Author's Note: I apologize for taking so long to update
this. The story was completed over a year ago, but I always felt it needed
work. I really wanted to take care of this "unfinished business" before RoTK's
release, so I've done what I could with it. Thanks to all who reviewed or
inquired about this story.
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It was in the darkness of the tower that Sam realized he had made a promise he
did not know how to keep.
Not the lie of a promise that he had given to Frodo, to ease his mind, but the
one he had made to the Elves, the only one that held sway in Sam's heart, bound
there by duty and love. For all his duty and love, Sam thought, he had already
broken that promise once and he now saw no way to mend it.
Sam inched forward, overwhelmed by monstrously clear images of what Frodo might
be enduring. Sam's imagination had never been so vivid and he cursed it, for it
drained him of will and reason.
Panic began to smother Sam, and the entire weight of the tower seemed to press
down upon him, innumerable rooms, turrets, dungeons, and every one of them no
doubt locked and guarded. A needle in a haystack! he thought
hysterically. If I had a thousand years, it would be no use! And I might
have only minutes! And what if Frodo was not even in the tower any longer?
Had they taken him to Barad-dûr? Had they killed him? Sam breathed in shallow
gasps as his mind whirled in fear. He imagined himself in Mordor for an
eternity, still unable to find Frodo in all of its great waste, and felt
suddenly, madly tempted to rush forward blindly, shrieking "Frodo! Frodo!" at
the top of his lungs, even if he roused every devil in Mordor by doing it.
The Ring was heavy around his neck. How had Frodo ever borne this for so long?
And more than its weight tormented Sam; it seemed to him like a beacon around
his neck, shining forth with a great, venomous light that only evil eyes could
see. Surely the Eye of the Enemy knew that he was here, or soon would. He could
do nothing. All was lost. Sam sank to his knees, frozen in place, like a mouse
that knows it has been spotted by a hawk, and, in terror, has lost all ability
to save itself.
He remembered himself as a child, begging Frodo to take him along if he ever
went on an adventure. His own childish voice mocked him, I could make myself
very useful, I could! If Sam had not been so terrified, he would have
laughed bitterly. Very useful he had made himself, indeed. He let Sting fall to
the ground and put his arms over his head.
Yet even as he cowered, bewildered with despair, he suddenly heard his child's
voice again.
I'm stuck.
And Frodo's voice, which Sam believed he would never hear again, answered,
borne across decades of time. All right, what stopped you?
Everything. It's useless.
Don't give up so easily, Sam! You've already begun. If something is worth
beginning, it's worth seeing through to the end.
A voice cried in his mind then, End! You have come to the end already!
All is lost! But Sam did not know this voice; it was not his own. It was
not Frodo's.
Sam felt a sudden clearing in his mind, as a break will sometimes appear in the
thickest fog, and he saw Frodo, as he had been on the long summer afternoons
when he had helped Sam with his letters, in those times when no shadow had ever
touched them. The memory brought joy with it, and love, and a light that
banished dark imaginings and left no hiding place for fear or despair.
It is worth seeing through to the end, Sam thought, and knew that he
would keep his promise.
He stood up and took Sting in his hand. "I won't leave you, Mr. Frodo," he said
to the darkness. "I'm coming."
