Phobia
Oxygen's Gone- Die Trying
My Oxygen's Gone Away
Closer is closure
So, take this out of me
Take anything you want
I'll still breathe, I'll still breathe
And Its Fading thinner but still it's haunting me
Can't find the words to say to the angels
That took you from me
Three words, Three words
My Oxygen's gone
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
Choking from knowing the love you've given me
It's hard to believe what I see is no dream; It's no dream
I'm drinking and sinking, still it's haunting me
I medicate my fears with more beers and more tears
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
Chapter 19: One wish
You took my hand.
Your warm fingers drawing hearts on my smooth skin.
So soft . . .
So warm . . .
But that warmth is no more, the skin, isn't soft. It's decayed and crumpled off.
But, you're still here in my dreams.
We frolic in the sand until we stumble into each other arms and roll into the water.
Swim under the cold blue and emerge from the cold and in the warm night air.
Our lips meet in a frenzied push, our hands never leaving one another as we stare into each other's dark eyes, into our soul. And I know that our love is beyond anything anyone can ever take away. Nothing can stop our love . . . nothing . . . not even death!
Then you'd whisper, "I love you . . ." in my ear, your warm breath sending shivers down my spine as your hand leaves mind and it reaches forward, and you trail it down my face, from my eyes to the side of my jaw. "Don't cry . . ."
I hadn't even realized I was crying. Then I'd pull you into a tight embrace crying into your water-drenched shirt. "Shh, it's alright Vegeta . . ." You cooed softly as I was wracked with sobs. Your fingers racked through my flame shaped hair that was now across my shoulders.
"Kakkarot- I miss you so much." I cried, your shirt half muffled it.
"I know . . ." You replied and a heavy sigh followed it.
"I can wish you back soon."
I felt you nod. You know. "I've been waiting . . ."
"So have I, so have I."
"Vegeta . . ."
"Yes?"
"How have you been . . .?"
You still held me tightly. "I've been fine. Kura is growing up quickly. She'll be very strong. I estimate she'll be a super Sayian soon."
"I miss her too . . ."
"You've barely saw her before you died. I'm sorry that I-"
"Don't be. I wouldn't be able to come back if you hadn't eased my pain . . ."
I frowned. "But- Videl- I could have used the dragonballs to heal you."
"Vegeta . . . no matter what you did I would still love you. And I do. I'm coming back, that's all that matters to me . . ."
My eyelids slid shut. "Kakkarot?"
"Mm . . ."
"Will you marry me?"
"I already said yes . . ."
"No . . . so we'll really be married. We'll have a ceremony and everything."
"That would be nice, everyone would be there . . ."
"I'm tired."
"I know you are . . ."
"Sing me to sleep."
"You're already asleep . . ."
I looked up to meet your eyes. A bright flame still burned in them. You seemed so real . . . so real . . . and I wish you were, but you're dead and I have to wait . . .
TODAY! YES!! Today we would go and wish you back! You and the others! A smile drew across my face. "Oh Kakkarot, you will be here with me soon!!" You smiled back at me.
"I know . . ."
"I love you and I will see you soon."
A warm smile crept onto your lips, lips that I long to kiss.
"I know . . . and I'm just as nervous as you . . ."
"Nervous?" My eyebrows knitted together, bundling skin at the center.
"Yeah . . . I haven't seen Kura . . . I hope she likes me . . ."
"She'll love you. I know it!!" Your lips pressed against my forehead.
"Thank you Vegeta." My eyes slid shut again and this time they remained shut.
~ ~ ~
"Trunks, Goten. Get the dragonballs. I'm going to get Kura." I commanded as I headed up the stairs.
"Okay!" I heard them say back in unison.
"Kura." I peered into the room. She was sitting on the ground playing with one of her teddy bears. I smiled and moved closer.
"Dadda." She whipped around and faced me, a cheerful grin on her face. Oh Kami she is so much like Kakkarot . . . The black hair, big innocent eyes, thick bangs, strong, and has gentle heart.
"It's time to go."
"I get to see my Momma?" She stood up her eyes lit up at the thought. I nodded.
"Yes you do!" My inside quaked; I've waited for this day for so long . . .
She waddled after me as I exited the room. I'm thankful Sayians grow up quickly.
We all took off to Capsule Corp, where the others were waiting.
"Weeee, this is FUN!!" Kura squealed as I held her tightly against my chest.
I chuckled. "Soon you'll be able to do this by yourself!"
Goten and Trunks chatted quietly next to us. I knew Goten was very happy; he would be able to see his father again. Trunks was just glad Kakkarot was back.
We touched down on the front lawn to see the others. Smiles planted on their faces.
"Hello, Bulma." I nodded at her.
"Hey! We're glad you made it."
"I wouldn't miss it for the world!" Vegeta smiled as the boys handed Bulma the dragonballs.
"Is everyone ready?"
"Go ahead Bulma!" Yamcha shouted.
"Dragon! Come and grant our wishes!" She shouted as the dragonballs glowed. The sky instantly darkened, bring a haze over the Z warriors. Kura's face lit up as she saw a huge dragon appear in the sky, it hovered over them.
"You have awakened me. What is your wish?"
There was silence for a moment. Kura tugged on her father's pant leg. "Bring back mommy!"
"Dragon! Bring back everyone Videl Satan killed!"
The dragon's eyes glowed. The young female Sayian's stared in awe, her fingers still tightly clinging to her father's clothes. Goten and Trunks hugged each other while the others smiled. Vegeta's heart seemed to stall as he awaited the answer from the great dragon.
"It has been done. They will be transported here. Until next year." With that the dragon faded and the sky turned back to a pale blue. Kura searched the area and saw nothing had changed.
"Where's my mommy?" She asked franticly.
"I'm asking the same question." He scanned the distance. He felt a pang of nervousness weld up in his chest. What if- what if it didn't work? He shook his head clear of such ideas. But where could Krillian, Eighteen, Marron, Oolong, and Goku be?
"Where is everyone?" Master Roshi inquired.
Tien shrugged. "They should be here by now." Chaoitzu sighed heavily in worry.
Hercule frowned. "May-maybe they didn't want to come back?" Bulma shot a glare at him. He didn't open his mouth again. Piccolo crossed his arms over his chest as he scanned the horizon; he smirked as he felt a ki.
"Vegeta."
His heart melted as he heard the soft words. Kura turned as quickly as her father had.
"MOMMY!!!" She shouted and jumped forward onto Goku.
He grunted lowly and he reached down and picked her up. He held her close to his chest. "I've missed you so much Kura." He said lowly and pressed his lips to the tan skin of her forehead. He cradled her in his arms for a moment as the others stood in silence.
"Hey Guys!!" The group turned to see Krillian, Eighteen, Marron, and Oolong walking towards them, grins on their faces.
"Krillian!" Yamcha hugged his good friend. Trunks hugged Marron and then Goten did. Oolong hugged Chaoitzu.
Gohan stepped next to his father. Goku turned and smiled warmly at his eldest son. He set Kura down and wrapped his arms around him. "I've missed you son!"
"I've glad you're back." As soon as they released one another, Goten was there, squeezing the breath out of Goku.
"I'm so happy you're back dad! I missed you so much!!" Goku hugged his son back tightly.
"Same here." Trunks smiled at Goku and gave a nod. Goten let go and went back to his best friend.
"Kakkarot." Goku turned to the man he loved. Their eyes met and never left one anther as they embraced each other. Vegeta cried. Not tears of sadness but pure joy! "I love you."
"I love you too Vegeta." Goku kissed his lips to Vegeta's flower scented hair. "I've missed you."
Vegeta nodded. "I've missed you too." He smiled and floated upwards a tiny bit until his lips were next to Goku's ear. "Marry me."
To
Be
Continued . . .
Agent 182: BUHAHAHA!!! I ended it here. One more chapter!! Just one. Then it's all over! * Sobs * oh well! I hope you enjoyed it and reviews would be much appreciated! ^_^
Oxygen's Gone- Die Trying
My Oxygen's Gone Away
Closer is closure
So, take this out of me
Take anything you want
I'll still breathe, I'll still breathe
And Its Fading thinner but still it's haunting me
Can't find the words to say to the angels
That took you from me
Three words, Three words
My Oxygen's gone
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
Choking from knowing the love you've given me
It's hard to believe what I see is no dream; It's no dream
I'm drinking and sinking, still it's haunting me
I medicate my fears with more beers and more tears
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
I can't sleep, I can't eat
I cry out to God just to hear me
It's another day still the same with all my pain
Not yet, not yet break me from these visions
Not yet, not yet it's too soon for you
Chapter 19: One wish
You took my hand.
Your warm fingers drawing hearts on my smooth skin.
So soft . . .
So warm . . .
But that warmth is no more, the skin, isn't soft. It's decayed and crumpled off.
But, you're still here in my dreams.
We frolic in the sand until we stumble into each other arms and roll into the water.
Swim under the cold blue and emerge from the cold and in the warm night air.
Our lips meet in a frenzied push, our hands never leaving one another as we stare into each other's dark eyes, into our soul. And I know that our love is beyond anything anyone can ever take away. Nothing can stop our love . . . nothing . . . not even death!
Then you'd whisper, "I love you . . ." in my ear, your warm breath sending shivers down my spine as your hand leaves mind and it reaches forward, and you trail it down my face, from my eyes to the side of my jaw. "Don't cry . . ."
I hadn't even realized I was crying. Then I'd pull you into a tight embrace crying into your water-drenched shirt. "Shh, it's alright Vegeta . . ." You cooed softly as I was wracked with sobs. Your fingers racked through my flame shaped hair that was now across my shoulders.
"Kakkarot- I miss you so much." I cried, your shirt half muffled it.
"I know . . ." You replied and a heavy sigh followed it.
"I can wish you back soon."
I felt you nod. You know. "I've been waiting . . ."
"So have I, so have I."
"Vegeta . . ."
"Yes?"
"How have you been . . .?"
You still held me tightly. "I've been fine. Kura is growing up quickly. She'll be very strong. I estimate she'll be a super Sayian soon."
"I miss her too . . ."
"You've barely saw her before you died. I'm sorry that I-"
"Don't be. I wouldn't be able to come back if you hadn't eased my pain . . ."
I frowned. "But- Videl- I could have used the dragonballs to heal you."
"Vegeta . . . no matter what you did I would still love you. And I do. I'm coming back, that's all that matters to me . . ."
My eyelids slid shut. "Kakkarot?"
"Mm . . ."
"Will you marry me?"
"I already said yes . . ."
"No . . . so we'll really be married. We'll have a ceremony and everything."
"That would be nice, everyone would be there . . ."
"I'm tired."
"I know you are . . ."
"Sing me to sleep."
"You're already asleep . . ."
I looked up to meet your eyes. A bright flame still burned in them. You seemed so real . . . so real . . . and I wish you were, but you're dead and I have to wait . . .
TODAY! YES!! Today we would go and wish you back! You and the others! A smile drew across my face. "Oh Kakkarot, you will be here with me soon!!" You smiled back at me.
"I know . . ."
"I love you and I will see you soon."
A warm smile crept onto your lips, lips that I long to kiss.
"I know . . . and I'm just as nervous as you . . ."
"Nervous?" My eyebrows knitted together, bundling skin at the center.
"Yeah . . . I haven't seen Kura . . . I hope she likes me . . ."
"She'll love you. I know it!!" Your lips pressed against my forehead.
"Thank you Vegeta." My eyes slid shut again and this time they remained shut.
~ ~ ~
"Trunks, Goten. Get the dragonballs. I'm going to get Kura." I commanded as I headed up the stairs.
"Okay!" I heard them say back in unison.
"Kura." I peered into the room. She was sitting on the ground playing with one of her teddy bears. I smiled and moved closer.
"Dadda." She whipped around and faced me, a cheerful grin on her face. Oh Kami she is so much like Kakkarot . . . The black hair, big innocent eyes, thick bangs, strong, and has gentle heart.
"It's time to go."
"I get to see my Momma?" She stood up her eyes lit up at the thought. I nodded.
"Yes you do!" My inside quaked; I've waited for this day for so long . . .
She waddled after me as I exited the room. I'm thankful Sayians grow up quickly.
We all took off to Capsule Corp, where the others were waiting.
"Weeee, this is FUN!!" Kura squealed as I held her tightly against my chest.
I chuckled. "Soon you'll be able to do this by yourself!"
Goten and Trunks chatted quietly next to us. I knew Goten was very happy; he would be able to see his father again. Trunks was just glad Kakkarot was back.
We touched down on the front lawn to see the others. Smiles planted on their faces.
"Hello, Bulma." I nodded at her.
"Hey! We're glad you made it."
"I wouldn't miss it for the world!" Vegeta smiled as the boys handed Bulma the dragonballs.
"Is everyone ready?"
"Go ahead Bulma!" Yamcha shouted.
"Dragon! Come and grant our wishes!" She shouted as the dragonballs glowed. The sky instantly darkened, bring a haze over the Z warriors. Kura's face lit up as she saw a huge dragon appear in the sky, it hovered over them.
"You have awakened me. What is your wish?"
There was silence for a moment. Kura tugged on her father's pant leg. "Bring back mommy!"
"Dragon! Bring back everyone Videl Satan killed!"
The dragon's eyes glowed. The young female Sayian's stared in awe, her fingers still tightly clinging to her father's clothes. Goten and Trunks hugged each other while the others smiled. Vegeta's heart seemed to stall as he awaited the answer from the great dragon.
"It has been done. They will be transported here. Until next year." With that the dragon faded and the sky turned back to a pale blue. Kura searched the area and saw nothing had changed.
"Where's my mommy?" She asked franticly.
"I'm asking the same question." He scanned the distance. He felt a pang of nervousness weld up in his chest. What if- what if it didn't work? He shook his head clear of such ideas. But where could Krillian, Eighteen, Marron, Oolong, and Goku be?
"Where is everyone?" Master Roshi inquired.
Tien shrugged. "They should be here by now." Chaoitzu sighed heavily in worry.
Hercule frowned. "May-maybe they didn't want to come back?" Bulma shot a glare at him. He didn't open his mouth again. Piccolo crossed his arms over his chest as he scanned the horizon; he smirked as he felt a ki.
"Vegeta."
His heart melted as he heard the soft words. Kura turned as quickly as her father had.
"MOMMY!!!" She shouted and jumped forward onto Goku.
He grunted lowly and he reached down and picked her up. He held her close to his chest. "I've missed you so much Kura." He said lowly and pressed his lips to the tan skin of her forehead. He cradled her in his arms for a moment as the others stood in silence.
"Hey Guys!!" The group turned to see Krillian, Eighteen, Marron, and Oolong walking towards them, grins on their faces.
"Krillian!" Yamcha hugged his good friend. Trunks hugged Marron and then Goten did. Oolong hugged Chaoitzu.
Gohan stepped next to his father. Goku turned and smiled warmly at his eldest son. He set Kura down and wrapped his arms around him. "I've missed you son!"
"I've glad you're back." As soon as they released one another, Goten was there, squeezing the breath out of Goku.
"I'm so happy you're back dad! I missed you so much!!" Goku hugged his son back tightly.
"Same here." Trunks smiled at Goku and gave a nod. Goten let go and went back to his best friend.
"Kakkarot." Goku turned to the man he loved. Their eyes met and never left one anther as they embraced each other. Vegeta cried. Not tears of sadness but pure joy! "I love you."
"I love you too Vegeta." Goku kissed his lips to Vegeta's flower scented hair. "I've missed you."
Vegeta nodded. "I've missed you too." He smiled and floated upwards a tiny bit until his lips were next to Goku's ear. "Marry me."
To
Be
Continued . . .
Agent 182: BUHAHAHA!!! I ended it here. One more chapter!! Just one. Then it's all over! * Sobs * oh well! I hope you enjoyed it and reviews would be much appreciated! ^_^