AN: UBERLITE short chapter. Sorry, this was about as much nonsense as I
could fit in without sounding TOO redundant. And I wanted it to end the way
it did, I did. Yea.. Anyway, I wrote this when I was kinda hyper off many
many chocolate delights! MMM Truffles...AAAH, I'm SO SORRY. I tried to make
it SAAAD, but my moood wouldn't allow it. I mean, Christmas songs make me
REALLY REALLY happy. Add on truffles and you have a crazy, bouncing off the
walls, idiot. Happy Reading! Sorry its short, but enjoy anyway!
Lirpa - THX FOR REVIEWING! You're awesome. THx for reading, tho I felt kinda embarrassed that you did. O.o And sorry bout the confusing thing. I'm trying to fix that, but I just switch point of views in my head like nobody's business.
fresh8 - Update here I go! And not REAALLY the truth, just partially. You'll see! Nothing new in this chappie, but next one I swear!
ToinKs - THx for ur review! Oh and I wanna say something, but I can't so you'll have to read next chappie to see. BUUT, its noot exactly what everyone is thinking. I've got a surprise up my sleeve. ^^ And well, yea.. I'm pissed at him too! Stupid idiot. But since I'm only pissed at what the others think of him.. I shall shed light on that character in later chapters to come! Read on, matey! This chap shows nothing tho. Sorry, me not really dishing out info. Heh Heh Heh. I run now.
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Disclaimer: Own not I it.
~*~*~ Ch. 9 Musings of the Mind ~*~*~*~
[The below is Nishikado's point of view. Is this clear enough? *grin*]
I watched her for the longest time until her sobbing subsided and her shoulders stopped shaking. As I sat there listening to her, I realized one thing that I probably knew deep inside and simply pushed the thought aside. I like her. This crying girl in my arms whom just weeks ago meant nothing in the world to me was suddenly so important to me.
I cradled her in my arms and looked out the window with Rui as the rain continued to fall, lightly hitting the windows and filling the room with its sound. I tried to put myself in Yuki's shoes. I was never shy and never had to worry about what others thought of me. I spent my entire life being the center of attention and was always very confident in myself. I've never doubted my skills as a charmer, nor my looks. So no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't think of what it would be like to watch someone whom I liked turn around and attack me.
It wasn't the same if it was just F4 who decided to hate me. It would probably hurt more if it was someone .. a significant other who hated me. But even so.. it must really hurt.
A felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up at Akira's sad face. "Don't even think about it, pal." He said in an understanding voice, "F4's not going to turn on each other. Not in this lifetime."
I smiled a sad smile and nodded. Akira, Rui, and Tsukasa. My three best friends. I hope to god that we'll never turn on each other. For whatever reason.
Yuki sniffed quietly and I turned my attention back to her.
I could never truly understand what Yuki was thinking, or what any girl was thinking. And I don't even want to begin to try. But at this moment, I wanted, more than anything in the world, to share her pain.
I heaved a small sigh as my inner playboy flared up at the thought.
Nishikado, you're turning more and more sensitive as the days pass.
Shut up..
~*~*~ Yuki's point of view ~*~*~
I lay in Nishikado's arms for the longest time, until slowly, my crying ceased and reduced to a few whimpers every so often.
"What is his name?" Hanazawa Rui asked in a quiet voice as he sat in the corner watching the pair.
I lifted my head up and blinked at the suddenly very bright room. 'What is his name?'
Well.. frankly, good question. What IS his name? Of all the things in the world to forget..
Mimasaka Akira's eyebrows shot up as he stared at me. I had gone from sobbing to furiously contemplating in a span of a few seconds. Drumming my fingers along my jaw I tried to remember the name of the culprit who put me through so much pain. Much of which was pain in my head.
"Let's see.... his sister is Ai.. Ai.. uh.. Dai - no.. Tsuki, Tsuyo, Tsuku.." I squeezed my eyes together as names ran through my head. "Hideo.... no, don't think so."
"eeer," I continued my musings aloud. "Aki, Danjuro, Fumio, Eizo..."
The string of names was cut off as Mimasaka clamped his hand over my mouth. "You- you can stop now." He said, his eyebrows still twitching, removing his hand only when I nodded in agreement.
I sighed. "I'm sorry I can't help you there, guys. I don't know why that one piece of information eludes my mind."
Hanazawa smiled softly before standing up and exiting the room. He was probably going off to the handy laptop to do some research of some sort.
"Don't worry about it. We'll figure this out." Nishikado's warm voice said, very close to my head.
My face turned an immediate shade of tomato red as I realized the position I was in. I yelped and scrambled out of his arms, scooting down to the other side of the couch.
That was what I would call too close for comfort.
My face still the unbelievable red shade, I tried to stammer an apology. And at the same time prayed that the room would suddenly darken or Nishikado go blind so that he wouldn't notice my face which refused to stop blushing. I almost wanted to start crying all over again from embarrassment.
But Nishikado just chuckled. He patted my head, good naturedly. "Don't worry so much! You need to learn to relax more, Yuki."
We conversed a little longer. Mainly talking about how I was feeling and the guys telling me not to worry. Eventually, Nishikado and Mimasaka left me alone with my feelings. I looked at the gloomy room around me and decided to get out.
Everyone was treating me like glass. Well, for the total of an hour they've been treating me like fragile China. I sighed and at that sigh, sighed yet again. I'd really been doing that much too often lately.
My life had been so simple before. Before I remembered anything and after that awful even happened. At first.. when I remembered it, I felt so much pain. I felt so horrible because I felt responsible for what happened. But now that I think about it.. it makes me angry. I'm so mad at that stupid.. Haku or Fuji or whatever the hell his name is. It wasn't REALLY my fault, was it? I'm sorry that Ai passed away.. but was that enough reason to hunt me down and make my life a living hell for weeks?
I wasn't going hide anymore. I used to always sit at home and watch the rain on days like these. I felt something about the wet droplets that came down.. something sorrowful.. and I ran from it all. I wasn't going to run anymore. I'll face it all. I don't want to be weak anymore. I'm so tired of being weak and needing to be rescued. So tired of being the shy, good little Yuki.
Opening an umbrella, I stepped out into the rain and closed the huge oak door behind me.
I watched the ripples in the little puddles along the road as I walked along Doumyouji's private beach.
The rain hit against the cloth of my umbrella. And the last thing I thought before the blow upon my head knocked me out was how amazing it was that the ocean churned white along the rocks and sands of the beach. [AN: is it just me or is Yuki totally out of it?]
:End Chapter 9:
AN: OOOOH, the suspense! Is this a cliffy? I'll pretend it is. I'm kinda evil, but I try not to be. This was ALL Lirpa's idea. So go blame Lirpa! She chose the plot! Hehe, okay, it was also the musings of my evil mind. But either way, clicky on that funny blueish purple button that says Submit Review. Okay? Okay? Okay? THANK YOU FOR READING!
Lirpa - THX FOR REVIEWING! You're awesome. THx for reading, tho I felt kinda embarrassed that you did. O.o And sorry bout the confusing thing. I'm trying to fix that, but I just switch point of views in my head like nobody's business.
fresh8 - Update here I go! And not REAALLY the truth, just partially. You'll see! Nothing new in this chappie, but next one I swear!
ToinKs - THx for ur review! Oh and I wanna say something, but I can't so you'll have to read next chappie to see. BUUT, its noot exactly what everyone is thinking. I've got a surprise up my sleeve. ^^ And well, yea.. I'm pissed at him too! Stupid idiot. But since I'm only pissed at what the others think of him.. I shall shed light on that character in later chapters to come! Read on, matey! This chap shows nothing tho. Sorry, me not really dishing out info. Heh Heh Heh. I run now.
~*~*~*~*~*~
Disclaimer: Own not I it.
~*~*~ Ch. 9 Musings of the Mind ~*~*~*~
[The below is Nishikado's point of view. Is this clear enough? *grin*]
I watched her for the longest time until her sobbing subsided and her shoulders stopped shaking. As I sat there listening to her, I realized one thing that I probably knew deep inside and simply pushed the thought aside. I like her. This crying girl in my arms whom just weeks ago meant nothing in the world to me was suddenly so important to me.
I cradled her in my arms and looked out the window with Rui as the rain continued to fall, lightly hitting the windows and filling the room with its sound. I tried to put myself in Yuki's shoes. I was never shy and never had to worry about what others thought of me. I spent my entire life being the center of attention and was always very confident in myself. I've never doubted my skills as a charmer, nor my looks. So no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't think of what it would be like to watch someone whom I liked turn around and attack me.
It wasn't the same if it was just F4 who decided to hate me. It would probably hurt more if it was someone .. a significant other who hated me. But even so.. it must really hurt.
A felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up at Akira's sad face. "Don't even think about it, pal." He said in an understanding voice, "F4's not going to turn on each other. Not in this lifetime."
I smiled a sad smile and nodded. Akira, Rui, and Tsukasa. My three best friends. I hope to god that we'll never turn on each other. For whatever reason.
Yuki sniffed quietly and I turned my attention back to her.
I could never truly understand what Yuki was thinking, or what any girl was thinking. And I don't even want to begin to try. But at this moment, I wanted, more than anything in the world, to share her pain.
I heaved a small sigh as my inner playboy flared up at the thought.
Nishikado, you're turning more and more sensitive as the days pass.
Shut up..
~*~*~ Yuki's point of view ~*~*~
I lay in Nishikado's arms for the longest time, until slowly, my crying ceased and reduced to a few whimpers every so often.
"What is his name?" Hanazawa Rui asked in a quiet voice as he sat in the corner watching the pair.
I lifted my head up and blinked at the suddenly very bright room. 'What is his name?'
Well.. frankly, good question. What IS his name? Of all the things in the world to forget..
Mimasaka Akira's eyebrows shot up as he stared at me. I had gone from sobbing to furiously contemplating in a span of a few seconds. Drumming my fingers along my jaw I tried to remember the name of the culprit who put me through so much pain. Much of which was pain in my head.
"Let's see.... his sister is Ai.. Ai.. uh.. Dai - no.. Tsuki, Tsuyo, Tsuku.." I squeezed my eyes together as names ran through my head. "Hideo.... no, don't think so."
"eeer," I continued my musings aloud. "Aki, Danjuro, Fumio, Eizo..."
The string of names was cut off as Mimasaka clamped his hand over my mouth. "You- you can stop now." He said, his eyebrows still twitching, removing his hand only when I nodded in agreement.
I sighed. "I'm sorry I can't help you there, guys. I don't know why that one piece of information eludes my mind."
Hanazawa smiled softly before standing up and exiting the room. He was probably going off to the handy laptop to do some research of some sort.
"Don't worry about it. We'll figure this out." Nishikado's warm voice said, very close to my head.
My face turned an immediate shade of tomato red as I realized the position I was in. I yelped and scrambled out of his arms, scooting down to the other side of the couch.
That was what I would call too close for comfort.
My face still the unbelievable red shade, I tried to stammer an apology. And at the same time prayed that the room would suddenly darken or Nishikado go blind so that he wouldn't notice my face which refused to stop blushing. I almost wanted to start crying all over again from embarrassment.
But Nishikado just chuckled. He patted my head, good naturedly. "Don't worry so much! You need to learn to relax more, Yuki."
We conversed a little longer. Mainly talking about how I was feeling and the guys telling me not to worry. Eventually, Nishikado and Mimasaka left me alone with my feelings. I looked at the gloomy room around me and decided to get out.
Everyone was treating me like glass. Well, for the total of an hour they've been treating me like fragile China. I sighed and at that sigh, sighed yet again. I'd really been doing that much too often lately.
My life had been so simple before. Before I remembered anything and after that awful even happened. At first.. when I remembered it, I felt so much pain. I felt so horrible because I felt responsible for what happened. But now that I think about it.. it makes me angry. I'm so mad at that stupid.. Haku or Fuji or whatever the hell his name is. It wasn't REALLY my fault, was it? I'm sorry that Ai passed away.. but was that enough reason to hunt me down and make my life a living hell for weeks?
I wasn't going hide anymore. I used to always sit at home and watch the rain on days like these. I felt something about the wet droplets that came down.. something sorrowful.. and I ran from it all. I wasn't going to run anymore. I'll face it all. I don't want to be weak anymore. I'm so tired of being weak and needing to be rescued. So tired of being the shy, good little Yuki.
Opening an umbrella, I stepped out into the rain and closed the huge oak door behind me.
I watched the ripples in the little puddles along the road as I walked along Doumyouji's private beach.
The rain hit against the cloth of my umbrella. And the last thing I thought before the blow upon my head knocked me out was how amazing it was that the ocean churned white along the rocks and sands of the beach. [AN: is it just me or is Yuki totally out of it?]
:End Chapter 9:
AN: OOOOH, the suspense! Is this a cliffy? I'll pretend it is. I'm kinda evil, but I try not to be. This was ALL Lirpa's idea. So go blame Lirpa! She chose the plot! Hehe, okay, it was also the musings of my evil mind. But either way, clicky on that funny blueish purple button that says Submit Review. Okay? Okay? Okay? THANK YOU FOR READING!