I hate this fic. I absolutely hate everything about it.
These characters, which I once found quite fun to write and deal with are now annoying to think of, let alone to try to jump in to their heads to write a journal entry that is suitable for them.
I do believe this is partially because I was trying to make a fan-based story, taking in to account reviews and whatnot and trying to fit my characters to the ideas of others.
So dear readers, this is a new stand on Dishonor- I will write my characters my way, and this fic will take the pace I want to tell the story that is going on in my head. So yes, Argetni is sex driven. She's a bloody succubus. Anika is a contradiction, as is Harker. Believe them to be whatever you wish, for I know how they really should be.
The vampire legends of Dracula and Hellsing take on different meanings in about every fic I've read of the genre, so if I haven't criticized your take on the legends and characters, I'm going to ignore your criticism of my take on the characters and legends.
*steps off soapbox* Anyway, if you're still interested in Dishonor, disregard the old chapters 14-16 and enjoy these new chapters, and review again.
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November 22, Haarlem, NL
Devries,
Dearest daughter, though you are now almost a fully grown woman, I still wish to help aid your decisions so that you do not make the mistakes that your mother did in her youth and ignorance. Your sister has informed me and her mother of your new instructors, and there is a reason that you were not sent to the vampires of our Organization for any of your training is because as I stated before, they are dangerous creatures that we would have destroyed years ago if only your mother had not insisted on keeping the creatures alive and bound to the family. Alucard especially would enjoy harming you because of who and what you are. Female van Hellsing children that survived past their sixth birthday have been few and far between until the past generation, and I believe this is partially due to the fact that our precious Alucard takes a fancy to the blood of the women of the family, gorging himself on their life's essence until the child is but a mere shell in his arms, and one more bond is broken to the family.
Do not get me wrong Devries, Alucard has been quite a help in silencing vampires and other plagues of humanity, but it is just odd that each time there has been a documented birth of a van Hellsing girl, she mysteriously disappears from existence. Please keep that in mind if you do wish to continue training with the monster.
Seras Victoria is also not to be underestimated. Though she appears innocent and almost naïve at times, this vampiress is quite talented in deception, a quality that all of her kind share. She enjoys tempting me with her advances, and I have to continuously remind myself that I am a noble, honorable, upstanding man of God in order to reject her. She is apparently teaching you how to use firearms, a talent that will be absolutely necessary in your future career, but why could you not take lessons from Walter when he offered to train you? Is a mere human not good enough for my daughter?
I pray that is not the case, as you are to first attend university, find an upstanding, noble, God-fearing man to marry, and then take control of the Hellsing Organization as is your duty before bearing an heir to our line. Do not allow yourself to fall prey to the wiles of the vampire and create another half-breed monstrosity, as your mother and I did.
You have always asked what happened to Sir Integral Wingates van Hellsing, and I fear you are old enough to know the truth.
Dearest Teggy was twenty-four when she allowed herself to be turned by Alucard in to the sex-starved monster that you have met in what fancies to now be called the Vampiress Argetni. She soon realized the folly of her actions, and asked her mother who would be the best leader of the Hellsing Organization, and it became a choice between your cousin Spencer Stuart or myself, the cousin that had been trained from birth to lead the Organization alongside her, and Integral chose me because Spencer is Catholic, not because of my training.
Integral never loved me, nor did I love her. We were joined by the Church for the sole reason that she would try to bear a child and I could then take control of the Organization until such time as I deemed the child worthy to complete its duty as the leader of Hellsing.
So your so called amazing abilities of dhampirism and regeneration are because of your mother's condition upon your conception.
I know I have lied to you your entire life about what happened to your mother, but how could a child of Hellsing live knowing that she is so closely inbred and of a demon?
I pray for your forgiveness, and I do wish you make the wise choice when deciding whom you wish to spend your holiday with Devries. I do love you, though you may not believe such a fact, but every night I pray for your safety, as I have done every night since the day you were born.
You are the chosen one, my love, and you must carry the weight of your heritage and of the sins of your parents.
I know that you are strong enough.
Father
These characters, which I once found quite fun to write and deal with are now annoying to think of, let alone to try to jump in to their heads to write a journal entry that is suitable for them.
I do believe this is partially because I was trying to make a fan-based story, taking in to account reviews and whatnot and trying to fit my characters to the ideas of others.
So dear readers, this is a new stand on Dishonor- I will write my characters my way, and this fic will take the pace I want to tell the story that is going on in my head. So yes, Argetni is sex driven. She's a bloody succubus. Anika is a contradiction, as is Harker. Believe them to be whatever you wish, for I know how they really should be.
The vampire legends of Dracula and Hellsing take on different meanings in about every fic I've read of the genre, so if I haven't criticized your take on the legends and characters, I'm going to ignore your criticism of my take on the characters and legends.
*steps off soapbox* Anyway, if you're still interested in Dishonor, disregard the old chapters 14-16 and enjoy these new chapters, and review again.
~*~*~*~*~
November 22, Haarlem, NL
Devries,
Dearest daughter, though you are now almost a fully grown woman, I still wish to help aid your decisions so that you do not make the mistakes that your mother did in her youth and ignorance. Your sister has informed me and her mother of your new instructors, and there is a reason that you were not sent to the vampires of our Organization for any of your training is because as I stated before, they are dangerous creatures that we would have destroyed years ago if only your mother had not insisted on keeping the creatures alive and bound to the family. Alucard especially would enjoy harming you because of who and what you are. Female van Hellsing children that survived past their sixth birthday have been few and far between until the past generation, and I believe this is partially due to the fact that our precious Alucard takes a fancy to the blood of the women of the family, gorging himself on their life's essence until the child is but a mere shell in his arms, and one more bond is broken to the family.
Do not get me wrong Devries, Alucard has been quite a help in silencing vampires and other plagues of humanity, but it is just odd that each time there has been a documented birth of a van Hellsing girl, she mysteriously disappears from existence. Please keep that in mind if you do wish to continue training with the monster.
Seras Victoria is also not to be underestimated. Though she appears innocent and almost naïve at times, this vampiress is quite talented in deception, a quality that all of her kind share. She enjoys tempting me with her advances, and I have to continuously remind myself that I am a noble, honorable, upstanding man of God in order to reject her. She is apparently teaching you how to use firearms, a talent that will be absolutely necessary in your future career, but why could you not take lessons from Walter when he offered to train you? Is a mere human not good enough for my daughter?
I pray that is not the case, as you are to first attend university, find an upstanding, noble, God-fearing man to marry, and then take control of the Hellsing Organization as is your duty before bearing an heir to our line. Do not allow yourself to fall prey to the wiles of the vampire and create another half-breed monstrosity, as your mother and I did.
You have always asked what happened to Sir Integral Wingates van Hellsing, and I fear you are old enough to know the truth.
Dearest Teggy was twenty-four when she allowed herself to be turned by Alucard in to the sex-starved monster that you have met in what fancies to now be called the Vampiress Argetni. She soon realized the folly of her actions, and asked her mother who would be the best leader of the Hellsing Organization, and it became a choice between your cousin Spencer Stuart or myself, the cousin that had been trained from birth to lead the Organization alongside her, and Integral chose me because Spencer is Catholic, not because of my training.
Integral never loved me, nor did I love her. We were joined by the Church for the sole reason that she would try to bear a child and I could then take control of the Organization until such time as I deemed the child worthy to complete its duty as the leader of Hellsing.
So your so called amazing abilities of dhampirism and regeneration are because of your mother's condition upon your conception.
I know I have lied to you your entire life about what happened to your mother, but how could a child of Hellsing live knowing that she is so closely inbred and of a demon?
I pray for your forgiveness, and I do wish you make the wise choice when deciding whom you wish to spend your holiday with Devries. I do love you, though you may not believe such a fact, but every night I pray for your safety, as I have done every night since the day you were born.
You are the chosen one, my love, and you must carry the weight of your heritage and of the sins of your parents.
I know that you are strong enough.
Father