Buffy's POV
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I know Spike loves me but that's not enough not anymore as much as I enjoy drifting back to the way we were we'll never be like that again and I can't keep dreaming of that time. So I've decided that two can play this game I need to find someone else someone who isn't spike Some one who will help me get over him. Although I may not be strong enough to leave him I can be with someone else he is so why can't I. I am going to club to night to find what might become my next addiction while I am trying to get over the one I've got now. I haven't used in two days. I feel sick I am coming down I have to keep busy to take my mind of my habit and off of spike cause I know that when I think about him and what he's doing I will hurt again and turn to my drugs to escape from reality. I don't want to run from reality anymore I want to be apart of it I've been gone for far to long. I am dressing to kill and in the first time in a while that saying doesn't mean in the literal sense. I pick out my best outfit. A short black skirt that I always looked amazing in a silk black and red tube top with a rose pattern on it. I was going to get a man tonight and for the first time in awhile I was going to be me the way I use to be. I was buffy the girl the strong hopeful girl not buffy the addict and while I putting on my make-up I knew that I would be okay and Spike wasn't going define me anymore For the first time I would define myself. I was going to be just Buffy. Not the slayer, not angel's, Riley's or Spike's girlfriend, not buffy the addict just me pure and simple. As I enter the bar a classy place with men in business suits. I noticed every man in the place and some of the women were staring at me and I felt like I was in high school again with guys drooling on my shoes and that made me happy made me confident that I could do this and I didn't need spike. I looked around for the man who would be the one I would forget spike with and I spotted him. He had this presence about this glow around him that drew me to him. He was gorgeous there was no denying that with his light green eyes, jet black curly hair that was in a very fashionable style a little shaggy with out looking unkempt. He had a baby face with a smile that made me weak in the knees his tan skin glowed in the lights. His slightly tight shirt showed off his ripped body. The best part about him was he was the completely opposite of spike. When I looked at him all the other people faded from the room and it was just the two of us and we were all that mattered as I began to approach him I noticed he was staring at me and licking his all to heavenly kissable lips. I approached him, smiled my best smile and said "hi I am buffy would you liked to dance?" He continued to smile and replied in an all to so sexy voice that was as rich as chocolate and as intoxicating as whisky "I am Antonio and I would love to dance with you". He noticed the relief that flashed in my eyes and he chuckled a sound that made my heart flutter it was that most mind blowing sound I have ever heard. My mind was reeling with desire for him. After he laughed he spoke he said" did you really think I would turn down a dance with such a bewitchingly beautiful woman" when he uttered those words I blushed and I knew I would have him no matter what happens he would mine. He escorted me to the dance floor and when he put his hands on me I thought I would disintegrate from the shear heat of his hands. We began to dance to the music and as I heard the song my willpower began to slip. The song playing was HIS song. Spike would walk around singing this very song. I let my mind drift to thought's of him though I know I shouldn't that it was like poison, my memories of him, but I couldn't help it. I started listening to the words. %It's a beautiful world but everyone's insane. Either you swim or either you fade. It's a revolution time we're sleeping at the wheel. Apocalypse child in a nuclear field we want to change the world but not what holds us back. I want to be for you what I've never had.% I could hear his voice intertwined with the singers and I began to sink back down to him The song went on %And all of this time I was just trying to reach you through the rain traffic. As you float into space. Your wide eyes hide your face .As you float between. I am with you if you leave. Fragile to the waves ,vicissitudes of days. When I am with you I feel a little brave. The madness and the wars circle what we run. Confusion we import. Look what we've become and all of this time I was just trying to reach you % I remembered the look on his face as he crooned the words I remembered the way he made he feel when he sang, As the song continued %Through the rain traffic as you float into space. Your wide eyes hide your face as you float in between. I die with you if you leave as you float in between % Just as I thought I lose my soul to my memories the song ended and I was back with Antonio and the electricity of him was flowing through me again and I was back on my game trying to forget Spike. The desire between us was so thick I could have cut it with a knife. So I whispered to him" wan to go some where less noise?" As we walked from the club to into the brisk star lighted night I knew that he would help me get over Spike %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%5 This is my longest chapter ever *Does longest chapter dance* The song in this chapter is "float" by bush
I know Spike loves me but that's not enough not anymore as much as I enjoy drifting back to the way we were we'll never be like that again and I can't keep dreaming of that time. So I've decided that two can play this game I need to find someone else someone who isn't spike Some one who will help me get over him. Although I may not be strong enough to leave him I can be with someone else he is so why can't I. I am going to club to night to find what might become my next addiction while I am trying to get over the one I've got now. I haven't used in two days. I feel sick I am coming down I have to keep busy to take my mind of my habit and off of spike cause I know that when I think about him and what he's doing I will hurt again and turn to my drugs to escape from reality. I don't want to run from reality anymore I want to be apart of it I've been gone for far to long. I am dressing to kill and in the first time in a while that saying doesn't mean in the literal sense. I pick out my best outfit. A short black skirt that I always looked amazing in a silk black and red tube top with a rose pattern on it. I was going to get a man tonight and for the first time in awhile I was going to be me the way I use to be. I was buffy the girl the strong hopeful girl not buffy the addict and while I putting on my make-up I knew that I would be okay and Spike wasn't going define me anymore For the first time I would define myself. I was going to be just Buffy. Not the slayer, not angel's, Riley's or Spike's girlfriend, not buffy the addict just me pure and simple. As I enter the bar a classy place with men in business suits. I noticed every man in the place and some of the women were staring at me and I felt like I was in high school again with guys drooling on my shoes and that made me happy made me confident that I could do this and I didn't need spike. I looked around for the man who would be the one I would forget spike with and I spotted him. He had this presence about this glow around him that drew me to him. He was gorgeous there was no denying that with his light green eyes, jet black curly hair that was in a very fashionable style a little shaggy with out looking unkempt. He had a baby face with a smile that made me weak in the knees his tan skin glowed in the lights. His slightly tight shirt showed off his ripped body. The best part about him was he was the completely opposite of spike. When I looked at him all the other people faded from the room and it was just the two of us and we were all that mattered as I began to approach him I noticed he was staring at me and licking his all to heavenly kissable lips. I approached him, smiled my best smile and said "hi I am buffy would you liked to dance?" He continued to smile and replied in an all to so sexy voice that was as rich as chocolate and as intoxicating as whisky "I am Antonio and I would love to dance with you". He noticed the relief that flashed in my eyes and he chuckled a sound that made my heart flutter it was that most mind blowing sound I have ever heard. My mind was reeling with desire for him. After he laughed he spoke he said" did you really think I would turn down a dance with such a bewitchingly beautiful woman" when he uttered those words I blushed and I knew I would have him no matter what happens he would mine. He escorted me to the dance floor and when he put his hands on me I thought I would disintegrate from the shear heat of his hands. We began to dance to the music and as I heard the song my willpower began to slip. The song playing was HIS song. Spike would walk around singing this very song. I let my mind drift to thought's of him though I know I shouldn't that it was like poison, my memories of him, but I couldn't help it. I started listening to the words. %It's a beautiful world but everyone's insane. Either you swim or either you fade. It's a revolution time we're sleeping at the wheel. Apocalypse child in a nuclear field we want to change the world but not what holds us back. I want to be for you what I've never had.% I could hear his voice intertwined with the singers and I began to sink back down to him The song went on %And all of this time I was just trying to reach you through the rain traffic. As you float into space. Your wide eyes hide your face .As you float between. I am with you if you leave. Fragile to the waves ,vicissitudes of days. When I am with you I feel a little brave. The madness and the wars circle what we run. Confusion we import. Look what we've become and all of this time I was just trying to reach you % I remembered the look on his face as he crooned the words I remembered the way he made he feel when he sang, As the song continued %Through the rain traffic as you float into space. Your wide eyes hide your face as you float in between. I die with you if you leave as you float in between % Just as I thought I lose my soul to my memories the song ended and I was back with Antonio and the electricity of him was flowing through me again and I was back on my game trying to forget Spike. The desire between us was so thick I could have cut it with a knife. So I whispered to him" wan to go some where less noise?" As we walked from the club to into the brisk star lighted night I knew that he would help me get over Spike %%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%%5 This is my longest chapter ever *Does longest chapter dance* The song in this chapter is "float" by bush