found it. "What were you doing?" Ellie accused. Paige couldn't lie. "I was looking at your notebook." Ellie's eyes filled with tears, and she hugged her legs to her chest. "What did you see?"
Don't want your hand, this time I'll save myself. Maybe I'll wake up for once. Not tormented daily defeated by you. Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom, I'm dying again.
Paige looked at Ellie. There was no way she could lie. "I know how you feel about me." Ellie sobbed loudly. "I think it's time for you to leave." She said. Paige nodded, and she left. Ellie couldn't believe how stupid she had been. Why did she have to write it down in the notebook? Ellie took Paige's number off of the wall. She stared at the thumbtack. When you're a cutter, anything is a weapon. Ellie took the thumbtack and dug it deep into her arm. It took even more effort to cut with a tack. It hurt more. Yet it felt better.
I'm going under, drowning in you. I'm falling forever, I've got to break through. I'm going under.
Ellie felt wonderful and horrible at the same time. She fell to the floor, unconcious. It was the shock. When she awoke, she had a furious headache. She didn't remember what had happened. Then it hit her. Ellie had to call Paige.
Blurring and stirring, the truth and the lies. Don't know what's real and what's not. Always confusing the thoughts in my head. So I can't trust myself anymore. I'm dying again.
"Hello?" It felt like it had been days since she had heard Paige's wonderful voice. "Paige." Ellie said. "Yes?" "I used the thumbtack to cut." "I didn't know you could cut with a tack." "Well, you can. And I'm sorry you found out by my notebook and not by me. I don't want to feel this way." Ellie said. "It's ok. Meet me at the park, ok?" Paige replied mysteriously, and hung up. Ellie shrugged, and headed to the park.
I'm going under, drowning in you. I'm falling forever, I've got to break through. When she arrived at the park, Paige was waiting for her. Paige walked over to Ellie. "Ellie, I know you're in love with me. Heck, I don't blame ya. But I don't feel the way you do. If I gave you the wrong idea, I'm sorry. My bro's gay, not me. But it doesn't mean we can't be friends. Just friends."
So go on and scream, scream at me. I'm so far away, I won't be broken again. I've got to breathe, I can't keep going under.
Ellie shook her head. "If you don't feel the way I do, I don't even want to be friends with you." Ellie stomped away. And that night, she cut.
In the morning, Paige was the first one to wake. She explored Ellie's room, and found a notebook. Turning through the pages, she saw it.
Now I will tell you what I've done for you. 50 thousand tears I've cried. Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you. And you still won't hear me.
The top of the page said To Paige, and on it, the lyrics to a song. As Paige sat down and read the lyrics, she was filled with surprise. So it seemed that Ellie felt a certain way about her.
Ellie woke up, and Paige put the notebook back where she found it. "What were you doing?" Ellie accused. Paige couldn't lie. "I was looking at your notebook." Ellie's eyes filled with tears, and she hugged her legs to her chest. "What did you see?"
Don't want your hand, this time I'll save myself. Maybe I'll wake up for once. Not tormented daily defeated by you. Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom, I'm dying again.
Paige looked at Ellie. There was no way she could lie. "I know how you feel about me." Ellie sobbed loudly. "I think it's time for you to leave." She said. Paige nodded, and she left. Ellie couldn't believe how stupid she had been. Why did she have to write it down in the notebook? Ellie took Paige's number off of the wall. She stared at the thumbtack. When you're a cutter, anything is a weapon. Ellie took the thumbtack and dug it deep into her arm. It took even more effort to cut with a tack. It hurt more. Yet it felt better.
I'm going under, drowning in you. I'm falling forever, I've got to break through. I'm going under.
Ellie felt wonderful and horrible at the same time. She fell to the floor, unconcious. It was the shock. When she awoke, she had a furious headache. She didn't remember what had happened. Then it hit her. Ellie had to call Paige.
Blurring and stirring, the truth and the lies. Don't know what's real and what's not. Always confusing the thoughts in my head. So I can't trust myself anymore. I'm dying again.
"Hello?" It felt like it had been days since she had heard Paige's wonderful voice. "Paige." Ellie said. "Yes?" "I used the thumbtack to cut." "I didn't know you could cut with a tack." "Well, you can. And I'm sorry you found out by my notebook and not by me. I don't want to feel this way." Ellie said. "It's ok. Meet me at the park, ok?" Paige replied mysteriously, and hung up. Ellie shrugged, and headed to the park.
I'm going under, drowning in you. I'm falling forever, I've got to break through. When she arrived at the park, Paige was waiting for her. Paige walked over to Ellie. "Ellie, I know you're in love with me. Heck, I don't blame ya. But I don't feel the way you do. If I gave you the wrong idea, I'm sorry. My bro's gay, not me. But it doesn't mean we can't be friends. Just friends."
So go on and scream, scream at me. I'm so far away, I won't be broken again. I've got to breathe, I can't keep going under.
Ellie shook her head. "If you don't feel the way I do, I don't even want to be friends with you." Ellie stomped away. And that night, she cut.