I'm not sure if this qualifies as a fan-fic. It's a one-shot. It is placed after the break up of Rogue and Gambit in the Gambit series (I know it's waaay in the past and that's when I wrote it, but I didn't know about this place until recently so…). I just thought of a what if Rogue died (somehow) sometime after that. This is a letter from Remy to Ororo sometime after Rogue's death.
Tayrion
Dear 'Ro
How are you? … What a stupid question to ask and what a lousy way to start a letter. I hate writing letters. But then again this past two months I hate pretty much everything.
I can't do it anymore 'Ro. I can't just go on pretending. I can't bear facing each day with the certain knowledge that I won't see her face, or hear her voice ever again. I tried 'Ro. God knows I tried and I hope that she knows I tried too. Strike that. I'm sure she knows. Because I refuse to believe that our last words were those of bitterness, dejection and of disappointment, from our failure to embrace the reality of a love that was staring us both deep in our souls.
I screwed up big time 'Ro. Maybe we both did. I was so foolish to take what we had for granted and carry on certain, that one day we would be together again. It's ridiculous if you consider how many lost opportunities we allow to pass by every day. But none should have been as important as this one was to me. Just to be able to tell her one last time what she meant to me. To tell her one last time how I was impervious to the pains and troubles of the world just by looking at her eyes. To tell her how her touch (even trough the layers of clothes that separated our bodies), made me feel all the warmth of the world surrounding my heart. To tell her, that her name, is forever carved in my heart. And to just tell her how much I love her. Is this too much to ask for? Do these things sound unreasonable to HIM? He took her away from me 'Ro! He took her away just like that. Shouldn't there be some kind of logic in these things? Some kind of justice. She never did wrong to anyone. … And even if she did, she paid her dues a thousand times over. She deserved better god dammit.
I'm sorry 'Ro. I'm sorry for not being a better friend to you, I'm sorry for not being all I could be, I'm sorry I'll never get the chance to try… I'm sorry, but I miss her so much. I can't go on without her strength, as my weakness is overwhelming. I'll go to meet her 'Ro. Don't worry yourself about me as I will be all better then. I'll tell her how much you miss her when I see her 'Ro.
I'll be with you always.
Your friend… now and forever
Remy