Thoughts
by doink-chan
A note from the doink:

Hi everyone, it's doinkies! I've been a really busy doink recently with no time for writing fics. But don't worry because I have a new chapter ready for Kouyama Mitsuki's Inbox, and I'm thinking of spiffy new fics. For now, enjoy this short (I mean short) Takuto story. Think of it as an early present from doinkies.

Happy Holidays!

doink-chan

Disclaimer:

Full Moon wo Sagashite is ©2002-2003 Tanemura Arina/Shueisha. doinkies is just a FMoS fangirl who likes writing fics and does not own FMoS.

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Mitsuki, you are a total lunatic. Don't you realize Eichi's dead, you idiot?!?! He's DEAD! D-E-A-D, and he will never come back! NEVER! He can't hear your songs, you will never see him again, he's in your past now, MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE!!!

Those are the things I want to say, but I can never say them. I especially cannot say them to Mitsuki. I cannot have her be even more depressed. To be honest, right now I find her infuriating. When she rants about Eichi all the time, I feel rejected and hurt. I want to tell her that I really, really love her, I really do, and that I want to be with her forever…but in Mitsuki's slow mind, she probably will never, ever accept this. She still refuses to believe that Eichi is dead and has been dead for a long time. He is not in America, he is not anywhere on Earth. He is dead, his body mingled with the remains of a crashed plane. He will never see her again.

No, it is not fair to say what I want to say to Mitsuki. Although it hurts me to say this, there is probably no way Mitsuki will ever truly love me. I am much older than she is, and I am dead. I have been dead for a few years and there is certainly no way I will ever come back to life. But I still hope that one day she will realize my true feelings for her. And I hope that she will accept the fact that Eichi, no matter how much she loves him, is dead. She is not dead, she won't be dead for another couple of months.

But for now, it's best to let her hope. I don't want to have her lose what she loves most. Not when she has already suffered enough.

Yes, for now, it's best to let her hope.


The End