Chapter 13
"What are you doing here?"
"Isn't it obvious?"
Weiss looked back and forth at his friends before grabbing the pizza box and hustling out the kitchen door.
Sydney rolled her and stood up, "Some friend he is."
Her ex-lover couldn't help but laugh, "At least he can always take a hint."
She didn't even crack a smile. He just didn't get it. How many times did she need to tell him that it was completely over? Even though deep down she wished it weren't, but it was what was best for the both of them.
"How are you?" he asked as he grabbed a chair.
"Christmas is in less than a week, shouldn't you be Christmas shopping with your wife or something?"
Vaughn sighed and stared at her, "This isn't going to work?"
"And what would that be?
"This attitude you have towards me. First of all you were the one making me stay with Lauren, and secondly you know that if you were to have just said the words I would be right by your side during this incredibly hard time."
"I'm sorry for my attitude, but it seems like the only way to get through to you that this is over."
"Well its not working either."
She placed her head in her palms and shook her head. She couldn't get through to him.
After a few minutes of a tiresome stair down, Vaughn looked around the room.
"Wow, we're in a kitchen."
"No wonder I can't get through to you, you're incredibly slow."
He laughed, "No, I just mean that your old kitchen was a great place for us."
Sydney couldn't help but smile, "Yeah it was."
"We could always break this one in."
She rolled her eyes, but still smiled.
He took this as an opportunity, "Syd, you should know that I told Lauren everything."
Her smiled faded, "About the affair? And about the baby?"
"I told her everything."
"Well hopefully she'll be forgiving and realize it was just a moment of weakness."
He leaned across the table and placed his hand over her mouth, hushing her. "I told her I love you. Nothing will ever change that."
Vaughn sat back in his chair, "Hell you died and that didn't even affect it."
"But you got married."
"To save my life. Don't get me wrong, there was love in that marriage, but it was mainly about my being grateful for her. She saved my life. I don't regret any of that."
She lowered her head.
"But the second I found out you were alive, that marriage just became an obstacle, in the way of you and I reuniting. I know that's horrible. Doing that to her is unforgivable, but staying with her would have made things so much worse."
"It was the right thing to do."
"No.but this is." In one quick instinctive second leaned forward and put his hands on each side of her face and kissed her hard.
She didn't pull back even though everything inside of her was telling her to. They kissed like no two people had ever kissed before. It was beautiful, passionate, and extremely heated.
Finally Vaughn pulled back and they both breathed heavily.
"That shouldn't.have.happened," she mumbled huffing and puffing.
He gave an angry sigh, "Why? I don't understand why you're being so reluctant."
Tears formed in her eyes and she stood and turned away from him.
"Vaughn I cant do it again."
He didn't exactly understand, "What?"
"I can't lose you again." She turned around and he saw tears running down her cheeks.
"Oh honey."
He stood up and walked towards her, but she backed away, "No. I lost you once. I'm not putting either of us through that again."
"How do you even know that will happen?"
"Because it always does."
He couldn't lie, "Yeah, your right. But that's no reason to stop trying. That's no reason to stop depriving yourself for something that could end up being incredible."
"But that chances of it failing.."
"Are against us, I know. But, if we don't try, we'll never know if it would have worked."
She wiped a tear and remained silent.
They stood there for just a moment she looked deep in thought.
"Oh my gosh," she raised her hands in excitement, "what was wrong with me."
She rushed across the room and wrapped her arms around his neck and their lips smashed together.
He pulled back and grinned, "What was with the sudden change of heart?"
"I don't know. It's like something just made me realize that there was no reason not to be with you. My fear, it's not about you. It's about everything that's ever happened in my life. I just keep expecting the worst to happen, but with you.. I just cant. To hell with it all."
"I love you so much."
"Say that again." She kissed his cheek.
"I love you so much. And I'm sorry about everything you've gone through."
Sydney smiled, "its ok now."
The passionately kissed and kept smiling in between kisses.
They broke apart and started to head for the living room when Vaughn saw something.
On the kitchen counter there was a little pair of pink socks.
"What's this?" he questioned as he put his arm around her shoulder.
She sighed and forced back a tear, "On my way out of the hospital the day I found out I was pregnant, I walked by the gift shop."
He looked at her and watched the sadness spread across her face.
"I was hoping for a little girl."
Vaughn pulled her close to him and kissed her forehead, "So was I."
"What are you doing here?"
"Isn't it obvious?"
Weiss looked back and forth at his friends before grabbing the pizza box and hustling out the kitchen door.
Sydney rolled her and stood up, "Some friend he is."
Her ex-lover couldn't help but laugh, "At least he can always take a hint."
She didn't even crack a smile. He just didn't get it. How many times did she need to tell him that it was completely over? Even though deep down she wished it weren't, but it was what was best for the both of them.
"How are you?" he asked as he grabbed a chair.
"Christmas is in less than a week, shouldn't you be Christmas shopping with your wife or something?"
Vaughn sighed and stared at her, "This isn't going to work?"
"And what would that be?
"This attitude you have towards me. First of all you were the one making me stay with Lauren, and secondly you know that if you were to have just said the words I would be right by your side during this incredibly hard time."
"I'm sorry for my attitude, but it seems like the only way to get through to you that this is over."
"Well its not working either."
She placed her head in her palms and shook her head. She couldn't get through to him.
After a few minutes of a tiresome stair down, Vaughn looked around the room.
"Wow, we're in a kitchen."
"No wonder I can't get through to you, you're incredibly slow."
He laughed, "No, I just mean that your old kitchen was a great place for us."
Sydney couldn't help but smile, "Yeah it was."
"We could always break this one in."
She rolled her eyes, but still smiled.
He took this as an opportunity, "Syd, you should know that I told Lauren everything."
Her smiled faded, "About the affair? And about the baby?"
"I told her everything."
"Well hopefully she'll be forgiving and realize it was just a moment of weakness."
He leaned across the table and placed his hand over her mouth, hushing her. "I told her I love you. Nothing will ever change that."
Vaughn sat back in his chair, "Hell you died and that didn't even affect it."
"But you got married."
"To save my life. Don't get me wrong, there was love in that marriage, but it was mainly about my being grateful for her. She saved my life. I don't regret any of that."
She lowered her head.
"But the second I found out you were alive, that marriage just became an obstacle, in the way of you and I reuniting. I know that's horrible. Doing that to her is unforgivable, but staying with her would have made things so much worse."
"It was the right thing to do."
"No.but this is." In one quick instinctive second leaned forward and put his hands on each side of her face and kissed her hard.
She didn't pull back even though everything inside of her was telling her to. They kissed like no two people had ever kissed before. It was beautiful, passionate, and extremely heated.
Finally Vaughn pulled back and they both breathed heavily.
"That shouldn't.have.happened," she mumbled huffing and puffing.
He gave an angry sigh, "Why? I don't understand why you're being so reluctant."
Tears formed in her eyes and she stood and turned away from him.
"Vaughn I cant do it again."
He didn't exactly understand, "What?"
"I can't lose you again." She turned around and he saw tears running down her cheeks.
"Oh honey."
He stood up and walked towards her, but she backed away, "No. I lost you once. I'm not putting either of us through that again."
"How do you even know that will happen?"
"Because it always does."
He couldn't lie, "Yeah, your right. But that's no reason to stop trying. That's no reason to stop depriving yourself for something that could end up being incredible."
"But that chances of it failing.."
"Are against us, I know. But, if we don't try, we'll never know if it would have worked."
She wiped a tear and remained silent.
They stood there for just a moment she looked deep in thought.
"Oh my gosh," she raised her hands in excitement, "what was wrong with me."
She rushed across the room and wrapped her arms around his neck and their lips smashed together.
He pulled back and grinned, "What was with the sudden change of heart?"
"I don't know. It's like something just made me realize that there was no reason not to be with you. My fear, it's not about you. It's about everything that's ever happened in my life. I just keep expecting the worst to happen, but with you.. I just cant. To hell with it all."
"I love you so much."
"Say that again." She kissed his cheek.
"I love you so much. And I'm sorry about everything you've gone through."
Sydney smiled, "its ok now."
The passionately kissed and kept smiling in between kisses.
They broke apart and started to head for the living room when Vaughn saw something.
On the kitchen counter there was a little pair of pink socks.
"What's this?" he questioned as he put his arm around her shoulder.
She sighed and forced back a tear, "On my way out of the hospital the day I found out I was pregnant, I walked by the gift shop."
He looked at her and watched the sadness spread across her face.
"I was hoping for a little girl."
Vaughn pulled her close to him and kissed her forehead, "So was I."