Authors notes: Another chapter devoted to someone's thoughts. I decided to incorporate these chapters into the story instead of them all being side stories. Please read and review!! Enjoy! ^_^
Death's Angel
By Rekka's Angel
Chapter 11
Suki's thoughts
*"Graffiti decorations
Underneath a sky of dust
A constant wave of tension
On top of broken trust"*
Suki leaned back in the chair she was sitting in
as she watched Heath and Yusuke discuss recent events and what they want
to do. She frowned in disgust as they thought of what they could do to
torture the Ronins. She liked fighting, but she hated seeing Miyako used
like a little puppet. Miyako had grown up with the three of them, and she
was like a little sister to her. Which is why she'd been doing her best
to help her out, even if it did go against her orders from Chaos. Chaos
could kiss her ass for all she cared. She'd rather die then watch the coming
events as Miyako would slaughter the ones she once loved.
Love, such a foreign word. Her whole life was spent
at the service of Chaos. She knew nothing outside of this world of darkness.
And in ways her life was like Miyako's. Nothing but lies and mistrust.
Chaos had taught her everything she knew, but was it right?
*"The lessons that you taught me
I learned were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind"*
And now, her imouto didn't trust her. She was afraid
she never would again, thanks to Chaos. The bastard. So many questions
and scenarios ran through her guilt laden mind, as she tried to sort out
the things that were true, and not some fake thought implanted there by
her master. Unfortunately, when you live your life in a lie, there is not
much truth in it. The tension around her was thick and maddening.
She had been watching Miyako very carefully. She
still held onto the hope that she would one day snap out of it and return
to her old self again. She was amazed the girl still had even one thought
of her own left in her head. She was strong, Suki knew that, but how long
would she be able to keep her sanity? She had already gone to seduce Rekka,
and in the shape the boy was in, there would be no way he could keep the
darkness at bay. Especially with Miyako being the one to bring him over.
*"Paper bags and angry voices
Under a sky of dust
Another wave of tension
Has more than filled me up
All my talk of taking action
These words were never true."*
From the very beginning Suki knew she would never
be able to hurt or betray Miyako. She had even told Chaos she would destroy
the Ronins herself if he would just let Miyako be. Suki scowled. Of course
being Chaos, he had denied her offer saying it would be more fun this way.
It disgusted her how he would use people like that. Even going as far as
using his own daughter. Was Miyako even his daughter, or was this just
another lie? Gods, how she just wanted to get away from it all.
*"Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)"*
She needed to get away. To be free to find herself, and to take Miyako away from all this horror and darkness. She briefly wondered how Heath and Yusuke could be so cold and heartless, but then again wasn't she like that? No, not as much as them. They didn't even seem to care about who they hurt or the fact that they betrayed Miyako. All they knew and cared about was that they were on the winning side, and great power was promised to them. They couldn't even see that they would never get what they wanted. Chaos would get rid of them as soon as he no longer needed them, or he became bored with them. They too were just puppets in Chaos's grand scheme.
*"I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind."*
Annoyed and disgusted by her thoughts, she walked past her "teammates" and out into the dark hallway. The place was a maze if you didn't know where you were going, and sometimes even she would get lost in it's vastness. She stopped and watched curiously as Miyako exited her chambers and walked down to the dungeon for the second time. She was a bit frightened to find that there was no emotion at all in the child's eyes as she walked by in her dark kimono, not even pausing to acknowledge Suki.
*"I 'm gonna run away
And never say goodbye"*
She quickly followed Miyako, but far enough away
as not to be noticed. She stopped suddenly when Miyako turned around and
stared at her. For a moment nothing appeared on Miyako's face as she sized
up the woman before her. Then she gave a Suki a smile, one that would be
forever etched in Suki's mind. Suki gasped. The smile wasn't evil or happy.
It was as if the child knew what was to become of her and what she had
to do. She looked as though she knew everything that would happen to everyone
and she had accepted her fate.
Suki dropped to the floor in shock. Miyako almost
looked like she had decided to give up and let things play out as if they
were already predestined. She never wanted to see a smile like that again,
and never would she have thought Miyako would be the one to introduce it
to her.
*"Gonna runaway gonna runaway
Gonna runaway gonna runaway
I'm gonna runaway
And never wonder why."*
Suki decided right then that she would do everything in her power to save Miyako from the fate she had reflected in her smile. She would never allow anything to hurt her, and the only way she knew how was to bring her back to herself. Suki stood up slowly and ran to her chambers. She had to think of how she would do this. She was going to free Miyako and herself from this awful place. Even if it killed her.
*"I'm wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind."*
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There ya go! Chapter 11. Ryo's thought's will be
next most likely. And then Nasuti's. But I think I'm going to make the
other Ronins (Shin, Shuu, Seiji, Touma) have one chapter to all of them
and their thoughts. That way there's less chapters before getting back
to the main story. Thanks for the reviews. PLEASE KEEP THE REVIEWS COMING!!!
^_^
-much love, Rekka's Angel
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