Disclaimer: I do not own dbz or Janet Jackson oooooor her songs. I just really enjoy them.
A-Chan: Yes, another long wait, I know. I'm sorry. Work's been tough and school even worse. But here it is! Be happy now and read on! And please review, I'd be very happy. ^-^
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Alright, I'm pre-warning you. This chapter will eventually turn into song ficcie style. I dunno why, I just like writing song fictions. But, some people don't like reading them. That's why I'm warning you. The song is "Again" by Janet Jackson. I don't own her, so don't sue! :P AND, to make things even more worse/confusing, this chapter will have a couple of POV changes. It will change back and forth between Vegeta and Kakarot, but only in this chapter during the song. AND you will be warned then too, I will let you know when the POV is changing. Sorry for the confusion, but, hey, it's my fic, and it's going to be as confusing as I make it and myself... :S Thanx.
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" What is it, Vegeta?"
" It's.. It's about what Kakarot did earlier."
" Yes Vegeta?"
" Well.. Kakarot didn't force himself on me or anything. He didn't rape me if that's what you thought..." I say quietly with my head down.
" I know he didn't do that Vegeta, but it was still wrong of him to force himself on you anyway! I mean, he's your friend, and a man!" Bulma says.
" But.. What I am trying to say is... He didn't 'force' himself on anyone."
" No??" Bulma says, confused.
" No."
" Then what was he doing?"
" Kissing me......" I mumble.
" So then he did do something wrong!"
I look down at the ground and move my toe around in a circle. I am only hesitating. I do not know what to do or say. I have to tell the truth.. or I will never get him back. If I tell her... I will lose her. And I don't know if I will gain Kakarot. What a chance I am taking!
" But it all felt so right!!" I find myself blurting out.
I am so shocked by what I say that I cover my own mouth.
" What? What are you talking about Vegeta?!" Bulma yells.
" No. I let him kiss me. I kissed him back. I let him do what he wanted, because I wanted it too."
" Vegeta? What are you trying to say?!"
" I'm saying... I'm saying.."
" Yes??" Bulma pushes it out of me.
" I'm saying that I love him!" I blurt out again.
Bulma sits up with her eyes widened in shock. She doesn't say anything. She sits for several moments, sinking it in, while I sit awaiting her reaction.
" You..... you love him??" She asks, in a hurtful tone.
" Yes..." I say quietly.
" And he loves you...." She says in realization.
I only nod, even though she is not looking up to see it. She knows, and understands... Or at least I hope so.
" What about me, Vegeta? I thought you loved me..? You married me, made love to me, raised children with me!!! I thought you loved me?!!" Tears form at her eyes.
" I did... Bulma, I did love you.. I think.." I say in a hushed tone.
" You think?!? Vegeta!! How could you do this to me?!" She begins to cry.
" I didn't mean to!!" I yell in my defense.
" Didn't mean to break my heart?!"
I swallow hard. I try to sink in the whole situation. It's overwhelming. So much is happening all at once. But it needed to happen.
" Vegeta... just leave.. be with him.. do what you want. No point being here when you love someone else..." Bulma pulled the sheets up over her and continued to cry from her heartbreak.
I felt obligated to comfort her, and resolve this problem so she would not hate me. I didn't want her to hate me when it all came down to it. I had hoped that we could resolve this.
" Bulma.." I say when I sit next to her on the bed.
" Leave me alone."
" Bulma please..." I say as I rub her back.
" Vegeta.. you have hurt me.. now leave me."
" Bulma, you know I love you, I just have feelings with someone else. I have, and always will care for you.. I just.. please understand..." I say, pleading for her forgiveness as If I really needed it.
" I understand.. just.. go. Go to who you love. I want you to be happy Vegeta..." I hug her, but she does not move nor respond.
I leave the room, and slowly walk outside. I walk down the street. I can't go see Kakarot yet.. He's probably still upset with me. I don't think I have the courage to face him. It took more than I was willing to give to just confess to Bulma! I walk to the nearest hotel.
*two weeks later*
I decided not to go to Kakarot after all. I have been sitting around in a hotel room, broken hearted, because I had no courage. I couldn't go to him. I was afraid of what he would do and say. I was afraid of being turned down. And I still am. That's why I am still not going to him. I'm going to try and get over him. I think this is how he wants it now.
But I definitely regret it all. I would love to be with him right now. I deserve to be with him, ne? I need him.... But I hurt him too bad. I will forget my love for him... though.. I don't want to.
**** Goku's POV****
It's been over two weeks since I last talked to Vegeta. I miss him, I do.. But.. It's too late now. I promised myself I would not fall in love with him again. But I do not know if I still love him or not. Maybe I do...
But all I know now is.. that.. I can't be with him. I returned to my wife.... But I think I will learn to regret that...
Bulma called this morning, to ask how Vegeta was. But, I haven't seen him....
She told me the whole story. But there is nothing I can do. I am still hurting from him, and I can't go to him. I am with my wife.
Though I can't help but think about all that we did together. The days that we sparred, played, kissed, or just talked. But it hurts to think of... because of how he left me so hurt...
{Heard from a friend today
And she said you were in town
Suddenly the memories came back to me in
My mind
How can I be strong I've asked myself
Time and time I've said
That I'll never fall in love with you again}
I know he didn't hurt me intentionally.. But I can't seem to forgive him.. and I keep reminding myself that I can't go back to him.
{A wounded heart you gave,
My soul you took away
Good intentions you had many,
I know you did}
****Vegeta's POV****
I find myself throwing my head in my hands and crying for all I have lost. I've lost everything that was once important to me.. and who knows why I was so foolish.
{I come from a place that hurts,
God knows how I've cried
And I never want to return
Never fall again
Making love to you felt so good and
Oh so right
So here we are alone again,
Didn't think I'd come to this
And to know it all began
With just a little kiss
I've come to close to happiness,
To have it swept away}
Look what I have gotten myself into.
**** Goku****
{Don't think I can take the pain
No never fall in love again
Kinda late in the game
And my heart is in your hands
Don't you stand there and then tell me
You love me
Then leave again
'Cause I'm falling in love with you again}
It's true. I'm in love with him. Love is so important.. I can't live on without it. I find myself using instant transmission to where I sense his ki signature. I am standing.. face to face with him....
****Both****
{Hold me, hold me
Don't ever let go
Say it just one time
Say you love me
God knows I do love you again}
**** And Back to Vegeta!****
I sit in total shock when I find Kakarot sitting in front of me. He sees that I have been crying, And he takes me in his arms... What is he doing here?
"Vegeta..." He hums lightly.
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A-Chan: What did you think? I'm not used to song fics.. sorry if it was bad. It's late and I'm tired. Sorry for the POV thing too.. I just thought it kinda fit... :P Well, Review so I can update soon!! Night... zzZzzzzZz -_- 12:21 pm.