"Confessions By Streetlight, Hey Journal Tag One"
"I need to talk to you Alex," were the first words out of Isabel Evan's mouth after she pulled Alex out of the Expresso Pump without any explanation. Walking out to a barely working streetlight Isabel stopped them both and turned to Alex.
"I kind of got that impression when you hauled me out here. Look, if it's about your birthday I'm sorry, I didn't know your mom would be there." Alex hung his head already blushing, remembering his embarrassment in front of pretty much everyone he knew.
"No Alex, it isn't about that. That was so amazing what you did for me, it's too bad my mom was there. I'd like to have seen just how far you would have gone for me." Isabel enjoys a moment of his blushing, hoping that what she's about to say won't end the chance of her seeing it again.
"This is about you and me, and me and Grant." Acting very unlike herself Isabel looks nervously at the ground as she pauses.
"Who's Grant?" Alex's question catches Isabel off guard as she'd thought that someone would have already told Alex what had happened.
"Remember that geologist who found Pierce's bones? That's Grant. I went to talk to him at first to try and find out what he knew, you know? See if he was one of the ones who Nasedo had warned us about." Seeing Alex nod that as he listened Isabel continued. "So I flirted heavily with him to try and get information from him. I slipped into my full Ice Princess mode of flirting, and he asked me out. and I agreed. And I've basically been seeing him for awhile."
Alex blinked back tears as the women he'd loved for years crushed the fantasy world he'd been allowing his hope to live in. Stepping back so the streetlight would conceal his face a little in shadows Alex found his voice. "It's it's okay Isabel, I understand. I mean, it's not like we really have anything or that we ever really did. I just I just hope you're happy with him." Turning to walk fully into the shadows Alex was jolted as he felt a hand turn him around.
"Alex, it's not like that. I'm not finished yet, please just listen some more." Isabel waited to be sure Alex wasn't going to leave before she continued. "I wasn't happy with him Alex, not really. I was no more happy with him than I am the façade I wear to school. I was using him to forget I wasn't normal for a while. No talk of aliens or FBI or dangers, he didn't know what I was and that just was something I'd been missing since everything started. I wanted to feel normal for a little while, and instead I just felt empty."
Isabel crouched down with her back against the streetlight and let out a sigh before heading into what would be hardest for her, though she was glad Alex was still there. "I didn't even know I felt that way until this morning. And of all the people to point it out to me, it was Tess. She reminded me of things about you that I'd forgotten, things that I should never forget. How you know who and what I really am, and how it didn't change your feelings for me. I knew instantly no one else would be able to do that. You've done so much for me without my ever asking for it.
"Like you were singing, you are everything I want and need, I just never realized it. I've been so scared of admitting I'm different that it's blinded me to the fact that you don't care that I'm different. I know you probably hate me now after betraying you, I don't blame you for it. I didn't know until tonight, for sure, what this feeling I had for you was. It wasn't just some stupid feeling in my stomach like so many describe it, but I do love you." By the time Isabel was finished she had tears in her eyes and was trying to hide her head from sight.
Wiping away fresh tears of a different type Alex said the only thing he knew he could. "Isabel, you should know by now there isn't anything you could do that could make me stop loving you. And after what you've just said, only a fool could walk away. I love you too Isabel, I'm still hurt by what you did but what you've said makes up for it. Now stand up, I think this is a hugging moment."
Doing as Alex said, Isabel stood and wrapped her arms around Alex and began crying and holding him to her. They stood under the streetlight for minutes just holding each other before Isabel softly whispered to Alex again that she was sorry for hurting him. His reply warmed her when he said, "Don't be sorry for the past, it's gotten us where we are now and we are together right now. So nothing else matters." Isabel gave Alex a loving kiss as the streetlight above them winked out.
"I need to talk to you Alex," were the first words out of Isabel Evan's mouth after she pulled Alex out of the Expresso Pump without any explanation. Walking out to a barely working streetlight Isabel stopped them both and turned to Alex.
"I kind of got that impression when you hauled me out here. Look, if it's about your birthday I'm sorry, I didn't know your mom would be there." Alex hung his head already blushing, remembering his embarrassment in front of pretty much everyone he knew.
"No Alex, it isn't about that. That was so amazing what you did for me, it's too bad my mom was there. I'd like to have seen just how far you would have gone for me." Isabel enjoys a moment of his blushing, hoping that what she's about to say won't end the chance of her seeing it again.
"This is about you and me, and me and Grant." Acting very unlike herself Isabel looks nervously at the ground as she pauses.
"Who's Grant?" Alex's question catches Isabel off guard as she'd thought that someone would have already told Alex what had happened.
"Remember that geologist who found Pierce's bones? That's Grant. I went to talk to him at first to try and find out what he knew, you know? See if he was one of the ones who Nasedo had warned us about." Seeing Alex nod that as he listened Isabel continued. "So I flirted heavily with him to try and get information from him. I slipped into my full Ice Princess mode of flirting, and he asked me out. and I agreed. And I've basically been seeing him for awhile."
Alex blinked back tears as the women he'd loved for years crushed the fantasy world he'd been allowing his hope to live in. Stepping back so the streetlight would conceal his face a little in shadows Alex found his voice. "It's it's okay Isabel, I understand. I mean, it's not like we really have anything or that we ever really did. I just I just hope you're happy with him." Turning to walk fully into the shadows Alex was jolted as he felt a hand turn him around.
"Alex, it's not like that. I'm not finished yet, please just listen some more." Isabel waited to be sure Alex wasn't going to leave before she continued. "I wasn't happy with him Alex, not really. I was no more happy with him than I am the façade I wear to school. I was using him to forget I wasn't normal for a while. No talk of aliens or FBI or dangers, he didn't know what I was and that just was something I'd been missing since everything started. I wanted to feel normal for a little while, and instead I just felt empty."
Isabel crouched down with her back against the streetlight and let out a sigh before heading into what would be hardest for her, though she was glad Alex was still there. "I didn't even know I felt that way until this morning. And of all the people to point it out to me, it was Tess. She reminded me of things about you that I'd forgotten, things that I should never forget. How you know who and what I really am, and how it didn't change your feelings for me. I knew instantly no one else would be able to do that. You've done so much for me without my ever asking for it.
"Like you were singing, you are everything I want and need, I just never realized it. I've been so scared of admitting I'm different that it's blinded me to the fact that you don't care that I'm different. I know you probably hate me now after betraying you, I don't blame you for it. I didn't know until tonight, for sure, what this feeling I had for you was. It wasn't just some stupid feeling in my stomach like so many describe it, but I do love you." By the time Isabel was finished she had tears in her eyes and was trying to hide her head from sight.
Wiping away fresh tears of a different type Alex said the only thing he knew he could. "Isabel, you should know by now there isn't anything you could do that could make me stop loving you. And after what you've just said, only a fool could walk away. I love you too Isabel, I'm still hurt by what you did but what you've said makes up for it. Now stand up, I think this is a hugging moment."
Doing as Alex said, Isabel stood and wrapped her arms around Alex and began crying and holding him to her. They stood under the streetlight for minutes just holding each other before Isabel softly whispered to Alex again that she was sorry for hurting him. His reply warmed her when he said, "Don't be sorry for the past, it's gotten us where we are now and we are together right now. So nothing else matters." Isabel gave Alex a loving kiss as the streetlight above them winked out.