A Father's Love
By Snarry
Rating: R
Warning: Slash no spoilers, AU and incest
Summary: I am a typical 17-year old boy, yet I have a dark secret. I'm in love, but in love with Him. | I opened my eyes, looking into James Potter's hazel ones. God, how can I be in love with my own father? |
Chapter 1: Forbidden fruit at its Finest
We were lying on the couch. God, I can smell his hair. Mum won't be home until dawn.
'Dad?'
'Yes, love?' God, does he know what he is doing to me?
'It's nothing.' I said quickly. What I was going to ask him would make him disgusted, I know.
He smiled, 'Son, you can tell me anything.'
I try not to cringe when he calls me 'son'.
I take a deep breath. 'Would you hate me if-if I was. gay?' I scooted away from him, closing my eyes.
'No! Why would I hate you?' He asked, sounding hurt.
I hesitate. 'Well, um, you're straight.'
'Harry, I my still be with your mum, but that does not make me 100% straight.'
I opened my eyes, looking into James Potter's hazel ones. God, how can I be in love with my own father?
He suddenly wrapped his arms around me. I try my best not to melt in his arms, but I can't help it. Somehow, this is meant to be, even if it illegal.
'Harry, I-I don't know how to say this but, um, I have feelings towards you that are really..' He breaks off, untangling his arms from my waist.
I think I know what he means. I quickly press my lips against his. He stiffens at first the timidly runs his tongue across the top of my lip. He re-wraps his arms around me. I tangle my fingers in hair that is so like mine. I can't help it.
He pulls his lips from mine; I am thinking the worst.
I think he saw my hurt eyes, but that I will never know.
'Harry, this is happening too fast. Don't worry, I'm not going to ah, stand you up or anything, but Lily will be home soon.'
'I-I love you.' I murmur.
He smiles, 'I love you too.'
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We were still on the couch when mum came home, but we were not in an intimate position, now.
We were watching the telly, a muggle thing that mum bought us.
She looked hassled. 'Honey, I need to talk to you,' she said to my love.
He kissed the top of my head, so innocently. She never suspected a thing.
And they closed the door to their bedroom and I feel a surge of jealousy. I can't believe I'm mad with my mother, after all they are married.
They talk for a long time, so long in fact that I fell asleep.
His yelling woke me up.
'What do you mean? How could you leave me for LUPIN?'
I faced the back off the couch, tears falling freely. He never wanted me.
'James, I just think that we should get a divorce.'
His yelling again muffled my cries.
'Fine, leave, Lily! Just think of the family that you are ruining! How could you leave me for one of my best friends?'
I ran to my room, they do not notice my tear-stained face or me.
He never wanted me.
That thought raced through my head as I grabbed my broom and flew out the window. Sirius will help me.
Part 2: Sirius Black
I knocked on his door to his flat.
The one person that I would never see here opened the door.
Snape.
'Potter, what do you want?'
Gods, I am at my own godfather's house and he can not keep in mind that.
I glare at him, but it doesn't effect him. I think it is the tearstains.
'I need to speak to Sirius,' I grind out between clenched teeth.
'Wait here, I'll get him.'
Does he know how cold it is? It's in the middle of December and in England! I'm only in Pyjamas!
When Sirius got to the door, I'm blue and my glasses are frosted and my teeth are chattering.
'What's up kiddo?' He smiles as if I'm not here, getting frostbite because Snape is here and he has no manners.
'N-nothing,' I say, teeth chattering.
He looks at me as if I crawled out of nowhere. My soul-racking cough brings him into a right state of mind.
'Who made you stay out here?' he asks as he showed me into his sitting room.
'Snape,' I manage to cough out.
'Se-Snape?' he asked, looking puzzled.
I nod, catching his mistake. 'You know, the greasy git with no manners? The one who let me get frostbite?' I know that if he is not 'involved' with Snape, Severus Snape is a dead man.
He didn't respond.
'Sirius! Mum-she-she is leaving Dad!'
Sirius jumped up and pushed my on a couch. He waved his wand and a blanket flew out of his bedroom and on to my lap.
He looked at me with his big blue eyes. 'What do you mean?'
I look down. 'I heard them fighting. Mum said that she doesn't live Dad and she is going to file a divorce and go with Lupin.' I said in a rush.
He swore. 'I can't believe what Lupin did! He broke up your family.'
I nodded. 'Sirius, can I stay with you?'
He thought it over. 'But what about James?'
I bit my lip. 'He doesn't need me. What he needs is a vacation or something! God, you should have heard his yelling!'
Sirius let out his bark-like laugh, but laughter was missing in his eyes. 'You can stay in the extra bedroom across mine.'
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I woke up to moans and yelling. I pulled the blankets over my head. It seems as if Sirius and Snape found some way to entertain themselves.
'You like that, baby?'
'Harder Siri!'
'Oooh..that hard?'
I got up and cast a silencing charm around my room since I am old enough to do magic. I quickly wiped tears from my eyes as I heard someone knock on my window.
It was dad.
I got up blushing (I was only in my boxers) and opened the window.
'Dad?'
He crawled through it and hugged me. I flinched away from him. 'What do you want, Dad?'
He looked hurt. 'Harry, I'm sorry. I never meant to be mean earlier today, but I never thought that you mum would leave me for Lupin.'
I looked down as silent tears streamed down my face.
'Harry, I'm sorry about kissing you. It was wrong and you and I could get in trouble for it.' He said as if that was the reason I was crying.
I can't believe that I forgot about that!
He gently lifted my face up, pressing his lips against mine. When I cautiously flicked my tongue in his mouth, he flinched and jumped back.
'Oh god Harry, I'm so sorry!'
I wrapped an arm around his broad shoulders. 'Please, don't be sorry. I want you.'
He bit his lip. 'But Harry, I'm twice your age and I'm your father!'
Tears still streamed down my face. 'Do you want me? If I were your age and not your son?'
He wiped a tear of with his rough thumb. 'Of course I would.'
'Can't we run away? Somewhere no one knows us?'
He thought about it. A million ideas flickered in his glasses, glasses that are too much like mine.
'Please,' I begged, 'We have no where else to go. We could move to muggle London.'
He kissed me. 'I'll think about it. Do you mind sharing a bed?'
I blushed.
He laughed. 'Not that way, love!'
'Ok,' I said and we crawled in bed.
'HARDER!'
Dad looked at me funny.
'Oh, the silencing charms have worn off. It looks like Sirius and Snape are having fun!'
He laughed again. ''Night Love.'
'Goodnight. I love you.'
'And I love you.'
By Snarry
Rating: R
Warning: Slash no spoilers, AU and incest
Summary: I am a typical 17-year old boy, yet I have a dark secret. I'm in love, but in love with Him. | I opened my eyes, looking into James Potter's hazel ones. God, how can I be in love with my own father? |
Chapter 1: Forbidden fruit at its Finest
We were lying on the couch. God, I can smell his hair. Mum won't be home until dawn.
'Dad?'
'Yes, love?' God, does he know what he is doing to me?
'It's nothing.' I said quickly. What I was going to ask him would make him disgusted, I know.
He smiled, 'Son, you can tell me anything.'
I try not to cringe when he calls me 'son'.
I take a deep breath. 'Would you hate me if-if I was. gay?' I scooted away from him, closing my eyes.
'No! Why would I hate you?' He asked, sounding hurt.
I hesitate. 'Well, um, you're straight.'
'Harry, I my still be with your mum, but that does not make me 100% straight.'
I opened my eyes, looking into James Potter's hazel ones. God, how can I be in love with my own father?
He suddenly wrapped his arms around me. I try my best not to melt in his arms, but I can't help it. Somehow, this is meant to be, even if it illegal.
'Harry, I-I don't know how to say this but, um, I have feelings towards you that are really..' He breaks off, untangling his arms from my waist.
I think I know what he means. I quickly press my lips against his. He stiffens at first the timidly runs his tongue across the top of my lip. He re-wraps his arms around me. I tangle my fingers in hair that is so like mine. I can't help it.
He pulls his lips from mine; I am thinking the worst.
I think he saw my hurt eyes, but that I will never know.
'Harry, this is happening too fast. Don't worry, I'm not going to ah, stand you up or anything, but Lily will be home soon.'
'I-I love you.' I murmur.
He smiles, 'I love you too.'
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We were still on the couch when mum came home, but we were not in an intimate position, now.
We were watching the telly, a muggle thing that mum bought us.
She looked hassled. 'Honey, I need to talk to you,' she said to my love.
He kissed the top of my head, so innocently. She never suspected a thing.
And they closed the door to their bedroom and I feel a surge of jealousy. I can't believe I'm mad with my mother, after all they are married.
They talk for a long time, so long in fact that I fell asleep.
His yelling woke me up.
'What do you mean? How could you leave me for LUPIN?'
I faced the back off the couch, tears falling freely. He never wanted me.
'James, I just think that we should get a divorce.'
His yelling again muffled my cries.
'Fine, leave, Lily! Just think of the family that you are ruining! How could you leave me for one of my best friends?'
I ran to my room, they do not notice my tear-stained face or me.
He never wanted me.
That thought raced through my head as I grabbed my broom and flew out the window. Sirius will help me.
Part 2: Sirius Black
I knocked on his door to his flat.
The one person that I would never see here opened the door.
Snape.
'Potter, what do you want?'
Gods, I am at my own godfather's house and he can not keep in mind that.
I glare at him, but it doesn't effect him. I think it is the tearstains.
'I need to speak to Sirius,' I grind out between clenched teeth.
'Wait here, I'll get him.'
Does he know how cold it is? It's in the middle of December and in England! I'm only in Pyjamas!
When Sirius got to the door, I'm blue and my glasses are frosted and my teeth are chattering.
'What's up kiddo?' He smiles as if I'm not here, getting frostbite because Snape is here and he has no manners.
'N-nothing,' I say, teeth chattering.
He looks at me as if I crawled out of nowhere. My soul-racking cough brings him into a right state of mind.
'Who made you stay out here?' he asks as he showed me into his sitting room.
'Snape,' I manage to cough out.
'Se-Snape?' he asked, looking puzzled.
I nod, catching his mistake. 'You know, the greasy git with no manners? The one who let me get frostbite?' I know that if he is not 'involved' with Snape, Severus Snape is a dead man.
He didn't respond.
'Sirius! Mum-she-she is leaving Dad!'
Sirius jumped up and pushed my on a couch. He waved his wand and a blanket flew out of his bedroom and on to my lap.
He looked at me with his big blue eyes. 'What do you mean?'
I look down. 'I heard them fighting. Mum said that she doesn't live Dad and she is going to file a divorce and go with Lupin.' I said in a rush.
He swore. 'I can't believe what Lupin did! He broke up your family.'
I nodded. 'Sirius, can I stay with you?'
He thought it over. 'But what about James?'
I bit my lip. 'He doesn't need me. What he needs is a vacation or something! God, you should have heard his yelling!'
Sirius let out his bark-like laugh, but laughter was missing in his eyes. 'You can stay in the extra bedroom across mine.'
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I woke up to moans and yelling. I pulled the blankets over my head. It seems as if Sirius and Snape found some way to entertain themselves.
'You like that, baby?'
'Harder Siri!'
'Oooh..that hard?'
I got up and cast a silencing charm around my room since I am old enough to do magic. I quickly wiped tears from my eyes as I heard someone knock on my window.
It was dad.
I got up blushing (I was only in my boxers) and opened the window.
'Dad?'
He crawled through it and hugged me. I flinched away from him. 'What do you want, Dad?'
He looked hurt. 'Harry, I'm sorry. I never meant to be mean earlier today, but I never thought that you mum would leave me for Lupin.'
I looked down as silent tears streamed down my face.
'Harry, I'm sorry about kissing you. It was wrong and you and I could get in trouble for it.' He said as if that was the reason I was crying.
I can't believe that I forgot about that!
He gently lifted my face up, pressing his lips against mine. When I cautiously flicked my tongue in his mouth, he flinched and jumped back.
'Oh god Harry, I'm so sorry!'
I wrapped an arm around his broad shoulders. 'Please, don't be sorry. I want you.'
He bit his lip. 'But Harry, I'm twice your age and I'm your father!'
Tears still streamed down my face. 'Do you want me? If I were your age and not your son?'
He wiped a tear of with his rough thumb. 'Of course I would.'
'Can't we run away? Somewhere no one knows us?'
He thought about it. A million ideas flickered in his glasses, glasses that are too much like mine.
'Please,' I begged, 'We have no where else to go. We could move to muggle London.'
He kissed me. 'I'll think about it. Do you mind sharing a bed?'
I blushed.
He laughed. 'Not that way, love!'
'Ok,' I said and we crawled in bed.
'HARDER!'
Dad looked at me funny.
'Oh, the silencing charms have worn off. It looks like Sirius and Snape are having fun!'
He laughed again. ''Night Love.'
'Goodnight. I love you.'
'And I love you.'