{12-01-03} Just to let you all know, the Author's Notes from each chapter
have been erased.
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Disclaimer: I don't own any characters in this story. Rumiko Takahashi owns them! Yes she does, peoples! Not me! DAMN THE GODS! -_-* Oh, bah. Just review! PLEASE?? *BIG puppy eyes* :3..
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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 1
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I saw you there, on the grassy meadows, on the night of Friday the 13th. I saw you there, as handsome as the prince in the romance of two strangers in his tale. Your shocking amber eyes were as yellow as Heaven's light, your face sharp and your figure strong and proud. But were you really proud? Were you really...? I never knew you would be proud of bringing her. That Kikyou girl...The girl who somehow stole your heart away, away from me.
I don't understand how you could love such a slutty devil! I don't know what you saw in her that you didn't see in me? Was it her looks? Her stare? Her eyes? Her cleavage? Oh, gods damn it, why can't you love me?!...Where did I go wrong, to cause such an infidelity upon my broken heart and hopeless soul? After all we've been through together, the drama, the love, the togetherness of it all.
The rain was pouring down hard, as we both went back to the well, the path which I finally chose after the many confession you said to me, about you and Kikyou's little moment in the hot springs. There were so many nights that you acted like your normal self, the self I knew ever since I embraced you for the first time, back in the old days. Three years. Yes, our friendship and brotherly love went that far...I'm still in shock that you didn't remember such tender moments in our lives, when you and I were always together, enjoying our lives side by side, while the Shikon no Tama was now in hands of Kaede.
That night, when you and I traveled back to the temple, was the night when I devoted my soul to you, the night when I thought that you and I would be together forever. I thought you said you'd love me and me only I thought you said that you didn't love Kikyou anymore. I believed your words... and now I despise you...
I dreamed that you would be the man in my life, the one who would sacrifice anything for me, the man who would love me and no one else ever.the one whom my children would look up to and call 'father'...
How could you deceive me like this...?
I'm so confused...
So I go back to now, my hands sqeezing the wooden rails of the well, as tears trailed down and reflected the moon's sad and gloomy shine. My body was limp, for without you I was nothing. Not having you is like living through starvation every day that passes by. I went inside my house, each step I took an aching pain striking me in my feet. My mother knew about it, and so didn't bother to console me. I told her not to. My brother Souta was too little and inexperienced to understand my case of depression.
But I went back the next night, and say a final farewell to Shippo and the others. And from the way your tired eyes blinked slowly from the tree branches, I could notice that you weren't having the time of your life...
and I'm enjoying your bad luck with enduring pleasure and joy.
After all.you don't love me anymore. You left to be with her, so why should I bother feeling pity over you?
But...
I couldn't help but notice something that in the back of my head was telling me that there was still some kind of unfortunate doubt in my mind. There's still some of that love in my heart for you. Oh, how bad I want to get rid of my love for you.
But then I turn my eyes to you, walking side by side with her... that slutty thief... her damn seductive ways overtook your mind, she took you away from me without even trying as hard as I wanted to bring you back. She would never let go of you.No matter where she went, no matter where she was she was always clinging onto you, and never letting you go...ever. But how could you let her do this to you? How could you let her do this to me?
I knew then that you didn't love her... it was just so obvious! You were staring at me the whole time you were strolling along. Your eyes were always piercing straight at mine, trying to call me out to get you back from the evil maiden before you. I was in the verge of tears after a few minutes of your violent staring and gazing upon me. I felt so bad of myself... I felt like my life was going from bad to good in one way, and then bad to worse in another way. Was your loving and craving stare a sign of your love, or was it sign that I just couldn't take? Should I try again...? Should I try and love you again...? After all these days of agony and loneliness? You still loved me... but is it too late for me?
Did my love for you disappear? Was hatred its permanent proxy? I tried so hard that night to find the love inside my heart, how I tried to search inside me and seek that love... I wanted to find it so bad...but I just couldn't...I lost it all ...it was drained away... and gone forever...
By now I knew tears were shedding from my eyes, I knew I was being seen by the kitsune and Sango, including yourself and the slut. But I just told her that I was fine when she asked me concernedly if I was all right. I finally noticed that it was hopeless... even though you loved me, it was too late for me to love you back. Maybe I was being too picky or maybe I was just being stubborn. Maybe I'm the one choosing the wrong path, and maybe I'm not.
But I don't know anything anymore... all there is to know is that there's no such thing as a Mr. Perfect...
It's time to get over you and move on... So good-bye to you, Inuyasha...
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Disclaimer: I don't own any characters in this story. Rumiko Takahashi owns them! Yes she does, peoples! Not me! DAMN THE GODS! -_-* Oh, bah. Just review! PLEASE?? *BIG puppy eyes* :3..
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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 1
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I saw you there, on the grassy meadows, on the night of Friday the 13th. I saw you there, as handsome as the prince in the romance of two strangers in his tale. Your shocking amber eyes were as yellow as Heaven's light, your face sharp and your figure strong and proud. But were you really proud? Were you really...? I never knew you would be proud of bringing her. That Kikyou girl...The girl who somehow stole your heart away, away from me.
I don't understand how you could love such a slutty devil! I don't know what you saw in her that you didn't see in me? Was it her looks? Her stare? Her eyes? Her cleavage? Oh, gods damn it, why can't you love me?!...Where did I go wrong, to cause such an infidelity upon my broken heart and hopeless soul? After all we've been through together, the drama, the love, the togetherness of it all.
The rain was pouring down hard, as we both went back to the well, the path which I finally chose after the many confession you said to me, about you and Kikyou's little moment in the hot springs. There were so many nights that you acted like your normal self, the self I knew ever since I embraced you for the first time, back in the old days. Three years. Yes, our friendship and brotherly love went that far...I'm still in shock that you didn't remember such tender moments in our lives, when you and I were always together, enjoying our lives side by side, while the Shikon no Tama was now in hands of Kaede.
That night, when you and I traveled back to the temple, was the night when I devoted my soul to you, the night when I thought that you and I would be together forever. I thought you said you'd love me and me only I thought you said that you didn't love Kikyou anymore. I believed your words... and now I despise you...
I dreamed that you would be the man in my life, the one who would sacrifice anything for me, the man who would love me and no one else ever.the one whom my children would look up to and call 'father'...
How could you deceive me like this...?
I'm so confused...
So I go back to now, my hands sqeezing the wooden rails of the well, as tears trailed down and reflected the moon's sad and gloomy shine. My body was limp, for without you I was nothing. Not having you is like living through starvation every day that passes by. I went inside my house, each step I took an aching pain striking me in my feet. My mother knew about it, and so didn't bother to console me. I told her not to. My brother Souta was too little and inexperienced to understand my case of depression.
But I went back the next night, and say a final farewell to Shippo and the others. And from the way your tired eyes blinked slowly from the tree branches, I could notice that you weren't having the time of your life...
and I'm enjoying your bad luck with enduring pleasure and joy.
After all.you don't love me anymore. You left to be with her, so why should I bother feeling pity over you?
But...
I couldn't help but notice something that in the back of my head was telling me that there was still some kind of unfortunate doubt in my mind. There's still some of that love in my heart for you. Oh, how bad I want to get rid of my love for you.
But then I turn my eyes to you, walking side by side with her... that slutty thief... her damn seductive ways overtook your mind, she took you away from me without even trying as hard as I wanted to bring you back. She would never let go of you.No matter where she went, no matter where she was she was always clinging onto you, and never letting you go...ever. But how could you let her do this to you? How could you let her do this to me?
I knew then that you didn't love her... it was just so obvious! You were staring at me the whole time you were strolling along. Your eyes were always piercing straight at mine, trying to call me out to get you back from the evil maiden before you. I was in the verge of tears after a few minutes of your violent staring and gazing upon me. I felt so bad of myself... I felt like my life was going from bad to good in one way, and then bad to worse in another way. Was your loving and craving stare a sign of your love, or was it sign that I just couldn't take? Should I try again...? Should I try and love you again...? After all these days of agony and loneliness? You still loved me... but is it too late for me?
Did my love for you disappear? Was hatred its permanent proxy? I tried so hard that night to find the love inside my heart, how I tried to search inside me and seek that love... I wanted to find it so bad...but I just couldn't...I lost it all ...it was drained away... and gone forever...
By now I knew tears were shedding from my eyes, I knew I was being seen by the kitsune and Sango, including yourself and the slut. But I just told her that I was fine when she asked me concernedly if I was all right. I finally noticed that it was hopeless... even though you loved me, it was too late for me to love you back. Maybe I was being too picky or maybe I was just being stubborn. Maybe I'm the one choosing the wrong path, and maybe I'm not.
But I don't know anything anymore... all there is to know is that there's no such thing as a Mr. Perfect...
It's time to get over you and move on... So good-bye to you, Inuyasha...
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