Hey, I just wanted to say thank you so much to everyone who reviewed. This
story's for you, and don't forget to continue letting me know what you
think. ~Hailie
I also added names after each flashback so that you know whose point of view it is. I didn't want to add them at the beginning because it's supposed to create a mystery of who it is at first. (However, if you really want them at the beginning e-mail me at: Hailie_jade24@yahoo.com)
*Present:
He was working today so that he wouldn't have to do anything else, because anything else would require him to think about the past. Unfortunately his plan failed and he thought about it anyway.
Did Luka blame himself? Of course, but probably not as much as other people did.
*Flashback:
I had entered the ER and gone into the lounge to get ready for my shift before I realized anything was wrong. It was a habit of mine, getting there early so that I could find out what was going on, okay that's not true, years in the military had taught me that early was on time, and on time was late. So I was always there 'on time', it was a hard habit to break.
So as I walked over to the admit desk, I didn't know that anything out of the ordinary was going on. How did I miss the police? I don't know, I just did.
I approached the admit desk where Frank was sitting and said, "Hey, where is everyone?" I noticed the gloomy mood, but passed it off as a bad day.
"Abby's still in Trauma two," he replied, not looking up.
I just stared at him for a few minutes waiting for him to talk about everyone else, but when he didn't I continued, "okay, what about everyone else?"
He looked at me and he must have realized that I didn't know what was going on because he said, "A guy came in dressed as a cop and took trauma 2 hostage. Kovac's out, but he killed Chen, and Abby's still in there," He said it all in one breath; I guess more would have required him to think about it. He also never looked up.
I took the news without a reaction. What would have been the right reaction? Crying? Screaming? I don't know.
Chen was dead? I just saw her yesterday. We weren't good friends, but I respected her. She was a good doctor. She couldn't be dead. No, that can't be true, maybe it wasn't true. There was always hope, wasn't there? Maybe not today.
Abby? Abby, I knew better. Her I even considered a friend. I had gone with her to find her brother. Later, after everything was all right she thanked me. Simply, yes, yet it had started a friendship that I value. I found her on the roof that night, when Carter wasn't here. I had helped her; at least I like to think I had. (Gallant)
*Present:
"Hi doctor Gallant," Callie said as he entered the lounge.
"Hi Callie," he replied. He was a resident at County General ER. He had matched with county a few days less then 5 years ago, they should have celebrated, but they didn't. It was what he wanted, right?
"Do you think that something's wrong with Dr. Carter?" she asked.
"Why?" he said opening his locker, looking at the pictures taped to it. One was of him and his girlfriend at Susan's wedding. Another with the gang at a party about a year and a half ago, Carter's congratulations party; he was now 'chief'. A third, the one he cherished, was taken about 6 years ago, with everyone, Dr. Weaver, Dr. Kovac, Dr. Chen, Abby, Dr. Green, Carter, Susan and many others that were still here, and others that were gone.
"He just seems distracted."
*Flashback:
"You left her in there alone?!" Carter screams.
"Carter, don't do this right now," I say, trying to stop a fight that we don't need right now. That's my job, right? As head of the ER it's my job. But isn't it also my job to ensure that they're safe? They are my co- workers, my staff; I should make sure that they're safe.
"Doctor Kovac, we need to speak with you," an officer says. Luka nods his head awaiting the inevitable questions.
They move to a different room, I follow and listen to his answers, I have a right to know, it's my ER.
"How many people were in the room when the shooting began?" an officer asks.
"Five." Luka answers
"Who?"
"Myself and Abby," he begins, his voice cracking as he says her name. "We were working on a patient when Chen," he quickly looks away and we sit in silence for a few minutes then he finally continues, "and the man walked in."
He concludes then almost as quickly adds, "We thought he was a cop." (Weaver)
*Present:
She tried to convince herself that that day wasn't the reason that she left. Nope, she had gotten the job in New York before that day began. She was just debating whether to go or not.
That day didn't decide her fate. She enjoyed her job here, she missed the patients, sure, since her job is almost completely administrative, but that's what she wanted. No, she had decided firmly, it was a choice that she had made; it wasn't influenced by the events.
Sometimes, however, she did miss them, and she wonders how many of them stayed?
*Flashback:
I watch Luka and Kerry walk away, for questioning they say.
I have the desire to scream, I want to know what happened!
I want to follow them; I think I have a right to know. But I don't follow; I can't follow. I can't look away from the door.
We haven't heard anything for a while. That has me scared and relieved at the same time. I think about how happy we were just a few hours ago.
"She's going to make it," Susan tries to comfort me.
"What if she doesn't?" I ask, turning to look at her. I realize that her eyes are red too, and she's slightly shaking.
"It's my fault," she says quietly.
"What?" I ask not sure what she could be blaming herself for. It wasn't her fault none of it was. For me everything came down to Luka.
Everything. (Carter)
*Present:
Carter sat in the dark exam room. They had lost the girl he had worked on earlier.
They did everything they could, but 'you can't save everyone', the words rang in his head.
No, he couldn't save everyone, but he could try. And try he did.
He got up and left the room, ready for the rest of his shift. For some reason he doubted he would get home today.
Okay so there it is, what did you think? I'm working on the next chapter and I'm going to try to get it up today or tomorrow. ~Hailie
I also added names after each flashback so that you know whose point of view it is. I didn't want to add them at the beginning because it's supposed to create a mystery of who it is at first. (However, if you really want them at the beginning e-mail me at: Hailie_jade24@yahoo.com)
*Present:
He was working today so that he wouldn't have to do anything else, because anything else would require him to think about the past. Unfortunately his plan failed and he thought about it anyway.
Did Luka blame himself? Of course, but probably not as much as other people did.
*Flashback:
I had entered the ER and gone into the lounge to get ready for my shift before I realized anything was wrong. It was a habit of mine, getting there early so that I could find out what was going on, okay that's not true, years in the military had taught me that early was on time, and on time was late. So I was always there 'on time', it was a hard habit to break.
So as I walked over to the admit desk, I didn't know that anything out of the ordinary was going on. How did I miss the police? I don't know, I just did.
I approached the admit desk where Frank was sitting and said, "Hey, where is everyone?" I noticed the gloomy mood, but passed it off as a bad day.
"Abby's still in Trauma two," he replied, not looking up.
I just stared at him for a few minutes waiting for him to talk about everyone else, but when he didn't I continued, "okay, what about everyone else?"
He looked at me and he must have realized that I didn't know what was going on because he said, "A guy came in dressed as a cop and took trauma 2 hostage. Kovac's out, but he killed Chen, and Abby's still in there," He said it all in one breath; I guess more would have required him to think about it. He also never looked up.
I took the news without a reaction. What would have been the right reaction? Crying? Screaming? I don't know.
Chen was dead? I just saw her yesterday. We weren't good friends, but I respected her. She was a good doctor. She couldn't be dead. No, that can't be true, maybe it wasn't true. There was always hope, wasn't there? Maybe not today.
Abby? Abby, I knew better. Her I even considered a friend. I had gone with her to find her brother. Later, after everything was all right she thanked me. Simply, yes, yet it had started a friendship that I value. I found her on the roof that night, when Carter wasn't here. I had helped her; at least I like to think I had. (Gallant)
*Present:
"Hi doctor Gallant," Callie said as he entered the lounge.
"Hi Callie," he replied. He was a resident at County General ER. He had matched with county a few days less then 5 years ago, they should have celebrated, but they didn't. It was what he wanted, right?
"Do you think that something's wrong with Dr. Carter?" she asked.
"Why?" he said opening his locker, looking at the pictures taped to it. One was of him and his girlfriend at Susan's wedding. Another with the gang at a party about a year and a half ago, Carter's congratulations party; he was now 'chief'. A third, the one he cherished, was taken about 6 years ago, with everyone, Dr. Weaver, Dr. Kovac, Dr. Chen, Abby, Dr. Green, Carter, Susan and many others that were still here, and others that were gone.
"He just seems distracted."
*Flashback:
"You left her in there alone?!" Carter screams.
"Carter, don't do this right now," I say, trying to stop a fight that we don't need right now. That's my job, right? As head of the ER it's my job. But isn't it also my job to ensure that they're safe? They are my co- workers, my staff; I should make sure that they're safe.
"Doctor Kovac, we need to speak with you," an officer says. Luka nods his head awaiting the inevitable questions.
They move to a different room, I follow and listen to his answers, I have a right to know, it's my ER.
"How many people were in the room when the shooting began?" an officer asks.
"Five." Luka answers
"Who?"
"Myself and Abby," he begins, his voice cracking as he says her name. "We were working on a patient when Chen," he quickly looks away and we sit in silence for a few minutes then he finally continues, "and the man walked in."
He concludes then almost as quickly adds, "We thought he was a cop." (Weaver)
*Present:
She tried to convince herself that that day wasn't the reason that she left. Nope, she had gotten the job in New York before that day began. She was just debating whether to go or not.
That day didn't decide her fate. She enjoyed her job here, she missed the patients, sure, since her job is almost completely administrative, but that's what she wanted. No, she had decided firmly, it was a choice that she had made; it wasn't influenced by the events.
Sometimes, however, she did miss them, and she wonders how many of them stayed?
*Flashback:
I watch Luka and Kerry walk away, for questioning they say.
I have the desire to scream, I want to know what happened!
I want to follow them; I think I have a right to know. But I don't follow; I can't follow. I can't look away from the door.
We haven't heard anything for a while. That has me scared and relieved at the same time. I think about how happy we were just a few hours ago.
"She's going to make it," Susan tries to comfort me.
"What if she doesn't?" I ask, turning to look at her. I realize that her eyes are red too, and she's slightly shaking.
"It's my fault," she says quietly.
"What?" I ask not sure what she could be blaming herself for. It wasn't her fault none of it was. For me everything came down to Luka.
Everything. (Carter)
*Present:
Carter sat in the dark exam room. They had lost the girl he had worked on earlier.
They did everything they could, but 'you can't save everyone', the words rang in his head.
No, he couldn't save everyone, but he could try. And try he did.
He got up and left the room, ready for the rest of his shift. For some reason he doubted he would get home today.
Okay so there it is, what did you think? I'm working on the next chapter and I'm going to try to get it up today or tomorrow. ~Hailie