"Daddy"
Lyrics by Jewel Kilcher
It had been 6 months after the whole cutting incident. Ellie was okay. Her father had returned. Ellie was realizing more about herself. It wasn't just Paige. It was all girls. Ellie was ready to tell her parents. "Daddy, Mom. I have to tell you something. I'm gay." Ellie said softly. In reply, a hard slap across her face.
My bones are tired, daddy. I don't get enough sleep. I don't eat as good as I could, daddy. What's that say about me?
Ellie was sent to her room without another word. Her father came in a couple of hours later. "You fucking whore! We didn't raise you to be a lezbo! We raised you straight! I'd advise you to straighten the hell up before I have to do something about it," he grabbed her by the collar. "You understand me?" Ellie clenched her jaw. "NO! I can't help it!" Her father slammed her up against the wall. "Don't you fucking raise your voice at me! You'd better damn well help it!" He kicked her hard, and then off he went. Ellie slumped to the ground. She could hear her father and mother arguing. Then, she heard a loud crash.
Sometimes I sleep past noon, daddy. Drink lots of black coffee and I smoke like a chimney. Yes I left the refrigerator door half-open, daddy. What's that say about me?
Ellie ran to her mother's aide. Her father, where was he? He was drunk - he had to be. There lay her mother. 'No,' thought Ellie. 'It can't be'. Her mother was dead. Ellie didn't get any sleep that night. In the morning, her father told her to go to school. Ellie obeyed, putting on a long-sleeved shirt and jeans to hide the bruises, and makeup to try and cover up the marks on her face. At school, Paige went up to Ellie. "Ellie, I heard about your mother. I know, it's probably very hard for you, but what happened?" Paige asked sincerely. "My dad happened," Ellie replied through clenched teeth. "He was drunk, he was angry, and he pushed my mom," under her breath Ellie said, "Bastard." Paige looked at Ellie, and Ellie continued. "She busted her head open." Paige took Ellie into her arms and stroked her hair. "El, I'm here for you." Ellie pulled away, and she nodded. "I told him and my mother last night. He-he hurt me."
Sometimes I wanna rip out your throat, daddy. For all those things you said that were mean. Gonna make you just as vulnerable as I was, daddy. What's that say about me?
Paige looked at Ellie. "Hurt you? How?" Ellie swallowed. "He hit me, and kicked me." Craig walked over to Paige and Ellie. "Is there a problem, ladies?" as Craig gazed at Ellie, he felt a huge wave of compassion. "El," he laid a hand on her shoulder. "I overheard you talking. I wasn't snooping, I swear." Ellie looked like she was going to cry. Craig went on, tightening his grip on Ellie's shoulder. His voice lowered considerably. "My dad beat me, before he died. He died in a car accident, when we got into a fight." Craig closed his eyes. Old memories, images, came flooding back to him. Crack. The slaps on his face, all the tears. Ellie nodded. "Craig," she began. "He killed my mother, and I'm so afraid next time it'll be me!"
Sometimes I wanna bash in your teeth, daddy. Gonna use your tongue as a stamp. Gonna rip your heart out the way you did mine, daddy.
Paige slowly drifted away. It was better for Ellie to talk to someone who understood. Craig was listening to Ellie, intently nodding. Nearby, Manny was watching Craig with intensity. Was Ellie trying to steal Craig away from her? Suddenly, Manny walked over to Craig and Ellie. She looked at Ellie. "What are you doing?" Manny asked angrily. Ellie was confused. "Talking to Craig." Ellie replied. Ellie looked at Manny, carefully checking her out. Man, this girl was hot! Ellie smiled softly. Manny smiled back, but it wasn't a friendly smile. Craig stepped in. "Chill, Manny. It's just El." Craig said. Manny twisted her head around in contemplation. "Exactly," Manny exclaimed. "You want her." Craig cocked an eyebrow. Manny doesn't even know! Craig was cracking up inside. "Oh yea, you know it." Craig answered, trying not to laugh. Manny grabbed Ellie's arm. "Ouch," Ellie complained. "Let go. I don't want Craig." Ellie was eyeing Manny desperately. She didn't want Craig, she wanted Manny. Manny let go. "Sorry." Manny said simply. Ellie looked at Manny, wanting in her eyes. Manny might have saw the flicker of passion, because Ellie launched into explanation. "Manny, the reason I don't want Craig is because I'm gay. Yes, I'm a lesbian. I don't want him. You're pretty hot though." Ellie said, grinning. Manny backed away slowly. Her face twisted into confusion. Craig was thinking about his dad. What if he wasn't dead?
Go ahead and psycho-analyze that cause I'm your creation, I'm your love, daddy. Grew up to be and do all those sick things you said I'd do.
Ellie smiled again. "I'm sorry, Manny." She apologized. Manny nodded, walking away. Ellie couldn't help but laugh. The look on Manny's face was priceless. She had never seen Manny's face turn that shade of red. It was so cute! Craig grinned back at Ellie. "Now that was just funny. Anyway, on with this thing we were talking about. You seriously need to get some help." Ellie understood. "Yes, definitely. Well, lunch is almost over. I'm going to go to the bathroom and stuff, I'll see you later. Okay, Craig? Thank you so much for talking with me." "No problem." Craig replied. Ellie headed into the girls bathroom. There was a surprise waiting for her in there, and not a good one. She could feel it when she saw the girls staring at her with an expression of hatred. One of the girls, a more tough looking one, seized Ellie and heaved her out of the bathroom. They threw her into the boys bathroom, a combination of efforts by the 5 girls. In the boys bathroom, the boys were grinning with anticipation. One of them slammed her upon the floor and climbed on top of her.
Well last night I saw you sneak out your window with your white hood, daddy. What's that say about you? I'm sloppy, what's that say about you? I'm messy, what's that say about you? My bones are tired, daddy.
Ellie didn't know what was going on. The boy was smiling evilly, and Ellie was frantic. "Say goodbye to your virginity," they taunted. "This boy's gonna sex you." The boy sitting on her tore off her shirt, and pressed his lips against hers forcibly. The other boys just watched while the main boy raped her. She didn't even know the boy's name. But she would. Soon.
Lyrics by Jewel Kilcher
It had been 6 months after the whole cutting incident. Ellie was okay. Her father had returned. Ellie was realizing more about herself. It wasn't just Paige. It was all girls. Ellie was ready to tell her parents. "Daddy, Mom. I have to tell you something. I'm gay." Ellie said softly. In reply, a hard slap across her face.
My bones are tired, daddy. I don't get enough sleep. I don't eat as good as I could, daddy. What's that say about me?
Ellie was sent to her room without another word. Her father came in a couple of hours later. "You fucking whore! We didn't raise you to be a lezbo! We raised you straight! I'd advise you to straighten the hell up before I have to do something about it," he grabbed her by the collar. "You understand me?" Ellie clenched her jaw. "NO! I can't help it!" Her father slammed her up against the wall. "Don't you fucking raise your voice at me! You'd better damn well help it!" He kicked her hard, and then off he went. Ellie slumped to the ground. She could hear her father and mother arguing. Then, she heard a loud crash.
Sometimes I sleep past noon, daddy. Drink lots of black coffee and I smoke like a chimney. Yes I left the refrigerator door half-open, daddy. What's that say about me?
Ellie ran to her mother's aide. Her father, where was he? He was drunk - he had to be. There lay her mother. 'No,' thought Ellie. 'It can't be'. Her mother was dead. Ellie didn't get any sleep that night. In the morning, her father told her to go to school. Ellie obeyed, putting on a long-sleeved shirt and jeans to hide the bruises, and makeup to try and cover up the marks on her face. At school, Paige went up to Ellie. "Ellie, I heard about your mother. I know, it's probably very hard for you, but what happened?" Paige asked sincerely. "My dad happened," Ellie replied through clenched teeth. "He was drunk, he was angry, and he pushed my mom," under her breath Ellie said, "Bastard." Paige looked at Ellie, and Ellie continued. "She busted her head open." Paige took Ellie into her arms and stroked her hair. "El, I'm here for you." Ellie pulled away, and she nodded. "I told him and my mother last night. He-he hurt me."
Sometimes I wanna rip out your throat, daddy. For all those things you said that were mean. Gonna make you just as vulnerable as I was, daddy. What's that say about me?
Paige looked at Ellie. "Hurt you? How?" Ellie swallowed. "He hit me, and kicked me." Craig walked over to Paige and Ellie. "Is there a problem, ladies?" as Craig gazed at Ellie, he felt a huge wave of compassion. "El," he laid a hand on her shoulder. "I overheard you talking. I wasn't snooping, I swear." Ellie looked like she was going to cry. Craig went on, tightening his grip on Ellie's shoulder. His voice lowered considerably. "My dad beat me, before he died. He died in a car accident, when we got into a fight." Craig closed his eyes. Old memories, images, came flooding back to him. Crack. The slaps on his face, all the tears. Ellie nodded. "Craig," she began. "He killed my mother, and I'm so afraid next time it'll be me!"
Sometimes I wanna bash in your teeth, daddy. Gonna use your tongue as a stamp. Gonna rip your heart out the way you did mine, daddy.
Paige slowly drifted away. It was better for Ellie to talk to someone who understood. Craig was listening to Ellie, intently nodding. Nearby, Manny was watching Craig with intensity. Was Ellie trying to steal Craig away from her? Suddenly, Manny walked over to Craig and Ellie. She looked at Ellie. "What are you doing?" Manny asked angrily. Ellie was confused. "Talking to Craig." Ellie replied. Ellie looked at Manny, carefully checking her out. Man, this girl was hot! Ellie smiled softly. Manny smiled back, but it wasn't a friendly smile. Craig stepped in. "Chill, Manny. It's just El." Craig said. Manny twisted her head around in contemplation. "Exactly," Manny exclaimed. "You want her." Craig cocked an eyebrow. Manny doesn't even know! Craig was cracking up inside. "Oh yea, you know it." Craig answered, trying not to laugh. Manny grabbed Ellie's arm. "Ouch," Ellie complained. "Let go. I don't want Craig." Ellie was eyeing Manny desperately. She didn't want Craig, she wanted Manny. Manny let go. "Sorry." Manny said simply. Ellie looked at Manny, wanting in her eyes. Manny might have saw the flicker of passion, because Ellie launched into explanation. "Manny, the reason I don't want Craig is because I'm gay. Yes, I'm a lesbian. I don't want him. You're pretty hot though." Ellie said, grinning. Manny backed away slowly. Her face twisted into confusion. Craig was thinking about his dad. What if he wasn't dead?
Go ahead and psycho-analyze that cause I'm your creation, I'm your love, daddy. Grew up to be and do all those sick things you said I'd do.
Ellie smiled again. "I'm sorry, Manny." She apologized. Manny nodded, walking away. Ellie couldn't help but laugh. The look on Manny's face was priceless. She had never seen Manny's face turn that shade of red. It was so cute! Craig grinned back at Ellie. "Now that was just funny. Anyway, on with this thing we were talking about. You seriously need to get some help." Ellie understood. "Yes, definitely. Well, lunch is almost over. I'm going to go to the bathroom and stuff, I'll see you later. Okay, Craig? Thank you so much for talking with me." "No problem." Craig replied. Ellie headed into the girls bathroom. There was a surprise waiting for her in there, and not a good one. She could feel it when she saw the girls staring at her with an expression of hatred. One of the girls, a more tough looking one, seized Ellie and heaved her out of the bathroom. They threw her into the boys bathroom, a combination of efforts by the 5 girls. In the boys bathroom, the boys were grinning with anticipation. One of them slammed her upon the floor and climbed on top of her.
Well last night I saw you sneak out your window with your white hood, daddy. What's that say about you? I'm sloppy, what's that say about you? I'm messy, what's that say about you? My bones are tired, daddy.
Ellie didn't know what was going on. The boy was smiling evilly, and Ellie was frantic. "Say goodbye to your virginity," they taunted. "This boy's gonna sex you." The boy sitting on her tore off her shirt, and pressed his lips against hers forcibly. The other boys just watched while the main boy raped her. She didn't even know the boy's name. But she would. Soon.