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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 7
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I saw you there, Inuyasha. I saw you there, on the bloody grass, with that cursed girl wrapped in your arms; that reincarnated girl that is to be inferior to I. Oh, with all my soul I despised her. How much she was just a nightmare, a miniscule nightmare that I could just flick away with my finger and send her flying out of our lives. I look at her more and more, and I tell you that she deserves not a single breath of your compassion or love; for you belong to me. And no one else...
I gave up my life as well as the jewel to not only twist Naraku's plot, but to make sure that not a single demon or human took you away from me. I wanted no other woman to stumble upon your magnificent figure and stow you away from my short reach. You were the only one I really cared for, who I loved and hated at the same time. The one who let me know that being free and independent was nothing wrong, but was everything that was meant to be. I pinned you to that tree, so that one day I could revive and make you mine again, just like old times.
That was my desire...
But then that girl came into focus, as well as they Shikon no Tama. And when I was awoken by Urasue's foolish witchcraft, I became infuriated with the fact that you were alive. Just the fact the you were standing there right in front of me, feet firm in the world of the living, irritated me ever so... My plan was now destroyed, and my soul was stolen by that girl... You eyes were softer, your voice gentler, and your grasp calmer. You changed so much... You were not the Inuyasha I met half a century ago...
And that made my veins boils and vengeance bloat...
That girl plastered your mind with thoughts of love and kindness, and erased your mind completely from the past which we developed together. Every blink of her disgusting little eyes made you forget that it was I who taught you how to even love. It was I that taught you that guilt wasn't just a word without meaning. It was I that protected you from the whole world with my sacred arrow, and it was I that, Inuyasha, that you were fated with... Not that disgusting creature! Not her!
It was I all along...
As I looked beyond the horizons, I stood tall and confident as I narrowed my eyes upon the bitterly envious sight of the two of you.
Together...
The moon shined ever so brightly that the floating leaves covered my eyes from it's immense shine, as they obeyed the rhythmic eastern winds. The stars were as luminous as ever. I felt like my heart was beating slowly, as I clutched my fist and allowed the held-up tears fall down in exasperated anguish. I could believe not the truth. The truth of your endless stabs of betrayal and infidelity upon my shattered heart. I have had to face your torturing glances of disgrace. And it was all that girl's fault...
I could not take this sight any longer.
I had to get away from all this madness.
I wait for only a short while, only to find my soul gatherers return empty- handed. There were no souls! But how could this be? I saw you destroy that village with my very own eyes. And not only that. You also fled the scene with the Shikon no Tama in your deadly grasp.
I had to go there and find out. My life was shortening every breath that I took, and I needed soul with an absolute need...
As I arrived there, I found the villagers standing up with hands in their heads as if trying to control the ache in their heads. I saw women and children standing up and embracing each other, as if they have not seen them for years. I saw my sister awaken.
"Kaede-baba! Are you all right?" asked a villager. Kaede stood up, and looked at her hands, noticing just how unharmed she was.
"I am all right, Keiko," Kaede looked at her, "but... do you remember anything for tonight...?" That Keiko girl shook her head. Kaede asked everyone else around her the same question. No one had an answer, for they knew not either. My questions were answered, and so I departed the scene.
That girl of yours must have not only wished for your revival but also for a termination of the fire. And through the process, the jewel was purified and the evil memories of your revenge erased from all their minds. What a clever bitch she is...
So I sat back again in the roots of the tree, and I laid there. A smile could not but escape from my nerves as my went back to our little night in the hot springs... I giggled outwardly as I remembered the look you had on your face, as I undressed myself right in front of you. Once I was all bare, you wanted to reach out for me so badly. It almost seemed painful for you... I knew you enjoyed that night as much as I did; you just had to...
How could you not?
And what pleasured me even more was not your caresses, but the fact that my own reincarnation was looking at us the entire time. Ha! That really made me feel victorious. And the best thing of all, you and I both knew she was there. So it may be possible that the love you have for that monster is just two-facedness. You might just still love me...
But...
I cannot kid myself. Even thought I was the one you mated first, I still do not feel satisfied. I need you with me, Inuyasha... Not only body, but soul and life as well. That girl has be devoured as erased forever from both our hearts and our minds. Because I met you first... And I have every right to be claimed as yours. That girl does not belong here. She belongs in her world; as well you belong in yours.
I have to erase that girl from humanity. I have to do something to make my death worthwhile. For I am Kikyou, and when I want something, I will get it. I will do whatever it takes to make you mine again, Inuyasha.
I promise...
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It was now finally morning, and I couldn't handle but smile as I see you sleeping on top of me, like I was some of those "plush toys" you have in your room. I breathed in some air, and almost choked in disgust as I noticed I was inhaling the scent of my own blood! Oh, how I stupid I feel now for even thinking of killing myself... But oh well. It's all behind me now. We're now going to live happy and peacefully, just like we've always dreamed of.
"Inuyasha?" I looked at your waking face stare at mine with such shine. Just a simple stare into your eyes and everything around me is of no importance. You lean your face towards me, and you give our first official morning kiss. Gods, it was so great...
"Did you sleep well, puppy?" you asked me giggling. I sighed smiling.
"Well, you're kind of lying on top of me... So try and guess. What do you think?" I asked. You exasperated a laugh, and looked up thoughtfully smirking.
"Um... I'll have to guess 'yes'." You smiled. You put your hands on my chest, and I brushed my fingers through you long silky hair. I chuckled.
"Huh. You're good." But you just shrugged.
"I try," you said. After a few moments of silence, we just laughed out loud, holding each other in sweet embraces and calm souls.
"Uh, Inuyasha?" you asked, "shouldn't we be getting back to the village?" I laid her down on the grass gently, as I stood up and looked around me. I was so disgusted with the blood that was on my raiment, as well as its smell! Your clothes were stained as well, and it reminded even more of last night.
"Oh, come on, Inuyasha. Stop looking so sulky. You got more important things to think about." But as we started walking down the hill to Kaede's village, you covered your nose with your hands and said: "But first take a bath!" I looked at her, and I just smiled. I didn't care anymore really, well, at least when you were around me. Nothing could ever go wrong...
We finally arrived in the village, and I told Kaede-baba to forgive me for all I've done. Even though she seemed not to remember a thing about the fire, she still forgave me for my stubbornness. Miroku and Sango returned again, and they seemed to not remember a thing either. And like Kaede, I apologized to them and they accepted it with open arms and friendly smiles. But when I hugged Sango and smelt her, I almost jilted away from her. She was aware of my sudden move, and sighed.
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"Is it that obvious?" she asked when we went inside Kaede's hut for some tea. I was confused with the way you were twitching your ears and staring at Miroku with a stern and meticulous face. Miroku seemed irritated with his violent gaze, and so looked at him with a half-glaring face almost.
"If you're wondering if Shippou was around when this happened, then no. He was fast asleep along with Kohaku," Miroku pointed out. I had no idea what he was talking about until I looked at Sango, and noticed that she was biting her lip and meddling with her tea cup. And like any girl in this world would react, I gasped in disbelief.
"No. Way." I said, "Did you... and him...?" I asked almost whispering as I looked back and forth between the non-virgin couple. And when they nodded to my answer with rosy cheeks and shy faces, I couldn't handle but smile at them.
"I'm so happy for you two," I said kneeling in between them and touching their shoulder, "but don't be embarrassed about it. It's got to happen someday. And we both knew you loved each other." Miroku and Sango looked at each other softly. Sango reach for Miroku's hand, the one that was formerly cursed by Naraku, with love filled in her eyes. Miroku smiled and held hers and rubbed her fingers with his thumb. They then looked at me.
"Kagome-chan? Thank you for everything. I'm really grateful for you and Inuyasha both. If it weren't for you, we wouldn't be together," Miroku said, turning to you. "And um, I'm sorry for those things I've said about Kagome's departure. You were right the whole time: she did come back..."
You grinned at him and waved your hand saying "Don't worry about it, monk. It's all behind me now."
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Later on that night, everyone in the village found out about Sango and Miroku's official engagement; and so they all decided to organize a extravaganza and liven up this village from its dullness. Everyone that night was so alive, so colorful. There were firecrackers going on about, food aplenty for everyone, and little children running around playfully with dogs barking with joy trailing behind. But we just sat around and enjoyed the view. We sat on the ground and looked at the paper lamps hanged from strings around the houses.
Sango and I were given kimonos to wear that night, and from the looks that you and the monk gave us, I don't mind saying that we looked pretty dazzling, indeed. Miroku and Sango heard the music play and they both decided to dance to the beats of the drums, flutes, and people's claps.
Shippou and Kirara pulled our garments and begged us to go out there and dance. But since I knew you were bored, we went and danced. That night was yet another night that I would never forget. Our first dance... You and I circled around each other, moving our shoulders and feet to the rhythm of the music. I could feel my smile widening as I let all things good enter my lungs and make my eyes brighten with adrenaline.
You looked so happy...
And I loved that so much...
I hated you being so gloomy and melancholy. It broke my heart to pieces every time I saw you mourning ever so. Kikyou must've really hurt you so much. She twisted your mind like a string around her finger. She controlled you and made you unsure of who you were. But she doesn't matter anymore...
She's the past.
And you're my future...
The music kept going, but we didn't. We stopped and stared at each other more deeply than ever imagined. I was in your arms, and you were in my heart. I could hear you whisper loving things in my ear, and I leaned my temple in your chin.
"I love you, Inuyasha..." I whispered smiling, my heart warming with happiness as you smiled back at me, twitching your ears on purpose just to make me smile more.
"I love you too, Kagome..." You squeezed my chest towards yours, and we grinned at each other as we brought our lips closer together.
Then something happened...
I felt something come flying towards me, and I felt a sharp pain slash my arm slightly, just enough to show a deep scar through the layers on my sleeve. Everyone gasped in fear as their eyes saw an arrow land on the wall of Kaede's hut. I winced in pain as I tried my best to keep the blood from my wound from staining the borrowed kimono.
You were so scared out of your wits, as you knelt down like me and ask me repeatedly if I was all right.
"Inuyasha! Stand up and look at me, you coward!"
Everyone turned to the source of that voice, and faced a woman who was worse than death itself... You seemed unaffected by her unlike other moments, and you helped me stand up and hold me towards you, your eyes still triggered towards her...
Kikyou...
"You, girl! Get away from him! He's not yours!" she said, her eyes dark and ragingly burning with infernos of anger. I looked at her while locked in your embrace, my eyes sending her a message of refusal.
"No." And with a colder glare, I wrapped my arms around him, and proudly said "I decline." Everyone gasped as they saw her grab an arrow and point it towards me.
"How dare you say that to me... Inuyasha is not yours. He's mine. Mine, I tell you! He's going to claim me, and I won't let a wench like you take him away from me. I saw him first! I have every right to have him!"
"I don't love you, Kikyou..." Her eyes looked at yours, and she shook her head in disbelief. "I love Kagome..." he said this and embraced me even closer. "And there's nothing you can do to change that..."
"No..." she panted, "no... NO! I refuse to believe such lies! You're LYING! She will DIE!"
And with a tight shut of her eyes, she let the arrow fly.
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SHATTERED HEART
CHAPTER 7
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I saw you there, Inuyasha. I saw you there, on the bloody grass, with that cursed girl wrapped in your arms; that reincarnated girl that is to be inferior to I. Oh, with all my soul I despised her. How much she was just a nightmare, a miniscule nightmare that I could just flick away with my finger and send her flying out of our lives. I look at her more and more, and I tell you that she deserves not a single breath of your compassion or love; for you belong to me. And no one else...
I gave up my life as well as the jewel to not only twist Naraku's plot, but to make sure that not a single demon or human took you away from me. I wanted no other woman to stumble upon your magnificent figure and stow you away from my short reach. You were the only one I really cared for, who I loved and hated at the same time. The one who let me know that being free and independent was nothing wrong, but was everything that was meant to be. I pinned you to that tree, so that one day I could revive and make you mine again, just like old times.
That was my desire...
But then that girl came into focus, as well as they Shikon no Tama. And when I was awoken by Urasue's foolish witchcraft, I became infuriated with the fact that you were alive. Just the fact the you were standing there right in front of me, feet firm in the world of the living, irritated me ever so... My plan was now destroyed, and my soul was stolen by that girl... You eyes were softer, your voice gentler, and your grasp calmer. You changed so much... You were not the Inuyasha I met half a century ago...
And that made my veins boils and vengeance bloat...
That girl plastered your mind with thoughts of love and kindness, and erased your mind completely from the past which we developed together. Every blink of her disgusting little eyes made you forget that it was I who taught you how to even love. It was I that taught you that guilt wasn't just a word without meaning. It was I that protected you from the whole world with my sacred arrow, and it was I that, Inuyasha, that you were fated with... Not that disgusting creature! Not her!
It was I all along...
As I looked beyond the horizons, I stood tall and confident as I narrowed my eyes upon the bitterly envious sight of the two of you.
Together...
The moon shined ever so brightly that the floating leaves covered my eyes from it's immense shine, as they obeyed the rhythmic eastern winds. The stars were as luminous as ever. I felt like my heart was beating slowly, as I clutched my fist and allowed the held-up tears fall down in exasperated anguish. I could believe not the truth. The truth of your endless stabs of betrayal and infidelity upon my shattered heart. I have had to face your torturing glances of disgrace. And it was all that girl's fault...
I could not take this sight any longer.
I had to get away from all this madness.
I wait for only a short while, only to find my soul gatherers return empty- handed. There were no souls! But how could this be? I saw you destroy that village with my very own eyes. And not only that. You also fled the scene with the Shikon no Tama in your deadly grasp.
I had to go there and find out. My life was shortening every breath that I took, and I needed soul with an absolute need...
As I arrived there, I found the villagers standing up with hands in their heads as if trying to control the ache in their heads. I saw women and children standing up and embracing each other, as if they have not seen them for years. I saw my sister awaken.
"Kaede-baba! Are you all right?" asked a villager. Kaede stood up, and looked at her hands, noticing just how unharmed she was.
"I am all right, Keiko," Kaede looked at her, "but... do you remember anything for tonight...?" That Keiko girl shook her head. Kaede asked everyone else around her the same question. No one had an answer, for they knew not either. My questions were answered, and so I departed the scene.
That girl of yours must have not only wished for your revival but also for a termination of the fire. And through the process, the jewel was purified and the evil memories of your revenge erased from all their minds. What a clever bitch she is...
So I sat back again in the roots of the tree, and I laid there. A smile could not but escape from my nerves as my went back to our little night in the hot springs... I giggled outwardly as I remembered the look you had on your face, as I undressed myself right in front of you. Once I was all bare, you wanted to reach out for me so badly. It almost seemed painful for you... I knew you enjoyed that night as much as I did; you just had to...
How could you not?
And what pleasured me even more was not your caresses, but the fact that my own reincarnation was looking at us the entire time. Ha! That really made me feel victorious. And the best thing of all, you and I both knew she was there. So it may be possible that the love you have for that monster is just two-facedness. You might just still love me...
But...
I cannot kid myself. Even thought I was the one you mated first, I still do not feel satisfied. I need you with me, Inuyasha... Not only body, but soul and life as well. That girl has be devoured as erased forever from both our hearts and our minds. Because I met you first... And I have every right to be claimed as yours. That girl does not belong here. She belongs in her world; as well you belong in yours.
I have to erase that girl from humanity. I have to do something to make my death worthwhile. For I am Kikyou, and when I want something, I will get it. I will do whatever it takes to make you mine again, Inuyasha.
I promise...
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It was now finally morning, and I couldn't handle but smile as I see you sleeping on top of me, like I was some of those "plush toys" you have in your room. I breathed in some air, and almost choked in disgust as I noticed I was inhaling the scent of my own blood! Oh, how I stupid I feel now for even thinking of killing myself... But oh well. It's all behind me now. We're now going to live happy and peacefully, just like we've always dreamed of.
"Inuyasha?" I looked at your waking face stare at mine with such shine. Just a simple stare into your eyes and everything around me is of no importance. You lean your face towards me, and you give our first official morning kiss. Gods, it was so great...
"Did you sleep well, puppy?" you asked me giggling. I sighed smiling.
"Well, you're kind of lying on top of me... So try and guess. What do you think?" I asked. You exasperated a laugh, and looked up thoughtfully smirking.
"Um... I'll have to guess 'yes'." You smiled. You put your hands on my chest, and I brushed my fingers through you long silky hair. I chuckled.
"Huh. You're good." But you just shrugged.
"I try," you said. After a few moments of silence, we just laughed out loud, holding each other in sweet embraces and calm souls.
"Uh, Inuyasha?" you asked, "shouldn't we be getting back to the village?" I laid her down on the grass gently, as I stood up and looked around me. I was so disgusted with the blood that was on my raiment, as well as its smell! Your clothes were stained as well, and it reminded even more of last night.
"Oh, come on, Inuyasha. Stop looking so sulky. You got more important things to think about." But as we started walking down the hill to Kaede's village, you covered your nose with your hands and said: "But first take a bath!" I looked at her, and I just smiled. I didn't care anymore really, well, at least when you were around me. Nothing could ever go wrong...
We finally arrived in the village, and I told Kaede-baba to forgive me for all I've done. Even though she seemed not to remember a thing about the fire, she still forgave me for my stubbornness. Miroku and Sango returned again, and they seemed to not remember a thing either. And like Kaede, I apologized to them and they accepted it with open arms and friendly smiles. But when I hugged Sango and smelt her, I almost jilted away from her. She was aware of my sudden move, and sighed.
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"Is it that obvious?" she asked when we went inside Kaede's hut for some tea. I was confused with the way you were twitching your ears and staring at Miroku with a stern and meticulous face. Miroku seemed irritated with his violent gaze, and so looked at him with a half-glaring face almost.
"If you're wondering if Shippou was around when this happened, then no. He was fast asleep along with Kohaku," Miroku pointed out. I had no idea what he was talking about until I looked at Sango, and noticed that she was biting her lip and meddling with her tea cup. And like any girl in this world would react, I gasped in disbelief.
"No. Way." I said, "Did you... and him...?" I asked almost whispering as I looked back and forth between the non-virgin couple. And when they nodded to my answer with rosy cheeks and shy faces, I couldn't handle but smile at them.
"I'm so happy for you two," I said kneeling in between them and touching their shoulder, "but don't be embarrassed about it. It's got to happen someday. And we both knew you loved each other." Miroku and Sango looked at each other softly. Sango reach for Miroku's hand, the one that was formerly cursed by Naraku, with love filled in her eyes. Miroku smiled and held hers and rubbed her fingers with his thumb. They then looked at me.
"Kagome-chan? Thank you for everything. I'm really grateful for you and Inuyasha both. If it weren't for you, we wouldn't be together," Miroku said, turning to you. "And um, I'm sorry for those things I've said about Kagome's departure. You were right the whole time: she did come back..."
You grinned at him and waved your hand saying "Don't worry about it, monk. It's all behind me now."
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Later on that night, everyone in the village found out about Sango and Miroku's official engagement; and so they all decided to organize a extravaganza and liven up this village from its dullness. Everyone that night was so alive, so colorful. There were firecrackers going on about, food aplenty for everyone, and little children running around playfully with dogs barking with joy trailing behind. But we just sat around and enjoyed the view. We sat on the ground and looked at the paper lamps hanged from strings around the houses.
Sango and I were given kimonos to wear that night, and from the looks that you and the monk gave us, I don't mind saying that we looked pretty dazzling, indeed. Miroku and Sango heard the music play and they both decided to dance to the beats of the drums, flutes, and people's claps.
Shippou and Kirara pulled our garments and begged us to go out there and dance. But since I knew you were bored, we went and danced. That night was yet another night that I would never forget. Our first dance... You and I circled around each other, moving our shoulders and feet to the rhythm of the music. I could feel my smile widening as I let all things good enter my lungs and make my eyes brighten with adrenaline.
You looked so happy...
And I loved that so much...
I hated you being so gloomy and melancholy. It broke my heart to pieces every time I saw you mourning ever so. Kikyou must've really hurt you so much. She twisted your mind like a string around her finger. She controlled you and made you unsure of who you were. But she doesn't matter anymore...
She's the past.
And you're my future...
The music kept going, but we didn't. We stopped and stared at each other more deeply than ever imagined. I was in your arms, and you were in my heart. I could hear you whisper loving things in my ear, and I leaned my temple in your chin.
"I love you, Inuyasha..." I whispered smiling, my heart warming with happiness as you smiled back at me, twitching your ears on purpose just to make me smile more.
"I love you too, Kagome..." You squeezed my chest towards yours, and we grinned at each other as we brought our lips closer together.
Then something happened...
I felt something come flying towards me, and I felt a sharp pain slash my arm slightly, just enough to show a deep scar through the layers on my sleeve. Everyone gasped in fear as their eyes saw an arrow land on the wall of Kaede's hut. I winced in pain as I tried my best to keep the blood from my wound from staining the borrowed kimono.
You were so scared out of your wits, as you knelt down like me and ask me repeatedly if I was all right.
"Inuyasha! Stand up and look at me, you coward!"
Everyone turned to the source of that voice, and faced a woman who was worse than death itself... You seemed unaffected by her unlike other moments, and you helped me stand up and hold me towards you, your eyes still triggered towards her...
Kikyou...
"You, girl! Get away from him! He's not yours!" she said, her eyes dark and ragingly burning with infernos of anger. I looked at her while locked in your embrace, my eyes sending her a message of refusal.
"No." And with a colder glare, I wrapped my arms around him, and proudly said "I decline." Everyone gasped as they saw her grab an arrow and point it towards me.
"How dare you say that to me... Inuyasha is not yours. He's mine. Mine, I tell you! He's going to claim me, and I won't let a wench like you take him away from me. I saw him first! I have every right to have him!"
"I don't love you, Kikyou..." Her eyes looked at yours, and she shook her head in disbelief. "I love Kagome..." he said this and embraced me even closer. "And there's nothing you can do to change that..."
"No..." she panted, "no... NO! I refuse to believe such lies! You're LYING! She will DIE!"
And with a tight shut of her eyes, she let the arrow fly.
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