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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 2
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I noticed you. Your brown eyes. Your navy blue hair flowed gently across your face. It felt like silk when I first felt it. I thought I was touching an angel. And that face you were wearing that night.
It stunned me...
I actually became weak when I first saw you. I remembered your hair was put down. The stars made you shine and shimmer as if you were a goddess standing over some high pinnacle of the mountain of perfectibility. I noticed that night that love was real. It was so real it could take you over unanimously like a permanent spell, never able to be cured or broken. It actually felt like a curse moreover. It felt nothing like a spell. It was all so dark, so evil like a plague.
I didn't know love was a curse. I thought it was a wish, a dream that became true to all things in this world. I never knew nature hid such emotions such as pain, agony, and isolation in the word love. I could never think such a theory...
But to no matter...
I was tired of being lonely. I knew Kikyou didn't care for me. It was you.
It was you all along...
You were the one who picked me up when I was down. You were the one who I couldn't stop thinking about after all we've been through. You were the one who made me smile when I was sad. And you were the one...whom I felt deeply in love with. I kept staring at you with a feeling I never felt before. It was taking over me. Every inch of my body was taken over by something. Could it be love...? Pride...? What? What could it be?!
And that night? Oh, how I wish that it could happen again. That first kiss was just amazing. Amazing, I tell you! I stared into your dark chocolate eyes as Shippo and the others were squealing with joy. I stared at the crowd, looking at Miroku and Sango. They were smiling at us. They were actually happy for us. They thought we could never pull it through, but we proved them wrong...
But now...
You ran away...from me...
At the hot springs, she kissed me. She seduced me...without even loving me. I was ashamed for committing such a foolhardy decision. I felt your warm presence as I saw you there lying against a tree. Anger was traced all around your face. An anger, which I guess, could have never been taken from you.
The next day I tried to explain what happened. But you turned your head away and left, leaving me deeply scared and wounded in my heart...
Why did I have to be so dumb-minded? Why do I now feel unsatisfied? I don't love Kikyou anymore. I did...but now I don't. And now you leave me, and I don't know what I was going to do! It was like my strength was taken away from me; that strength was you. Kikyou meant nothing to me! She used to before, but I swear now that I don't love her! I really don't!
I love you...
And no one else...
Your eyes were staring at me ever so closely, sending me a message; a message only I could understand. I could see the chocolate hue in your tearful eyes. I wish that I could read your mind...I wanted to know how you felt. I mean everything! All the curves of your thoughts and every turn of your emotions.
I walked side by side next to the mistress herself, to the nearest cliff and sat there, her arms around my arm and her head on my shoulder. It was freezing that night, but the cold calmed me down. The winds blew my hair up to the air as if gravity was free. I closed my eyes and thought back to those good old days of 'Us'; from when we first met till now. Streams of tears flowed down my cheeks, as my memories shot arrows of agony towards my heart. Thankfully Kikyou fell asleep, and didn't notice anything...
Kikyou always kept telling me "Oh just forget about her! She doesn't love you anyway!" And some other bull crap along those lines.
But I can't forget about you...
There's this little thought, stuck in my head, telling me not to stop loving you, telling me that you still love me... but this dilemma was so frustrating, that I shed new tears yet again. I couldn't stand this shit anymore!
Then I felt a presence amongst the air. I heard quiet breathing, so quiet that I could hardly even hear it, but I felt warm air reach my back, which gave me chills. But I was too ashamed to even dare budge. I hate Kikyou. She tried to kill you for crying out loud ...
How can you think I love her...?
I looked around, and back at Kikyou, and noticed my place in the world.
It was anywhere but here...
Next to her... She smelled so dead, so rotten... I closed my eyes again and went back to the days when I would just lie next to you and smell you rich, lavishing, and almost pleasing scent in your aura... I wished I smelled you right now, but you were nowhere near...
You were gone...
I scoffed, and I shoved Kikyou out of my grasp. Kikyou woke up and looked at me, her eyes cold and sinister.
"You're going back for her, are you not?" she asked, her voice threatening and sharp. I looked down and her, as a newborn prince would look at an evil witch. I didn't bother speaking a word to her, and so left to look for you.
I got to the well...
And I couldn't get through! With all might that I tried, I couldn't go to you era and see you again! I smelled Kaede's scent in the area, and noticed it was her who did this...
"Kagome told me to do it," she said when I got there, "her eyes were red from tears, and I could hardly understand her; she was sobbing in between words, the poor child..."
"But don't you understand that I love her?!" I asked, "Please take the spell off! I refuse to leave here until you do as I say!" But Kaede sat still, and drank her tea as if my words were the wind blowing in her ears. I looked at her pleadingly, and walked towards her, my face a foot away from hers.
I couldn't stand the thought of not being able to see you. Just the thought that you blocked the well made my very being shatter into pieces like glass. I knelt down in front of Kaede, my body tense and muscles numb. I reach out towards her hands, and grabbed them together. Kaede seemed dumb- founded at first, but she looked at me anyways.
"Please Kaede..." Tears were now pouring down my face, and my hands shook, "look at me, old hag... do I look like I'm joking?"
Kaede seemed to run out of words and reasons to not do as I wanted, for she seemed speechless for a while. Kaede then sighed deeply, and stood up.
"I'm sorry, Inuyasha..." she said softly, "the only one who can go through from now on is Kagome. You will never be able to pass through again... I gave her my word, and I'm keeping it..." She then looked at me guiltlessly.
"You've been an ungrateful person ever since you met her. How do you expect her to love you when all you do is scold her and criticize her so much? You're so naïve! I don't find this pain you suffer of any kind of irony whatsoever. So if you will excuse me, I have to go..."
And with those words, she left. I couldn't move at all... her words were so piercing and painful. I couldn't stand it.
She was right...
I did scold and criticize you...
I was naïve...
But now, you will never return again...you'll never come back! ... Cursed fate...
I'm stuck with Kikyou now...
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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 2
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I noticed you. Your brown eyes. Your navy blue hair flowed gently across your face. It felt like silk when I first felt it. I thought I was touching an angel. And that face you were wearing that night.
It stunned me...
I actually became weak when I first saw you. I remembered your hair was put down. The stars made you shine and shimmer as if you were a goddess standing over some high pinnacle of the mountain of perfectibility. I noticed that night that love was real. It was so real it could take you over unanimously like a permanent spell, never able to be cured or broken. It actually felt like a curse moreover. It felt nothing like a spell. It was all so dark, so evil like a plague.
I didn't know love was a curse. I thought it was a wish, a dream that became true to all things in this world. I never knew nature hid such emotions such as pain, agony, and isolation in the word love. I could never think such a theory...
But to no matter...
I was tired of being lonely. I knew Kikyou didn't care for me. It was you.
It was you all along...
You were the one who picked me up when I was down. You were the one who I couldn't stop thinking about after all we've been through. You were the one who made me smile when I was sad. And you were the one...whom I felt deeply in love with. I kept staring at you with a feeling I never felt before. It was taking over me. Every inch of my body was taken over by something. Could it be love...? Pride...? What? What could it be?!
And that night? Oh, how I wish that it could happen again. That first kiss was just amazing. Amazing, I tell you! I stared into your dark chocolate eyes as Shippo and the others were squealing with joy. I stared at the crowd, looking at Miroku and Sango. They were smiling at us. They were actually happy for us. They thought we could never pull it through, but we proved them wrong...
But now...
You ran away...from me...
At the hot springs, she kissed me. She seduced me...without even loving me. I was ashamed for committing such a foolhardy decision. I felt your warm presence as I saw you there lying against a tree. Anger was traced all around your face. An anger, which I guess, could have never been taken from you.
The next day I tried to explain what happened. But you turned your head away and left, leaving me deeply scared and wounded in my heart...
Why did I have to be so dumb-minded? Why do I now feel unsatisfied? I don't love Kikyou anymore. I did...but now I don't. And now you leave me, and I don't know what I was going to do! It was like my strength was taken away from me; that strength was you. Kikyou meant nothing to me! She used to before, but I swear now that I don't love her! I really don't!
I love you...
And no one else...
Your eyes were staring at me ever so closely, sending me a message; a message only I could understand. I could see the chocolate hue in your tearful eyes. I wish that I could read your mind...I wanted to know how you felt. I mean everything! All the curves of your thoughts and every turn of your emotions.
I walked side by side next to the mistress herself, to the nearest cliff and sat there, her arms around my arm and her head on my shoulder. It was freezing that night, but the cold calmed me down. The winds blew my hair up to the air as if gravity was free. I closed my eyes and thought back to those good old days of 'Us'; from when we first met till now. Streams of tears flowed down my cheeks, as my memories shot arrows of agony towards my heart. Thankfully Kikyou fell asleep, and didn't notice anything...
Kikyou always kept telling me "Oh just forget about her! She doesn't love you anyway!" And some other bull crap along those lines.
But I can't forget about you...
There's this little thought, stuck in my head, telling me not to stop loving you, telling me that you still love me... but this dilemma was so frustrating, that I shed new tears yet again. I couldn't stand this shit anymore!
Then I felt a presence amongst the air. I heard quiet breathing, so quiet that I could hardly even hear it, but I felt warm air reach my back, which gave me chills. But I was too ashamed to even dare budge. I hate Kikyou. She tried to kill you for crying out loud ...
How can you think I love her...?
I looked around, and back at Kikyou, and noticed my place in the world.
It was anywhere but here...
Next to her... She smelled so dead, so rotten... I closed my eyes again and went back to the days when I would just lie next to you and smell you rich, lavishing, and almost pleasing scent in your aura... I wished I smelled you right now, but you were nowhere near...
You were gone...
I scoffed, and I shoved Kikyou out of my grasp. Kikyou woke up and looked at me, her eyes cold and sinister.
"You're going back for her, are you not?" she asked, her voice threatening and sharp. I looked down and her, as a newborn prince would look at an evil witch. I didn't bother speaking a word to her, and so left to look for you.
I got to the well...
And I couldn't get through! With all might that I tried, I couldn't go to you era and see you again! I smelled Kaede's scent in the area, and noticed it was her who did this...
"Kagome told me to do it," she said when I got there, "her eyes were red from tears, and I could hardly understand her; she was sobbing in between words, the poor child..."
"But don't you understand that I love her?!" I asked, "Please take the spell off! I refuse to leave here until you do as I say!" But Kaede sat still, and drank her tea as if my words were the wind blowing in her ears. I looked at her pleadingly, and walked towards her, my face a foot away from hers.
I couldn't stand the thought of not being able to see you. Just the thought that you blocked the well made my very being shatter into pieces like glass. I knelt down in front of Kaede, my body tense and muscles numb. I reach out towards her hands, and grabbed them together. Kaede seemed dumb- founded at first, but she looked at me anyways.
"Please Kaede..." Tears were now pouring down my face, and my hands shook, "look at me, old hag... do I look like I'm joking?"
Kaede seemed to run out of words and reasons to not do as I wanted, for she seemed speechless for a while. Kaede then sighed deeply, and stood up.
"I'm sorry, Inuyasha..." she said softly, "the only one who can go through from now on is Kagome. You will never be able to pass through again... I gave her my word, and I'm keeping it..." She then looked at me guiltlessly.
"You've been an ungrateful person ever since you met her. How do you expect her to love you when all you do is scold her and criticize her so much? You're so naïve! I don't find this pain you suffer of any kind of irony whatsoever. So if you will excuse me, I have to go..."
And with those words, she left. I couldn't move at all... her words were so piercing and painful. I couldn't stand it.
She was right...
I did scold and criticize you...
I was naïve...
But now, you will never return again...you'll never come back! ... Cursed fate...
I'm stuck with Kikyou now...
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