Willow's POV ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ I am not real sure why I was so very angry when Buffy came through the door smelling of animalistic sex and some other man. I guess it because I love Spike and I knew that when he found out he would be crushed. He would be so utterly heart broken that he wouldn't want to exist and knowing that angered me beyond all control. I knew I was in trouble when Buffy got I to her fighting slayer stance but I was to far in to crawl away now so I opened my mouth and said what has to be some of the dumbest words I have ever spoken. " What is wrong with you how and you just turn and walk away like he doesn't matter. I wish it were that easy for me". I saw my doom flash in her piercing gaze. I saw more anger than I had seen in her since Faith had shot Angel. At that moment I feared for my life but she didn't hit me or even yell. She closed her eyes and clamed her self before letting out a bitter forced laugh and saying "walking away is that what you think I am doing? You think it doesn't kill me to walk into our house and into our room and smell the sent of you and him on our bed. You think I don't cry every single time I see the guilt and pain in spike's eyes. Well, if you think I don't guess again. For awhile I could figure out why Spike, a man who had died for his love for me would chose you, but then I began to notice the glazed look in his eyes and smell the magic. It was then I knew he wasn't doing this of his own free will. You think if I could simply turn and walk away from this, away from him, and away from my love I'd be shooting up to escape my reality. I never would have turned to drugs if I could deal on my own. So don't you dare pretend you know me anymore you lost the right when you betrayed me in the worst way. You took my life from me it time I at least bruised yours" and without hesitation or even giving me time to respond she attacked like a skilled hunting lioness she attacked flawlessly and in a most graceful but deadly way. Had I not been on the receiving end of this attack I would have called her moves beautiful but now they were just freighting. I tried my best to dodge her reign of kicks and punches but one connected and I am not sure what hurt more the actual pain of the blow or the emotional pain of knowing I deserved it. At that moment Spike descend the stairs calling "willow where." then he saw me lying on the floor and buffy standing over fury in her eyes and murder on her mind and right before I passed out I heard a confused "What the bloody hell" then my world went dark. ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ sry it took me so long to update but I had some problems working the whole story out in my head. Thanx to all those who reviewed keep it up. And don't worry everything I write is for a reason and it will explain itself in due time.