Chapter 32
Belle: Shawn just hold on let me put her to bed. You are obviously not going to stop baggering me anytime soon and she needs to go to sleep.
Belle walked back into the other room and laid Zariana in her crib and sobbed silently. Her heart said to forgive Shawn when she looked into her baby girl's big brown eyes. But her mind and her pride won't let him have another chance to make a fool of her. Belle walked back into the room ready to face Shawn. But found him sound asleep on one of the beds.
Belle threw a cover over him and went to take a shower. Brady and Philip called and asked her if it would be okay if they didn't come home tonight they were going to stay in a hotel room with their girlfriends. Belle didn't want to make everyone else miserable so she said it was fine. Belle checked to make sure Shawn was covered up and then went in the other room to sleep there so she could get up with Zariana.
Several hours later, Belle woke up to the sounds of Zariana screaming. She got up and picked her up and began rocking her. Zariana needed a diaper change and a bottle. Belle walked out into the room where Shawn was sleeping to get the bottle. She noticed Shawn was smiling in his sleep.
Belle: Zariana, your daddy is so sexy. I love him so much but I just can't let him back in my life. I'm too scared of getting hurt again. I know he loves you and you deserve to have both a mother and a father with you full time and I'm sorry that you won't be getting that. But even though we aren't together, I want you to know that I love your daddy so much.
As Belle talked to Zariana, she had no idea that Shawn was actually awake and hearing everything she said. She sat down in the rocking chair and fed Zariana. Shawn rolled over and opened his eyes.
Shawn: Want me to help?
Belle: Shawn, what are you doing awake? We didn't mean to wake you up.
Shawn: You didn't wake me up. Actually, Zariana did when she started screaming. I heard her.
Belle: She should be back to sleep in a few minutes. You can go back to sleep too.
Shawn: I heard what you said, Belle. I know you still love me. And I love you too. Will you please forgive me and give me another chance?
Belle: I am sorry but you didn't have faith in me when I left. You didn't have faith in our love. Chloe and Mimi never gave up on my brothers. Chloe told me that she told you time and time again that we were coming back.
Shawn: Belle I don't know why I didn't trust our love.
Belle: Shawn there is only one explanation for that you never loved me as much as I loved you.
Shawn: Belle that isn't true.
Belle: Shawn I need some air I am going to take a drive can I use your car?
Shawn: Belle it is awful late are you sure that you need to leave.
Belle: Shawn I need to leave before I say something I don't mean.
Shawn: Would you like me to stay with Zariana?
Belle handed Zariana to Shawn.
Belle: I will be back in a few minutes. I just need to clear my head. She is sleeping again so she will probably stay asleep until I come back.
Belle: Shawn just hold on let me put her to bed. You are obviously not going to stop baggering me anytime soon and she needs to go to sleep.
Belle walked back into the other room and laid Zariana in her crib and sobbed silently. Her heart said to forgive Shawn when she looked into her baby girl's big brown eyes. But her mind and her pride won't let him have another chance to make a fool of her. Belle walked back into the room ready to face Shawn. But found him sound asleep on one of the beds.
Belle threw a cover over him and went to take a shower. Brady and Philip called and asked her if it would be okay if they didn't come home tonight they were going to stay in a hotel room with their girlfriends. Belle didn't want to make everyone else miserable so she said it was fine. Belle checked to make sure Shawn was covered up and then went in the other room to sleep there so she could get up with Zariana.
Several hours later, Belle woke up to the sounds of Zariana screaming. She got up and picked her up and began rocking her. Zariana needed a diaper change and a bottle. Belle walked out into the room where Shawn was sleeping to get the bottle. She noticed Shawn was smiling in his sleep.
Belle: Zariana, your daddy is so sexy. I love him so much but I just can't let him back in my life. I'm too scared of getting hurt again. I know he loves you and you deserve to have both a mother and a father with you full time and I'm sorry that you won't be getting that. But even though we aren't together, I want you to know that I love your daddy so much.
As Belle talked to Zariana, she had no idea that Shawn was actually awake and hearing everything she said. She sat down in the rocking chair and fed Zariana. Shawn rolled over and opened his eyes.
Shawn: Want me to help?
Belle: Shawn, what are you doing awake? We didn't mean to wake you up.
Shawn: You didn't wake me up. Actually, Zariana did when she started screaming. I heard her.
Belle: She should be back to sleep in a few minutes. You can go back to sleep too.
Shawn: I heard what you said, Belle. I know you still love me. And I love you too. Will you please forgive me and give me another chance?
Belle: I am sorry but you didn't have faith in me when I left. You didn't have faith in our love. Chloe and Mimi never gave up on my brothers. Chloe told me that she told you time and time again that we were coming back.
Shawn: Belle I don't know why I didn't trust our love.
Belle: Shawn there is only one explanation for that you never loved me as much as I loved you.
Shawn: Belle that isn't true.
Belle: Shawn I need some air I am going to take a drive can I use your car?
Shawn: Belle it is awful late are you sure that you need to leave.
Belle: Shawn I need to leave before I say something I don't mean.
Shawn: Would you like me to stay with Zariana?
Belle handed Zariana to Shawn.
Belle: I will be back in a few minutes. I just need to clear my head. She is sleeping again so she will probably stay asleep until I come back.