Starting Over Again
Chapter Fifteen
Disclaimer: Refer to a previous chapter.
Warnings: Future 1x2x1 and established 3x4x3.
Author Notes: It's been awhile. Sorry I got into this weird Harry Potter pairing that I loved but their was a very limited amount with that pairing so I wrote one myself and just kept writing.... LOL. This story fell to the back burner for awhile but I'm still trying to keep updating about every two weeks! Hope you enjoy this!
"Talking!"
'Thinking!'
***
Ding Dong.
"Trowa, they're here! Can you get the door?"
Within seconds Duo's voice began to fill the front of one of the smaller houses Quatre owned indicating that Trowa had been relatively close to the door.
"Hey Trowa! Quatre!" Duo exclaimed in greeting as Quatre walked in with a gentle yet amused grin.
"Duo." Quatre replied enveloping Duo in a hug and then a somewhat stiff Heero. "Heero. It's great to have you both over again. It's a shame that Wufei couldn't come but he said he was too busy today."
"It's great to be here Quat!" Duo bounded over to glomp Trowa. "There. Now all the greetings are over!
Trowa laughed quietly at his braided friend's antics and Heero watched it all with feigned disinterest. "I see you even brought Heero." Trowa continued to where only Duo could hear him. "He doesn't seem to happy to be here."
Duo laughed. "Don't worry, he'll cheer up! It just takes Hee-chan some time!"
Quatre smiled at the scene, it was a rather joyful reunion even with Heero scowling in the background. He quickly realized his role as a host. "Come in guys! Sit down. Anything to drink?"
Duo stifled a laugh at Quatre's formalities and all in the group declined the offer of drink before seating themselves. After a few minutes of joking around and bringing up old times Trowa began to immerse Heero in a quiet debate over the current political standings of different figureheads of their government. Quatre was glad for this because he had wanted to spend some time with his old friend. He grabbed him by the wrist and pulled him out on to the back porch falling into a chair and offering his braided friend one. "You know it's been almost two months since I've seen you!"
Duo nodded, "Yeah, I know. I've started a job at Preventer's and they sent me out for a job on the second day! I stayed gone until yesterday and I'm still a little tired. I guess that's what happens though it's my fault for staying up late last night."
"Oh yeah, Heero told me about your new job! How is it going? I visited just last week and it seemed to be working smoothly." Quatre spoke to his friend.
"Yeah I haven't been around long enough to really tell but I'm sure it's getting the job done. They do everything thoroughly."
"It was a bit surprising when I found out you took the job. I didn't expect you to, I mean. What finally made you want to, God knows I told you it would be good for you to get out of the house more often."
"I don't know really. Heero told me I should, said I should stop living off you and it would get me out more often instead of laying around the house. It just seemed like a better idea all of a sudden, yanno?" Duo shifted and brought one long leg to lay over the other relaxing into his seat and looking out into the nicely trimmed yard.
Quatre smiled thoughtfully before continuing. "So how is life going with the silent one? Is he treating you nice?"
"He hasn't been mean once. He's changed a lot in the last year. It sort of makes me wonder how much I've changed, yanno? Seriously though, last night he was all emotional and telling me how sorry he was for hurting me before, I've never seen him like that before. It almost makes me want to trust him again, it's so easy to like him. Now that I think about it Quat, I've been thinking about him a lot lately. What scares me though is sometimes by being around him my mind automatically recalls times when we used to be together, how it is to kiss him and hold him. Mushy stuff." Duo laughed at the end trying to make all that was weighing on his mind seem light.
"It scares you?" Quatre asked cautiously, looking at his friend intensely.
"Yeah, I can't have myself falling in love with him again, yanno? I just..." Here Duo stopped the words that once flowed freely coming out slowly and forced as he was just now thinking things through. "It seems childish, or immature. Like I'm holding a grudge. But the thought that he could leave again scares me. I know that pain now and don't want it ever again. That's why I can't let myself even entertain thoughts like that."
"Do you think he would? He seems more sure of everything now."
"I suppose this is all assuming that he loved or even liked me back and I loved him. I don't know if he would though. I don't know if it is even worth putting thought into if I don't even want to risk a relationship like that again. I find myself trusting that he wouldn't more and more each day that I live with him but I'm just scared in the end."
Then there was silence as Duo thought over what he said and Quatre waited for his friend to work things out. Duo was starting to wonder about these lingering thoughts here and there and about how often he thought and worried about Heero. Could he again be falling for the Perfect Soldier even against his own will? Could the love be forming under all these feelings he was attributing to friendship? Maybe everything could be different if the couple tried again. Starting over again at the beginning to make a more stable relationship, one with more trust? Suddenly Duo felt the fear again. How easily, if that did happen, could Heero leave him with nothing but shattered memories again?
Duo began to voice his thoughts. "If I did love him..." He started, in a quiet thoughtful voice, "He could leave. That would hurt twice as much."
Quatre felt his turn to step in now, his friend was obviously very stubbornly stuck on that one fact and would not move on to totally find his feelings until assured that none of that would happen. "Duo, he couldn't leave if you both held on tighter. If you agreed that, no matter what, you were going to work out your problems under the same roof, together. That pain would be a simple memory. And.." Quatre wondered exactly how much he should say before leaving Duo to figure out the rest on his own. He continued. "I think Heero would be willing to try. You yourself told me about how he has changed. Maybe if you watch him you will notice the way he watches you. Give it all some thought and try to move off that one thought, okay?"
Duo nodded with a attentive look about him and stared out into the yard. Heero and Trowa presently came striding though the rear door onto the porch to meet their friends. Duo's thoughts on the matter were put on hold as the two boys looked towards the others.
"There you are Koi." Trowa stated putting a hand on the shorter boy's shoulder.
Duo smiled. "Debate go well?"
A nod answered his question, "Did you guys get all caught up? It's been awhile since you have talked." Trowa sent a question back at the teen.
"Yep!"
***
Duo lay in his own bed at the house engrossed in thought over his conversation with Quatre and just how easily he had toyed with the idea of having a relationship with Heero when just two and a half months ago he promised himself he wouldn't even get close to the colder boy. Was it really a bad thing? Could he rely on Heero? Could the love he once felt so strongly be revived again?
***
-tbc
The next chapter should be out soon because I'm all ready to start right now! Thank you again for the wonderful reviews and please send more and I'll love you forever and ever! Thank you soooo much!
Chapter Fifteen
Disclaimer: Refer to a previous chapter.
Warnings: Future 1x2x1 and established 3x4x3.
Author Notes: It's been awhile. Sorry I got into this weird Harry Potter pairing that I loved but their was a very limited amount with that pairing so I wrote one myself and just kept writing.... LOL. This story fell to the back burner for awhile but I'm still trying to keep updating about every two weeks! Hope you enjoy this!
"Talking!"
'Thinking!'
***
Ding Dong.
"Trowa, they're here! Can you get the door?"
Within seconds Duo's voice began to fill the front of one of the smaller houses Quatre owned indicating that Trowa had been relatively close to the door.
"Hey Trowa! Quatre!" Duo exclaimed in greeting as Quatre walked in with a gentle yet amused grin.
"Duo." Quatre replied enveloping Duo in a hug and then a somewhat stiff Heero. "Heero. It's great to have you both over again. It's a shame that Wufei couldn't come but he said he was too busy today."
"It's great to be here Quat!" Duo bounded over to glomp Trowa. "There. Now all the greetings are over!
Trowa laughed quietly at his braided friend's antics and Heero watched it all with feigned disinterest. "I see you even brought Heero." Trowa continued to where only Duo could hear him. "He doesn't seem to happy to be here."
Duo laughed. "Don't worry, he'll cheer up! It just takes Hee-chan some time!"
Quatre smiled at the scene, it was a rather joyful reunion even with Heero scowling in the background. He quickly realized his role as a host. "Come in guys! Sit down. Anything to drink?"
Duo stifled a laugh at Quatre's formalities and all in the group declined the offer of drink before seating themselves. After a few minutes of joking around and bringing up old times Trowa began to immerse Heero in a quiet debate over the current political standings of different figureheads of their government. Quatre was glad for this because he had wanted to spend some time with his old friend. He grabbed him by the wrist and pulled him out on to the back porch falling into a chair and offering his braided friend one. "You know it's been almost two months since I've seen you!"
Duo nodded, "Yeah, I know. I've started a job at Preventer's and they sent me out for a job on the second day! I stayed gone until yesterday and I'm still a little tired. I guess that's what happens though it's my fault for staying up late last night."
"Oh yeah, Heero told me about your new job! How is it going? I visited just last week and it seemed to be working smoothly." Quatre spoke to his friend.
"Yeah I haven't been around long enough to really tell but I'm sure it's getting the job done. They do everything thoroughly."
"It was a bit surprising when I found out you took the job. I didn't expect you to, I mean. What finally made you want to, God knows I told you it would be good for you to get out of the house more often."
"I don't know really. Heero told me I should, said I should stop living off you and it would get me out more often instead of laying around the house. It just seemed like a better idea all of a sudden, yanno?" Duo shifted and brought one long leg to lay over the other relaxing into his seat and looking out into the nicely trimmed yard.
Quatre smiled thoughtfully before continuing. "So how is life going with the silent one? Is he treating you nice?"
"He hasn't been mean once. He's changed a lot in the last year. It sort of makes me wonder how much I've changed, yanno? Seriously though, last night he was all emotional and telling me how sorry he was for hurting me before, I've never seen him like that before. It almost makes me want to trust him again, it's so easy to like him. Now that I think about it Quat, I've been thinking about him a lot lately. What scares me though is sometimes by being around him my mind automatically recalls times when we used to be together, how it is to kiss him and hold him. Mushy stuff." Duo laughed at the end trying to make all that was weighing on his mind seem light.
"It scares you?" Quatre asked cautiously, looking at his friend intensely.
"Yeah, I can't have myself falling in love with him again, yanno? I just..." Here Duo stopped the words that once flowed freely coming out slowly and forced as he was just now thinking things through. "It seems childish, or immature. Like I'm holding a grudge. But the thought that he could leave again scares me. I know that pain now and don't want it ever again. That's why I can't let myself even entertain thoughts like that."
"Do you think he would? He seems more sure of everything now."
"I suppose this is all assuming that he loved or even liked me back and I loved him. I don't know if he would though. I don't know if it is even worth putting thought into if I don't even want to risk a relationship like that again. I find myself trusting that he wouldn't more and more each day that I live with him but I'm just scared in the end."
Then there was silence as Duo thought over what he said and Quatre waited for his friend to work things out. Duo was starting to wonder about these lingering thoughts here and there and about how often he thought and worried about Heero. Could he again be falling for the Perfect Soldier even against his own will? Could the love be forming under all these feelings he was attributing to friendship? Maybe everything could be different if the couple tried again. Starting over again at the beginning to make a more stable relationship, one with more trust? Suddenly Duo felt the fear again. How easily, if that did happen, could Heero leave him with nothing but shattered memories again?
Duo began to voice his thoughts. "If I did love him..." He started, in a quiet thoughtful voice, "He could leave. That would hurt twice as much."
Quatre felt his turn to step in now, his friend was obviously very stubbornly stuck on that one fact and would not move on to totally find his feelings until assured that none of that would happen. "Duo, he couldn't leave if you both held on tighter. If you agreed that, no matter what, you were going to work out your problems under the same roof, together. That pain would be a simple memory. And.." Quatre wondered exactly how much he should say before leaving Duo to figure out the rest on his own. He continued. "I think Heero would be willing to try. You yourself told me about how he has changed. Maybe if you watch him you will notice the way he watches you. Give it all some thought and try to move off that one thought, okay?"
Duo nodded with a attentive look about him and stared out into the yard. Heero and Trowa presently came striding though the rear door onto the porch to meet their friends. Duo's thoughts on the matter were put on hold as the two boys looked towards the others.
"There you are Koi." Trowa stated putting a hand on the shorter boy's shoulder.
Duo smiled. "Debate go well?"
A nod answered his question, "Did you guys get all caught up? It's been awhile since you have talked." Trowa sent a question back at the teen.
"Yep!"
***
Duo lay in his own bed at the house engrossed in thought over his conversation with Quatre and just how easily he had toyed with the idea of having a relationship with Heero when just two and a half months ago he promised himself he wouldn't even get close to the colder boy. Was it really a bad thing? Could he rely on Heero? Could the love he once felt so strongly be revived again?
***
-tbc
The next chapter should be out soon because I'm all ready to start right now! Thank you again for the wonderful reviews and please send more and I'll love you forever and ever! Thank you soooo much!