Crusty's Alert: Phew! After three chapters of flashbacks, finally we got to see the present (but flashback still dominates this chapter).
I guess many of you will experience an anti-climax while you're reading this chapter due to the fifth chapter. But those flashbacks on the previous chapters had reached their goal of existence, and actually this chapter holds the key of the plot of this fiction. And this is how I wanted this chapter to be.
Well. Enough with the babble, I hope I didn't spoil your appetite, guys.
Was It Something I said?
Sakuragi sighed and leaned his head on the fences of the rooftop.
Damned! Damned! Damned! Where the hell is he!!?
Sakuragi felt like he has been waiting for years but Rukawa hasn't shown up yet. He stood up and looked down at the schoolyard below. There were only few people.
Of course!!! Everyone must have gone home or anywhere they wished to celebrate their graduation day! And I'm waiting here like an idiot for that jerk! I should've joined Mito and the guys…Damned!!!
Sakuragi kicked the fences angrily, but then he leaned his forehead on the fences desperately.
"Where are you, Kaede…"
Sakuragi sat back.
Maybe he'll never show up. Maybe I should look for him. But if I did that, he might have gone up here, and when he found that I'm not around he'll went home angry… That wouldn't be good.
Sakuragi was in a dilemma.
Or maybe…he's still mad at me…
Out of his will, Sakuragi remembered what have made him and Rukawa haven't spoken to each other for the last few weeks.
FLASHBACK
It was almost one and a half year Sakuragi and Rukawa have been dating. Yes, they were a couple.
Since the accident-the one which got Rukawa hit by a car-the two boys realized how they felt for each other.
The fact that they've become a couple was very surprising for their teammates as well as for their classmates, at least for the first time they knew about it.
"From enemies to lovers," so they would say.
Indeed besides having great moments as lovers, they also fight sometimes. That's natural, it happens sometimes between two people who loved each other.
But as the two boys nearly reached their last weeks as 3rd graders, they've involved in a serious fight.
Rukawa wasn't only known as a person who is really good at basketball, but also as a person who really loves the sport. And it was his dream to play in America. To reach the goal, firstly he has to be the number one player in Japan, then he can continue to the US.
Sakuragi knew that. He also knew that if Rukawa went to the State, he might not be able to see Rukawa for good. Rukawa will moved there and live his life without him. That thought scares Sakuragi.
What if Kaede met someone else there?
What if Kaede decided to end his story with him?
What if this and what if that, that's all Sakuragi could ever think of.
Rukawa realized that Sakuragi was bothered by his plans. He didn't want to make his lover felt insecure, so he always tried to explain to Sakuragi that this is his dream, he wants to live it. And even though he'll be away, everything's gonna be fine with their relationship.
Sakuragi did try to look that he's supporting his lover. But he always failed. He couldn't pretend that he's OK with Rukawa's plan.
"Why can't you try to understand, Hana-kun!?"
"I understand so much, Kaede…But…it's just so hard for me to depart from you," Sakuragi tried to talk calmly as he observed Rukawa seemed upset.
"We'll be fine even though I'll be away. Don't be silly."
"No we won't."
"What do you mean? You don't trust me?" Rukawa's voice got lowered surprised by Sakuragi's words.
"No, I do trust you…" Sakuragi noticed the look on Rukawa's face and got a little panic.
"I think you don't," Rukawa's tone sounded cold now, "Well, if you think that our relationship would be a mess if I moved away, maybe we should just forget about the whole thing."
"You mean… you won't leave?" Sakuragi wished for a little hope.
"No, I mean I'm breaking up with you," Rukawa stared straight at Sakuragi's eyes, "I can't see you supporting me, so I can't see us together."
Rukawa turned around and started to walk away leaving Sakuragi shocked.
"Wait! Kaede! Don't get me wrong! I understand about your dream, I really do! It's just that…it's just that…" Sakuragi got confused. He couldn't find the right words. In fact, he didn't know what he was actually gonna say.
Rukawa stared at Sakuragi, and after a sigh he replied, "I think I know why you got freaked out about me leaving for America. And it's not about you couldn't stand being away from me. In fact, it got nothing to do with your feelings for me."
"W-what?" Sakuragi got confused.
"You have to find out by yourself the reason you've been acting silly, Hana-kun." Then Rukawa walked away.
"But you're not breaking up with me, are you?"
"I am, until you got the answer," Rukawa replied without looking back. Actually this wasn't easy for him either. But it seemed that the untrusting act of Sakuragi made him really disappointed and upset.
Meanwhile Sakuragi still standing where he was. As he watched Rukawa walking away, he was busy with his thoughts.
What did Kaede mean? Why am I being freak out? Of course it's because his leaving, what else!?
But… what if it's not. He knows the answer and I don't. I have to realize quickly what is actually bothering me… Because he's breaking up with me!!
That son of a bitch is breaking up with me!! I gotta get him back…
"You're not breaking up with me, Kitsune!! I'm gonna get you back!!" Sakuragi pledged with all his heart.
END FLASHBACK
TO BE CONTIUED