Author's Note: I
never imagined when I started writing this, that I wouldn't be posting the
final chapter until two days before RoTK's release. It feels like we're all
coming to the end of a journey, doesn't it?
Thank you to all who read this story, or any of my other work. It's been an
honor to be able to share these things with all of you. And thank you to all of
the wonderful writers in the LoTR fandom---you have all enriched this story,
these characters and the past two years more than I can say.
And of course, the greatest of thanks to J.R.R. Tolkien, for giving so much to
all of us.
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When Sam returned to Bag End, he put Bilbo's gift on the desk in the study, and
it remained there, unopened, for a long time.
Sam did not go into the study again until a crisp morning of November, a day of
fine autumn sunlight in the leafless trees and woodsmoke on the air. Bright sun
streamed through the window and reflected off the gleaming surface of the old
desk, once Bilbo's, then Frodo's, and now Sam's. Nothing lay on the desk now
except the old leather case.
The study was stuffy and unpleasant. Sam leaned over the desk and pushed the
round window open. A fresh autumn breeze drifted in with the sound of birdsong
and relieved some of the heaviness in the air.
Sam sat down in the wooden chair and looked about himself, drumming his fingers
on the surface of the desk. He felt uncomfortable and out of place, and faintly
guilty, as if he had put himself into a position that he had no right to
occupy. He began to whistle nervously, a little country tune. The gay notes
fell dully into the room's silence, and Sam soon checked himself.
With a deep breath, Sam stared at the satchel. He pulled himself up to the desk
until his stomach was almost touching it, and untied the satchel's leather
cords. Inside, he found papers of all sizes: large, folded sheets of parchment,
delicate sheaves of onionskin, tiny scraps of paper with only a few words
scribbled on them. As Sam shuffled through them, he saw many detailed maps,
careful descriptions of dress and armour, bits of poems and stories and
elaborate family trees. Here were all of Bilbo's most beloved interests, a vast
catalogue of the peoples and cultures of Middle-earth. A sad smile touched
Sam's face. He knew there had been a time when these things would have
fascinated him, yet now they held little interest. Indeed, he sometimes wished
that he could have lived his whole life in the Shire, and never known anything
of the world outside its quiet borders.
He turned over the next sheet of parchment and flinched as if he had
been struck. Here was Frodo's portrait, drawn by Bilbo so long ago.
Sam leaned back in the chair and exhaled softly.
"My," he said in a small voice after a long moment. "But it's good to see you
again, Mr. Frodo."
The weight of years and the memory of many things fell upon Sam, and suddenly
it seemed that so much had been lost that the world could never be set right
again. He covered his eyes with a trembling hand, certain that his heart would
break.
A touch fell softly on his shoulder. "Sam, what is it?"
He said nothing, but turned to his wife and wrapped his arms around her waist.
"Ah," Rose sighed, and reached out to the parchment. Her finger traced the
softly penciled outline of Frodo's youthful face. "Just look at 'im," she
whispered.
"I know," Sam said.
"How old was he here?"
"Twenty. Just twenty. 'Twas the year before he came to live at Bag End." Sam
turned to look at the picture on the desk, resting his cheek against Rose. "It
was the first I ever saw of him. I thought he was an Elf."
They were silent for a moment. Then Rose said quietly, "He always made me both
happy and sad…I could hardly tell which. Like a sunset that's so pretty,
but it makes your heart ache all the same. You can't even say why."
"Aye" said Sam. "He was like that. He was like that, somehow."
"No, Sam" she said, and tilted his chin up to look at her. "He is like
that."
"You're right, lass," Sam said. Then, in the midst of his sorrow, Sam felt the
kindling of joy, great joy, like the sun breaking over the mountains after a
dark night of rain. He looked back to the portrait and placed his hand over
Rose's. "He is."
The autumn breeze blew in through the open window, over the desk and across
them, husband and wife. It carried with it the scent of the harvest and the
fields, the gentle air of year's end in a quiet corner of the world. Yet
beneath these familiar things, Sam seemed to smell salt in the wind, and in his
heart he heard the sound of the Sea as it whispered upon a distant shore.
The End
