Before I die
By Goijh
Author's note: Here it is! The first all original, all new chapter! YAY! *imaginary fans cheer in background. Hired school band launches into annoying happy music.* I know that this chapter is a little short, but that's okay! Because....Well that would spoil the chapter if I told you so you'll just have to wait until the end of the chapter! This chapter in my personal opinion...is sad. Sad as in sucks. One of my friends (actually my brother [who is one mof my friends I am proud to say]) told me that it's sad as in *tears* and depressing.
Goijh: I happen to think that it is awful enough to bring you to tears and I find that very depressing.
Bmrh: You know that's not what I mean. *Gives a stern stare like the ones that your parents gave you when you were little and you did something wrong.*
Goijh: *gulp* Sorry...?
Bmrh: Hey look! I'm in the author's note!
Goijh: *sweatdrop* Uh..yeah! O_o
(If no one noticed, Goijh is my initials...Bmrh is my brother's initials. Hee hee. I have 5 names! It makes me feel special!)
Anyways on with the chapter!
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Chapter Five
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Kikyo watched with sadistic glee Kagome began to cry. She knew then and there what was going to happen- Kagome was going to leave and Inuyasha would be HERS. But what Kagome did before she left filled Kikyou with bitter rage. That weak reincarnation dared to kiss Inuyasha!
Unfortunately, before the enraged corpse could do anything about it, Kagome had ended the kiss and leapt through the well, leaving the Shikon shards and the hanyou behind.
Kikyo couldn't help the triumphant laughter that welled up in her. It demanded to be let loose and all she could do was comply. Her eyes closed and all she could hear was the sound of her own cold voice, echoing throughout the air. Still laughing, though not quite as loudly, the witch finally opened her eyes to look upon her prize.
Inuyasha...
Kikyo's demented mirth ended as soon as it had begun when she saw him. A lone bead of moisture running down his cheek. The sun caught it perfectly and it seemed almost as if it were a beautiful silver jewel. 'Is that a tear?' Kikyo's mind almost screamed in jealousy and confusion. 'Inuyasha never cried for me! Why is he crying?! Is it over that worthless girl? Could he really care more for her than for me?'
The thoughts were quickly dismissed from her mind. None of the mattered. Inuyasha was hers now.
Only hers.
"Inuyasha." Kikyo called out, forcing what she thought to be an inviting smile upon her face. In reality it looked malicious and cruel. "Come with me Inuyasha. We can be together now."
Inuyasha didn't even bother to wipe his eyes as he turned his head towards her. Kikyo had never before seen anyone, youkai or ningen, look so sad.
So alone.
So lost.
Instead of feeling sympathy or pity though her heart of ice could only feel hatred and anger. Her reincarnation was only a copy of herself. She was in no way better than Kikyo. Inuyasha was wasting his tears on that filthy girl.
"Inuyasha." Kikyou called out again, hoping that this time he would would respond to her plea. "Come with me Inuyasha. Come with me like you promised."
Inuyasha finally wiped his face, flinging the offending tears to the ground where they splashed quietly and were forgotten. A snarl covered his face as he glared at Kikyo, channeling as much of his despair and anger into that glare as he possibly could. Kikyo shivered unwillingly beneath his heated stare and tried to look away, but his intense eyes captivated her and she was unable to move.
Moments passed and neither made a move nor said a word.
Finally Inuyasha opened his mouth, but the words to come from it were not those of promise and devotion that the dead miko was accustomed too.
"Go to hell by yourself Kikyo."
Kikyo recoiled as if struck by a poisonous snake. She couldn't believe that Inuyasha would say something so harsh to her. Was she not his first love? Did he not still love her?
"Inuyasha! How can you speak to me so? Do you mean to betray me once again?"
Inuyasha seethed with rage. Kikyo knew now that it had been Naraku whom had betrayed her over 50 years ago. Yet she still dared to blame it on him?! He knew that the Kikyo that now walked the earth was not the woman that he had once loved. She was merely an empty shell of the original preistess. A walking zombie that fed on souls and hate.
Because of her, Kagome didn't know that he loved her too.
Because of her, Kagome was gone.
"Kikyo, you do not deserve to live! The only reason that you walk now is because you have a stolen piece of Kagome's soul! I should have killed you the day that Urusae resurrected you. But I was too weak too. I didn't want to see that you weren't the Kikyo that I had loved. I didn't want to see you for the monster that you are now!"
Kikyo shrieked in horror that Inuyasha should speak to her so. "You mean to kill me?! You heartless beast! Inuyasha, you promised that you would go to hell with me! It is your fault that I am dead and your obligation to repay me!"
Inuyasha hung his head so that his bangs covered his eyes. His ears flattened against his head and his body trembled in suppressed anger.
"Kikyo," His voice was barely above a whisper but the deceased miko could hear him as if he were right next to her, "I am not the one that killed you. Naraku decieved us both. It is for you that I shall kill him. To avenge your soul and allow you to rest in peace. But you will no longer walk this earth after this day."
Inuyasha raised his head and amber orbs to reveal fresh tears gathering in his eyes. A look of pain was plainly visible across his features. Kikyo knew what he was about to do even before he cracked his knuckles as he unsheathed his deadly claws.
"I'm sorry Kikyo. But I know that you and I both know its better this way."
Panic surged in the priestesses body. It wasn't supposed to be this way! Inuyasha was supposed to come back to her! He was supposed to love her and forget about Kagome now that she had fled from him.
That stupid reincarnation was not supposed to have kissed him. She wasn't supposed to have had the chance to tell Inuyasha that she loved him! Everything was going wrong.
Almost as if the world were in slow motion, Kikyo saw Inuyasha bending his knees as he prepared to rush forward. Kikyo could feel her body turning, her legs moving as she began to run. She was faintly aware of a blood curdling scream filling the air.
Was that her own voice?
She began to run, her head still looking over her shoulder as she saw Inuyasha leap from the ground and towards her in one powerful movement. She saw the sun glint off of his claws as he drew nearer and nearer. She knew that all her horror and fear was plainly visible on her face. She didn't care.
She knew that this was it.
She saw more than felt Inuyasha's claws sinking into her clay body. An arm fell loose from her shoulder and shattered like pottery upon the hard ground. Her eyes grew wide as she saw the hanyous shadow in front of her, his arm drawing back as it prepared to plunge through her chest. Another scream filled the air as she saw the shadow move, and when she looked down, a clawed hand emerged from her chest, where her heart would have been had she had one.
She could feel her stolen portion of soul fleeing her body as she slowly returned to clay.
She felt arms wrap around her and pull her close as she was gently lowered to the ground. Lips against hers. Words being whispered.
"I'm sorry Kikyo."
She opened her eyes one last time and looked up into Inuyasha's fallen face. He wept freely now, the beads of water mixing with the dirt and clay of her cheek as her body continued to return to that which it had been made from. She closed her eyes and opened her mouth to speak her last words.
As her stolen soul finished leaving her crumbling body, she felt a serene veil of comfort cover her. She was finally going to be at peace.
"Thank you....Inu..ya...sha..."
Inuyasha sobbed aloud as he felt Kikyo's clay body dry and crumble into dust and ashes in his arms. Desperately he tried to cling to the small particles, his heart being torn apart inside of him. He had tried to tell himself that she was not Kikyo. That she was a monster and he no longer cared for her.
It had helped him to plunge his claws through her empty chest.
But when he had held her in his arms, when he had heard her last words, he knew then and there that he would always love Kikyo. She was his first love and he would never forget her.
But now he had moved on.
He loved Kagome more than he loved his life, more than he had ever loved the priestess Kikyo. And best of all she loved him too.
If only he could have told her before she left.
Inuyasha fell to the ground and laid in the ashes of his former love. Tears continue to roll down his face as he choked back sobs. He needed to go to Kagome. He needed to tell her he loved her too.
But would the well let him through?
A gentle breeze slowly began to carry Kikyo's ashes away. Inuyasha laid on the ground, watching as they were carried farther and farther away from him, until they were all gone. Slowly he sat up and dared to look over at the well.
Never before had it looked so daunting.
So forbidding.
It seemed to call out to him, daring him to try to leap inside so that it could crush his heart and hopes when he landed upon the hard dirt bottom of the feudal era. Inuyasha had never been so unsure of anything in his life. He had always been able to travel through the well. He was the only one who could pass.
But he had always worn the wooden beaded rosary the tied him to Kagome.
Would the magic of the well allow him to see her again.
Never had Inuyasha cried so much as he had this day. Never had he felt such pain since his mother was murdered before him. He had sworn then that he would never be so weak, he would never cry again. Yet here he was, tears once again threatening to spill from his still wet eyes as he thought of what would happen should the well not let him through.
Would he ever see Kagome again.
Inuyasha shakily stood to his feet, his fingers brushing over his lips as he remembered the kiss that Kagome had given him before she ran. She loved him. She had told him that she loved him!
Newfound strength surged through his limbs as he walked over to the well.
Kagome loved him and he loved her. Things couldn't end this way. If this was the way that things were meant to be then why had she ever been able to revive him from his death on the Goshinboku tree?
They were meant to be together. Even through time itself they were meant to be together.
And he had to tell her.
With a picture of Kagome's smiling face in his head, Inuyasha closed his eyes...
...and jumped into the well.
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Another Author's note: OKAY! There you go people! Kikyo, the stalker, is DEAD! I will have to refrain from cheering with the rest of you though because I, being the evil and strange person I am, happen to like Kikyo. The living one though, not the zombie soul stealer. REMEMBER TO REVIEW!
~Goijh
By Goijh
Author's note: Here it is! The first all original, all new chapter! YAY! *imaginary fans cheer in background. Hired school band launches into annoying happy music.* I know that this chapter is a little short, but that's okay! Because....Well that would spoil the chapter if I told you so you'll just have to wait until the end of the chapter! This chapter in my personal opinion...is sad. Sad as in sucks. One of my friends (actually my brother [who is one mof my friends I am proud to say]) told me that it's sad as in *tears* and depressing.
Goijh: I happen to think that it is awful enough to bring you to tears and I find that very depressing.
Bmrh: You know that's not what I mean. *Gives a stern stare like the ones that your parents gave you when you were little and you did something wrong.*
Goijh: *gulp* Sorry...?
Bmrh: Hey look! I'm in the author's note!
Goijh: *sweatdrop* Uh..yeah! O_o
(If no one noticed, Goijh is my initials...Bmrh is my brother's initials. Hee hee. I have 5 names! It makes me feel special!)
Anyways on with the chapter!
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Chapter Five
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Kikyo watched with sadistic glee Kagome began to cry. She knew then and there what was going to happen- Kagome was going to leave and Inuyasha would be HERS. But what Kagome did before she left filled Kikyou with bitter rage. That weak reincarnation dared to kiss Inuyasha!
Unfortunately, before the enraged corpse could do anything about it, Kagome had ended the kiss and leapt through the well, leaving the Shikon shards and the hanyou behind.
Kikyo couldn't help the triumphant laughter that welled up in her. It demanded to be let loose and all she could do was comply. Her eyes closed and all she could hear was the sound of her own cold voice, echoing throughout the air. Still laughing, though not quite as loudly, the witch finally opened her eyes to look upon her prize.
Inuyasha...
Kikyo's demented mirth ended as soon as it had begun when she saw him. A lone bead of moisture running down his cheek. The sun caught it perfectly and it seemed almost as if it were a beautiful silver jewel. 'Is that a tear?' Kikyo's mind almost screamed in jealousy and confusion. 'Inuyasha never cried for me! Why is he crying?! Is it over that worthless girl? Could he really care more for her than for me?'
The thoughts were quickly dismissed from her mind. None of the mattered. Inuyasha was hers now.
Only hers.
"Inuyasha." Kikyo called out, forcing what she thought to be an inviting smile upon her face. In reality it looked malicious and cruel. "Come with me Inuyasha. We can be together now."
Inuyasha didn't even bother to wipe his eyes as he turned his head towards her. Kikyo had never before seen anyone, youkai or ningen, look so sad.
So alone.
So lost.
Instead of feeling sympathy or pity though her heart of ice could only feel hatred and anger. Her reincarnation was only a copy of herself. She was in no way better than Kikyo. Inuyasha was wasting his tears on that filthy girl.
"Inuyasha." Kikyou called out again, hoping that this time he would would respond to her plea. "Come with me Inuyasha. Come with me like you promised."
Inuyasha finally wiped his face, flinging the offending tears to the ground where they splashed quietly and were forgotten. A snarl covered his face as he glared at Kikyo, channeling as much of his despair and anger into that glare as he possibly could. Kikyo shivered unwillingly beneath his heated stare and tried to look away, but his intense eyes captivated her and she was unable to move.
Moments passed and neither made a move nor said a word.
Finally Inuyasha opened his mouth, but the words to come from it were not those of promise and devotion that the dead miko was accustomed too.
"Go to hell by yourself Kikyo."
Kikyo recoiled as if struck by a poisonous snake. She couldn't believe that Inuyasha would say something so harsh to her. Was she not his first love? Did he not still love her?
"Inuyasha! How can you speak to me so? Do you mean to betray me once again?"
Inuyasha seethed with rage. Kikyo knew now that it had been Naraku whom had betrayed her over 50 years ago. Yet she still dared to blame it on him?! He knew that the Kikyo that now walked the earth was not the woman that he had once loved. She was merely an empty shell of the original preistess. A walking zombie that fed on souls and hate.
Because of her, Kagome didn't know that he loved her too.
Because of her, Kagome was gone.
"Kikyo, you do not deserve to live! The only reason that you walk now is because you have a stolen piece of Kagome's soul! I should have killed you the day that Urusae resurrected you. But I was too weak too. I didn't want to see that you weren't the Kikyo that I had loved. I didn't want to see you for the monster that you are now!"
Kikyo shrieked in horror that Inuyasha should speak to her so. "You mean to kill me?! You heartless beast! Inuyasha, you promised that you would go to hell with me! It is your fault that I am dead and your obligation to repay me!"
Inuyasha hung his head so that his bangs covered his eyes. His ears flattened against his head and his body trembled in suppressed anger.
"Kikyo," His voice was barely above a whisper but the deceased miko could hear him as if he were right next to her, "I am not the one that killed you. Naraku decieved us both. It is for you that I shall kill him. To avenge your soul and allow you to rest in peace. But you will no longer walk this earth after this day."
Inuyasha raised his head and amber orbs to reveal fresh tears gathering in his eyes. A look of pain was plainly visible across his features. Kikyo knew what he was about to do even before he cracked his knuckles as he unsheathed his deadly claws.
"I'm sorry Kikyo. But I know that you and I both know its better this way."
Panic surged in the priestesses body. It wasn't supposed to be this way! Inuyasha was supposed to come back to her! He was supposed to love her and forget about Kagome now that she had fled from him.
That stupid reincarnation was not supposed to have kissed him. She wasn't supposed to have had the chance to tell Inuyasha that she loved him! Everything was going wrong.
Almost as if the world were in slow motion, Kikyo saw Inuyasha bending his knees as he prepared to rush forward. Kikyo could feel her body turning, her legs moving as she began to run. She was faintly aware of a blood curdling scream filling the air.
Was that her own voice?
She began to run, her head still looking over her shoulder as she saw Inuyasha leap from the ground and towards her in one powerful movement. She saw the sun glint off of his claws as he drew nearer and nearer. She knew that all her horror and fear was plainly visible on her face. She didn't care.
She knew that this was it.
She saw more than felt Inuyasha's claws sinking into her clay body. An arm fell loose from her shoulder and shattered like pottery upon the hard ground. Her eyes grew wide as she saw the hanyous shadow in front of her, his arm drawing back as it prepared to plunge through her chest. Another scream filled the air as she saw the shadow move, and when she looked down, a clawed hand emerged from her chest, where her heart would have been had she had one.
She could feel her stolen portion of soul fleeing her body as she slowly returned to clay.
She felt arms wrap around her and pull her close as she was gently lowered to the ground. Lips against hers. Words being whispered.
"I'm sorry Kikyo."
She opened her eyes one last time and looked up into Inuyasha's fallen face. He wept freely now, the beads of water mixing with the dirt and clay of her cheek as her body continued to return to that which it had been made from. She closed her eyes and opened her mouth to speak her last words.
As her stolen soul finished leaving her crumbling body, she felt a serene veil of comfort cover her. She was finally going to be at peace.
"Thank you....Inu..ya...sha..."
Inuyasha sobbed aloud as he felt Kikyo's clay body dry and crumble into dust and ashes in his arms. Desperately he tried to cling to the small particles, his heart being torn apart inside of him. He had tried to tell himself that she was not Kikyo. That she was a monster and he no longer cared for her.
It had helped him to plunge his claws through her empty chest.
But when he had held her in his arms, when he had heard her last words, he knew then and there that he would always love Kikyo. She was his first love and he would never forget her.
But now he had moved on.
He loved Kagome more than he loved his life, more than he had ever loved the priestess Kikyo. And best of all she loved him too.
If only he could have told her before she left.
Inuyasha fell to the ground and laid in the ashes of his former love. Tears continue to roll down his face as he choked back sobs. He needed to go to Kagome. He needed to tell her he loved her too.
But would the well let him through?
A gentle breeze slowly began to carry Kikyo's ashes away. Inuyasha laid on the ground, watching as they were carried farther and farther away from him, until they were all gone. Slowly he sat up and dared to look over at the well.
Never before had it looked so daunting.
So forbidding.
It seemed to call out to him, daring him to try to leap inside so that it could crush his heart and hopes when he landed upon the hard dirt bottom of the feudal era. Inuyasha had never been so unsure of anything in his life. He had always been able to travel through the well. He was the only one who could pass.
But he had always worn the wooden beaded rosary the tied him to Kagome.
Would the magic of the well allow him to see her again.
Never had Inuyasha cried so much as he had this day. Never had he felt such pain since his mother was murdered before him. He had sworn then that he would never be so weak, he would never cry again. Yet here he was, tears once again threatening to spill from his still wet eyes as he thought of what would happen should the well not let him through.
Would he ever see Kagome again.
Inuyasha shakily stood to his feet, his fingers brushing over his lips as he remembered the kiss that Kagome had given him before she ran. She loved him. She had told him that she loved him!
Newfound strength surged through his limbs as he walked over to the well.
Kagome loved him and he loved her. Things couldn't end this way. If this was the way that things were meant to be then why had she ever been able to revive him from his death on the Goshinboku tree?
They were meant to be together. Even through time itself they were meant to be together.
And he had to tell her.
With a picture of Kagome's smiling face in his head, Inuyasha closed his eyes...
...and jumped into the well.
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Another Author's note: OKAY! There you go people! Kikyo, the stalker, is DEAD! I will have to refrain from cheering with the rest of you though because I, being the evil and strange person I am, happen to like Kikyo. The living one though, not the zombie soul stealer. REMEMBER TO REVIEW!
~Goijh