Did quizzes. Found out that if I was a yami, I'd be Yami Malik. Found out
that my personality best matches Seto and Yami Bakura. O.O I'm weird. My
author's notes are always way too long. Decided I really should try keeping
them a little shorter... This is one attempt ^.~ Oh, and sorry for the long
wait and short chapter, as I said earlier, I have a small case of a
writer's block *desperately hoping it doesn't turn out to be a big one*
Thanks to Yugi and Ryuki Foreva (^.^), Renee the Rabid Squirrel (You read it at school? Wow, I'd never have time for something like that...), Yamis Girlfriend (Oh I will... And thank you!), Diamond (^.~), PanDora (Tear them apart literally? Now that sounds interesting... *deep thinking* O.O Sorry, didn't mean it), Princess Strawberry (Thanks...), Jadej.j (^^ Soon, I think. Okay, you probably wasn't expecting an answer for that...), Silver Dragon (Never read a fic that's 30 chapters - or more - long? ...How did you manage that?), Betrayal (*giggle* You liked it? ^^), Yana (*sigh* I always end up making their lives suck... Don't expect an overly happy ending, that much I can say...), Sarina Fannel (*is dizzy* *shakes her head* You know, I never stop being amazed how much praise I actually get...), Jack V. Briefs (You wish you had _my_ talent? O.O What about your own?), Siobhan (*sparkly eyes* Really? I feel so inspired!), Neko-chan (... ... Aaaaargh! Run, it's the glomping, crazy cat girl! ^^ Really, I can't believe how you people like this so much. ...Don't start threatening me like you do PM... I know you threatened me with it... ^.~), KJM^33 ('kick ass Malik pic'? It wasn't that good... Oh, and I absolutely adore him too! He's perfect! *gets all dreamy*), Seventh Sage (I know, thinking of something actually original for a review is hard work...), firedraygon97 (^^ You actually commented on every aspect of that chapter!), Yami ChaosGem (^^), jessica (best you've read in a long time? That's so good to hear!), r*a*d*i*a*n*y (What's so absolutely great about ch 17? And what's so great about my writing style? And... Oh well. Something I'll probably never understand, although I _did_ change my own opinion of it a little about it completely sucking when I read the whole fic again... Something I haven't bothered since ch 9... And this time I'm sure, you did mention me and SSJ Sky in the same sentence! O.O), C.M Aeris Queen of Insanity (^.~), jeti (So long without an internet access? Poor you... I'd probably go crazy... YS: Like Yami Malik? What would that make me?!), pixipowder (I keep good track of details? I don't think so, there's like a hundred things I've forgotten and would need to add in again so they don't just disappear...), Hotaru the Demon Goddess (Well that's great to hear! Although I'm sure some people will lose patience with me and be really mad before I'm done with this fic... For delays and content, I'd say...), Naturi (S/J is really getting along finely now... Expect a proper relationship in... Oh, I don't know, 5 chapters? Could be), The Dark Star Goddess (^^) and Kakarots-Frying-Pan (O.O Where _do_ you people get your names...? And yes, it was kind of cute, wasn't it...). *sweatdrop* And I thought there would be less reviews this time... Not that I'd have hoped for it, but it seemed logical 'cause there was so many in the last and I thought people wouldn't bother again... O.O There was even more?! I don't believe you... *looks at the readers, completely amazed*
Slaying the Dreamer, chapter 19: Crazy Thoughts
---Yami POV---
Again, it was evening. The sun was setting, I felt its hot rays fade somewhere outside. I didn't feel like opening my eyes to this new night. It was too painful. I sighed deeply. It seemed that I still wasn't past my depression. But I had felt fine last morning... It was no wonder, I had spent the whole night with Yugi, most of it resting, listening to his heart beat.
But it also had a downside... I hadn't fed the whole last night, and despite drinking blood from Yugi the night before that, I wasn't up to spending many days without nourishment. Why? Because of my long sleep. I was famished, my immortal body needed that blood to get over the long fast.
Slowly I came to realize the fact that Yugi still hadn't showed up. Last night he had been by my side since I woke. Had something gone wrong? Was he alright?
I quickly rose, heading from the basement to the actual house. What if something had happened to him while I was asleep? I could never forgive myself...
"Yugi?"
I nearly ran up the stairs. Was he here? He had to be... Please, let him be alright. I opened the door to his room, anxiously looking around, ready to continue my search, ready to wrap him into my arms in relief, ready to kill whoever might have stopped him.
And what I saw when I entered his room? Him, Yugi, sleeping peacefully. The poor boy, he must've been so tired after last night... He did have a life besides me, a life in the world of the day, when the bright sun shone in the sky and people walked about in their own business, the world where the horrors of night were only children's tales... I didn't belong to that world anymore, but he was firmly rooted to that, his friends, his family, everybody he knew were a part of this world of light. Except for me.
I silently walked beside his bed. What right did I have to snatch him away from the world of light? He was way too young to bear all this, to live by night as well as the day, to know how horribly wrong things could really go. What right did I have to ruin him? To bring about sorrow, fear of all the bad things lurking about, hopeless love? What chance did a vampire have with a mortal?
No, I couldn't take this right now. Let him sleep, peacefully, hopefully dreaming of the world of the day, where all the happy things were. Let him dream of innocence, for I had no left. Let him be my light, the half of me that lived during the day, let him be happy. But I would need to sleep during the day, avoid the burning rays of the sun, feed on blood of the living. I would need to bring death to my victims in order to survive, I would need to hunt, to know all that could harm me, to hunt those down before they could touch me, revel in their death. I was no fitting companion for such a mortal as Yugi was, he deserved more. Someone who could live in the light.
I smiled gently, my heart felt like it was bursting with the pain and love I felt. Did a vampire truly love, could it be something more than simple craving for that we have lost? The life... The life flowing in that sweet sleeping human in front of me was enough to nearly drive me insane, I couldn't think, couldn't think clearly enough to figure it all out. I needed some time away from him, as much as it hurt, I needed to feed, needed to know if the others knew more about this doom that was already here.
Yes, it was here. It was very close, but I dind't feel any immediate threat, merely a promise of future violence, of a great battle to come. I needed to know if the others would help me, despite all I had done to them, despite the fact that I still couldn't remember exactly what I had done to them. Would they be able to forgive me, to join with me in the battle against this ancient threat?
And Yugi... Yugi needed to be kept safe, and I had a feeling whatever had come wasn't directly after him. It wanted me, perhaps it wanted the others that had once been my trusted companions. Insofar as trust went in those times, I doubted I had truly trusted anyone back then. Such a long way I had come, me, the creature of night, the one that massacred many bystanders simply because they were there, for the pure joy of it.
How could I let him be with me? How could I taint that sweet innocence that was essentially him? No, that would never happen. I needed to go away now, go away for a while, feed, figure out what was wrong.
"Sleep well, Yugi. I'll be back..."
With that I turned, walked out of his room, out of his house, into the cold night. It welcomed me with the familiar cool air on my skin, the smell of the night-time city, the darkness I was. The darkness the night was. Weren't we all essentially of the darkness, born of her loving embrace?
I shivered, trying once again to stifle the depression so stubbornly trying to consume me. There was no time for depression, I needed to protect someone that I cherished, someone so pure it nearly blinded me. And I welcomed it, welcomed the pain it brought, the clarifying of vision around him, the warmth of his embrace. I felt like it was meant to be, and who was I to claim it wasn't? I couldn't remember... But others could. Did they feel this glorious oneness with their own human halves? Perhaps I would find out tonight.
As I walked on, I recalled how dazed I had been when I first entered this time. That feeling hadn't left me, it had hid away in the shadows of my mind, waiting for a chance to come out again. And now it did. As I walked and wandered, it came out, and I was confused, wondering at all the miracles of the world like a child.
---Marik POV---
He would show up soon. He would. The sun had set oly a few minutes ago, the last shining, glorious rays dissappearing to the velvety dark blue of the night. I knew I had become addicted to him, and I didn't care. How could I care when he was so gorgeous and scary and crazy and just plain hot? How could I care when I felt his cold hands on my body, the deep kiss of a vampire, the pure pleasure merely being with him brought?
Isis didn't approve. Well, screw Isis, I could do nothing about the overwhelming desire to be with him - to be _his_ , to lay in his arms, knowing that even though I might be somewhat weird and depressed and crazy, he was so much more so than me. And he survived, he lived night after night, he fed on blood, he killed people on regular basis and he lived and survived. Lived? Did a vampire live?
When I felt how cold he was, when I saw how completely uncaring he could be at times, I thought not. But when I laid with him, when he sucked my blood and got to know me inside and out, he was very much alive. So much alive that it scared me, the intensity of it, the way he let go of everything, just for the sake of being alive. But wasn't that right? To be alive, because one moment you might find yourself dead...
It made sense to me. So much sense it was frightening. But what did it really matter? He was there, I knew he would take care of it, whatever it was. Just as soon as he arrived. And this is why I was anxiously sitting outside my house, desperately hoping he would show up soon. Oh yes, I was a complete wreck without him. He was my salvation, as dark as he was. Perhaps I should be worried.
"What's wrong? Why are you sitting out here all by yourself?"
I turned around and was startled to see him right behind me, so close he was nearly touching. He kneeled beside me, and I immediately welcomed him with a passionate kiss. Was this not my right? To touch him all I wanted, because of... I wasn't sure. The way he had drank my blood? The way he had shown up and instantly confused me, made me his? The way he acted so possessive, so uncaring towards the rest of the world?
He kissed me back, and I could taste blood in his mouth. Not my blood this time. How early did he wake up to have had time to feed before coming here? ...Well, early for him, late for me. And besides, how much I really knew about vampires' feeding habits? It could actually take merely few seconds for all I knew. But that particular time wasn't likely, I could remember his fangs penetrating my skin, the feeling of blood being sucked out of me, and I was sure it lasted infinitely longer than merely few seconds. And all the gods help me, I wanted him to do that again.
He drew back and grinned. Could vampires read minds? But his words had nothing to do with what I had thought, instead it was something really surprising, something I knew nothing of.
"We are going to be busy tonight. I want you to meet someone I know, the Pharaoh. And the Tomb robber. And their humans. If we are really going to beat the one who we defeated so long ago, we need to unite at some point. It might as well be now, when we still have time to prepare."
I was confused. Meet who?
"Don't worry, I won't let the others hurt you. You'll be completely safe. And believe me, I wouldn't do this if it was just me in this mess, but in a way, you're involved too. Lets get going"
So... No sex tonight? He smiled again, as if he knew my thoughts, and the smile was a smile of a complete lunatic.
---Jounouchi POV---
Great. My life was a complete mess. Why did this have to happen to me? Yugi had come to school today, and had been closemouthed about this everything. But judging from what I managed to pull out of him, he had totally fallen for that guy - over which Anzu wouldn't be so happy, they had kind of been together after all - and something had happened between them that had completely freaked him out. I just had to wonder what it was.
No, don't go there. Dangerous. Concentrate on your own problems, will you? Yep, and mighty problems I had. What, a bloodsucker and his pestering littlebrother weren't enough? Sometime during the day that brat had found out my phonenumber - please, somebody tell me how he did that, he didn't even know my first name or anything - and had harrassed me until I had promised to be at their mansion by sundown. At _his_ mansion. Why, oh why I had I really come here?
...No. Another dangerous area. Maybe it would be better if I didn't think at all. Yep, sweet oblivion, please welcome me!
I waited. No, didn't work. I was still here, thinking. And it was getting alarmingly dark. What time did vampires generally rise from their graves? I shivered at the thought. And then nearly had a heart attack when a young voice called for me.
"Jou-kun! I was already thinking you wouldn't come... Now, don't just stand there, come in. He should be awake soon, at least sometime around this time he has showed up the other nights..."
Yep, I was doomed. I walked in to the mansion, my heart pounding. It was merely excitement, fear over what the vampire would do. Right? Yes, it had to be. Couldn't be anything else, could it? No, it couldn't. Don't even bother asking yourself that, what a stupid question. Of course it's stupid, what else could a question like that be? No, another question. Not good, not good, cast it out, yeah. Cast it out and never make another question again. Questions are bad. They make you think.
I took a shaky breath and walked in. Please, let this night turn out to be fine after all. It has all been a bad dream, the world is right again, a relatively safe place to live. Let there be no vampires.
Let there be no vampire who wants me... I shivered. How could that wish sound so repulsive?
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AN: So. Trying this 'write short notes' thing... No more comments. Please review.
Thanks to Yugi and Ryuki Foreva (^.^), Renee the Rabid Squirrel (You read it at school? Wow, I'd never have time for something like that...), Yamis Girlfriend (Oh I will... And thank you!), Diamond (^.~), PanDora (Tear them apart literally? Now that sounds interesting... *deep thinking* O.O Sorry, didn't mean it), Princess Strawberry (Thanks...), Jadej.j (^^ Soon, I think. Okay, you probably wasn't expecting an answer for that...), Silver Dragon (Never read a fic that's 30 chapters - or more - long? ...How did you manage that?), Betrayal (*giggle* You liked it? ^^), Yana (*sigh* I always end up making their lives suck... Don't expect an overly happy ending, that much I can say...), Sarina Fannel (*is dizzy* *shakes her head* You know, I never stop being amazed how much praise I actually get...), Jack V. Briefs (You wish you had _my_ talent? O.O What about your own?), Siobhan (*sparkly eyes* Really? I feel so inspired!), Neko-chan (... ... Aaaaargh! Run, it's the glomping, crazy cat girl! ^^ Really, I can't believe how you people like this so much. ...Don't start threatening me like you do PM... I know you threatened me with it... ^.~), KJM^33 ('kick ass Malik pic'? It wasn't that good... Oh, and I absolutely adore him too! He's perfect! *gets all dreamy*), Seventh Sage (I know, thinking of something actually original for a review is hard work...), firedraygon97 (^^ You actually commented on every aspect of that chapter!), Yami ChaosGem (^^), jessica (best you've read in a long time? That's so good to hear!), r*a*d*i*a*n*y (What's so absolutely great about ch 17? And what's so great about my writing style? And... Oh well. Something I'll probably never understand, although I _did_ change my own opinion of it a little about it completely sucking when I read the whole fic again... Something I haven't bothered since ch 9... And this time I'm sure, you did mention me and SSJ Sky in the same sentence! O.O), C.M Aeris Queen of Insanity (^.~), jeti (So long without an internet access? Poor you... I'd probably go crazy... YS: Like Yami Malik? What would that make me?!), pixipowder (I keep good track of details? I don't think so, there's like a hundred things I've forgotten and would need to add in again so they don't just disappear...), Hotaru the Demon Goddess (Well that's great to hear! Although I'm sure some people will lose patience with me and be really mad before I'm done with this fic... For delays and content, I'd say...), Naturi (S/J is really getting along finely now... Expect a proper relationship in... Oh, I don't know, 5 chapters? Could be), The Dark Star Goddess (^^) and Kakarots-Frying-Pan (O.O Where _do_ you people get your names...? And yes, it was kind of cute, wasn't it...). *sweatdrop* And I thought there would be less reviews this time... Not that I'd have hoped for it, but it seemed logical 'cause there was so many in the last and I thought people wouldn't bother again... O.O There was even more?! I don't believe you... *looks at the readers, completely amazed*
Slaying the Dreamer, chapter 19: Crazy Thoughts
---Yami POV---
Again, it was evening. The sun was setting, I felt its hot rays fade somewhere outside. I didn't feel like opening my eyes to this new night. It was too painful. I sighed deeply. It seemed that I still wasn't past my depression. But I had felt fine last morning... It was no wonder, I had spent the whole night with Yugi, most of it resting, listening to his heart beat.
But it also had a downside... I hadn't fed the whole last night, and despite drinking blood from Yugi the night before that, I wasn't up to spending many days without nourishment. Why? Because of my long sleep. I was famished, my immortal body needed that blood to get over the long fast.
Slowly I came to realize the fact that Yugi still hadn't showed up. Last night he had been by my side since I woke. Had something gone wrong? Was he alright?
I quickly rose, heading from the basement to the actual house. What if something had happened to him while I was asleep? I could never forgive myself...
"Yugi?"
I nearly ran up the stairs. Was he here? He had to be... Please, let him be alright. I opened the door to his room, anxiously looking around, ready to continue my search, ready to wrap him into my arms in relief, ready to kill whoever might have stopped him.
And what I saw when I entered his room? Him, Yugi, sleeping peacefully. The poor boy, he must've been so tired after last night... He did have a life besides me, a life in the world of the day, when the bright sun shone in the sky and people walked about in their own business, the world where the horrors of night were only children's tales... I didn't belong to that world anymore, but he was firmly rooted to that, his friends, his family, everybody he knew were a part of this world of light. Except for me.
I silently walked beside his bed. What right did I have to snatch him away from the world of light? He was way too young to bear all this, to live by night as well as the day, to know how horribly wrong things could really go. What right did I have to ruin him? To bring about sorrow, fear of all the bad things lurking about, hopeless love? What chance did a vampire have with a mortal?
No, I couldn't take this right now. Let him sleep, peacefully, hopefully dreaming of the world of the day, where all the happy things were. Let him dream of innocence, for I had no left. Let him be my light, the half of me that lived during the day, let him be happy. But I would need to sleep during the day, avoid the burning rays of the sun, feed on blood of the living. I would need to bring death to my victims in order to survive, I would need to hunt, to know all that could harm me, to hunt those down before they could touch me, revel in their death. I was no fitting companion for such a mortal as Yugi was, he deserved more. Someone who could live in the light.
I smiled gently, my heart felt like it was bursting with the pain and love I felt. Did a vampire truly love, could it be something more than simple craving for that we have lost? The life... The life flowing in that sweet sleeping human in front of me was enough to nearly drive me insane, I couldn't think, couldn't think clearly enough to figure it all out. I needed some time away from him, as much as it hurt, I needed to feed, needed to know if the others knew more about this doom that was already here.
Yes, it was here. It was very close, but I dind't feel any immediate threat, merely a promise of future violence, of a great battle to come. I needed to know if the others would help me, despite all I had done to them, despite the fact that I still couldn't remember exactly what I had done to them. Would they be able to forgive me, to join with me in the battle against this ancient threat?
And Yugi... Yugi needed to be kept safe, and I had a feeling whatever had come wasn't directly after him. It wanted me, perhaps it wanted the others that had once been my trusted companions. Insofar as trust went in those times, I doubted I had truly trusted anyone back then. Such a long way I had come, me, the creature of night, the one that massacred many bystanders simply because they were there, for the pure joy of it.
How could I let him be with me? How could I taint that sweet innocence that was essentially him? No, that would never happen. I needed to go away now, go away for a while, feed, figure out what was wrong.
"Sleep well, Yugi. I'll be back..."
With that I turned, walked out of his room, out of his house, into the cold night. It welcomed me with the familiar cool air on my skin, the smell of the night-time city, the darkness I was. The darkness the night was. Weren't we all essentially of the darkness, born of her loving embrace?
I shivered, trying once again to stifle the depression so stubbornly trying to consume me. There was no time for depression, I needed to protect someone that I cherished, someone so pure it nearly blinded me. And I welcomed it, welcomed the pain it brought, the clarifying of vision around him, the warmth of his embrace. I felt like it was meant to be, and who was I to claim it wasn't? I couldn't remember... But others could. Did they feel this glorious oneness with their own human halves? Perhaps I would find out tonight.
As I walked on, I recalled how dazed I had been when I first entered this time. That feeling hadn't left me, it had hid away in the shadows of my mind, waiting for a chance to come out again. And now it did. As I walked and wandered, it came out, and I was confused, wondering at all the miracles of the world like a child.
---Marik POV---
He would show up soon. He would. The sun had set oly a few minutes ago, the last shining, glorious rays dissappearing to the velvety dark blue of the night. I knew I had become addicted to him, and I didn't care. How could I care when he was so gorgeous and scary and crazy and just plain hot? How could I care when I felt his cold hands on my body, the deep kiss of a vampire, the pure pleasure merely being with him brought?
Isis didn't approve. Well, screw Isis, I could do nothing about the overwhelming desire to be with him - to be _his_ , to lay in his arms, knowing that even though I might be somewhat weird and depressed and crazy, he was so much more so than me. And he survived, he lived night after night, he fed on blood, he killed people on regular basis and he lived and survived. Lived? Did a vampire live?
When I felt how cold he was, when I saw how completely uncaring he could be at times, I thought not. But when I laid with him, when he sucked my blood and got to know me inside and out, he was very much alive. So much alive that it scared me, the intensity of it, the way he let go of everything, just for the sake of being alive. But wasn't that right? To be alive, because one moment you might find yourself dead...
It made sense to me. So much sense it was frightening. But what did it really matter? He was there, I knew he would take care of it, whatever it was. Just as soon as he arrived. And this is why I was anxiously sitting outside my house, desperately hoping he would show up soon. Oh yes, I was a complete wreck without him. He was my salvation, as dark as he was. Perhaps I should be worried.
"What's wrong? Why are you sitting out here all by yourself?"
I turned around and was startled to see him right behind me, so close he was nearly touching. He kneeled beside me, and I immediately welcomed him with a passionate kiss. Was this not my right? To touch him all I wanted, because of... I wasn't sure. The way he had drank my blood? The way he had shown up and instantly confused me, made me his? The way he acted so possessive, so uncaring towards the rest of the world?
He kissed me back, and I could taste blood in his mouth. Not my blood this time. How early did he wake up to have had time to feed before coming here? ...Well, early for him, late for me. And besides, how much I really knew about vampires' feeding habits? It could actually take merely few seconds for all I knew. But that particular time wasn't likely, I could remember his fangs penetrating my skin, the feeling of blood being sucked out of me, and I was sure it lasted infinitely longer than merely few seconds. And all the gods help me, I wanted him to do that again.
He drew back and grinned. Could vampires read minds? But his words had nothing to do with what I had thought, instead it was something really surprising, something I knew nothing of.
"We are going to be busy tonight. I want you to meet someone I know, the Pharaoh. And the Tomb robber. And their humans. If we are really going to beat the one who we defeated so long ago, we need to unite at some point. It might as well be now, when we still have time to prepare."
I was confused. Meet who?
"Don't worry, I won't let the others hurt you. You'll be completely safe. And believe me, I wouldn't do this if it was just me in this mess, but in a way, you're involved too. Lets get going"
So... No sex tonight? He smiled again, as if he knew my thoughts, and the smile was a smile of a complete lunatic.
---Jounouchi POV---
Great. My life was a complete mess. Why did this have to happen to me? Yugi had come to school today, and had been closemouthed about this everything. But judging from what I managed to pull out of him, he had totally fallen for that guy - over which Anzu wouldn't be so happy, they had kind of been together after all - and something had happened between them that had completely freaked him out. I just had to wonder what it was.
No, don't go there. Dangerous. Concentrate on your own problems, will you? Yep, and mighty problems I had. What, a bloodsucker and his pestering littlebrother weren't enough? Sometime during the day that brat had found out my phonenumber - please, somebody tell me how he did that, he didn't even know my first name or anything - and had harrassed me until I had promised to be at their mansion by sundown. At _his_ mansion. Why, oh why I had I really come here?
...No. Another dangerous area. Maybe it would be better if I didn't think at all. Yep, sweet oblivion, please welcome me!
I waited. No, didn't work. I was still here, thinking. And it was getting alarmingly dark. What time did vampires generally rise from their graves? I shivered at the thought. And then nearly had a heart attack when a young voice called for me.
"Jou-kun! I was already thinking you wouldn't come... Now, don't just stand there, come in. He should be awake soon, at least sometime around this time he has showed up the other nights..."
Yep, I was doomed. I walked in to the mansion, my heart pounding. It was merely excitement, fear over what the vampire would do. Right? Yes, it had to be. Couldn't be anything else, could it? No, it couldn't. Don't even bother asking yourself that, what a stupid question. Of course it's stupid, what else could a question like that be? No, another question. Not good, not good, cast it out, yeah. Cast it out and never make another question again. Questions are bad. They make you think.
I took a shaky breath and walked in. Please, let this night turn out to be fine after all. It has all been a bad dream, the world is right again, a relatively safe place to live. Let there be no vampires.
Let there be no vampire who wants me... I shivered. How could that wish sound so repulsive?
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AN: So. Trying this 'write short notes' thing... No more comments. Please review.