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My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 7: Making the Right Choice
I laid there basking in the glory of his presence. He was sound asleep, slightly snoring. Never before had I felt so alive with Seiya. I was close to Seiya, but I felt one with Mamoru, something I hadn't realized was really there in our age of innocence.
There were so many different things between the two. Seiya lives for me and will do anything to keep me smiling, while Mamoru would show me how to live and to step outside of the circle. There was no trying with him. I was in love with the man whose arms surround me, and yet I belong to another. I was in love with the worst person possible, his best friend. I was in love with Mamoru.
I kissed him lightly on the lips and slid gently out of his arms. I headed towards my bathroom to take a hot relaxing shower. There was so much going on in my life at the moment that I wanted to just implode into nothingness. However I was oddly satisfied with the way things were going.
I prepared for a hot shower to soothe my slightly aching body from the excursions over the past twelve hours or so. I looked at myself long and hard in the mirror. I looked different. I looked happy. I smiled brightly and slid into the shower to let the warm water cascade down my hair and my body. The water was warm but my thoughts were on how much warmer I felt in Mamoru's arms.
I began to think of how hung up I used to be over him and finally I knew the reason why. I always cared for him, always loved him. The whole time he was with Beryl I loved him. The whole time with Seiya, I loved him. I realized I hated him for forgetting what we had as friends and just outright abandoning me because I found someone to show me the affection he gave to other girls. I was jealous, but I moved on, big time. Now here we are. I am engaged to the guy he set me up with and he was lying in my bed soundly sleeping.
Or so I thought. While holding my head under the streaming water lost in my own reverie, I felt a hand reach out and touch my shoulder. I jumped at first. Then I relaxed and leaned back onto the very familiar chest, a chest that was not the one from last night. I turned around a saw the concerned eyes of my fiancé.
"Seiya!" I gasped out. "I can explain-" I began trying to figure out how I can explain Mamoru lying naked in my bed.
"No need baby." He said to me tenderly stroking my face. "When I woke, I figured you had gone to class this morning and work. I stopped by your job at lunch, but Mr. Haruna said that you had called in sick."
"Ah, yeah, I'm not feeling to well at the moment." And I really wasn't. If he didn't see Mamoru laid out on my bed, then where the fuck had he gone.
"You should have told me! I would have taken care of you. I brought you some soup, some massaging oil. Usa. I love you so much. I'm so happy you will be my wife. You have really made me the happiest man in the world"
I felt like shit to say the least. I didn't deserve him or rather he didn't deserve the betrayal that was going on behind his back. "Look Seiya, I, uh, I don't know." I began. I needed to buy time. I kissed him softly and turned the showerhead off. The kiss felt so wrong. I felt like I had done Mamoru an injustice! But the only one being done injustice was Seiya. Without looking at him, I stepped out of the shower and headed towards my bed.
"Usagi, are you feeling alright?" Concern was weighing heavily through his voice.
"That's it Seiya.I don't know how I feel." I plopped on my bed and thought I heard a grunt. 'He couldn't be.' I thought nervously at the thought of where Mamoru was. 'He's under the damn bed!' This cannot be good. Seiya's nude form joined me on the bed.
"Honey, tell me what's wrong. Do you need anything?" his eyes were painful to look at. I tried to think of anything that would get him out and away from me for just a little while. He moved closer to me and whispered huskily in my ear. "Do you need me baby? Do you want me like last night." He was continually creeping closer to me until he was inches away from my lips. He closed any gap remaining and pressed his lips hard against mine.
I heard him moan and he pushed me back on the bed and proceeded to take his position above me. "Seiya-" I called out, but he had already silenced my would-be protest.
"I'll make you feel better." His breath was hot, his eyes intense. I couldn't stand it. I used all I had in me and pushed him off me hard. So hard that he landed on the floor with and umph! A thought quickly popped in my head that he wasn't the only one on my bedroom floor. Right next to him was probably Mamoru. "God damn it Usa. What was that for?!?" He groaned out. "Hey isn't this your engagement ring?" He asked me, as he was about to lift my blanket to reach for it.
I dived to the floor and straddled him. "It must have fallen off the dresser when I was going to take a shower." I quickly thought. I was really becoming a talented liar. I forced myself to softly stroke him and bend to give him a kiss. "You know what baby?" I said to him as I sat up and pulled him up. "Will you meet me at our café in about 2 hours?" I put on my best 'I love you' voice I could muster out.
"But I like where I am right now" He said wrapping his arms around me.
"God don't touch me!" I screamed out unintentionally. The room stilled and he just looked at me.
"You really are having a bad day, eh?" He asked as he slowly backed away from me and went to my bathroom to collect his clothing.
"Look Seiya, I'll see you at the café in a couple of hours, ok love?" I was really trying to not hurt him.
"Yeah baby, we'll do that." he said almost hurt. "I'll see you then. I love you baby, my future wife." Those words stung. He gave me a small peck on the cheek and finished dressing. Five more minutes later he was out the door.
I collapsed on my bed and began to cry. I can't believe the scandal I was allowing to go on in my life. I felt warm arms embrace me, and I melted into them not holding back anything.
"I didn't know he had a key." He simply stated.
"Mamo-chan, I'm so sorry. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore." I cried into his chest hoping to find an answer to my ultimate question of what to do.
"Usako." he breathed into my ear tenderly. "I don't want you to hurt. I understand I had my chance with you and I completely ignored the fact. If anyone doesn't deserve anyone, it me not deserving you."
I looked into his eyes, seeking honesty in them. I was not let down. "Oh Mamo-chan, I lo-" He silenced me with a sweet tender soft kiss.
"Be careful who you say those words to." He said to me with a slight sternness in his voice. "They can make or break someone." He had an undecipherable look in his eyes. I was going to ask what he was getting at. I loved him and it would have been nice to return the words.
He turned me so that I was lying on my back and he was towering over me almost powerfully. It was not long before our bodies were entwined in a fit of intense, passionate, sacred lovemaking. The feeling was indescribable feeling of soaring. I felt a few tears shed from my eyes as I began to reach my climatic point.
"Oh. Mamo-chan. Oh god baby. please. I need this, I need you." And with those few words my body clamped down hard on him and I saw the white light called bliss.
"Usako. I. I." He had reached his climax and fell exhaustedly upon me. I showered his face with kisses. I held onto him as if my life depended upon it.
"You what?" I asked him after a long moment of silence and me stroking his hard muscular back over and over again, committing it to memory. I hoped it was the words I needed to hear from him.
"Usako." he said slightly distant. I began to worry. "I. I won't allow myself to feel for you when I know there is someone else." He sighed. My heart almost shattered.
"What do you want from me?" I cried out in a distressed manner.
"I don't know. I want. I want what's not mine" I almost heard a pain in his voice. "You have his ring, he has your love. I have your body, but your still not mine."
"Mamo-chan." I needed a real breather from all men at the moment.
While Mamoru dressed to leave, I called up the girls and told them it was an emergency that I meet them at my apartment now. They all said they would see me in 10 to 15 minutes.
"Usagi. Think about yourself. Go with your heart." He lightly kissed me on the cheek and exited my door.
"Mamo-chan." I sighed as he left.
I was suppose to meet Seiya in about an hour and I kind of knew what I had to do, but I still wasn't sure if I wanted to. Not even five minutes had passed since Mamoru left before a sound knock on my door.
I opened the door and was greeted with four pair of fiery eyes.
"Explain why we just say Mamoru exiting your apartment complex." I could tell she meant business.
Before answering I invited everyone in. We all sat down and I was the only one uncomfortable with the silence that had developed.
"Well." said Mina trying to push things along.
"Well. You see. It's like this." I stammered trying to find the right words but soon decided it was better to just say it. "I slept with Mamoru last night."
"WHAT?!?" came the unified cry from my friends.
"Wait, hold up" said Makoto trying to rationalize. "I want to know from the beginning what the hell is going on." With her statement came nods and murmurs of agreement. I slowly obliged.
I told them how my feelings from the party had developed. I told them about Mamoru and I kissing after he came to my job. About how much he showed he cared for me. I told them about the engagement. I told them about sleeping with Mamoru at his place and then again at mine.
There was silence throughout the apartment. I had only thirty minutes left before I was to meet up with Seiya. I called them for support, for advice.
"Stop staring and help me you guys!" I cried out.
"What the fuck do you want me to say, Usagi?" Rei screamed out at me. "I warned you. I told you to be careful. Look at this mess. You have a man who loves you. You are wearing his ring and you are sleeping with Mamoru! I'm not going to give you a medal!"
"You shut the fuck up Rei! What if I would have married Seiya and Mamoru would have come back and these feelings would have risen, huh? Then what? I find myself fortunate to feel this way right now you know! I could have waited for the water to run dry and be miserable. You don't understand. I care for Seiya. I love him in some sort of way. But Mamo- chan. I don't know. He makes me feel something that Seiya never did." Sorrow overcame me again that day. I was so angry, angry with them for not telling me what to do, angry with myself for not knowing.
"Calm down Usa." Ami said. "Obviously you're not ready for a commitment to Seiya, no matter how much you wanted it. However, I don't like your choice in the person who has brought such and uprising out of you. I can't say I approve. Seiya and Mamoru were, if not now, best friends. But sometimes that's how things work." She commented.
"I don't care what you guys think." I bit out.
"Then why are we here?" Makoto asked gently. "You do care, and we care about you. All we can do is give you our advice. It will ultimately be you who makes the decision. As a matter of fact I think you already know what you will do."
"Look Usa, we love you and will stand behind you no matter what you chose in life. We know you for who you are. Follow you heart, sweetie. Sometimes heartache will come from it, but you will find happiness at the end of the path." Mina wisely advised me.
"You guys." I started to cry once more at the wonderful friends I had. "I sleep with Mamoru one night and I am almost ready to give up every thing I worked for."
"Look, we love you. Just resolve this as soon as possible. You have our silence on the issue. We won't tell anyone." Ami told me as she stroked my hair.
I looked at the time and realized I was to meet Seiya in less than 15 minutes. I rushed around telling the girls of my meeting with Seiya and that I would meet them back at my place in about an hour or so. I ran out the door. I was determined to do what I felt was right in my heart.
I saw Seiya waiting patiently for me at 'our' both at the café. It pained me to walk towards him. I knew I was moments away from breaking his heart.
"Usa!" he rushed to me and gave me kiss. "How do you feel?" He had this hope in his eyes that was nipping at my consciousness.
"I feel fine, Seiya." I managed and gave him a small kiss on the cheek. He deserved so much better.
"Well anyhow, I took the liberty of ordering you a fudge and vanilla parfait." He smiled broadly at me. He knew that was my favorite, and I couldn't help but smile at how he knew so much about me. How he had taken the time and care to study me, to know me. Was I really willing to give that away?
I was. That is I was until I say Mamoru walk into the café with Beryl, his girlfriend, on his arm. She was beaming happily at him and leaned up to give him a kiss on the cheek. I felt a flare of hot, white, pure jealous go through me. But I wasn't his so I say anything to him about it. When he noticed Seiya and I he almost tried to leave back out of the café. He knew I was going to be there or at least I thought.
"Usagi!" shouted Beryl to me happily.
"Beryl! Hi how are you?" I feigned enthusiasm as the both of them approached Seiya and I table. Seiya got up and slid next to me and offered the now vacant seating to our unexpected guests, much to my dismay.
"Seiya, that's really not necessary, we were just stopping in for a snack."
"Of course it is!" Beryl said as she slid in across from me. Mamoru reluctantly sat down.
"I suppose you haven't heard the news, eh?" Seiya said proudly.
"News?" asked a knowing Mamoru.
"I propose to Usagi and she said yes!" He yanked my hand from underneath the table and beamed proudly as he pointed at the symbol of possession. I smiled slightly, avoiding eye contact with Mamoru.
"That's great man." Mamoru tried hard to act as if he was happy.
"Oh my! That is great Usagi." Beryl congratulated me happily. "Mamoru was actually telling me how he wanted to get out of town for a couple of weeks to possibly see his family, and wants to take me with him!"
My heart stopped. Words of how he said that he wouldn't give up his chance to have me or how he said he would never leave my side again popped in my head. Here I was about to break my engagement with a man who would devote his every moment to me for someone who was about to take his girlfriend out of town! I began to think that I was just used for pleasure and I felt like a whore. I betrayed Seiya. I was enraged. I wanted nothing but for Mamoru to get out of my face. That fucking bastard really had me going.
"How cool!" I put on my best face. I looked Mamoru boldly in the eyes. "I was just going to suggest some wedding dates to Seiya." I pulled Seiya close to me and kissed him full on the lips.
Mamoru eyes narrowed dangerously at me. "I am happy for you both. Well as you have heard, we are planning on going out of town. Maybe we'll catch you when we get back." He grabbed Beryl's waist and pulled her close while standing up.
"Well actually I was going to run past Usagi the idea of having a formal engagement party to announce our upcoming plans to wed. You're only going to be gone two weeks or so right? So I'll call you and give you a time and place." Seiya enthusiastically blurted out.
"Yeah we'll definitely be there!" said Beryl. Mamoru looked at her as if to curse her for her mouth.
"Yeah, I look forward to it. We're off. Later." He pulled Beryl along before she could open her mouth again.
We waved them off. I felt so much pain running through me at that moment. My heart wanted Mamoru, but obviously he didn't feel the same way. What could I do? I would just continue on the path that I had been going all along. "So Seiya. Any dates in mind?" I was going to try. I was going to be the wife he deserved. I would never speak of my infidelity to him. I would bury it in my heart along with anything else. I had made my choice. My heart ached; it wasn't the choice that it wanted.
Ok that was the end of this chapter. The story isn't quite over yet, almost. The question left here is did she make the right choice? Tell me what you think of my story. Any suggestions to make it better would be much appreciated. I think I may be doing a revision after I completely finish. Please review. ~Lady Imp
My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 7: Making the Right Choice
I laid there basking in the glory of his presence. He was sound asleep, slightly snoring. Never before had I felt so alive with Seiya. I was close to Seiya, but I felt one with Mamoru, something I hadn't realized was really there in our age of innocence.
There were so many different things between the two. Seiya lives for me and will do anything to keep me smiling, while Mamoru would show me how to live and to step outside of the circle. There was no trying with him. I was in love with the man whose arms surround me, and yet I belong to another. I was in love with the worst person possible, his best friend. I was in love with Mamoru.
I kissed him lightly on the lips and slid gently out of his arms. I headed towards my bathroom to take a hot relaxing shower. There was so much going on in my life at the moment that I wanted to just implode into nothingness. However I was oddly satisfied with the way things were going.
I prepared for a hot shower to soothe my slightly aching body from the excursions over the past twelve hours or so. I looked at myself long and hard in the mirror. I looked different. I looked happy. I smiled brightly and slid into the shower to let the warm water cascade down my hair and my body. The water was warm but my thoughts were on how much warmer I felt in Mamoru's arms.
I began to think of how hung up I used to be over him and finally I knew the reason why. I always cared for him, always loved him. The whole time he was with Beryl I loved him. The whole time with Seiya, I loved him. I realized I hated him for forgetting what we had as friends and just outright abandoning me because I found someone to show me the affection he gave to other girls. I was jealous, but I moved on, big time. Now here we are. I am engaged to the guy he set me up with and he was lying in my bed soundly sleeping.
Or so I thought. While holding my head under the streaming water lost in my own reverie, I felt a hand reach out and touch my shoulder. I jumped at first. Then I relaxed and leaned back onto the very familiar chest, a chest that was not the one from last night. I turned around a saw the concerned eyes of my fiancé.
"Seiya!" I gasped out. "I can explain-" I began trying to figure out how I can explain Mamoru lying naked in my bed.
"No need baby." He said to me tenderly stroking my face. "When I woke, I figured you had gone to class this morning and work. I stopped by your job at lunch, but Mr. Haruna said that you had called in sick."
"Ah, yeah, I'm not feeling to well at the moment." And I really wasn't. If he didn't see Mamoru laid out on my bed, then where the fuck had he gone.
"You should have told me! I would have taken care of you. I brought you some soup, some massaging oil. Usa. I love you so much. I'm so happy you will be my wife. You have really made me the happiest man in the world"
I felt like shit to say the least. I didn't deserve him or rather he didn't deserve the betrayal that was going on behind his back. "Look Seiya, I, uh, I don't know." I began. I needed to buy time. I kissed him softly and turned the showerhead off. The kiss felt so wrong. I felt like I had done Mamoru an injustice! But the only one being done injustice was Seiya. Without looking at him, I stepped out of the shower and headed towards my bed.
"Usagi, are you feeling alright?" Concern was weighing heavily through his voice.
"That's it Seiya.I don't know how I feel." I plopped on my bed and thought I heard a grunt. 'He couldn't be.' I thought nervously at the thought of where Mamoru was. 'He's under the damn bed!' This cannot be good. Seiya's nude form joined me on the bed.
"Honey, tell me what's wrong. Do you need anything?" his eyes were painful to look at. I tried to think of anything that would get him out and away from me for just a little while. He moved closer to me and whispered huskily in my ear. "Do you need me baby? Do you want me like last night." He was continually creeping closer to me until he was inches away from my lips. He closed any gap remaining and pressed his lips hard against mine.
I heard him moan and he pushed me back on the bed and proceeded to take his position above me. "Seiya-" I called out, but he had already silenced my would-be protest.
"I'll make you feel better." His breath was hot, his eyes intense. I couldn't stand it. I used all I had in me and pushed him off me hard. So hard that he landed on the floor with and umph! A thought quickly popped in my head that he wasn't the only one on my bedroom floor. Right next to him was probably Mamoru. "God damn it Usa. What was that for?!?" He groaned out. "Hey isn't this your engagement ring?" He asked me, as he was about to lift my blanket to reach for it.
I dived to the floor and straddled him. "It must have fallen off the dresser when I was going to take a shower." I quickly thought. I was really becoming a talented liar. I forced myself to softly stroke him and bend to give him a kiss. "You know what baby?" I said to him as I sat up and pulled him up. "Will you meet me at our café in about 2 hours?" I put on my best 'I love you' voice I could muster out.
"But I like where I am right now" He said wrapping his arms around me.
"God don't touch me!" I screamed out unintentionally. The room stilled and he just looked at me.
"You really are having a bad day, eh?" He asked as he slowly backed away from me and went to my bathroom to collect his clothing.
"Look Seiya, I'll see you at the café in a couple of hours, ok love?" I was really trying to not hurt him.
"Yeah baby, we'll do that." he said almost hurt. "I'll see you then. I love you baby, my future wife." Those words stung. He gave me a small peck on the cheek and finished dressing. Five more minutes later he was out the door.
I collapsed on my bed and began to cry. I can't believe the scandal I was allowing to go on in my life. I felt warm arms embrace me, and I melted into them not holding back anything.
"I didn't know he had a key." He simply stated.
"Mamo-chan, I'm so sorry. I'm so confused. I don't know what to do anymore." I cried into his chest hoping to find an answer to my ultimate question of what to do.
"Usako." he breathed into my ear tenderly. "I don't want you to hurt. I understand I had my chance with you and I completely ignored the fact. If anyone doesn't deserve anyone, it me not deserving you."
I looked into his eyes, seeking honesty in them. I was not let down. "Oh Mamo-chan, I lo-" He silenced me with a sweet tender soft kiss.
"Be careful who you say those words to." He said to me with a slight sternness in his voice. "They can make or break someone." He had an undecipherable look in his eyes. I was going to ask what he was getting at. I loved him and it would have been nice to return the words.
He turned me so that I was lying on my back and he was towering over me almost powerfully. It was not long before our bodies were entwined in a fit of intense, passionate, sacred lovemaking. The feeling was indescribable feeling of soaring. I felt a few tears shed from my eyes as I began to reach my climatic point.
"Oh. Mamo-chan. Oh god baby. please. I need this, I need you." And with those few words my body clamped down hard on him and I saw the white light called bliss.
"Usako. I. I." He had reached his climax and fell exhaustedly upon me. I showered his face with kisses. I held onto him as if my life depended upon it.
"You what?" I asked him after a long moment of silence and me stroking his hard muscular back over and over again, committing it to memory. I hoped it was the words I needed to hear from him.
"Usako." he said slightly distant. I began to worry. "I. I won't allow myself to feel for you when I know there is someone else." He sighed. My heart almost shattered.
"What do you want from me?" I cried out in a distressed manner.
"I don't know. I want. I want what's not mine" I almost heard a pain in his voice. "You have his ring, he has your love. I have your body, but your still not mine."
"Mamo-chan." I needed a real breather from all men at the moment.
While Mamoru dressed to leave, I called up the girls and told them it was an emergency that I meet them at my apartment now. They all said they would see me in 10 to 15 minutes.
"Usagi. Think about yourself. Go with your heart." He lightly kissed me on the cheek and exited my door.
"Mamo-chan." I sighed as he left.
I was suppose to meet Seiya in about an hour and I kind of knew what I had to do, but I still wasn't sure if I wanted to. Not even five minutes had passed since Mamoru left before a sound knock on my door.
I opened the door and was greeted with four pair of fiery eyes.
"Explain why we just say Mamoru exiting your apartment complex." I could tell she meant business.
Before answering I invited everyone in. We all sat down and I was the only one uncomfortable with the silence that had developed.
"Well." said Mina trying to push things along.
"Well. You see. It's like this." I stammered trying to find the right words but soon decided it was better to just say it. "I slept with Mamoru last night."
"WHAT?!?" came the unified cry from my friends.
"Wait, hold up" said Makoto trying to rationalize. "I want to know from the beginning what the hell is going on." With her statement came nods and murmurs of agreement. I slowly obliged.
I told them how my feelings from the party had developed. I told them about Mamoru and I kissing after he came to my job. About how much he showed he cared for me. I told them about the engagement. I told them about sleeping with Mamoru at his place and then again at mine.
There was silence throughout the apartment. I had only thirty minutes left before I was to meet up with Seiya. I called them for support, for advice.
"Stop staring and help me you guys!" I cried out.
"What the fuck do you want me to say, Usagi?" Rei screamed out at me. "I warned you. I told you to be careful. Look at this mess. You have a man who loves you. You are wearing his ring and you are sleeping with Mamoru! I'm not going to give you a medal!"
"You shut the fuck up Rei! What if I would have married Seiya and Mamoru would have come back and these feelings would have risen, huh? Then what? I find myself fortunate to feel this way right now you know! I could have waited for the water to run dry and be miserable. You don't understand. I care for Seiya. I love him in some sort of way. But Mamo- chan. I don't know. He makes me feel something that Seiya never did." Sorrow overcame me again that day. I was so angry, angry with them for not telling me what to do, angry with myself for not knowing.
"Calm down Usa." Ami said. "Obviously you're not ready for a commitment to Seiya, no matter how much you wanted it. However, I don't like your choice in the person who has brought such and uprising out of you. I can't say I approve. Seiya and Mamoru were, if not now, best friends. But sometimes that's how things work." She commented.
"I don't care what you guys think." I bit out.
"Then why are we here?" Makoto asked gently. "You do care, and we care about you. All we can do is give you our advice. It will ultimately be you who makes the decision. As a matter of fact I think you already know what you will do."
"Look Usa, we love you and will stand behind you no matter what you chose in life. We know you for who you are. Follow you heart, sweetie. Sometimes heartache will come from it, but you will find happiness at the end of the path." Mina wisely advised me.
"You guys." I started to cry once more at the wonderful friends I had. "I sleep with Mamoru one night and I am almost ready to give up every thing I worked for."
"Look, we love you. Just resolve this as soon as possible. You have our silence on the issue. We won't tell anyone." Ami told me as she stroked my hair.
I looked at the time and realized I was to meet Seiya in less than 15 minutes. I rushed around telling the girls of my meeting with Seiya and that I would meet them back at my place in about an hour or so. I ran out the door. I was determined to do what I felt was right in my heart.
I saw Seiya waiting patiently for me at 'our' both at the café. It pained me to walk towards him. I knew I was moments away from breaking his heart.
"Usa!" he rushed to me and gave me kiss. "How do you feel?" He had this hope in his eyes that was nipping at my consciousness.
"I feel fine, Seiya." I managed and gave him a small kiss on the cheek. He deserved so much better.
"Well anyhow, I took the liberty of ordering you a fudge and vanilla parfait." He smiled broadly at me. He knew that was my favorite, and I couldn't help but smile at how he knew so much about me. How he had taken the time and care to study me, to know me. Was I really willing to give that away?
I was. That is I was until I say Mamoru walk into the café with Beryl, his girlfriend, on his arm. She was beaming happily at him and leaned up to give him a kiss on the cheek. I felt a flare of hot, white, pure jealous go through me. But I wasn't his so I say anything to him about it. When he noticed Seiya and I he almost tried to leave back out of the café. He knew I was going to be there or at least I thought.
"Usagi!" shouted Beryl to me happily.
"Beryl! Hi how are you?" I feigned enthusiasm as the both of them approached Seiya and I table. Seiya got up and slid next to me and offered the now vacant seating to our unexpected guests, much to my dismay.
"Seiya, that's really not necessary, we were just stopping in for a snack."
"Of course it is!" Beryl said as she slid in across from me. Mamoru reluctantly sat down.
"I suppose you haven't heard the news, eh?" Seiya said proudly.
"News?" asked a knowing Mamoru.
"I propose to Usagi and she said yes!" He yanked my hand from underneath the table and beamed proudly as he pointed at the symbol of possession. I smiled slightly, avoiding eye contact with Mamoru.
"That's great man." Mamoru tried hard to act as if he was happy.
"Oh my! That is great Usagi." Beryl congratulated me happily. "Mamoru was actually telling me how he wanted to get out of town for a couple of weeks to possibly see his family, and wants to take me with him!"
My heart stopped. Words of how he said that he wouldn't give up his chance to have me or how he said he would never leave my side again popped in my head. Here I was about to break my engagement with a man who would devote his every moment to me for someone who was about to take his girlfriend out of town! I began to think that I was just used for pleasure and I felt like a whore. I betrayed Seiya. I was enraged. I wanted nothing but for Mamoru to get out of my face. That fucking bastard really had me going.
"How cool!" I put on my best face. I looked Mamoru boldly in the eyes. "I was just going to suggest some wedding dates to Seiya." I pulled Seiya close to me and kissed him full on the lips.
Mamoru eyes narrowed dangerously at me. "I am happy for you both. Well as you have heard, we are planning on going out of town. Maybe we'll catch you when we get back." He grabbed Beryl's waist and pulled her close while standing up.
"Well actually I was going to run past Usagi the idea of having a formal engagement party to announce our upcoming plans to wed. You're only going to be gone two weeks or so right? So I'll call you and give you a time and place." Seiya enthusiastically blurted out.
"Yeah we'll definitely be there!" said Beryl. Mamoru looked at her as if to curse her for her mouth.
"Yeah, I look forward to it. We're off. Later." He pulled Beryl along before she could open her mouth again.
We waved them off. I felt so much pain running through me at that moment. My heart wanted Mamoru, but obviously he didn't feel the same way. What could I do? I would just continue on the path that I had been going all along. "So Seiya. Any dates in mind?" I was going to try. I was going to be the wife he deserved. I would never speak of my infidelity to him. I would bury it in my heart along with anything else. I had made my choice. My heart ached; it wasn't the choice that it wanted.
Ok that was the end of this chapter. The story isn't quite over yet, almost. The question left here is did she make the right choice? Tell me what you think of my story. Any suggestions to make it better would be much appreciated. I think I may be doing a revision after I completely finish. Please review. ~Lady Imp