A/N: I own no rights to any Harry Potter content.
This is short. It's written to move. I hope it moves you. May this song be a light for you in the darkest corners of the Earth, as it has been for me after troubling days of trials and tests.
He sat in the corner, crying and mourning. He sat reflecting and numbing his pain on pint after pint of Firewhiskey. Yet, no matter how much he drank, his sorrow was too deep for words. The world seemed to be passing in such a haze that nothing seemed to matter anymore. Life seemed to have lost a purpose. Everything he held dear was vanishing. He was slowly losing what was left of his mind. After all he had been through, he was surprised he still had anything left to lose. His life was as blank as a canvas. He hadn't a masterpiece to his name for as far back as he could ever remember. And from the looks of it, he wasn't about to paint one.
The house was very quiet. Everyone knew of his misery and intended on leaving him to wallow in misery for a while. While not healthy, they knew that the pain was still far too near. So, he sat at the kitchen table, crying more and more. The radio somehow turned on by itself. It aggravated him immensely.
"Bloody piece of shit must have short circuited," he said to himself. He looked up as it began to tune itself as well. "What in the bloody hell is going on? Who's doing that?" he wondered aloud, something he seemed to be doing a lot of lately.
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
"My lot in life is to be made to suffer, isn't it?" he asked the stationary furniture. He had begun to lose what remained of his mind. "We almost did used to rock the show. I would start or set up the entertainment and you'd keep it going, wouldn't you?" he continued to wonder.
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorious they got to know that
"Those times really do seem so far away. I can't believe it happened so fast. Just too fast," he continued to ponder.
Life ain't always what it seems to be
Words can't express what you mean to me!
"Life really isn't perfect. I had always thought that my life would be more than this. Words really aren't enough to describe what you've done for me. I feel so empty without you. How could you be so fool hardy? How could you leave me?" he gasped as he began to cry again.
Even though you gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
"We'll always be one, friend. I will never consider myself a solo act. You're always with me. But, I can't even show it through family. I have no real family anymore," he explained to the air surrounding him.
In the future can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
"I wonder...Will you be the one to open up the white gates for me? Will my family be there with you? Will I ever see you again?" he asked, half daring to hope he would get an answer.
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friendTry to black it out, but it plays again
"I'll never forget that night, or was it day? I can't remember it passed in such a haze that it escapes me. I can't forget it. It plagues my dreams. I awake every night in a cold sweat from dreaming of it again and again," he complained. "How I wish you were here now. I need you so badly!"
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
"I can't keep hiding and I know that. But do you know how hard it is to lose someone you love that you consider so close? My heart is ripping me to pieces. I can't believe this pain!!!" he cried, not only in voice but in tears.
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you're still livin' your life after death
"What I wouldn't give to have a proper good-bye? Anything! Then again, I wouldn't want to ever have a good-bye," he admitted to no one in particular.
Every step I take. Every move I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you.
Thinking of the day when you went away.
What a life to take? What a bond to break?
I'll be missing you.
"I will never forget you, old friend. I can't forget you. You can never imagine what you meant to me," he sighed.
It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smiling down
"It's not kinda hard. It's the worse feeling. Emptiness. Sorrow. The feeling of being the most alone person in the world. It's positively horrible," he said quietly as he began to listen, unable to talk until he stopped his crying again.
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
"Oh my, God! You have no idea what I would give to turn back the hands of time. I would go back and I'd be more conscientious of my stupidity! I would make one single change and it would alter everything!" he cried in total pain and exasperation.
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
"It just doesn't seem real. I just can't believe it. It's too painful for words. We used to be so close. Now, we're worlds apart," he continued to sob as his thoughts became more into the song on the radio.
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you're still livin' your life after death
Every step I take. Every more I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you.
Thinking of the day when you went away.
What a life to take? What a bond to break?
I'll be missing you.
Somebody tell me why...
"You've no idea how badly I want to see you again. I miss you so bad right now. Bloody hell. It's killing me from the inside out, this pain," he whimpered to whoever happened to be listening, although no one was around.
One black morning
When this life is over
I know I'll see your face.
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every step I take. Every move I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you.
Thinking of the day when you went away.
What a life to take? What a bond to break?
I'll be missing you.
"I can't stay like this. I'm not pathetic. I'm not alone either. I still have others left who do care somewhat about me. I need to go on. I need to move on," he whispered.
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every step I take. Every move I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you.
Thinking of the day when you went away.
What a life to take? What a bond to break?
I'll be missing you
. "I have to move on." His voice was steadily growing stronger. "I will avenge you. And, I'm not going to give him a chance. You shall be avenged."
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every step I take. Every move I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you.
Thinking of the day when you went away
.
What a life to take? What a bond to break?
I'll be missing you. We miss you
"I swear by all that is good and pure and left in this world, YOU WILL BE AVENGED!!!" He screamed at the top of his lungs almost battle cry-like. He was out for blood to avenge that lost.
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As he collected himself and thought of ways to kill him, Harry rose from his chair and Sirius' picture to prepare for the biggest battle of his life against the purest evil who had managed to take all away from Harry except that which he sought to; his spirit.
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Song: "I'll be Missing You" by Puff Daddy.
Yeah, this right here goes out to everyone
that has lost someone or that truly loved...
Check it out....
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin' on the block for dough
Notorius they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be
Words can't express what you mean to me!
Even though you're gone we still a team
Thru your family I'll fulfill your dreams
In the future can't wait to see if you'll
Open up the gates for me
Reminisce sometime the night they took my friend
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death
CHORUS:
Every step I take. Every move I make.
Every single day. Every time I pray.
I'll be missing you
Thinking of the day when you went away
What a life to take What a bond to break
I'll be missing you
(We miss you, Big....)
It's kinda hard wit you not around
Know you in Heaven smilin' down
Watching us while we pray for you
Everyday we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts, Big, I just can't define
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us and the six shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me takin' flics
Makin' hits, stages they receive you on
Still can't believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half your breath
I know you still livin' your life after death
CHORUS
Somebody tell me why...
One black morning
When this life is over
I know, I'll see your face
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Chorus
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day
Chorus
Every night I pray
Every step I take
Every move I make
Every single day