Another chapter- Two in one night!
I have no idea why I find that exciting. Perhaps it is just my strange sense of humor come to play yet again. Or perhaps it's just because I can't sleep yet.
The disclaimer on this chapter- it's odd. It fits the story, but it's just a bit abstract. In a way. Sort of. Oh hell with it. You'll understand once you read.
And I want to thank the readers of this series for finally sending Disgrace over the 50 review mark. That's a first for me, and I'm really appreciative of the support. ^_^
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December 26
Merciful God in heaven, I pray for the courage, the strength, and the heavenly guidance that You send to Your humble servants every mortal day to prove Your immense love for Your chosen people. I understand that our family is being tested as a part of Your glorious plan for all mankind, and I do not doubt Your judgment in the matter.
You love all; You protect all. You have proven your love to me through the many gifts bestowed upon me in my life. Never could I have achieved such status and position in the Church of England if not for Your Will. Never would I have dreamed of being the wife of your glorious Holy Knight, Sir Harker van Hellsing. Never would I have dreamed of raising a child which You destined to become the next of Your Holy Protestant Knights.
I have continued my duty to my God and my family over the years, being the rock for my daughter and husband, and acting in a manner that Devries could imitate when she becomes the leader of the Hellsing Organization. Never did they praise or scold me for my actions, and their indifference allowed me to feel as if I was doing my duty according to Your will.
God, I beg of You, please end the trial that You have sent to my family. The van Hellsing's may appear to be strong of will, but this constant game between the mortals, vampires, and each individual that we all must endure has weakened our spirits and our faith. I fear that we will not be able to survive the wrath of the earth much longer if allowed to remain in such a state.
Help us and guide us, Father in Heaven.
Amen.
Sigh.
And so ends another heartfelt prayer that God will cast a blind eye upon and turn a deaf ear toward so that nothing will ever change in the house of Hellsing. Harker, though I love him with my entire heart and soul, will continue forcing Devries down the wrong paths in life so that he can continue to lead Hellsing without opposition. Devries will learn of the world through the minds and experiences that the vampires wish to give her through the telepathic bonds that she shares with the undead.
The family will not survive under with these strained tensions between each generation and between the two daughters of the Holy Knight. I can tell Anika is lying about her alleged pregnancy, though I do believe she is engaged to Ian, as his parents called to speak with me about the news that their son has delivered them.
But why would my daughter feel the need to lie about her condition at a time when we should all be rejoicing with the simple fact that we are together again as a family, and that Devries is finally back to her normal self. The Royal Family has even announced that the knighting ceremony has been moved forward to February, which is why Harker and I decided to give his eldest daughter a coronation sword this holiday.
Is Anika really that jealous of her sister? We never believed she cared enough about the family and the Organization to ever wish to take command and responsibility over so many lives. We only pushed her toward the goal of leading the family so that Devries would work harder at her own studies, not wanting to see her destiny fall to an incompetent.
I am afraid for my daughters. Thank God for Seras Victoria, as she was able to break up a fight between the girls this evening as they were headed to bed.
Even Seras is not certain which one started the fight, but as soon as she was there, the stronger and more powerful Devries had Anika pinned to the ground, grinding her knee in to her younger sister's stomach while she pushed Anika's arms to the floor so she could not attack her.
I almost hope that Devries instigated the attack, because Anika has to be suicidal to try to battle one that has strength many times greater than a mere human and the power to heal her wounds almost immediately. Anika knows that her sister has been trained by vampires on how to use her powers. How bloody stupid would she have to be to attack?
But then, if it is Devries that instigated the attack, I fear for Anika's life. The girl has the iron resolve of her mother, and the same accuracy with weapons as the late Sir Hellsing. If she has decided that she wants to kill Anika to make certain that another power struggle in the family does not occur, she will execute her plans, and we will be attending a funeral shortly.
Seras has agreed to stay near the girls at all hours of the day, splitting her shift with Captain Bernadette who will stand guard outside of their rooms as the girls sleep. Seras and I both agreed that while Argetni would be a stronger force as a bodyguard, we also realized that the vampiress would have trouble remaining neutral, and would most likely love to see Anika's name etched in a piece of granite and her body resting in the family graveyard.
My poor daughters. I pray that they find peace in the next life, and that God protect them all the rest of their days.
Amen.
Lillith Edwards-van Hellsing
I have no idea why I find that exciting. Perhaps it is just my strange sense of humor come to play yet again. Or perhaps it's just because I can't sleep yet.
The disclaimer on this chapter- it's odd. It fits the story, but it's just a bit abstract. In a way. Sort of. Oh hell with it. You'll understand once you read.
And I want to thank the readers of this series for finally sending Disgrace over the 50 review mark. That's a first for me, and I'm really appreciative of the support. ^_^
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December 26
Merciful God in heaven, I pray for the courage, the strength, and the heavenly guidance that You send to Your humble servants every mortal day to prove Your immense love for Your chosen people. I understand that our family is being tested as a part of Your glorious plan for all mankind, and I do not doubt Your judgment in the matter.
You love all; You protect all. You have proven your love to me through the many gifts bestowed upon me in my life. Never could I have achieved such status and position in the Church of England if not for Your Will. Never would I have dreamed of being the wife of your glorious Holy Knight, Sir Harker van Hellsing. Never would I have dreamed of raising a child which You destined to become the next of Your Holy Protestant Knights.
I have continued my duty to my God and my family over the years, being the rock for my daughter and husband, and acting in a manner that Devries could imitate when she becomes the leader of the Hellsing Organization. Never did they praise or scold me for my actions, and their indifference allowed me to feel as if I was doing my duty according to Your will.
God, I beg of You, please end the trial that You have sent to my family. The van Hellsing's may appear to be strong of will, but this constant game between the mortals, vampires, and each individual that we all must endure has weakened our spirits and our faith. I fear that we will not be able to survive the wrath of the earth much longer if allowed to remain in such a state.
Help us and guide us, Father in Heaven.
Amen.
Sigh.
And so ends another heartfelt prayer that God will cast a blind eye upon and turn a deaf ear toward so that nothing will ever change in the house of Hellsing. Harker, though I love him with my entire heart and soul, will continue forcing Devries down the wrong paths in life so that he can continue to lead Hellsing without opposition. Devries will learn of the world through the minds and experiences that the vampires wish to give her through the telepathic bonds that she shares with the undead.
The family will not survive under with these strained tensions between each generation and between the two daughters of the Holy Knight. I can tell Anika is lying about her alleged pregnancy, though I do believe she is engaged to Ian, as his parents called to speak with me about the news that their son has delivered them.
But why would my daughter feel the need to lie about her condition at a time when we should all be rejoicing with the simple fact that we are together again as a family, and that Devries is finally back to her normal self. The Royal Family has even announced that the knighting ceremony has been moved forward to February, which is why Harker and I decided to give his eldest daughter a coronation sword this holiday.
Is Anika really that jealous of her sister? We never believed she cared enough about the family and the Organization to ever wish to take command and responsibility over so many lives. We only pushed her toward the goal of leading the family so that Devries would work harder at her own studies, not wanting to see her destiny fall to an incompetent.
I am afraid for my daughters. Thank God for Seras Victoria, as she was able to break up a fight between the girls this evening as they were headed to bed.
Even Seras is not certain which one started the fight, but as soon as she was there, the stronger and more powerful Devries had Anika pinned to the ground, grinding her knee in to her younger sister's stomach while she pushed Anika's arms to the floor so she could not attack her.
I almost hope that Devries instigated the attack, because Anika has to be suicidal to try to battle one that has strength many times greater than a mere human and the power to heal her wounds almost immediately. Anika knows that her sister has been trained by vampires on how to use her powers. How bloody stupid would she have to be to attack?
But then, if it is Devries that instigated the attack, I fear for Anika's life. The girl has the iron resolve of her mother, and the same accuracy with weapons as the late Sir Hellsing. If she has decided that she wants to kill Anika to make certain that another power struggle in the family does not occur, she will execute her plans, and we will be attending a funeral shortly.
Seras has agreed to stay near the girls at all hours of the day, splitting her shift with Captain Bernadette who will stand guard outside of their rooms as the girls sleep. Seras and I both agreed that while Argetni would be a stronger force as a bodyguard, we also realized that the vampiress would have trouble remaining neutral, and would most likely love to see Anika's name etched in a piece of granite and her body resting in the family graveyard.
My poor daughters. I pray that they find peace in the next life, and that God protect them all the rest of their days.
Amen.
Lillith Edwards-van Hellsing