Summery: A small close up of Heero's POV, and deep feelings and
thoughts, on Duo's relationship with Trowa. Or, to put it in the true
words, Heero's POV on Duo's feelings for Trowa. 2x3 with a tinny weenie
pinch of 1/Heero angst and 1x5. A side of the perfect soldier we have NEVER
seen. And Wufei makes his way into this big thingy! In a very unexpected
way. Anyone bring their handkerchiefs and tissue boxes?
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~Once lost can be once found.~
I don't believe this. How can this be? I let him slip. Slip from my hold. My hold of love. I covered him with a blanket of all my love and I somehow let him slip away. It hurts so much. Nobody knows that I still feel for him. But, of course. It was Trowa. It had to be Trowa. Maybe I'm just imagining my pain. But, I'm still lost. Lost in a sea of confusion. I loved him. I loved him so much. So much it hurt. And now I'm hurting even more. Because I let him go. Why? Why did I do that?
I had no sense in doing that. And now, he's run into Trowa's arms. Never to return to me. Every day, since then, he's been spending every second of his time with Trowa. Even on missions, I pair them together. Only because I know he'll be happy. If I ever get the chance to see my love run to me, I-I don't know. Because I wouldn't know how to make him happy anymore. It seems as though the universe has come crashing down on me. It doesn't agree with my wants.
He's still cheerful. At least he hasn't lost his cheerfulness. Maybe Trowa has restored it. It still runs through my mind. That very day. The day I broke his heart. He ran away from me. I tried to follow him, but I was stuck; attached to the ground. As I stood there, I could here Trowa's soothing words and Duo's sobs. Those sobs were like a hammer, smashing my heart to pieces. Or better yet to describe them, a thousand deaths. Thousand deaths that I receive.
Of course it hurts. It hurts so much. Tears are nothing new to my face. Though nobody thinks I cry and have emotions, I do. And now, they spill out when I'm alone and they're like a ocean. Never stopping. I'm still trying to figure out how I screwed this up. There's a knock at my door and I don't reply, just letting that person in by their will. Onyx eyes look at me with sentimental compassion and Wufei closes the door behind him, before sitting next to me. What is it he might want? Then he ask me,
"Why do you cry over Maxwell?"
I stared into Wufei's eyes. Somehow, I'm able to answer. "It was my fault." Though it doesn't answer his question. "What's your fault? Nothing is your fault. Things just happen." "Just happen?" "Of course. Why do you think we all became pilots?" I opened my mouth to reply, "Be-" "And not just because the war." That struck me with confusion. I looked at Wufei, who was smiling at me. "Do you know.. how cute you are.. when you're confused?" A soft finger tilts my head up and Wufei captures my lips with his.
At first, I wanted to push away. At the moment, it didn't matter even if Duo hated me or not. Then, the next moment, I think I might as well die and go to heaven. Before I can do anything, Wufei pulls away and stares me in the eyes. "I've wanted to do that for quite awhile." He whispers. In a way, I might have lost my mind letting Duo go. But, in the same way, I might have been even more idiotic not noticing Wufei. Either way, I can't decide if I will be haunted with Duo's sobs or haunted by not seeing Wufei's feelings. Though I may be lost, Wufei may be my guide back to reality. Just maybe. _____________________________________________________________
So? Ya like it? Short, I know. But, I tried my hardest to make it sad yet sweet! *chibi-eyes* You do like it, don't you?
~Once lost can be once found.~
I don't believe this. How can this be? I let him slip. Slip from my hold. My hold of love. I covered him with a blanket of all my love and I somehow let him slip away. It hurts so much. Nobody knows that I still feel for him. But, of course. It was Trowa. It had to be Trowa. Maybe I'm just imagining my pain. But, I'm still lost. Lost in a sea of confusion. I loved him. I loved him so much. So much it hurt. And now I'm hurting even more. Because I let him go. Why? Why did I do that?
I had no sense in doing that. And now, he's run into Trowa's arms. Never to return to me. Every day, since then, he's been spending every second of his time with Trowa. Even on missions, I pair them together. Only because I know he'll be happy. If I ever get the chance to see my love run to me, I-I don't know. Because I wouldn't know how to make him happy anymore. It seems as though the universe has come crashing down on me. It doesn't agree with my wants.
He's still cheerful. At least he hasn't lost his cheerfulness. Maybe Trowa has restored it. It still runs through my mind. That very day. The day I broke his heart. He ran away from me. I tried to follow him, but I was stuck; attached to the ground. As I stood there, I could here Trowa's soothing words and Duo's sobs. Those sobs were like a hammer, smashing my heart to pieces. Or better yet to describe them, a thousand deaths. Thousand deaths that I receive.
Of course it hurts. It hurts so much. Tears are nothing new to my face. Though nobody thinks I cry and have emotions, I do. And now, they spill out when I'm alone and they're like a ocean. Never stopping. I'm still trying to figure out how I screwed this up. There's a knock at my door and I don't reply, just letting that person in by their will. Onyx eyes look at me with sentimental compassion and Wufei closes the door behind him, before sitting next to me. What is it he might want? Then he ask me,
"Why do you cry over Maxwell?"
I stared into Wufei's eyes. Somehow, I'm able to answer. "It was my fault." Though it doesn't answer his question. "What's your fault? Nothing is your fault. Things just happen." "Just happen?" "Of course. Why do you think we all became pilots?" I opened my mouth to reply, "Be-" "And not just because the war." That struck me with confusion. I looked at Wufei, who was smiling at me. "Do you know.. how cute you are.. when you're confused?" A soft finger tilts my head up and Wufei captures my lips with his.
At first, I wanted to push away. At the moment, it didn't matter even if Duo hated me or not. Then, the next moment, I think I might as well die and go to heaven. Before I can do anything, Wufei pulls away and stares me in the eyes. "I've wanted to do that for quite awhile." He whispers. In a way, I might have lost my mind letting Duo go. But, in the same way, I might have been even more idiotic not noticing Wufei. Either way, I can't decide if I will be haunted with Duo's sobs or haunted by not seeing Wufei's feelings. Though I may be lost, Wufei may be my guide back to reality. Just maybe. _____________________________________________________________
So? Ya like it? Short, I know. But, I tried my hardest to make it sad yet sweet! *chibi-eyes* You do like it, don't you?