Why?

A/N: Okay! THANK YOU, all those kind souls who have reviewed!!!! I can't express enough gratitude…..yet anyway! Allen's back, but this time with desperation on his side. Subtle and not too subtle hints taken, Shion might make a good soul mate for him, but I've decided on something halfway between Shion and no-one.

Keep your eyes glued to this, and you'll find out!

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  Allen's first though was how warm it was.

  It seemed comforting, and soothing, that warm sensation of peace and relaxation. Like a warm blanket on a chilly winter's day, or a hot mug of drink when the weather was bad. And when facing the chill alternative of life, who would not perceive the warmth with open arms?

  Death drew ever closer, and Allen saw its grim visage. It took on the form of Shion screaming at him, and Shion rejecting his offers for everything. And then, yet, it became her again, reaching out to embrace him with arms wide open, a joyous smile on her face that lifted her mood to ecstatic proportions.

  …and whosoever believeth in me shall live and never die.

  Allen reached out to death. But I don't believe.

  Consequences rushed into his mind, flooding his subconscious. Everyone on the Elsa gathered at a tomb, presumably in the Dammerung, where all Vector employees were buried. As they had mourned Kevin, now they mourned him, and rain fell from the heavens, as if the artificial skies on the space colony were weeping, and the angels cast their drops of remorse for having treated this soul so unfairly unto the black earth that shared his pain.

  KOS-MOS had her emotion chip installed, and so thereafter, the world would know his contributions. MOMO knelt by his tomb, wondering why the unlucky young man had decided to take his life, shedding no small amount of grief over his prostrate body entombed within the world below. Ziggy stood tall beside her, his head bowed. Perhaps he too remembered some fragment of the old days when he was human?

  Matthews, Hammer and Tony were dressed unusually in black, reminiscing about how Allen had helped them to restock the Elsa. Considering the fact that they even noticed, he would be happy enough. Beside KOS-MOS stood chaos, and he seemed as though he knew why Allen had chosen the path he had, and yet did not divulge it.

  Jr., even Jr. was standing with his head bowed, saying something about him being one of life's constants. All his nagging and whining and constant reminders not to endanger themselves, much like an overprotective mother hen would be missed.

  Let them miss me. It would do them good.

  And then, he saw Shion.

  She who had only wept twice in her life, at least witnessed by Allen, adopted the sae grief that had shrouded over her at Kevin's grave. Her tears were crystal flakes of remorse, glancing off the cold marble under which he lay imprisoned. She sobbed and was in a fury with herself, why had she ever blamed him for everything?

  Allen did not want her to be sad. He didn't, even though she deserved it. He would go to the deepest depths of hell with her, but not this way. He did not want her to suffer both Kevin and him gone, although he highly doubted he came even close to Kevin's place in her heart.

  With such conflicting emotions, what could one do but to let Fate decide?

  Tossing his coin, the coin of his life into the air, he prayed and hoped that Fate would guide him.

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VERY VERY SHORT, I know, but this is building up into something! I can sense it! Pls vote for pairings!