It wasn't supposed to be like this. When he came back we were suppose to be together FOREVER! We are together psychically but his heart isn't mine anymore he thinks I don't know. He thinks that if he throws a few meaningless kisses my way or flashes his all so sexy smirk my way I won't know. But his smile and his kisses that don't hide HER sent. You think a vampire of all people would understand the power of sent. How smelling someone can destroy a world. Yeah spike thinks I am stupid that he can hurt me and I won't know that he's Fucking my best friend and Willow, even the thought of her name makes my blood boil, they think they can play me and I won't hurt. I want to rage to hurt them but what would that help. They will be able to escape this if I kill them but I will have to live with it forever. No I'll wait and they'll know want betrayal smells like. He is the reason I have this drug habit. He's the reason why I take shot of heroin everyday. So I don't have to deal to think about it about the pain the hurt. But I can never forget for long.