Dangerous Habit

Disclaimer: All Characters are property of JK Rowling and WB. I do not own them I just own the plot. Oh and a tribute to authors who I may have unconsciously borrowed from.

'Thoughts'

"Speech"

Chapter One – The Need to Escape

Harry Potter bolted upright in his four poster bed at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. 'Not again! I'm always responsible for deaths; it'd be better if I wasn't alive. So why be alive? I've got everything all ready, my box with notes and my will. So what's stopping me? Easy, no courage. All right time for step two.' I reach into my trunk at the bottom of my bed to get my knife. The cutting always makes me feel better. I slice away at my arm, the blood comes oozing out and I feel all right again. I put the blade away. As I drift off to sleep I can't help but think it is better to be alive, that way I could bleed.

Severus Snape announced his presence by entering the classroom with a BANG as usual. "Pepper-up potion NOW all of you and if anyone talks a detention with Mr. Filch will be arranged. Oh and Longbottom if you manage to ruin this particular potion that even a first year can make without difficulty you will get a week's worth of detention from ME. Is that clear?" "Y-Yes sir" Neville stuttered. As everyone got up to get their ingredients I noticed that Mr. Potter seemed out of sorts and detached he didn't say anything and no one made any effort to talk to him either. Mr. Weasly and Ms. Granger had become so rapped up in each other it seemed that Potter was the odd man out. I noticed that Potter was becoming a bit preoccupied and his potion was boiling over from neglect. "Potter! I'd never thought that you would be as incompetent as Longbottom! Clean up that mess at once and START AGAIN!" I watch as Potter spills the potion and then starts a new, his hands trembling. 'What is going on with him.' The class finished up… "Mister Potter a word if you please."

'Oh great what now?' "Yes sir" responded Harry.

"Step into my office I want to know why no one is talking to you and what is the matter?"

"People are talking to me and nothing is the matter."

"Nonsense don't lie to me Potter."

I'm not sir people are talking to me just not Ron and Hermione because Ron finally told her how he felt and I'm happy for them."

Snape just Glared in response.

"OK you may go."

Harry left with out a word or a backwards glance.