Wow. I started this story about two years ago. Last week I read the reviews
you guys wrote about it. Thanks so much! It made me want to finish this
story and make it better. Thanks again.
May 14th
Well prom is in 2 days. I've really had some mixed emotions about it. I feel kind of immature getting excited about a dance. That's not really my attitude. I can leave that up to all my friends.
I'm really just in my own little world lately. Things aren't all that great at home. I'm really scared about what might happen there. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. My friends are incapable of understanding what I am going through. After all their Mommy's and Daddy's are catering to their every need until they start school. Then in college, (which their parents will pay for) they will get care packages and checks from them.
My friends are just so shallow and unaware of the real world that is about to suck us up. I'm just getting so tired of them. Not all of were born with that silver spoon in our mouth. They just act so. I don't really want to go into all that right now. I'll just leave it at the fact that we will all graduate and probably not see each other until our 5 year reunion. That doesn't phase them at all. None of them understand we have to grow up.
Wow, even when I try to stop thinking about it still bothers me. At least I have Josie now. She is the only one who seems to have a grasp on the future. She's amazing. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have even gone to prom. She picked out the best costumes for us, two lovers from Shakespeare. I don't know much about Shakespeare, but she's wearing a tight top and I get a sword!
I can't wait until prom is over. The school is throwing a stupid party for us. Josie said she wants to go, so the two of us will stop by for a bit, then I have better plans. Prom is really going to be an unforgettable night for the two of us. Now that I think about all the good, I can hardly wait.
May 16th
Last night was prom. What a night. I can't believe it all and I don't really understand. But I will start from the beginning. Everything seemed great for Josie and me. Every moment we danced close together, I got more and more excited about the plans for after the dance. Then they announced we were king and queen. It was amazing. I didn't think I would be so happy to win. But with Josie as my queen, it felt amazing.
Then she was dancing with Mr. Coulson. Kristen, Kirsten, and Gibby came up to me. They dared me to dance with Aldys. They kept saying I was too caught up in my image to dance with her, and I owed to her since she is Josie's best friend. So I asked her to dance. It didn't seem like a big deal.
Then the girls tried to throw dog food on Aldys. But Josie stopped it. The first thought in my head was that Josie had seen me call Aldys Alpo at the court. But I was really drunk that night. And all these thoughts were pouring through my head about how to apologize and then Josie just went off.
She told us she was a newspaper reporter and doing an undercover story. She told us how horrible we all were and didn't even say she was sorry to me. Josie just ran off.
And there I was just standing alone. I ran to follow Josie, but when I walked out the door she was already talking to Mr. Coulson. She didn't really love me.
That bitch. She was just using me as a pawn in her story. And she didn't even care if I was hurt. I turned and ran the other way, I thought about getting back in the limo but just decided to walk home.
How could she do all this to me? I bet she is the one who put that story in the paper that got the cops all over the court. I don't know what to feel.
She was so perfect. The smartest, prettiest, sweetest, funniest girl in the world. And it was all a lie. She never even cared about me. Josie was just there to get stories. I can't believe I opened up so much to her. I've never really felt like that before. All the girls I dated just didn't matter as much as she did. They were basically filling in time until I found the right girl.
And I thought it was Josie.
Oh my god. She said she didn't even care that she won prom queen. I thought it would really hold us together. We could talk about it years from now when we looked back on our life together. Maybe I was just being a hopeless romantic and putting too much into it all.
That bitch. She didn't really care.
Now I don't really have anyone to turn to. My friends are all worthless lemmings who just aimlessly follow one another around. I was like a white cane for the blind leading the blind. They were my little pack that did whatever I did. I don't enjoy it anymore. Maybe I never even did. It was just high school. I just wanted to have fun.
Maybe if they hadn't thrown the dog food on Aldys then Josie would still be here. I don't know. She was never even here to start with. I have to let go now. I can't love her she isn't even real.
I can't believe this is all happening to me. It has got to be some off the wall dream that will end when I wake up. I just don't understand it all. Why?
you guys wrote about it. Thanks so much! It made me want to finish this
story and make it better. Thanks again.
May 14th
Well prom is in 2 days. I've really had some mixed emotions about it. I feel kind of immature getting excited about a dance. That's not really my attitude. I can leave that up to all my friends.
I'm really just in my own little world lately. Things aren't all that great at home. I'm really scared about what might happen there. I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. My friends are incapable of understanding what I am going through. After all their Mommy's and Daddy's are catering to their every need until they start school. Then in college, (which their parents will pay for) they will get care packages and checks from them.
My friends are just so shallow and unaware of the real world that is about to suck us up. I'm just getting so tired of them. Not all of were born with that silver spoon in our mouth. They just act so. I don't really want to go into all that right now. I'll just leave it at the fact that we will all graduate and probably not see each other until our 5 year reunion. That doesn't phase them at all. None of them understand we have to grow up.
Wow, even when I try to stop thinking about it still bothers me. At least I have Josie now. She is the only one who seems to have a grasp on the future. She's amazing. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have even gone to prom. She picked out the best costumes for us, two lovers from Shakespeare. I don't know much about Shakespeare, but she's wearing a tight top and I get a sword!
I can't wait until prom is over. The school is throwing a stupid party for us. Josie said she wants to go, so the two of us will stop by for a bit, then I have better plans. Prom is really going to be an unforgettable night for the two of us. Now that I think about all the good, I can hardly wait.
May 16th
Last night was prom. What a night. I can't believe it all and I don't really understand. But I will start from the beginning. Everything seemed great for Josie and me. Every moment we danced close together, I got more and more excited about the plans for after the dance. Then they announced we were king and queen. It was amazing. I didn't think I would be so happy to win. But with Josie as my queen, it felt amazing.
Then she was dancing with Mr. Coulson. Kristen, Kirsten, and Gibby came up to me. They dared me to dance with Aldys. They kept saying I was too caught up in my image to dance with her, and I owed to her since she is Josie's best friend. So I asked her to dance. It didn't seem like a big deal.
Then the girls tried to throw dog food on Aldys. But Josie stopped it. The first thought in my head was that Josie had seen me call Aldys Alpo at the court. But I was really drunk that night. And all these thoughts were pouring through my head about how to apologize and then Josie just went off.
She told us she was a newspaper reporter and doing an undercover story. She told us how horrible we all were and didn't even say she was sorry to me. Josie just ran off.
And there I was just standing alone. I ran to follow Josie, but when I walked out the door she was already talking to Mr. Coulson. She didn't really love me.
That bitch. She was just using me as a pawn in her story. And she didn't even care if I was hurt. I turned and ran the other way, I thought about getting back in the limo but just decided to walk home.
How could she do all this to me? I bet she is the one who put that story in the paper that got the cops all over the court. I don't know what to feel.
She was so perfect. The smartest, prettiest, sweetest, funniest girl in the world. And it was all a lie. She never even cared about me. Josie was just there to get stories. I can't believe I opened up so much to her. I've never really felt like that before. All the girls I dated just didn't matter as much as she did. They were basically filling in time until I found the right girl.
And I thought it was Josie.
Oh my god. She said she didn't even care that she won prom queen. I thought it would really hold us together. We could talk about it years from now when we looked back on our life together. Maybe I was just being a hopeless romantic and putting too much into it all.
That bitch. She didn't really care.
Now I don't really have anyone to turn to. My friends are all worthless lemmings who just aimlessly follow one another around. I was like a white cane for the blind leading the blind. They were my little pack that did whatever I did. I don't enjoy it anymore. Maybe I never even did. It was just high school. I just wanted to have fun.
Maybe if they hadn't thrown the dog food on Aldys then Josie would still be here. I don't know. She was never even here to start with. I have to let go now. I can't love her she isn't even real.
I can't believe this is all happening to me. It has got to be some off the wall dream that will end when I wake up. I just don't understand it all. Why?