The Who - Behind Blue Eyes
A Song-Fic
Sirius Black's POV
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind brown eyes
They don't know how hard it is, and they never will. None of them are hunted by people they were once friendly with, none of them have to deal with what I do.
No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies
My life is a lie, all a lie…
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I still dream about it, oh…And it hurts so bad, to see their faces, so trusting, then so dead…
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
I will kill him, kill him, for making my life the dismal abyss it is now. Vengeance…
No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you
You're sitting up so high, and only you know the truth, and yet what did you do to save me? Nothing. You doomed me to these long years, to these years of lies. I hate you.
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through
But I can't accuse you, even though you know the truth. It's still part my fault, but you never came to save me…Why?
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I still dream about it, oh…And it hurts so bad, to see their faces, so trusting, then so dead…
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free
I will kill him, kill him, for making my life the dismal abyss it is now. Vengeance…
When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool
I laughed, because I knew the truth. They thought I laughed because of the deaths I caused…I hate death, and they were my brother, my sister, and they say I killed them. And where were you, when they through me into that place? Sitting so high, sitting so high…
And if I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
And if I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat
But you wouldn't give me anything, not even the benefit of the doubt, not even a trial. Maybe it wasn't all your fault, but I never saw you try to convince them to release me, even though you knew the truth…I hate you.
No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind brown eyes
They don't know how hard it is, and they never will. None of them are hunted by people they were once friendly with, none of them have to deal with what I do. And you never helped me…Never…I hate you.
This is told from Sirius Black's POV, while he is running from the dementors. He is talking about Lily and James's death, and the man he hates is…Drum roll, please…Albus Dumbledore. Yup, Dumbledore.
PS- The song is Behind Blue Eyes, but I changed the color to fit Sirius's eye color.