And I'm still kinda ranting in my head, but I shall save you from hearing
it. . . . .or perhaps I should just take out my anger on Malik and Rishid
in my other fic in progress at this time, "Right Now". (Go look at it too
^_^)
And since I'm on a YGO kick as of late, remember that we're gonna prolly get even more twisted around here, maybe, as the inspiration of YGO fiction comes from the wonderfulness that is Korn.
~*~*~*~*~
November 23
My mother is a vampire. . . . .
My mother has been in the same countries as I have been my seventeen years of life, and no one, not even her, had come to let me know about such a thing until just recently, and why would I believe a bloody succubus, a creature known for its trickery and deception, as to what my heredity is. I continued to repeat the mantra "my mother is in heaven" every bloody time I saw Argetni. It would have worked, and I would have truly believed this, given the proper incentive and amount of time.
Yet my father, that illegitimate leader of the Organization, just revealed via letter that Argetni is my God-forsaken mother after feeding me lines that my mother died in childbirth. How stupid, cold, and unconsiderate could he possibly be! I would have expected something like this out of Alucard, but not from my father!
I hate Harker. I hate this entire fucking Organization.
"It is your duty to marry and produce an heir." Rubbish! Absolute complete rubbish! I am not some prized mare to be sent out to pasture to produce some blueblooded bastard's children so I can hide in the shadows and be the ever-subserviant wife and mother to the little brats that will ruin my figure and send me to an early grave while the sire of the children runs around with any new female he can find that is willing! Never! I will not do it!
I am more powerful that Harker imagines, and perhaps I should just run away from this life leaving him to deal with Anika and the vampires. We'll see how much he tries to force me in to being just another humble woman when he has to deal with Anika's stupidity at practically everything she attempts.
Lillith must not be at home or proofreading his correspondence anymore, as she would not have allowed Harker to send me such a message, for she at least gives me some credit for being an independent woman, something she must not have been able to accomplish with her life since she married my father.
He probably was screwing around and accidentally got Lillith pregnant, for I wouldn't put that past him.
Anyway, Argetni is now trying to laugh and play the 'told you so' game with me as we train, wanting to prove to me that she was right and Harker was wrong about my heredity. How fucking childish has she become from the reports of Integral Wingates Hellsing that I had read in my youth!?! I am sick of the bullshit of the Hellsing family and the Hellsing Organization.
So this is goodbye to the life that I have grown up being part of. If you find my journal, do not follow me. I do not wish to be found.
And perhaps I should just convert to Catholicism. That would piss them all off.
Devries
And since I'm on a YGO kick as of late, remember that we're gonna prolly get even more twisted around here, maybe, as the inspiration of YGO fiction comes from the wonderfulness that is Korn.
~*~*~*~*~
November 23
My mother is a vampire. . . . .
My mother has been in the same countries as I have been my seventeen years of life, and no one, not even her, had come to let me know about such a thing until just recently, and why would I believe a bloody succubus, a creature known for its trickery and deception, as to what my heredity is. I continued to repeat the mantra "my mother is in heaven" every bloody time I saw Argetni. It would have worked, and I would have truly believed this, given the proper incentive and amount of time.
Yet my father, that illegitimate leader of the Organization, just revealed via letter that Argetni is my God-forsaken mother after feeding me lines that my mother died in childbirth. How stupid, cold, and unconsiderate could he possibly be! I would have expected something like this out of Alucard, but not from my father!
I hate Harker. I hate this entire fucking Organization.
"It is your duty to marry and produce an heir." Rubbish! Absolute complete rubbish! I am not some prized mare to be sent out to pasture to produce some blueblooded bastard's children so I can hide in the shadows and be the ever-subserviant wife and mother to the little brats that will ruin my figure and send me to an early grave while the sire of the children runs around with any new female he can find that is willing! Never! I will not do it!
I am more powerful that Harker imagines, and perhaps I should just run away from this life leaving him to deal with Anika and the vampires. We'll see how much he tries to force me in to being just another humble woman when he has to deal with Anika's stupidity at practically everything she attempts.
Lillith must not be at home or proofreading his correspondence anymore, as she would not have allowed Harker to send me such a message, for she at least gives me some credit for being an independent woman, something she must not have been able to accomplish with her life since she married my father.
He probably was screwing around and accidentally got Lillith pregnant, for I wouldn't put that past him.
Anyway, Argetni is now trying to laugh and play the 'told you so' game with me as we train, wanting to prove to me that she was right and Harker was wrong about my heredity. How fucking childish has she become from the reports of Integral Wingates Hellsing that I had read in my youth!?! I am sick of the bullshit of the Hellsing family and the Hellsing Organization.
So this is goodbye to the life that I have grown up being part of. If you find my journal, do not follow me. I do not wish to be found.
And perhaps I should just convert to Catholicism. That would piss them all off.
Devries