Hey all, another chapter here. For all of you who are just waiting for the
complete outcome of who she's going to end up with, it's not too far off.
I have other ideas for stories that I want to post but I'm going to finish
this first. Anyhow THANK YOU EVERYONE who has reviewed. It really does
mean a lot, now on with the story.
My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 8: Walking Away
I stood outside my apartment door not wanting to face my friends who were no doubt waiting for the outcome of my meeting with Seiya. Any thoughts of Mamoru were aching. His walking into the café with Beryl, and her smile. it all hurt too much. I sighed once more and opened my apartment door.
As I expected, four eyes shot up to me with questioning looks.
"November 1st" I said as I sat down on the couch.
"What are you talking about Usa?" Asked Rei worriedly.
"That's." I felt a tear shed from my eyes. I sighed and composed myself once more. "That's my wedding date."
"What?!?" Mina exclaimed. "What about going with your heart?"
"That died when Mamoru walked into the café with Beryl. I feel so, I just don't know."
"Son of a bitch!" Makoto said to herself. I could see her fists clenching.
"Beryl said they were going to see his parents and... and fuck what was I thinking? I mean why Mamoru would want me. He didn't want me then, and now I'm a fool even more for thinking he wanted me now. He was cruel to me for so many years. I'm a fucking idiot". Defeat was evident throughout my voice.
"Usagi, you are worth more than what you are putting out right now." Ami said gently. "You are beautiful and smart."
I scoffed. If I were so smart, I would not be going through my current problems. I sat there silently. Just thinking while the girls talked about or rather tried to convince me how Mamoru wasn't any good for me to begin with and that Seiya was the man for me. A knock on my door stopped all conversation, and Rei stood up to go answer.
"What the hell you want?" I heard Rei greet the visitor at my door.
"I want to talk to Usagi." I heard a familiar voice state.
"I don't think you deserve to talk to her." Rei bit at the voice. "I think you should go to hell."
"I think you should move before I make you Rei." His voice was slightly escalating. Rei ignored him.
"Where is your sweet girlfriend Beryl? You know you sure hop around a lot." Rei said.
"Move the fuck out of my way Hino. You obviously have only one side to the story. I want to talk to Usagi and I want to talk to her now!" Mamoru pushed Rei out of the doorway and came face to face with a fuming Makoto.
"Look here Mamoru, you can't just."
"Move" was his simple command as he made eye contact with me. "Usagi, I want to talk to you. Please send your friends away."
"Who do you think you are Mamoru? How dare you come to my place and demand things of me!"
"Because we need to talk about today!" He shouted at me.
"Oh what part, the sex or you taking Beryl to meet your parents? Oh no, no, how about my fucking wedding date? Would you like an invitation? Honorable mention? Favored guest?" I was on a roll. I didn't fucking care about anything. I was hurt. My heart was falling apart, and I was going to ensure he felt it. During my complete rant, I scarcely noticed how Mamoru reached me in five seconds and had me penned against a wall.
"Make-them-leave NOW Usagi!" His voice was dangerously low and his eyes bored into mine with such intensity that I obeyed.
Without looking away from the man who had me up against the wall literally I spoke to my friends. "You guys leave, I can handle this."
"But Usagi-" Makoto began.
"You heard her!" Mamoru shouted.
"Was I fucking talking to you Mamoru?" Makoto was making her way over to me.
"NO!" I shouted. Just leave. I'll...I'll call you in a bit." I muttered. I was baffled. Why is it that I always succumb to his madness?
I heard mutters and mumbles from my friends as they left my apartment, and finally the door shut. I boldly pushed Mamoru off of me.
"I don't fucking get you Usagi. You love me this morning and now you- "
"HA! You don't fucking get me? I don't fucking get you. You come into the café that you know Seiya and I hang at with Beryl on your arm after I fucking expressed my heart to you!" I was screaming at the top of my lungs.
"How the hell was I suppose to know that was 'your' café! I only care for Beryl to a certain extent! You know I do have to keep 'our secret' because you don't want anyone to find out about it. But maybe I should just tell the world, you fucking told all your friends!" He once again had me up against the wall.
"They are my friends! They were actually encouraging me to go with my heart, and my heart said you. My heart has always said you! Fuck you Mamoru! You only care about yourself. You hooked Seiya and me up to bide you time with other women! But you had no idea that it would become this big did you? You didn't think we'd grow to love each other? I-"
"SHUT UP USAKO-"
"That's Usagi, Mamoru, get it right." I was beginning to get as low and cold as he was.
"I'll call you what the fuck I want!"
"The hell you will!"
"Bitch!"
Everything bad that had ever come of Mamoru and I flooded to my mind. The morning ordeal to the complete destruction of our friendship over a man he set me up with rushed through my brain. My eyes turned from the blue to red. My hand came up in the air. It reached all the way back and with full force connected with Mamoru's face. "If being a bitch means independency, not putting up with shit, not being an idiot then make me a fucking shirt with the word imprinted on it because I am the fucking definition of it!"
He just stared at me in shock. "Usako, no Usagi, I loved you from the moment I ever met you. We were young. I didn't want to feel that way about anyone. It was new. I came back for more than anything to find the friendship I left behind in you. But I found that I still loved you, more intensely than before. It's over Usagi. I'm walking away forever."
His eyes were connected with mine the whole time. I knew it was all true. I felt it in my soul. I felt it in all that was around me. It flowed in and out of me. But I was too stubborn to speak, too stubborn to say I wanted him to stay. The seconds passed as if he were waiting for me to say something. And suddenly I felt his fist punch into the wall next to my head. He turned and walked out of my apartment and slammed the door. The sound was that of finalization.
A tear slid down my face, then another, and another. I looked heavenward for any kind of answer, but all that was there was silence. I slid down the wall slowly. I began to cry harder and rolled myself into a ball. After what seemed like hours of crying I fell asleep right were he had left me, right were everything came to an end.
"Mamo-chan..I love you too." were the last words to roll off my lips.
The end is drawing near. Not more than 3 chapters left if that many. Please review and thank you for reading this far. ~Lady Imp
My Boyfriend's Friend
Chapter 8: Walking Away
I stood outside my apartment door not wanting to face my friends who were no doubt waiting for the outcome of my meeting with Seiya. Any thoughts of Mamoru were aching. His walking into the café with Beryl, and her smile. it all hurt too much. I sighed once more and opened my apartment door.
As I expected, four eyes shot up to me with questioning looks.
"November 1st" I said as I sat down on the couch.
"What are you talking about Usa?" Asked Rei worriedly.
"That's." I felt a tear shed from my eyes. I sighed and composed myself once more. "That's my wedding date."
"What?!?" Mina exclaimed. "What about going with your heart?"
"That died when Mamoru walked into the café with Beryl. I feel so, I just don't know."
"Son of a bitch!" Makoto said to herself. I could see her fists clenching.
"Beryl said they were going to see his parents and... and fuck what was I thinking? I mean why Mamoru would want me. He didn't want me then, and now I'm a fool even more for thinking he wanted me now. He was cruel to me for so many years. I'm a fucking idiot". Defeat was evident throughout my voice.
"Usagi, you are worth more than what you are putting out right now." Ami said gently. "You are beautiful and smart."
I scoffed. If I were so smart, I would not be going through my current problems. I sat there silently. Just thinking while the girls talked about or rather tried to convince me how Mamoru wasn't any good for me to begin with and that Seiya was the man for me. A knock on my door stopped all conversation, and Rei stood up to go answer.
"What the hell you want?" I heard Rei greet the visitor at my door.
"I want to talk to Usagi." I heard a familiar voice state.
"I don't think you deserve to talk to her." Rei bit at the voice. "I think you should go to hell."
"I think you should move before I make you Rei." His voice was slightly escalating. Rei ignored him.
"Where is your sweet girlfriend Beryl? You know you sure hop around a lot." Rei said.
"Move the fuck out of my way Hino. You obviously have only one side to the story. I want to talk to Usagi and I want to talk to her now!" Mamoru pushed Rei out of the doorway and came face to face with a fuming Makoto.
"Look here Mamoru, you can't just."
"Move" was his simple command as he made eye contact with me. "Usagi, I want to talk to you. Please send your friends away."
"Who do you think you are Mamoru? How dare you come to my place and demand things of me!"
"Because we need to talk about today!" He shouted at me.
"Oh what part, the sex or you taking Beryl to meet your parents? Oh no, no, how about my fucking wedding date? Would you like an invitation? Honorable mention? Favored guest?" I was on a roll. I didn't fucking care about anything. I was hurt. My heart was falling apart, and I was going to ensure he felt it. During my complete rant, I scarcely noticed how Mamoru reached me in five seconds and had me penned against a wall.
"Make-them-leave NOW Usagi!" His voice was dangerously low and his eyes bored into mine with such intensity that I obeyed.
Without looking away from the man who had me up against the wall literally I spoke to my friends. "You guys leave, I can handle this."
"But Usagi-" Makoto began.
"You heard her!" Mamoru shouted.
"Was I fucking talking to you Mamoru?" Makoto was making her way over to me.
"NO!" I shouted. Just leave. I'll...I'll call you in a bit." I muttered. I was baffled. Why is it that I always succumb to his madness?
I heard mutters and mumbles from my friends as they left my apartment, and finally the door shut. I boldly pushed Mamoru off of me.
"I don't fucking get you Usagi. You love me this morning and now you- "
"HA! You don't fucking get me? I don't fucking get you. You come into the café that you know Seiya and I hang at with Beryl on your arm after I fucking expressed my heart to you!" I was screaming at the top of my lungs.
"How the hell was I suppose to know that was 'your' café! I only care for Beryl to a certain extent! You know I do have to keep 'our secret' because you don't want anyone to find out about it. But maybe I should just tell the world, you fucking told all your friends!" He once again had me up against the wall.
"They are my friends! They were actually encouraging me to go with my heart, and my heart said you. My heart has always said you! Fuck you Mamoru! You only care about yourself. You hooked Seiya and me up to bide you time with other women! But you had no idea that it would become this big did you? You didn't think we'd grow to love each other? I-"
"SHUT UP USAKO-"
"That's Usagi, Mamoru, get it right." I was beginning to get as low and cold as he was.
"I'll call you what the fuck I want!"
"The hell you will!"
"Bitch!"
Everything bad that had ever come of Mamoru and I flooded to my mind. The morning ordeal to the complete destruction of our friendship over a man he set me up with rushed through my brain. My eyes turned from the blue to red. My hand came up in the air. It reached all the way back and with full force connected with Mamoru's face. "If being a bitch means independency, not putting up with shit, not being an idiot then make me a fucking shirt with the word imprinted on it because I am the fucking definition of it!"
He just stared at me in shock. "Usako, no Usagi, I loved you from the moment I ever met you. We were young. I didn't want to feel that way about anyone. It was new. I came back for more than anything to find the friendship I left behind in you. But I found that I still loved you, more intensely than before. It's over Usagi. I'm walking away forever."
His eyes were connected with mine the whole time. I knew it was all true. I felt it in my soul. I felt it in all that was around me. It flowed in and out of me. But I was too stubborn to speak, too stubborn to say I wanted him to stay. The seconds passed as if he were waiting for me to say something. And suddenly I felt his fist punch into the wall next to my head. He turned and walked out of my apartment and slammed the door. The sound was that of finalization.
A tear slid down my face, then another, and another. I looked heavenward for any kind of answer, but all that was there was silence. I slid down the wall slowly. I began to cry harder and rolled myself into a ball. After what seemed like hours of crying I fell asleep right were he had left me, right were everything came to an end.
"Mamo-chan..I love you too." were the last words to roll off my lips.
The end is drawing near. Not more than 3 chapters left if that many. Please review and thank you for reading this far. ~Lady Imp