~*My Diary*~

Chapter One.

I DON'T OWN ANY OF THE FF8 CHARACTERS!!!

Metallia: Hey Everyone. I was just sitting around today. Totally bored. I cannot think of anything to write about AT all. So I apologize sincerely if this story stinks as much as Zell does when he forgets to shower.

Zell: HEY!!!

Metallia: J/k I totally LOVE Zell, he's one of my fave characters. But, this story is about Rinoa and Squall. Squinoa or Rinquall(??) or however you want to say it! Hmmm..... Rinoa/Squall, Squall/rinoa......

Zell: I think they get it!

Metallia: RinoaxSquall, SquallxRinoa. I think you get it. Heh. Plz, READ REVIEW AND ENJOY!!!!! Oh, you may also notice this story is written slightly different then my other ones...

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August 08/2003 2:31pm Balamb Garden

Dear Diary,

I cannot believe this. Diary, my life is horrible! Just when I thought I found 'true love'. Reality comes and hits me in the face. Okay, after the defeat of Sorceress Ultimica, I thought Squall and I would have a perfect life. I mean, he loved me. I knew that for sure. At least, I thought I did...

I'd gone home to visit Timber, Watts and Zone, for about....oh, 3 weeks now? They were great! Very happy that I was safe and I have to say, I was worried about them too! I mean, we were a team! Well anyway, I had stayed with Zone and Watts. We spent some time together, I told them about what I'd gone through! Floating into space....Squall....Especially Squall. I told them about how much he had changed! I love him so much!!! That's what brought me here.

My love. For Squall. That is what brought me to Balamb Garden. You see, while I was visiting Timber, Squall and his friends had gone back to Garden and started to settle back down into the lives they lived before. Oh, except for Squall. He was commander now and he had a lot of responsibility.

Today, I had waltzed into garden, with my little suitcase and kiss, ready to give to Squall! I met up with all my friends! Zell, Selphie, Irvine and even Quistis. We talked awhile, but the main purpose of my trip to garden was to visit....Squall. Quistis had been very kind in showing me the way up to his office.

So, there I stood. In front of his door. My palms were sweating like crazy! I mean, I know I always act carefree on the outside, but I have worries too! Did he still like me? Were things going to change between us? Well, all my questions were answered when I opened the door and saw Squall sitting at his desk. His head in all the paper work.

"Squall?" I had said. And then.....he looked up at me. With those bluey- gray eyes.(Yea, they're kind of blue and kind of gray! I'll never know what colour they are for sure, diary...)

"Rinoa? What are you doing here?" He had stood up and frowned. But not the way he frowns when he's thinking. He was frowning in the way he does when he is mad. MAD. At me.

"Squall, I just came to visit you. I thought maybe I could stay at garden and we could spend more time together?" I'm really sorry! I didn't mean to make him mad. But wasn't he happy to see me? Didn't he love me? Or is it all over?

"Rinoa! I'm busy. Listen, you can't stay at garden anyway, all the dorms are full. I guess you can stay at Balamb Hotel or something. I'll get Zell to walk you there and......just rest or something." That's what he said. Do you believe it?! I took the train from Timber to Balamb to see him and THAT's how he decides to treat me?! I don't think so.

"Squall! I just want to spend sometime with you! I mean, after our fight, I just thought maybe we could spend some relaxing time together and, Squall I wouldn't mind sharing a room with you...." Okay. That last part, it was a joke.

"Rinoa! I don't have time to relax. I'm the commander of Balamb Garden now. Do you REALIZE how much paperwork needs to be done? And there is NO WAY you are sharing a room with me. Female and Male are prohibit to share dorms! I can't break the rules for you, I'd be a bad leader." Not only had he lectured me but, slowly his voice was rising. Yes, he was beginning to YELL at me.

That was not at all how I had expected it to be. I expected him to be happy. And smile at me the special way he does. Then maybe we could share a short kiss and hug each other tightly, never letting go. But just thinking about this is making me teary.

Anyway, after Squall had yelled at me. I had had enough. I couldn't take the way he was treating me.

"Squall. I was only joking and you know what? You maybe a good leader, but you're being an AWFUL LOVER!" So that was that. I ran out of there as fast as I could. I bumped into Selphie on the way out of garden and I had to tell her how I felt. So, she kindly let me share a room with her and that's where I am now.

Selphie's not here right now. I bet you can guess where she is though right? Yep, Quad. Helping out with the garden festival.
. ...HOW COULD HE?! How could Squall do something like that? Argh!.......... I'm sorry. I need to stop writing. I'll write more later. Oh! someone's at the door.....I wonder who it is? (could it be Squall.....???)

Rinoa Heartilly*

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Metallia: Hey, I'm REAL sorry this chapter is so short but I kinda wanna stop here. It's not much of a cliffhanger but ah, well!

Zell: Where AM I?!

Metallia: I mentioned your name.

Zell: Oh YeaH!!!!

Metallia: Anyway, please REVIEW and tell me what you think. I guess if I get at least one or two reviews, I'll write the second chapter. Also, this isn't just about Rinoa's diary, you'll be able to enjoy reading the other characters diaries too!! Yeah!!! so, ja ne(see you) and please, please, PLEASE REVIEW?!?!?!!!! Thanks alot!!! *walks off eating a hotdog*

Zell: AHHHHHHHH!!! *chases Metallia*