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My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 3: If I Let You In
There he stood at the door. The epitome of all my problems, asking me to let him in. For the first time that day, I really looked into his eyes. I felt no guilt. I didn't feel nervous like I did when Seiya was around. I moved to the side and waved him in.
"A beer?", I asked him. More wanting to know what he was doing here, but didn't want to make things any more uncomfortable than they were.
"Umm, yeah, sure.", he stumbled over his words.
"Yeah why not, eh?", I laughed as I grabbed a bottle of Bud Light for him and another one for myself. Maybe I shouldn't get to toasted while he was around, but damn it, I just felt like a beer. I led him over to the couch and we sat down. There was a moment of slight uncomfortable silence. "So.what brings you by?", I asked as friendly as I could.
"Nothing, just didn't feel like going home and wanted to talk.", he nodded his head as if trying to convince himself of his statement. "You don't mind do you?"
"Me? Nah, I'm cool. You cool?", I stumbled over words. I took a gulp of beer and looked up at him.
"I'm cool if you cool", he smiled back. He began to drink. "So your doing good for yourself I see."
"Yeah I try. Life is only what you make of the choices made."
"Yeah that's the truth.", he said.
"Wow, another beer?", he nodded and I walked to the fridge to get another beer.
"So how are things going with you and Seiya?", he looked at the ground before taking a drink.
"Things are good. Four years as you know. Going strong. There good.", I noticed I started to repeat myself. I got up to grab another beer. Either I was very parched or my drinking was related to my close proximity to Mamoru.
"Yeah, that's good. I'm glad to see you guys got through that incident a couple of years ago."
"Incident?", I raised an eyebrow to him. "What incident?"
"You know the one. When he cheated on you a couple years back and you had a 'trial' separation.", he looked at me dead in the eyes. The audacity he has to bring that up took me by surprise.
"Yeah, you know about that eh? Well we love each other, and nothing will change that. Actually let me congratulate you for getting us together. He really is the special one in my life." I felt myself becoming heated. "The only person who has ever been special to me. He may have done that, but I forgive him which is more than I can say to you." By the end I was a notch from shouting. My face was flush. My head was swimming from the beer. He sat there and looked. Face plain, but emotion filled eyes. "Why are you even here?" I began to shout. "You hurt me worse than any other person in this world. You abandoned me. You hated me, and for what? Because you set me up with your friend and I fell for him!!"
"Usa-" he began
"No you listen. How dare you walk back into my life like nothing happened! How dare you bring up Seiya's affair, how fucking dare you-" I was silenced by him throwing me back on my couch and pinning my arms down. He came dangerously close to my face. I felt the heat from his breathing covering my lips. I instinctively licked my lips and looked into his eyes, I was waiting. I wanted this, but this was wrong.
"Damn it, it's not suppose to be like this." He turned and headed for the door. I was left dazed on the couch. I wanted him. I wanted to call out to him. I wanted to feel his lips all over mine. He looked back at me. "Look I'm sorry." He closed my door and was gone.
"Aaaargghh", I felt so annoyed, so angry. I threw what was left of my bottle against the wall and sat down and began to cry. This was not allowed. He couldn't do this. He can't undo what he caused. I love Seiya. We've been together forever, but ever since yesterday when Mamoru came back into town, I don't know what is going on. My desire, my heart, everything reached out to him, and I didn't fucking know why! He had his chance to be with me, but he let it go and passed me to a friend. I love Seiya. I love Seiya. I- *-*
My head hurts so much. I thought as the sunlight poured into the windows of my apartment. I had vague memories of last night, and didn't want to remember anything. I needed to study anyhow. I went over to my refrigerator and was about to open it when I thought of how pissed I would be if I only saw cheese. So I backed away to go soak in a bath. In course to try and relieve this achy body and headache, I noticed a small note on my counter.
*"My love, I figured you had nothing in the refrigerator so I got up a little early for work to do a little grocery shopping for you. If you wondered how you got in bed, I tucked you in this morning after I noticed you passed out of the floor. There's some Alieve in the medicine cabinet to help with the hangover. I love you and I'll see you after work. Yours forever, Seiya"*
I sighed. I began to feel guilty about last night. About Mamoru and my desires for him. Seiya's so good to me. I just have to avoid Mamoru. Maybe we can't be friends. *-*
"Mmm, dinner smells good baby", Seiya commented to me that evening.
"Well you picked out the food honey", I smiled at him. I was determined to give him my full and absolute attention. I gave him his plate as he sat on the couch. He licked his lips and began to devour the meal I had accomplished. OK maybe a "Hungry Man" TV dinner is a big feat for some but damn it I worked hard to not burn it.
I smiled at him. He was so handsome. I pulled up a stool and sat in front of him. I looked up at him through seductive eyes. He looked down at me passionately. He put down his plate and grabbed me. He laid me against the couch and began to kiss me. "Mmm, baby," I began. He lifted up my shirt. A look of admiration and appreciation crossed his face. He looked into my eyes and leaned down to undo my bra. With his left hand he massaged my right nipple while gently sucking on my right. It felt so good and I closed my eyes. I saw a flash of Mamoru. My eyes shot open as he began to pull at my pants. I was so invigorated and I wanted him. More than ever I needed to feel him inside of me. Then the fucking phone had to ring!
"Let it ring Usa, the machine will get it.", he panted into my ear. By this time our clothing was removed and he was ready to take me right then and there. My body ached for the feeling. He looked into my eyes and positioned himself over me. He gave me one more kiss as he drove into me.
"Oh baby, yes", I cried. BEEP!
"Uh, Usagi, about last night. Look I just want to apologize. I had no right being there. I just wanted. I don't know. I want you to be happy. I want to be happy I um. well anyhow I was trying to catch you because I know you have school and work all day tomorrow. Anyhow goodnight" Mamoru's voice came through my machine. The moment was killed. My mind and body had left the current situation it was in.
"Mamoru was over here last night?" Seiya asked, not willing to give up on the current task at hand.
"Yeah baby he was." I didn't feel like talking about it, so I feigned gratification. "Baby please don't stop more, more" But all I wanted was for him to stop. I just wanted him to leave. I wanted to just think.
"You want it baby, you want me to fill you up, make it hot?" Seiya asked nearing his peak.
"Oh baby yeah, mmm, god don't stop. Give it to me, all of it." I was ready to put on a master fake orgasm to appease him. His body tighten then he moaned. "Mmm, Seiya, baby." I said, but my mind was so far away. I stroked his head and let him lie there for a while. When it seemed as if he a drifted off, I tipped him to the inside of the couch.
I got up and went for a beer. I walked out on the balcony and sat down on the ground. He was nice out. I warm breeze filled the air, and the moon was almost full. 'Why this feeling of wanting more now? Why? Everything was good enough until he showed up'. I thought about what needed to be taken care of. I had a physics test I direly needed to study for tomorrow, then I had to work. I sighed and headed for my back pack.
"OK" I told myself, "Get it together." I focused myself as best as I could on my studies. Every once in a while glancing at the wonderful man who was willing to give me the rest of his lifetime, then thinking about the man that I would have given my lifetime to. This was turning into a mess. It was around 11:00. I yawned and continued to study until I drifted to sleep. *-*
My alarm woke me up at about 7:00 am. I groaned as if it was painful to be up. I had a dream where Mamoru was laying on top of me kissing me passionately then Beryl walked in. It traumatized her, and made her hate me. I hate those kind of dreams. Why did he have to invade my dreams. My dreams are suppose to be of only one man. I looked to the couch, but Seiya had left. I looked at the counter and noticed a small flower he must have picked. I yawned and groggily headed for a shower. 'Today's another day' I thought.
After showering, I attempted to dry my drenched hair. I had taken a tad too long in the shower and was running late for class. "Fuck it", I said decisively threw it up in a bun, put on some black slacks and a white shirt and headed out the door. I arrived to class just in time before my professor was going to lock the doors for the test. I sighed and prepared myself to do my best. *-*
I walked into my office. Well granted I'm a receptionist but still I have my own space. I threw the keys on the desk, checked for messages, and fixed a cup of coffee. 'What a weekend' I thought. I really needed someone to talk to. Someone who could be a little more unbiased than my girlfriends. I started twirling in my chair while looking up at the ceiling. The door opened and I shot up for composure. It was only Naru. Naru! That's who I can talk to. Naru, wasn't that big of a hang out buddy even though we went out every now and then, but I knew she would provide advice and an ear.
"Hey girl" I called to her.
"Wassa!" she said in her cute little way. "How was your weekend?"
"Good, I guess." I said a little down.
"Wait a minute, what's wrong, you can tell me. I know you rolled, did you get the downers from that?" she asked me while sitting in my other office chair.
"Nah.. nothing like that" I looked at her. "I have a problem."
"Tell me, I'm here for you."
"I don't know."
"Usagi! Tell me!"
"OK, well I had this friend from long ago right? We were like seriously close and we were good friends did almost everything together. He introduced me to Seiya, and Seiya and I hit it off. Well after that he kinda turned on me. Calling me bitch and everything, then he left town. Well he showed back up this weekend. He was at the party.and.and.Naru, I think he's coming on to me. and I think I want him to."
Naru's mouth dropped. "How close were you guys?"
"We were close. But no relationship formed, he was with another. I don't know what to say or do. I mean I'm even starting to have dreams about us. All this over a fucking weekend!"
"Look Usagi, you know, personally, the damage that stepping outside of a relationship can cause. I don't know this guy, but it sounds like what you are feeling is deep. One thing is that he is your boyfriend's friend which makes things strange."
"Yeah, but he introduced us, he was my friend first. My best friend."
"I know, but that changed right? Usagi before you even make a move, if you are planning to, break things clean with Seiya."
"I know, I know. Hey what time is your break?"
"At 12:00, why?"
"You want to go to lunch with me?"
"Yeah sure. All right. Let me do some stuff then I'll come and see you."
"Cool"
I began to do some work my boss and listed out for me to do. I was so concentrated on the tasks at hand that I forgot the time. It was about 11:45 when I looked up again. I needed to pee. I walked back to Naru's office and knocked. "Hey only 15 minutes, I'm going to the restroom, watch the front for me?"
"Sure thing" she nodded and walked up front. I went to the bathroom and alleviated myself. I looked in the mirror, I looked like shit. I opened up the bathroom door, but before I could get out, Molly pushed me back in.
"What the-", I began.
"What was the name of the guy?" she asked with urgency.
"Mamoru, why?", I asked baffled.
"He's waiting up front for you" she said with large eyes. I almost jumped out of my skin. I nodded my head brushed my clothes and headed up front.
"Mamoru, hi.", I said nervously.
"Hey.so. did you get my message?" he asked.
"Yeah I did. Umm.--"
"When do you go to lunch?" he asked cutting me off.
"Right about now" I answered looking past him out the door. He pulled my hand and guided me to his car.
"Get in.", he commanded me.
"OK" I nodded. He opened the door and closed it behind me. He hurried to the other side and got in he started the car and drove off. I didn't think to ask where we were going. The ride was silent. Soon I found myself in a familiar area. Our familiar area. He pulled in at the park.
He got out of the car and started walking. I looked at him for a minute and climbed out myself. I hurried to get up by his side.
"Do you remember those days Usagi? Walking through the park, talking?" he asked staring straight ahead.
"Yeah. They seem so long ago" I meekly answered.
"They seem like yesterday to me.", he said not once looking me in the eyes. We continued to walk until we came across the swings. He sat down and looked up at me. I sat down on the swing next to him. He turned to look at me, pain showing in his eyes. "You never use to sit there."
"Mamoru, I. what do you want. I mean you absolutely turn on me, get upset. I'm so fucking confused that all I want to do is crawl under a rock and cry the rest of my life away."
"Usagi, I want things to be like they used to be, but maybe they can't. I want to be able to come to your house and you not be worrying about Seiya or anything else. I want you to let me back into you life and maybe, possibly, your heart.", he looked me in the eyes with his last words. I felt my face start to get hot, and a tear slid down.
"And If I let you in?"
"If you let me in, I won't ever leave your side again." I got off my swing and moved towards him. He opened his arms and I straddled him. It had been so long since I had done this. He smiled up at me, and I smiled back. He started to slowly swing us and my smile grew bigger as I leaned back and relished in the feeling and the memories. I pulled myself back up, still smiling. I looked down into his eyes, his smile had faded and a look of seriousness crossed his features. His eyes drew me in. Before I knew it, my head was drifting slowly towards his. My eyes shut and our lips touched. Fireworks went off in my soul. Never had I felt this on fire before. He licked my lips and in response I opened my lips to his. Our tongues intricately tangoed with each other. He started to hold me tighter. I held on to him even tighter. The kiss stretched to the depths for my being. After what seemed like hours, we broke apart looking in each others eyes.
"Come to my apartment after work." He didn't ask, but more like he was telling me.
"OK" my breath was still ragged. He pulled me down for a light kiss and lifted me off of him. He grabbed my hand and walked me back to his car. The drive back to my office was quiet. Just him holding my hand in between shifting gears. When we arrived, he pulled out a sheet of paper with his address and number on it. I took it. He looked at me longingly as I went back inside.
"Usagi." Naru looked at me as if I was a guilty criminal.
"We'll talk later", I simply stated and closed the door to my area behind me. I leaned against the door with a sigh. I had never felt like this before. I wanted to explore this feeling. The phone rang and I answered.
"Hey baby!", Seiya's voice boomed into the phone.
"Seiya.hi!" I said as if trying to remember what a Seiya was.
"Hey me at your place tonight? Another dinner?" he asked huskily.
Umm.. listen Seiya. I can't I have to study at Rei's tonight"
Well that today's installment. I feel like I maybe rushed this and didn't get the full effect that I want. I may rewrite this particular chapter over the weekend or something. Anyhow. What do you think? Please review and thank you to my faithful readers, I really appreciate you guys. Lady Imp.
My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 3: If I Let You In
There he stood at the door. The epitome of all my problems, asking me to let him in. For the first time that day, I really looked into his eyes. I felt no guilt. I didn't feel nervous like I did when Seiya was around. I moved to the side and waved him in.
"A beer?", I asked him. More wanting to know what he was doing here, but didn't want to make things any more uncomfortable than they were.
"Umm, yeah, sure.", he stumbled over his words.
"Yeah why not, eh?", I laughed as I grabbed a bottle of Bud Light for him and another one for myself. Maybe I shouldn't get to toasted while he was around, but damn it, I just felt like a beer. I led him over to the couch and we sat down. There was a moment of slight uncomfortable silence. "So.what brings you by?", I asked as friendly as I could.
"Nothing, just didn't feel like going home and wanted to talk.", he nodded his head as if trying to convince himself of his statement. "You don't mind do you?"
"Me? Nah, I'm cool. You cool?", I stumbled over words. I took a gulp of beer and looked up at him.
"I'm cool if you cool", he smiled back. He began to drink. "So your doing good for yourself I see."
"Yeah I try. Life is only what you make of the choices made."
"Yeah that's the truth.", he said.
"Wow, another beer?", he nodded and I walked to the fridge to get another beer.
"So how are things going with you and Seiya?", he looked at the ground before taking a drink.
"Things are good. Four years as you know. Going strong. There good.", I noticed I started to repeat myself. I got up to grab another beer. Either I was very parched or my drinking was related to my close proximity to Mamoru.
"Yeah, that's good. I'm glad to see you guys got through that incident a couple of years ago."
"Incident?", I raised an eyebrow to him. "What incident?"
"You know the one. When he cheated on you a couple years back and you had a 'trial' separation.", he looked at me dead in the eyes. The audacity he has to bring that up took me by surprise.
"Yeah, you know about that eh? Well we love each other, and nothing will change that. Actually let me congratulate you for getting us together. He really is the special one in my life." I felt myself becoming heated. "The only person who has ever been special to me. He may have done that, but I forgive him which is more than I can say to you." By the end I was a notch from shouting. My face was flush. My head was swimming from the beer. He sat there and looked. Face plain, but emotion filled eyes. "Why are you even here?" I began to shout. "You hurt me worse than any other person in this world. You abandoned me. You hated me, and for what? Because you set me up with your friend and I fell for him!!"
"Usa-" he began
"No you listen. How dare you walk back into my life like nothing happened! How dare you bring up Seiya's affair, how fucking dare you-" I was silenced by him throwing me back on my couch and pinning my arms down. He came dangerously close to my face. I felt the heat from his breathing covering my lips. I instinctively licked my lips and looked into his eyes, I was waiting. I wanted this, but this was wrong.
"Damn it, it's not suppose to be like this." He turned and headed for the door. I was left dazed on the couch. I wanted him. I wanted to call out to him. I wanted to feel his lips all over mine. He looked back at me. "Look I'm sorry." He closed my door and was gone.
"Aaaargghh", I felt so annoyed, so angry. I threw what was left of my bottle against the wall and sat down and began to cry. This was not allowed. He couldn't do this. He can't undo what he caused. I love Seiya. We've been together forever, but ever since yesterday when Mamoru came back into town, I don't know what is going on. My desire, my heart, everything reached out to him, and I didn't fucking know why! He had his chance to be with me, but he let it go and passed me to a friend. I love Seiya. I love Seiya. I- *-*
My head hurts so much. I thought as the sunlight poured into the windows of my apartment. I had vague memories of last night, and didn't want to remember anything. I needed to study anyhow. I went over to my refrigerator and was about to open it when I thought of how pissed I would be if I only saw cheese. So I backed away to go soak in a bath. In course to try and relieve this achy body and headache, I noticed a small note on my counter.
*"My love, I figured you had nothing in the refrigerator so I got up a little early for work to do a little grocery shopping for you. If you wondered how you got in bed, I tucked you in this morning after I noticed you passed out of the floor. There's some Alieve in the medicine cabinet to help with the hangover. I love you and I'll see you after work. Yours forever, Seiya"*
I sighed. I began to feel guilty about last night. About Mamoru and my desires for him. Seiya's so good to me. I just have to avoid Mamoru. Maybe we can't be friends. *-*
"Mmm, dinner smells good baby", Seiya commented to me that evening.
"Well you picked out the food honey", I smiled at him. I was determined to give him my full and absolute attention. I gave him his plate as he sat on the couch. He licked his lips and began to devour the meal I had accomplished. OK maybe a "Hungry Man" TV dinner is a big feat for some but damn it I worked hard to not burn it.
I smiled at him. He was so handsome. I pulled up a stool and sat in front of him. I looked up at him through seductive eyes. He looked down at me passionately. He put down his plate and grabbed me. He laid me against the couch and began to kiss me. "Mmm, baby," I began. He lifted up my shirt. A look of admiration and appreciation crossed his face. He looked into my eyes and leaned down to undo my bra. With his left hand he massaged my right nipple while gently sucking on my right. It felt so good and I closed my eyes. I saw a flash of Mamoru. My eyes shot open as he began to pull at my pants. I was so invigorated and I wanted him. More than ever I needed to feel him inside of me. Then the fucking phone had to ring!
"Let it ring Usa, the machine will get it.", he panted into my ear. By this time our clothing was removed and he was ready to take me right then and there. My body ached for the feeling. He looked into my eyes and positioned himself over me. He gave me one more kiss as he drove into me.
"Oh baby, yes", I cried. BEEP!
"Uh, Usagi, about last night. Look I just want to apologize. I had no right being there. I just wanted. I don't know. I want you to be happy. I want to be happy I um. well anyhow I was trying to catch you because I know you have school and work all day tomorrow. Anyhow goodnight" Mamoru's voice came through my machine. The moment was killed. My mind and body had left the current situation it was in.
"Mamoru was over here last night?" Seiya asked, not willing to give up on the current task at hand.
"Yeah baby he was." I didn't feel like talking about it, so I feigned gratification. "Baby please don't stop more, more" But all I wanted was for him to stop. I just wanted him to leave. I wanted to just think.
"You want it baby, you want me to fill you up, make it hot?" Seiya asked nearing his peak.
"Oh baby yeah, mmm, god don't stop. Give it to me, all of it." I was ready to put on a master fake orgasm to appease him. His body tighten then he moaned. "Mmm, Seiya, baby." I said, but my mind was so far away. I stroked his head and let him lie there for a while. When it seemed as if he a drifted off, I tipped him to the inside of the couch.
I got up and went for a beer. I walked out on the balcony and sat down on the ground. He was nice out. I warm breeze filled the air, and the moon was almost full. 'Why this feeling of wanting more now? Why? Everything was good enough until he showed up'. I thought about what needed to be taken care of. I had a physics test I direly needed to study for tomorrow, then I had to work. I sighed and headed for my back pack.
"OK" I told myself, "Get it together." I focused myself as best as I could on my studies. Every once in a while glancing at the wonderful man who was willing to give me the rest of his lifetime, then thinking about the man that I would have given my lifetime to. This was turning into a mess. It was around 11:00. I yawned and continued to study until I drifted to sleep. *-*
My alarm woke me up at about 7:00 am. I groaned as if it was painful to be up. I had a dream where Mamoru was laying on top of me kissing me passionately then Beryl walked in. It traumatized her, and made her hate me. I hate those kind of dreams. Why did he have to invade my dreams. My dreams are suppose to be of only one man. I looked to the couch, but Seiya had left. I looked at the counter and noticed a small flower he must have picked. I yawned and groggily headed for a shower. 'Today's another day' I thought.
After showering, I attempted to dry my drenched hair. I had taken a tad too long in the shower and was running late for class. "Fuck it", I said decisively threw it up in a bun, put on some black slacks and a white shirt and headed out the door. I arrived to class just in time before my professor was going to lock the doors for the test. I sighed and prepared myself to do my best. *-*
I walked into my office. Well granted I'm a receptionist but still I have my own space. I threw the keys on the desk, checked for messages, and fixed a cup of coffee. 'What a weekend' I thought. I really needed someone to talk to. Someone who could be a little more unbiased than my girlfriends. I started twirling in my chair while looking up at the ceiling. The door opened and I shot up for composure. It was only Naru. Naru! That's who I can talk to. Naru, wasn't that big of a hang out buddy even though we went out every now and then, but I knew she would provide advice and an ear.
"Hey girl" I called to her.
"Wassa!" she said in her cute little way. "How was your weekend?"
"Good, I guess." I said a little down.
"Wait a minute, what's wrong, you can tell me. I know you rolled, did you get the downers from that?" she asked me while sitting in my other office chair.
"Nah.. nothing like that" I looked at her. "I have a problem."
"Tell me, I'm here for you."
"I don't know."
"Usagi! Tell me!"
"OK, well I had this friend from long ago right? We were like seriously close and we were good friends did almost everything together. He introduced me to Seiya, and Seiya and I hit it off. Well after that he kinda turned on me. Calling me bitch and everything, then he left town. Well he showed back up this weekend. He was at the party.and.and.Naru, I think he's coming on to me. and I think I want him to."
Naru's mouth dropped. "How close were you guys?"
"We were close. But no relationship formed, he was with another. I don't know what to say or do. I mean I'm even starting to have dreams about us. All this over a fucking weekend!"
"Look Usagi, you know, personally, the damage that stepping outside of a relationship can cause. I don't know this guy, but it sounds like what you are feeling is deep. One thing is that he is your boyfriend's friend which makes things strange."
"Yeah, but he introduced us, he was my friend first. My best friend."
"I know, but that changed right? Usagi before you even make a move, if you are planning to, break things clean with Seiya."
"I know, I know. Hey what time is your break?"
"At 12:00, why?"
"You want to go to lunch with me?"
"Yeah sure. All right. Let me do some stuff then I'll come and see you."
"Cool"
I began to do some work my boss and listed out for me to do. I was so concentrated on the tasks at hand that I forgot the time. It was about 11:45 when I looked up again. I needed to pee. I walked back to Naru's office and knocked. "Hey only 15 minutes, I'm going to the restroom, watch the front for me?"
"Sure thing" she nodded and walked up front. I went to the bathroom and alleviated myself. I looked in the mirror, I looked like shit. I opened up the bathroom door, but before I could get out, Molly pushed me back in.
"What the-", I began.
"What was the name of the guy?" she asked with urgency.
"Mamoru, why?", I asked baffled.
"He's waiting up front for you" she said with large eyes. I almost jumped out of my skin. I nodded my head brushed my clothes and headed up front.
"Mamoru, hi.", I said nervously.
"Hey.so. did you get my message?" he asked.
"Yeah I did. Umm.--"
"When do you go to lunch?" he asked cutting me off.
"Right about now" I answered looking past him out the door. He pulled my hand and guided me to his car.
"Get in.", he commanded me.
"OK" I nodded. He opened the door and closed it behind me. He hurried to the other side and got in he started the car and drove off. I didn't think to ask where we were going. The ride was silent. Soon I found myself in a familiar area. Our familiar area. He pulled in at the park.
He got out of the car and started walking. I looked at him for a minute and climbed out myself. I hurried to get up by his side.
"Do you remember those days Usagi? Walking through the park, talking?" he asked staring straight ahead.
"Yeah. They seem so long ago" I meekly answered.
"They seem like yesterday to me.", he said not once looking me in the eyes. We continued to walk until we came across the swings. He sat down and looked up at me. I sat down on the swing next to him. He turned to look at me, pain showing in his eyes. "You never use to sit there."
"Mamoru, I. what do you want. I mean you absolutely turn on me, get upset. I'm so fucking confused that all I want to do is crawl under a rock and cry the rest of my life away."
"Usagi, I want things to be like they used to be, but maybe they can't. I want to be able to come to your house and you not be worrying about Seiya or anything else. I want you to let me back into you life and maybe, possibly, your heart.", he looked me in the eyes with his last words. I felt my face start to get hot, and a tear slid down.
"And If I let you in?"
"If you let me in, I won't ever leave your side again." I got off my swing and moved towards him. He opened his arms and I straddled him. It had been so long since I had done this. He smiled up at me, and I smiled back. He started to slowly swing us and my smile grew bigger as I leaned back and relished in the feeling and the memories. I pulled myself back up, still smiling. I looked down into his eyes, his smile had faded and a look of seriousness crossed his features. His eyes drew me in. Before I knew it, my head was drifting slowly towards his. My eyes shut and our lips touched. Fireworks went off in my soul. Never had I felt this on fire before. He licked my lips and in response I opened my lips to his. Our tongues intricately tangoed with each other. He started to hold me tighter. I held on to him even tighter. The kiss stretched to the depths for my being. After what seemed like hours, we broke apart looking in each others eyes.
"Come to my apartment after work." He didn't ask, but more like he was telling me.
"OK" my breath was still ragged. He pulled me down for a light kiss and lifted me off of him. He grabbed my hand and walked me back to his car. The drive back to my office was quiet. Just him holding my hand in between shifting gears. When we arrived, he pulled out a sheet of paper with his address and number on it. I took it. He looked at me longingly as I went back inside.
"Usagi." Naru looked at me as if I was a guilty criminal.
"We'll talk later", I simply stated and closed the door to my area behind me. I leaned against the door with a sigh. I had never felt like this before. I wanted to explore this feeling. The phone rang and I answered.
"Hey baby!", Seiya's voice boomed into the phone.
"Seiya.hi!" I said as if trying to remember what a Seiya was.
"Hey me at your place tonight? Another dinner?" he asked huskily.
Umm.. listen Seiya. I can't I have to study at Rei's tonight"
Well that today's installment. I feel like I maybe rushed this and didn't get the full effect that I want. I may rewrite this particular chapter over the weekend or something. Anyhow. What do you think? Please review and thank you to my faithful readers, I really appreciate you guys. Lady Imp.