February 4, 1996
5:43 PM
Journal
I have something BIG to tell you, Journal.
Like, REALLY REALLY big.
Like Kaiba finds out I'm sneaking over, and an announcement to the little guy, Mokuba.
Ok, so's I go over to Kaiba's house to spy on him and all, and there's Kaiba, sitting on his bed, reading another romance novel. I can see the title, and it's like 'Forbidden Love' or some other mushy crap.
And then Mokuba comes in, and Kaiba pulls him over to where he's sitting, while setting down the book. The window is open, so I can hear them right.
"Mokuba, I have something really important I need to tell you. I've waited until I thought you were old enough, and I trust you will understand and accept what I'm about to say." Kaiba tells the kid.
Mokuba looks a little worried, and says something like 'I'm all ears'.
Kaiba takes a deep breath, and starts to talk.
"Mokuba, ever since I can remember, I've been different. You know that, what with being a prodigy and all. But this was a different sort of thing. It was about my feelings. I've always felt awkward around girls, like I'm sure you do. But that will change when you get to be about my age, and you will start finding them attractive, and such." Kaiba pauses, unsure of how to go on. Mokuba nods, taking this in.
Now I'm watching and listening, and thinking that I'm intruding on their 'Birds and the Bees' chat. You know what 'chat' I'm talking about. Well I'm about to find out that that's not the case AT ALL. Not by a long shot.
So Kaiba takes another deep breath, and continues, a little less sure of himself.
"But when I entered highschool, just two years ago, I noticed my feelings changed, but hardly in the way I'd expected. I found myself not having affections towards girls and women, but more towards boys and men. I wasn't worried at the time; it is natural to like the same gender while your feelings are changing, like mine were. I thought I was going through a phase, that it would end after a while and I would start being attracted to girls and women. But it didn't, and I don't think it ever will. And so now, if you would recall the time I told you that I would give Jonouchi a valentine on Valentine's Day, you will understand."
So that's what he said about me the first time.
Anyhow, Kaiba shifts uncomfortably, and Mokuba knows what's coming next. At least, I thought Mokuba knew what was coming next.
"The bottom line here Mokuba is that I'm homosexual. I'm gay, Mokuba."
Mokuba stays like he is for a moment, trying to comprehend what his older brother had just told him.
Then it hits him.
He takes a step backwards, and Kaiba reaches out a hand to rest on his shoulder.
"Thank you for under-" Kaiba says, but is cut off when Mokuba slaps his brother's hand away and bolts through the door, tears running down his face.
Kaiba sinks down onto his bed, lying on his back facing the ceiling. I wonder how he must feel, being rejected by his own brother. I mean, Mokuba's almost like Kaiba's child, seeing that Kaiba's raised him.
And then, me the big dolt I am, loose my balance on the windowsill I'm sitting on and fall to the ground two feet below with a resonating THUD.
To the best of my knowledge, Kaiba springs up and dashes over to the window, and peers down at me.
I say hello, and our conversation is as follows:
"What the HELL are you doing here, Jonouchi!" Kaiba shouts at me. "I'm-er-paying a visit?" I say. Kaiba humours me and sarcastically says, "That is what a door is for, you nimrod. How long have you been here?" he adds.
I try and think of a time REAL fast.
"I just got here?" I say.
"Don't even try to lie, you're horrible at it." Kaiba snips.
So what else can I do but tell him the truth?
"Ever since Mokuba came in." And. "I heard everything."
Kaiba looks away. "So you know, then."
"Yeah."
Kaiba doesn't say anything, but just looks away, staring off into space. I gotta say SOMETHING, it's way too quiet.
You know, I've got to write this before I go on. 'Member how Kaiba talked about his 'changing feelings'? Well, I don't know if mine have changed at all. I'm undecided. So I figure I've gotta make my own decision about this. And I do.
What I'm about to write is when I permanently decide my sexuality.
And tell it to Kaiba.
"You know, there are a lot of gay guys out there, Kaiba. And I just happen to be on of th-"
Oh shit, dinner.
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(Note/Disclaimer: LukeSkywalkersLady does not own Yu-Gi-Oh! in any way, shape or form, and flames are accepted for this chapter, but LukeSkywalkersLady wishes for it to be known that all flames will be donated to the 'Burn Bakura's Hair Foundation' to burn Bakura's hair. Thank you.)
I have something BIG to tell you, Journal.
Like, REALLY REALLY big.
Like Kaiba finds out I'm sneaking over, and an announcement to the little guy, Mokuba.
Ok, so's I go over to Kaiba's house to spy on him and all, and there's Kaiba, sitting on his bed, reading another romance novel. I can see the title, and it's like 'Forbidden Love' or some other mushy crap.
And then Mokuba comes in, and Kaiba pulls him over to where he's sitting, while setting down the book. The window is open, so I can hear them right.
"Mokuba, I have something really important I need to tell you. I've waited until I thought you were old enough, and I trust you will understand and accept what I'm about to say." Kaiba tells the kid.
Mokuba looks a little worried, and says something like 'I'm all ears'.
Kaiba takes a deep breath, and starts to talk.
"Mokuba, ever since I can remember, I've been different. You know that, what with being a prodigy and all. But this was a different sort of thing. It was about my feelings. I've always felt awkward around girls, like I'm sure you do. But that will change when you get to be about my age, and you will start finding them attractive, and such." Kaiba pauses, unsure of how to go on. Mokuba nods, taking this in.
Now I'm watching and listening, and thinking that I'm intruding on their 'Birds and the Bees' chat. You know what 'chat' I'm talking about. Well I'm about to find out that that's not the case AT ALL. Not by a long shot.
So Kaiba takes another deep breath, and continues, a little less sure of himself.
"But when I entered highschool, just two years ago, I noticed my feelings changed, but hardly in the way I'd expected. I found myself not having affections towards girls and women, but more towards boys and men. I wasn't worried at the time; it is natural to like the same gender while your feelings are changing, like mine were. I thought I was going through a phase, that it would end after a while and I would start being attracted to girls and women. But it didn't, and I don't think it ever will. And so now, if you would recall the time I told you that I would give Jonouchi a valentine on Valentine's Day, you will understand."
So that's what he said about me the first time.
Anyhow, Kaiba shifts uncomfortably, and Mokuba knows what's coming next. At least, I thought Mokuba knew what was coming next.
"The bottom line here Mokuba is that I'm homosexual. I'm gay, Mokuba."
Mokuba stays like he is for a moment, trying to comprehend what his older brother had just told him.
Then it hits him.
He takes a step backwards, and Kaiba reaches out a hand to rest on his shoulder.
"Thank you for under-" Kaiba says, but is cut off when Mokuba slaps his brother's hand away and bolts through the door, tears running down his face.
Kaiba sinks down onto his bed, lying on his back facing the ceiling. I wonder how he must feel, being rejected by his own brother. I mean, Mokuba's almost like Kaiba's child, seeing that Kaiba's raised him.
And then, me the big dolt I am, loose my balance on the windowsill I'm sitting on and fall to the ground two feet below with a resonating THUD.
To the best of my knowledge, Kaiba springs up and dashes over to the window, and peers down at me.
I say hello, and our conversation is as follows:
"What the HELL are you doing here, Jonouchi!" Kaiba shouts at me. "I'm-er-paying a visit?" I say. Kaiba humours me and sarcastically says, "That is what a door is for, you nimrod. How long have you been here?" he adds.
I try and think of a time REAL fast.
"I just got here?" I say.
"Don't even try to lie, you're horrible at it." Kaiba snips.
So what else can I do but tell him the truth?
"Ever since Mokuba came in." And. "I heard everything."
Kaiba looks away. "So you know, then."
"Yeah."
Kaiba doesn't say anything, but just looks away, staring off into space. I gotta say SOMETHING, it's way too quiet.
You know, I've got to write this before I go on. 'Member how Kaiba talked about his 'changing feelings'? Well, I don't know if mine have changed at all. I'm undecided. So I figure I've gotta make my own decision about this. And I do.
What I'm about to write is when I permanently decide my sexuality.
And tell it to Kaiba.
"You know, there are a lot of gay guys out there, Kaiba. And I just happen to be on of th-"
Oh shit, dinner.
--------------------
LukeSkywalkersLady: I know, EVIL cliffie! I love torturing you guys! ^_____^ An now I'll make you wait a few days before posting again just to rub it in!
(Note/Disclaimer: LukeSkywalkersLady does not own Yu-Gi-Oh! in any way, shape or form, and flames are accepted for this chapter, but LukeSkywalkersLady wishes for it to be known that all flames will be donated to the 'Burn Bakura's Hair Foundation' to burn Bakura's hair. Thank you.)